*shadow walks right in front of him* tut tut, that was a bad choice and to think i was going to let you live *takes out kukri and cuts off his hands and feet*
I think I purposefully get frustrated over thinks like this so I can use my frustration as an excuse not to do it, but DAMMIT I STILL DON'T KNOW /HOW/ TO DO IT
And of course if I google it it'll just tell me how to rearrange formulas, beacuse NO ONE EXCEPTS PEOPLE NOT TO BE ABLE TO FIGURE OUT THINGS LIKE 1-X(SQUARED)
(apparently, im selfless, caring and comforting. I am about my friends and the ultimate importance in my life is happiness. and apparently im super adorable)
Don't know why I'm saying hi, since I'm clearly not fucking wanted by Zaf and clearly not wanted by the rest of you, given the fact that only 1 person stood up for me against her.
@Em: *hugs* I'm sorry. I can be a bit pathetic at times. I'm not going to say that more than once, because I'm not trying to get you to tell me all that I'm not. It's just the truth, and it needed stating. You're correct in what you're doing. I don't know either Rose nor you particularly well, but good luck with persuading her. And she is coming on less, as far as I'm aware.
Em, you know, you can't make Rose do anything; she clearly understands that staying will hurt her, and she is more than willing to take upon that burden, it seems. It isn't your responsibility to control those two.
*That is, from what I understand from what you're saying- I have no idea what's going on*
Listen to me, Em. You aren't responsible for anyone but yourself, and Ciaran. Clearly, no one else stood up for you, so you shouldn't have to break your back for them. Please, if it will make you happier, focus on your own happiness.
I'm sorry, okay?! I had my laptop taken off me yesterday, which meant that all my work and projects are on that. Yesterday I could t do anything. So I was on here.
Blogland is like a drug.
I can't get enough of it. It is working more as anti-depressants than anything else I've tried.
I'm sorry.
So, to make everyone happy, I'm leaving and probably not going to respond to any emails for a while.
(No one in their right mind would blame you, Emerald. It is simply Zafira's way of manipulating others into feeling sorry for her and trying to make others hate you. But isn't working. Not by a long shot.)
*is trying to work out whether I actually don't get this or if I'm just convincing myself I don't* *I mean, of course I don't get it, but could I get it if I tried hard enough?* * . . . and apparently I'm typing here to procrastinate -_-*
@Inky: No. I don't think I can. I think I need to go to further maths tomorrow and have Sir actually teach me instead of expecting me to automatically know it via idk telepathy or something. XD
*nods* thank you *punches Cole* that was for trying to kill Garrett *forms wings of pure shadow and flies away in the direction Inks said the van went*
*the van pulls up outside a warehouse and the five thugs jump out* thug 1: bring the girl to the boss. thug 2: right oh *grabs taw and carries her inside*
Thugs: *puts Taw down* ok boss *all walk out and bring the stolen stuff inside* *lands outside motorcycle club house and starts burning it down using black fire*
*turns around* well hello there, you're just in time to watch me kill this man *picks up the boss of the gang* how am i going to kill you? (Inks do you want to do the biker boss?)
I know, you all are. I've found the serum to be patchy on those who weren't.
But, you've suffered so much angst and sadness as a result of your lycanthropy, and one day I suddenly realised, that that didn't have to happen, that I could take it away.
Basically Zaf was trying to blame me for her apparent suicide the other night.
I got really angry over it, still kinda am.
But there is no point harping on about it any more because this blog needs to heal and I want to be apart of that healing process, not for everyone to be apart of some new war that was created from nothing.
Bit late, look around all these dead people i killed them all *picks up a car using magic and throws it out of the way* now if you need me I'll be looking for the van that took Taw.
Well, it's just that... I just don't know. I like you, and I like everyone here. I like the new guy (hey, Gar!) and I like Zafira. I don't want a "war" either, I just want everybody to be happy.
Perhaps you're right, Trip. But I don't judge her on what she's done before. I don't know what she's done before. I only see who she is now. I try not to pick sides. But sometimes I have to.
(What did she do, Trip? Don't tell me if I'm better off not knowing.)
You know in Merlin? You know when Gwen cheated on Arthur the night before their wedding and Arthur banished Gwen? Merlin asked Aruthr if he thoguht he would ever bring himself to forgive her, and Arthur said that forgiveness wasn't the issue. He said he was sure that, in time, he would forgive her. But he'd never be able to TRUST her, and he couldn't marry her without trusting her. I could go on a beautiful rant now relating to the Mistborn trilogy and trust, but that's not my point. My point is, whether I forgive Zaf or not (and I'd only forgive her on the grounds that it's not her fault she has mental issues), I can't trust her to be a decent human being. *shrugs* That's the facts of it.
