For fuck sake' my brother won't get out if the bath dispite being told umpteen times I'm tired and my feet hurt Dad wants me to do more work I have exams and revising and I just.. *melts down*)
For now, we are. Your casual person is too flawed to possess greater power.
However to attain something great, the process molds anyone into something different.
Be it evil or good. To become god, your flaws will have to minimize themselves. So it goes hand in hand really.
Some people want to thrive. Some people want to just get by.
And few people, very few people want to be something greater. Of course, you have to have an immeasurable amount of reasons and will to go through such a transformation. Even fewer of those who want to become such an entity, will actually succeed.
I'm the girl you've been thinking about The one thing you can't live without I'm the girl you've been waiting for I'll have you down on your knees I'll have you begging for more You probably thought I wouldn't get this far You thought I'd end up in the back of a car You probably thought that I'd never escape I'd be a rat in a cage, I'd be a slave to this place You don't know how hard I fought to survive, Waking up alone when I was left to die You don't know about this life I've lived, All these roads I've walked All these tears I've bled So how can this be? You're praying to me There's a look in your eyes, I know just what that means I can be, I can be your everything
I can be your whore! I am the dirt you created I am your sinner I am your whore But let me tell you something baby You love me for everything you hate me for
I'm the one that you need and fear Now that you're hooked, it's all becoming clear That all your judgments that you placed on me Was a reflection of discovery So maybe next time when you cast your stones From the shadows of the dark unknown You will crawl up from your hiding place Take a look in the mirror See the truth in your face
So how can this be? You're praying to me There's a look in your eyes, I know just what that means I can be, I can be your everything
I can be your whore! I am the dirt you created I am your sinner I am your whore But let me tell you something baby You love me for everything you hate me for
Oh whoa ho, oh whoa ho, oh whoa ho [x2]
I am the dirt you created I am your sinner I am your whore But let me tell you something baby You love me, you want me, you need me!
I can be your whore! I am the dirt you created I am your sinner I am your whore But let me tell you something baby You love me for everything you hate me for
I can be your whore! I can be your whore! I can be your whore! But let me tell you something baby You love me for everything you hate me for
Hmmm. I mean, it all starts in your mind. I cannot say much more than that. You have to commit. It's hard but possible. If you really aren't ok with how you are, start telling yourself you have to. Look up inspirational quotes or videos. Start strengthening your mind.
I am gonna improve my physique to the brink of getting myself crippled.
I don't aspire to become something great. I mean. We're all gonna die and be forgotten. Life is pointless. I may as well just enjoy it while I'm here. *shrugs* You want to aspire to be something great though, go ahead. We all need our reasons to get up in the morning . . .
@Jai: That's a good enough method of motivation as any. Tbh, I'm usually shit at motivation but I've actually got better at motivating myself recently due to having to force myself to revise the whole time . . . it's quite cool but it'll probably die out this week now I don't need to be revising anymore. :P So yeah, if it means anything, you'll probably accumulate greater motivating skills around this time next year.
Yeah star, but do you know what's after life? Not really. So might as well make 100% of it. See, life is like a half cup of water. You can either think "well i might as well not drink it at all, since it's half empty anyways" or "Well i might as well drink since it's half full".
tbh, I blame the British culture for the lack of motivation.
I've noticed a very regular pattern of english people being de-motivated from becoming anything really. I am not sure why it happens but it's probably down to parenting and schooling. I mean of course not everyone but most people.
On the other hand, Britain also has the most securely attached babies.
Maybe sense of security=lack of motivation? Maybe. When one is not pushed by extraneous factors, does one still have motivation?
A sense of satisfaction could also lead to de-motivation. You don't feel broken or weak in ways that affect your every day life, you loose motivation.
I find myself being able to easily be motivated when I think about how much better I could be and how much more I could achieve. Fictional characters can motivate me the most, because when i look at them, all i can think about is I wanna be better.
But that's just because I always want to be the one above most in at least one thing. I don't care if some factors don't affect me now, they might affect me in the future.
Some horrible catastrophe happens in the future, I'll feel weak if i can't stop/prevent it. That's what motivates me the most. To change and to control.