@Tia: I get you. But I keep almost forgiving Zaf, because that's my nature. And I think "Well, maybe -" I just expect her to act logically, and then she does something again, and I'm back to square one.
:/
If she ever gives me proof that she is a rational human being, I'll be able to forgive her, even be her best friend if she wants me to be, but the fact of it is that she's never not disappointed me. I'm not saying she'll never ever not disappoint me, but until she doesn't, I'll act like she's disappointing me, because she is.
I don't normally talk about this stuff on this place . . . it feels a bit like I'm opening my heart and soul out. O_O
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*shadow walks right in front of him* tut tut, that was a bad choice and to think i was going to let you live *takes out kukri and cuts off his hands and feet*
(Sloth?)
Of course
admittedly
feeling slightly calmer about my frustration DOESN'T MAKE THE SOURCE OF AFOREMENTIONED FRUSTRATION GO AWAY
-_-
*repeats Ed's question* Sloth?
Yes, do you want to go tell Cole?
(being lazy, basically)
Bartender: *screams*
*steps from the shadows*
I know, but that's because I was there.
*the ring is burning a hole in his pocket*
*nods* he will be delighted *smiles* shall we find him and felix?
@Inky: :P
That's probably mine.
I think I purposefully get frustrated over thinks like this so I can use my frustration as an excuse not to do it, but DAMMIT I STILL DON'T KNOW /HOW/ TO DO IT
(Hewwo Trip ^^ How art thou?)
(Hello Trip)
Trip? You were there?
Yes, I am sure they will want to hear. Do you know where they are
And of course if I google it it'll just tell me how to rearrange formulas, beacuse NO ONE EXCEPTS PEOPLE NOT TO BE ABLE TO FIGURE OUT THINGS LIKE 1-X(SQUARED)
*EXPECTS
Ill ring them *rings them both*
Hey guys...can you come down the bar please?
*felix and Cole arrive*
COle: Hey
Felix: Yo, wassup
*turns to Ed* want to tell them?
(my spirit animal is a puppy)
*walks away from the screaming man and picks up his dagger* this is very nice *throws it at him sideways and decapitates him*
(apparently, im selfless, caring and comforting. I am about my friends and the ultimate importance in my life is happiness. and apparently im super adorable)
*smiles* no, you can tell them if you want *grins*
Bartebder: *falls dead*
Oh yeah, spying. You know the drill.
*the ring, goddammit!*
But Inky, I have something for you. *he takes out the syringe*
*giggles* okay
So guys, Me and Ed are getting married!
Cole: *lifts Inky off the floor in a hug* congrats princess!
Felix: *whispers to Ed* you realize youre throwing away your freedom, right?
*Raises eyebrow* She is all I need. As long as she is happy, I am happy
(I dedicate this page to puppies ^^)
*looks at Trip* what is it?
Hi.
Don't know why I'm saying hi, since I'm clearly not fucking wanted by Zaf and clearly not wanted by the rest of you, given the fact that only 1 person stood up for me against her.
Why do I bother with you lot sometimes, really...
*storms off, regretting even coming on.*
(Hear hear)
Felix: *smirks* Ed has gone soft
(Hello Em, you ok?)
(Hi Em...what happened?
thanks Ed)
(who told you all that Inks?)
*steps out of Felix's shadow*
*Punches Felix without Inky seeing* I have not gone soft
(I did a test)
Felix: oww man! *notices Asylius* Yo Gar
Hello Gar. Sorry Felix
You know, I would've done so, had I been there Em. I still want you here.
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It's a syringe of cure serum for lycanthropy, Inky.
*tilts head* Really Trip, where did you get that?
(I'll be back.)
(Okay Trip ^^)
(i see,
hear hear)
*looks at Felix and Ed* I'm not Garrett, I'm Asylius! Garrett's bad side, he is currently taking a break inside.
Ok Asylius. You are still Gar though right?
(thanks Gar^^)
Felix: Really? didn't know he had another side
*frowns* can we speak to Gar please?
(Emerald - One is better than no one. People are generally too nice to do much. You need to have patience with nice people.)
There's a certain bear that I hold when I feel down, and I continue to hold it until I feel better...
I've been holding it for days....
i'm sorry that she was bullying you too, Em. It was supposed to be finished with.
(Hello Adra, how are you?)
Yes i am still Gar just the really bad and murderous and unhinged side and you can't speak to him although he can hear you though.
She's lucky I don't fucking kill herself myself!!!