Everybody is. Technically, being perfect means being untouchable in every single aspect of life which is literally an infinite amount of things. So...everyone is an infinite amount of things away from being perfect. Theoretically.
Other than theory, we really are far from even nigh perfection. In my thesaurus, not even gods are perfect. I think the only thing that can be perfect is what's after death.
Well, Fera, you see, as an agnostic atheist, I don't believe there is an afterlife. I believe we die and that's it. I just don't really think it makes much sense for there to be an afterlife, and I think the reason so many people believe there is one comes from not liking to accept (or not being able to accept) that there is an end - which I get, I really do. It scares me how one day I will cease to exist, but that's what I believe will happen. However, I could, of course, be entirely wrong. I'm not intelligent enough to know the workings of the universe. Could be an afterlife for all I know. Even if there is an afterlife, though, I don't believe any human is worth more than any other. I believe we're all equal, and I believe that although I perceive some people as being more awesome than others, that's just a result of me being human and therefore having a flawed outlook on life. To be perfectly honest, I don't believe anything's objectively good or objectively bad. So to become 'better'? I don't believe there's such a thing as 'better,' only what humans perceive as 'better.' So yeah, I may as well do whatever the fuck I want with my life. Which is not to say I have no aspirations. I just accept that the point of my aspirations is to give me purpose in life and to make it worth living. I don't expect to actually go anywhere.
I see your point, but don't think it's just British culture. I think it's probably something that happens in a lot of first world countries. I mean, I haven't really noticed any difference between Brits and people of other nationalities.
My dad just gave me a lecture on how I've started to become brainwashed by Wicca and witchcraft and how I'm a weirdo Does brainwashed mean following a path that my family can't accept?
Gee thanks dad -_-
I have a new money bottle, and jokingly I taped a sign to it saying 'Chloe's witchy fund' and I showed my parents and said my sister has contributed greatly to it, as she put her change in it
Eh, all religious beliefs can be considered the result of brainwashing (and I include atheism in this). It's putting belief in something without proof. It, by nature, is not a logical thing. (Or at least I don't think so. Not meaning to offend anyone.)
You choosing to believe in Wicca isn't being brainwashed by it any more than believing in Jesus is being brainwashed by Christianity or not believing in any god is being brainwashed by, idk, other atheists. Wicca just seems weirder to the average person because the average person is less used to encountering it, so it seems more "out there" . . . It's just hard for people to get used to sometimes.
I'm sorry they're struggling to accept your religion. :( *hugs*
(Nope. Parents are there to judge you until you collapse from stress and pressure and anger. Or at least that's the vibe I get from my mum and stepdad sometimes. My dad is lovely though.)
Well, the thing is, parents are humans, and all humans have their flaws. No one can be perfect. I mean, if you and me were to accidentally get pregnant tomorrow, we wouldn't suddenly become completely perfect 100% nice 100% supporting 100% unable to get frustrated and 100% unable to make bad judgement calls in nine months time because that just doesn't happen - we'd still be the same people, we'd still be human, and we'd still, y'know, have all our little idiosyncrasies. So yeah . . . your parents aren't perfect, but nobody is. And of course they'll do things that are less than perfect sometimes, but everyone does. And honestly, I couldn't possibly claim that I'd be able to do a better job than them, so y'know, I can't really judge.
Mate. I got linked to this video by this YouTuber and it was incredible. It was like the best thing. I'm like reeling in shock now. I LOVE it when you suddenly find something awesome like that.
I would post a link but it's like half an hour long and it's quite boring and statistic-y so I don't think anyone really wants to watch it. :P
(I downloaded it but then I never actually.. Uh.. Started. I did like two sit ups then mentally ranted about feminism and how I shouldn't change myself and all the stuff I don't believe in but can use as an excuse when I'm feeling weak willed and then I got rid of it.)