I'm sick of this. And all my effort is worth nothing because Rose is still coming on when she was meant to have a week to sort herself out.
But no, because once again Zaf's roleplays are more fucking important than a person's well being.
Are we all not murderous and unhinged?
(Hey Adra! How art thou?)
(Hello, Adrasdos.)
(Emerald - she is being selfish. Ignore her. What she is saying isn't worth getting upset over because it's all a load of bullshit.)
(Em, I am sorry I cant help much)
@Em: *hugs*
I'm sorry.
I can be a bit pathetic at times. I'm not going to say that more than once, because I'm not trying to get you to tell me all that I'm not. It's just the truth, and it needed stating.
You're correct in what you're doing. I don't know either Rose nor you particularly well, but good luck with persuading her.
And she is coming on less, as far as I'm aware.
Well, Asylius. Can Gar hear it when I say me and Ed are getting married?
Em, you know, you can't make Rose do anything; she clearly understands that staying will hurt her, and she is more than willing to take upon that burden, it seems. It isn't your responsibility to control those two.
I'm just sorry that it ended with fighting.
Hello!
(Hello Death and Khione)
Khi!
*Tacklehugs away from Xan*
Still mine.
(Hey Khi! How art thou?)
*That is, from what I understand from what you're saying- I have no idea what's going on*
Listen to me, Em. You aren't responsible for anyone but yourself, and Ciaran. Clearly, no one else stood up for you, so you shouldn't have to break your back for them. Please, if it will make you happier, focus on your own happiness.
It hasn't ended with a fight though Ads, that's the thing.
I was actually mailing Zaf and talking through with her some things that she's going through and thought she was feeling a bit better.
But clearly not cause then she starts threatening suicide and telling everyone to blame me for it?
If she wants me to be the bad guy, I can be the bloody bad guy no problem.
But I'm not going to because this place has had too much turmoil already and it needs to heal.
With my own wife? I think not.
*Cuddles Khi tightly and kisses her*
And with that, I'm going to take my leave. I'm going to just go before I have to read everything that will inevitably come for me.
Goodbye.
@Em: *nods* *agrees*
Don't worry. No one I know does blame you.
Fours, Candle . . . *hugs*
*hugs Adra*
And thank you Ads. You came on and immediately understood the situation. Damn I've missed you...
(Bye Adra)
I'm sorry, okay?! I had my laptop taken off me yesterday, which meant that all my work and projects are on that. Yesterday I could t do anything. So I was on here.
Blogland is like a drug.
I can't get enough of it. It is working more as anti-depressants than anything else I've tried.
I'm sorry.
So, to make everyone happy, I'm leaving and probably not going to respond to any emails for a while.
Bye.
(No one in their right mind would blame you, Emerald. It is simply Zafira's way of manipulating others into feeling sorry for her and trying to make others hate you. But isn't working. Not by a long shot.)
Garrett says congratulations to you both and he is proud of you Inks. Now have any of you seen a suspicious white van recently?
(*Puts up defensive brackets*
There. That'll work.
*Goes back to kissing Khi passionately*)
*hugs* Fours, Death. I hope you feel better soon . . .
We do care about you, and because of that, we want you to be okay. :/
(Death...)
(Bye Death)
Sorry Gar, I have not seen a van
I saw one go that way *points to opposite direction of forest*
*is trying to work out whether I actually don't get this or if I'm just convincing myself I don't*
*I mean, of course I don't get it, but could I get it if I tried hard enough?*
* . . . and apparently I'm typing here to procrastinate -_-*
(*cheers for Star* you can do it!)
(Back in 30 mins)
@Inky: No.
I don't think I can.
I think I need to go to further maths tomorrow and have Sir actually teach me instead of expecting me to automatically know it via idk telepathy or something. XD
But yeah . . .
*nods* thank you *punches Cole* that was for trying to kill Garrett *forms wings of pure shadow and flies away in the direction Inks said the van went*
Cole: *growls* basyard
*rolls her eyes at Blake and Xan* Guys, you really have to stop that. There is enough of me for everyone. ^.^
*kisses Blake back hugging him tightly*
Hey everyone.
(I am back!)
(Welcome trip!)
*the van pulls up outside a warehouse and the five thugs jump out*
thug 1: bring the girl to the boss.
thug 2: right oh *grabs taw and carries her inside*
(*steps uncertainly in like an animal in a new place, or a place they aren't meant to be* hey..)
(Is Arachne boss?)
Tawnee: get off me!
If you ever wanted me to leave Blogland... You just should have told me...
Bye.
*Fades from everyone's memories*
*frowns*
Of course we don't want you to leave . . . but if it's damaging you by being here, then we'd rather you weren't here.
That's all.
(Hello, Silente.)
(Heya Sil! How art thou?)
Good for you, Em.
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I got this, Inky, a long time ago, from a complete bastard; Lorcan's dad.
Nevertheless, I have in my hands, a way to solve a lot of your problems.
ROSE!!! *hugs her*
(Hello Trip, Hello Sil how are you both?)
(Im okay thank you...tired...a bit..words. Yeah.)
Yeah, Star is rite.
Nu uh! *Creates a shield of darkness around himself and Khi, blocking off everyone else* Mine, and mine alone.
(Rose! Don't leave... you said you'd never leave...)
(I'm fine thanks, yourself?)
Problems ? *tilts heas*
(*hugs Silente*)
(Hi Trip! *tacklehugs*
Hey Sil! *tacklehugs*)
(I'm really happy right now *winks at Chloe* )
thug 3: *punches Taw* shut up.
(*hugs Soph back* people are going to start thinking you give out hugs for free.)
(*hugs chi* hey...how are you?)
( aww Tiger :) )
Tawnee: *whinpers
Arachne: *appears* well done fellas, now bring her in
(I have said exceptional circumstances many times previously, Silente.)
(Welcomes Ed)
I'm worried about Gar, shall we find him?
Oh my god.
I'm so dumb.
Star is RIGHT.
STAR IS RIGHT.
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You seem to wrestle with your lycanthropy in a way that I've seen before. It's been in the people who I've helped before, before they all ran out.
god damn, I am still so pissed off.
I shall calm down... I shall TRY to calm down...
Do you think he is in trouble?
(its true though Inks)
(welcome back ed)
*thugs bring Taw to Arachne*
thug 1: what do you want us to do with her?
Wrestle with it Trip?
(*is tacklehugged* Hello there Saphire, how are you?)
Have you tried reading a good book? I find that a good book helps me calm down.
Yes, I do
Arachne: just leave her in here boys, I'll take care if her
(Hello! How is everyone today?)
Very well, do you have any idea where he is?
. . .
Yes, I am right. :P
Thank you, Trip. :)
*hugs* :P
*hugs Em* :/ Deep breaths . . .
*hugs Em* :)
(*huggles tia* hello
I'm great
How are you?)
Hi Tia. :)
He headed that a way *points in direction opposite woods*
(Hello Ed and Chloe!
I am stressed. Not fun.)
Thugs: *puts Taw down*
ok boss *all walk out and bring the stolen stuff inside*
*lands outside motorcycle club house and starts burning it down using black fire*
Right. *walks in opposite direction to forest*
(*offers Tia a relaxing mesage*)
(Still Soph..)
You have all these... insecurities about your condition.
Hey, Star!
*gladly accepts message/massage*
*bikers run outside*
A: *laughs* well its nice of you to join me *stops all their hearts using magic*
*follows Ed*
Arachne: now you little wench, let's get this party started *laughs like a sadist*
*pulls out a whip and starts whipping Tawnee*
Tawnee: stop! Gar! *cries*
(People hug me at their own risk, Silente.)
*tirns to trip* oh it's not a condition, I was born this way
*Ed and Inky appear next to Gar* Beats walking all that way.
(Massages Tia *)
*laughs* that's true sweetie
Em?
(*hugs Xan too* hug...
*nods at Soph* they do....a fact I promise to remember...)
*Pokes Gar*
*turns around* well hello there, you're just in time to watch me kill this man *picks up the boss of the gang* how am i going to kill you?
(Inks do you want to do the biker boss?)
(Okay)
BB: p please don't... We only did it cos she would pay us!
Gar, why kill him? If you need information, then torture him
Ed, don't give him any ideas...
Yeah Tia?? I'm here.
Inky, I am helping him
(*looks at Xan* ...what about to pee?)
*shrugs* good point, I'll keep out of this one
I know, you all are. I've found the serum to be patchy on those who weren't.
But, you've suffered so much angst and sadness as a result of your lycanthropy, and one day I suddenly realised, that that didn't have to happen, that I could take it away.
I'm going to kill this man for the fun of it, i know he is innocent but i don't care for innocence. *snaps his neck and drops him*
*hugs Xan*
I'm gonna go now guys... Cya tomorrow night.
Bb: *drops dead*
*to trip* I don't think I need it anymore...
*sighs* You need to learn Gar. You kill for fun yet it is over in seconds. You slowly kill them Gar
(*whispers* bye chi... *curls up*)
(Goodbye Chione.)