@Jai: About the "feminism and how you shouldn't change yourself" blah blah thing . . . Personally I don't believe one needs to change themself FOR ANYONE ELSE, but I think changing yourself FOR SOMEONE ELSE is different to changing yourself FOR YOURSELF. It's like how many girls wear makeup to make themselves look beautiful - but the "look beautiful" isn't about being attractive to other people, it's about feeling better in their own skin. And I've seen plenty of posts on Facebook where men say "I actually find it better when girls don't wear makeup like that" and girls respond saying things like "Well believe it or not, not everything women do is to make themselves look more attractive to men! I like wearing makeup like this because /I/ like it, and whether or not it looks good to you is irrelevant to me!" I don't wear makeup, but the same thing applies . . . I want to have the confidence to wear clothes that make myself look good /to me/ and do my hair in a way that looks good /to me/, because if I think I look better, it makes me feel better . . . and it shouldn't matter what anyone else thinks or what is 'fashionable.' It should be about me doing what makes me happy. (Within reason). Of course the "I don't care about what people think!" is easier said than done, but to me . . . "I shouldn't change myself" is much more about "I shouldn't change myself for other people." You shouldn't ever have to change yourself for someone else, but if changing yourself is a fun personal goal for you and it makes you feel better, then you should go for it. :) I don't know . . . I think it's just about doing what's best for you - if chnaging yourself isn't doing what's best for you, then absolutely you shouldn't have to change yourself, but if changing yourself IS what's best for you, then it kind of goes against the principle of the thing to deliberately avoid changing yourself.
I hope most of that makes sense.
(Incidentally, I don't think it's necessarily feminism, either. Feeling comfortable in your own skin is not necessarily related to gender equality. But that's neither here nor there.)
Ummm I would write more (about motivation and suchlike), but I'm being called to go down for lunch. :)
@Chloe: I think nearly everyone has had problems with friends . . . if I met someone who'd never had any friendship problems, I would be shocked and would be like "But . . . but . . . but you're missing out on, like, a normal part of life!" and would sort of just be watching for when they encounter their first friendship problems a few years down the road - because I would bet they'd, like, overreact and think it was the worst thing ever, whereas everyone else involved in the dispute would be used to such friendship problems from growing up and would be so much more used to dealing with it . . . so I guess I'd be wanting to watch it happen out of a combination of concern for them and out of a measure of "Ha! Now you have to see what WE went through," but not once would I assume they'd make it to the end fo their life without encountering any (unless they died an early death or are one of those peculiar people who are happier without any friendships and hence have no friends and are happy about it).
And even if there are more humans who don't suffer friendship problems than I realise, I still don't believe there's anything wrong with you . . . friendship problems rarely occur out of something being "wrong" with one of the participants; it's usually just a lack of compatibility or a misunderstanding. I've been friends with plenty of people who I'd rather not have been friends with, and very rarely has it been because I've believed they're an awful person . . . usually it's just because I don't think we're very compatible and believe we'd be better off apart.
@Jai: :( Would it help if I insulted you so you could gain motivation from wanting to spite me?
Additionally . . . my mum read an article one time titled "How to motivate yourself when you're running and hating it," and she was ranting about it for a good few days because she was like "If you hate running . . . DON'T RUN!" However, what's noteworthy about her rantings is that the next clause out of her mouth would usually be "Find a sport you ACTUALLY ENJOY and do that instead!" I'm someone who hasn't really got on with sport through most of my life . . . actually, it's been the only school subject where I've consistently been terrible. I believe this is mostly because I am TERRIBLY uncoordinated and have a fear of airbourne projectiles, and so I've been put off sport for, like, forever. Additionally, I'm usually of your opinion about the pain thing. In general, I don't like pain. I'm just like "dude why would you want to put yourself through pain."
So, yeah, I tend to avoid sports which involve coordination or airbourne projectiles, and I tend to avoid sports with excessive amounts of pain . . . but there ARE still sports that I can enjoy doing. Rockclimbing is my best example (LOVE rockclimbing. Tbh it often feels a bit like a problem-solving game, like a game you play on your phone where you have a little stickman with two arms and two legs and you have to try and position his arms and legs in the right place so they can reach the holds. If you reach the right holds, you can get him up the wall), but nowadays I swim for half an hour on a Tuesday night and that's rather fun too. So yeah, I believe if you look around a bit, you can find exercise that you enjoy doing.