(Sil, are you ok?
(*keeps hugging Silente*)
Ed! *whines*
Em... I don't know.
What happened and how can we help?
I thought as much. Are you sure?
-----------------
(Night night Chione.)
(Bye Chione)
*turns to Inky* Yes?
*to Trip*
*smiles* thank you for the offer, but im really happy
*To Ed*
Don't give him ideas like that!
Fine. Gar, don't kill anyone
(*is apparently being hugged by two people while curled up in a ball* ...thank you..)
Basically Zaf was trying to blame me for her apparent suicide the other night.
I got really angry over it, still kinda am.
But there is no point harping on about it any more because this blog needs to heal and I want to be apart of that healing process, not for everyone to be apart of some new war that was created from nothing.
So just being you will really help Tia :)
*smiles* I love you
Bit late, look around all these dead people i killed them all *picks up a car using magic and throws it out of the way* now if you need me I'll be looking for the van that took Taw.
*smiles* and I love you
:)
Thank you, Em. :)
*hugs and nods in agreement*
Gar, we can help you
Arachne: *finishes with the whip*
Tawnee: *whimpers*
Yes, Gar. please, come back out
(You can't hug forever Xan..)
*hugs Sil to make it three*
Well, it's just that... I just don't know. I like you, and I like everyone here. I like the new guy (hey, Gar!) and I like Zafira. I don't want a "war" either, I just want everybody to be happy.
...
Aye, Em.
Very well, Inky.
If you ever change your mind, I always have some ready.
*to Trip* Thank you so much *gives him a bottle of wine*
do I get wine? *looks hopeful*
Gar asked for my help so he isn't coming out until I've found Taw, now you two stay here *walks onwards*
*smiles* yes
*gives Ed some wine*
wait Gar! *follows him*
That's because, Tia, you weren't around last summer.
I certainly liked Zaf, looked up to her even, and now, I try to.
I like to forgive and forget, and forgiving is the easy part.
But there are certain consequences of her actions that make it very hard to forget.
(*hugs Sil aswell*)
Is this that wine from before? *his eyes are actually rather excited, as he forgets the ring in his pocket*
Because that's really good!
*nods* IOt is Trip
*follows Gar*
(Hello Tia, Asylius is Garrett's bad side and he is currently rampaging through things for fun)
*looks over his shoulder* i said stay!
Perhaps you're right, Trip. But I don't judge her on what she's done before. I don't know what she's done before. I only see who she is now. I try not to pick sides. But sometimes I have to.
(What did she do, Trip? Don't tell me if I'm better off not knowing.)
No, Gar. Tawnee needs all the help she can get
(Judging people on the past means you know what to expect for the future.)
*a smile breaks across his face, and he holds it close*
Gar, I don't listen to orders *continues to follow*
*nods in empathy with Trip*
Idk . . .
You know in Merlin?
You know when Gwen cheated on Arthur the night before their wedding and Arthur banished Gwen?
Merlin asked Aruthr if he thoguht he would ever bring himself to forgive her, and Arthur said that forgiveness wasn't the issue. He said he was sure that, in time, he would forgive her. But he'd never be able to TRUST her, and he couldn't marry her without trusting her.
I could go on a beautiful rant now relating to the Mistborn trilogy and trust, but that's not my point. My point is, whether I forgive Zaf or not (and I'd only forgive her on the grounds that it's not her fault she has mental issues), I can't trust her to be a decent human being.
*shrugs*
That's the facts of it.
*follows beside Ed*
I don't really fancy going into it.
We didn't finish it all up very long ago, and it wasn't a pleasant time.
Aye, Star, that's it.
@Tia: I get you.
But I keep almost forgiving Zaf, because that's my nature. And I think "Well, maybe -"
I just expect her to act logically, and then she does something again, and I'm back to square one.
:/
If she ever gives me proof that she is a rational human being, I'll be able to forgive her, even be her best friend if she wants me to be, but the fact of it is that she's never not disappointed me. I'm not saying she'll never ever not disappoint me, but until she doesn't, I'll act like she's disappointing me, because she is.
I don't normally talk about this stuff on this place . . . it feels a bit like I'm opening my heart and soul out. O_O
Ok fine, *a car drives at Asylius so he wreathes a fist in shadows and punches it destroying the engine*
@Trip: Thanks. :)
(*is suffocating from hugs*)
(guys...remember Zaf reads back...please...)
Stop attacking things Gar. Seriously
@Silente: Yeah . . . but she's never forgiven me for yelling at her about spoilers, so y'know. I've got nothing to lose . . .
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