I guess exercise is a bit like therapy. It's good for you, but you have to search around a bit as not all therapists are suited to everyone and it's important for you to find one that's right for you in order for it to work. :P
Also, I think it's important to remember that you'll always enjoy it more once you get going. I know I love rockclimbing, but I never actually want to /go/ rockclimbing. I just know that I have to go because we've booked in and we've paid, but by the time I get there, I always enjoy it. And knowing that I'll enjoy it regardless of how I feel about it before I start does tend to motivate me better.
Following on from that - I've mentioned how I swim on a Tuesday, correct? Well, I go with my mum, and every week she says "I'm so glad you come swimming wiht me, because I always really enjoy it when I get there, but if you weren't going too I'd never have the motivation to get myself there." Tbh, I probably wouldn't still go if it weren't for her, either. :P Are there any friends you can arrange to do things with? Because if you know that you've arranged to meet up with someone, it'll make it much easier to motivate yourself to go through wiht it.
Sorry for the massive walls of text . . . seeing as how I have no revision to be doing and all this free time, I don't have the motivation to filter all the rambling out so I'm just typing and typing and typing. :P
@Chloe: That's not something that's wrong with you . . . being nice is a good thing. :) It's just about finding people who are compatible with those traits of yours . . . either finding people who'll respect you and won't walk all over you, or finding people you don't mind walking all over you.
@Chloe: :( *hugs* Well . . . I'm less likely to guarantee that that happens to 100% of people, but I still think it's pretty common . . . particularly in romantic relationships, tbh.
It's . . . well, friendship is a tricky thing, because like, you put your trust and love into people, and often that's not gonna work out for you and you are gonna get hurt . . . but like, you will always eventually find people that are worth being friends with, and who will appreciate it when you put them before anyone . . . It's still not anything wrong with you. Like me and Jai have said, being a nice person is good. And getting hurt is, sadly, a part of life . . . and all of you and your siblings will eventually find good friends who won't walk all over you. 'Twill be okay. :) *hugs*
:( I hope your brother's alright, though . . . it really sucks that that's happening to him.
(Part of my whole sports motivation exercise problem is that the sports I probably would enjoy (rock climbing. Boxercize. Not really much else..) either cost a lot or aren't available anywhere near me and because of that I don't do it, because I need to save up or because it's not worth an hour bus ride there for an hour long session of whatever it is.
As well as that my friends don't really exercise. Grace does Explorers but a) money and b) that isn't just exercise so it probably wouldn't help. Chloe doesn't do anything. Neither does Naoise. My mum runs around the house cleaning.
And like.. No one I'm close to does any exercise that I would do. My brother does Judo but I was getting hurt too often when I did that so I quit.)
I been doing a lot of talking here so I think it's time to write the disclaimer that I'm not an all-knowing authority and I fully admit that I may be completely wrong. My opionions are opinion, not fact, and if people choose to believe me about anything and find out I am utterly and completely wrong, I'm sorry for misleading you. :(
@Jai: Ooh, ikr about the money thing . . . it really sucks that one has to pay money to do a load of these things. I'm lucky in that my parents can and will pay for me, but I realise I'm lucky and I think it sucks . . .
And yeah, Judo is pretty brutual, I think. Never tried it, though.
Could you ask your friends if they'd be interested in starting anything with you? They might be intested in trying something new . . .
(Chloe isn't interested in any sport, when she goes to college her plan is to play just dance to keep fit.. Naoise is way to busy. Grace is busy too.. And would probably demotivate me..
And like.. I'm mainly worried because when I go to college I'm expected to get a job by my mum and step dad and I'm also expected to get good grades and revise. And I won't have manitory games sessions either do I'll have to do my own exercise to keep fit which just isn't really gonna happen much.. I mean if I do get a job I'll maybe use the money for rock climbing or something..
I'm considering looking for a job with water stones.. Just a part time job..)
@Jai: :/ *hugs* Yeah . . . college is hard, particularly if you have a job . . .
:) I think a job with Waterstones would be awesome . . . but then again, I love Waterstones. It's one of my favourite places in all of Hull. It's like filled with books and then we have a Costa upstairs so you can sit there and drink in in this lovely warm room filled with books.
:/ I hope you manage to get a job, if you're going to be facing pressure to get one by your mum and stepdad . . . but try not to work too many hours. My school tell me that if one works over 20 hours in a week whilst doing sitxh form as well, that's when your grades start to suffer.
:) Here, rockclimbing is expensive, but the sessions are three hours and most people don't go every week (usually once every two weeks).
What really annoys me about the job thing is my big sister was pressured to get a job so much, like, and unfair amount. But my big brother is allowed to just never be in the house because he's off smoking weed and never is he told he has to get a job, hell half the time he doesn't even do his chores for the house! And then I've been told that I have to get a job when I'm at college and it's like ?!?!?! The hell?? I don't know how much rock climbing would cost here.. I dunno. I don't know what I'll do for exercise because no sports interest me..
@chloe *hugs* I hate seeing my little brother upset too..)
Also STAR! Can we please meet up in the 6 week holiday preferably in August and definitely preferably without Thomas so I can give you your damn Christmas present!!! I know it'll be awkward because we've only ever met up with Thomas there but trust me it'll be trice as awkward (for me anyway) with him there!!! You can bring as many friends as you want and we don't have to hang out if you don't want I just want to give you your damn present!)
I'm so glad :) I mean, it was a stupid idea in the first place. Fossil fuels are absolute shit, and I honestly think that big oil corporations are shit, too.
And I'm so glad you get to keep your yard. I'm sure it is beautiful. (Washington is an awesome and beautiful state!)
@Noelle: :) Nah, that's good. Pretty much means you win.
I don't tend to look up stats or resources, tbh, not unless it's a) a major argument or b) for debating at school. But I don't often argue about social justice other than lightly/conversationally, so . . . don't have much reason to.
Right Vital question for anyone who's watched Supernatural.
So you know in Season 1 Episode 2 of Supernatural, when they go to that Haley girl's house? And like there's this scene that goes pretty much like this:
*sound of someone knocking on door without anyone actually knocking on the door* ((bloody continuity error :P)) Haley: *opens door (there's two front doors, and she opens the inner one)* Dean: You must be Haley Collins. *doesn't wait for an answer, just gestures to himself and Sam* I'm Dean, this is Sam, we're, uh, we're rangers from the park service. Ranger Wilkinson sent us over. He wanted us to ask you a few questions about your brother Tommy? Haley: *hesitates* Let me see some ID. Dean: *holds ID up that declares he is Samuel Cole* There you go. Haley: *scrutinises it closely* *must surely notice it says he's called Samuel despite the fact he just introduced himself as Dean, unless she's blind or illiterate* *doesn't say anything about this obvious discrepancy* ((second continuity error in less than five minutes. *whistles innocently :P)) *looks up at Dean* Dean: *smiles* Haley: *opens outer front door* Come in. Dean: *moves around door so it doesn't like hit him in the head* Haley: *sees the Impala parked on the curb behind them* That yours? Dean: *looks pleased* Yeah. Haley: Nice car. *starts walking inside house* Dean: *starts walking after her* *turns and mouths something to Sam* Sam: *rolls eyes and follows them inside the house*
WHAT DOES DEAN MOUTH TO SAM????????? I can't work it out. -_- And I'm like writing it, so I kinda wanna know. It's probably something about her being hot, and it's like one word, and my lip reading skills are like 0.
Alys: *picks up a leaf and chucks it at the guard 2* *it turns into an enchanted weight that pushes him over and he won't be able to shift if for a few hoursi
Michael: *slowly slightly* *the fake Alys from earlier disappears* *a small fox forms at his feet* Alys you're in charge now, keep everyone running. I need to go back before the whole place is on lock down.
Michael: *stumbles and falls over, groaning, so tired* *slowly closes his eyes, figuring it's fine to just rest.. Just for a little bit..* *is at the edge of the woods*
*the fox lays down and sleeps, before both it and the mist fade away*
Michael: *is still laid down, exhausted* *hears the count and looks up* *curses quietly and grabs a sharp rock, making cuts in his skin, rips in his clothes, rubbing dirt into his skin* *lays back down*
Michael: W-wait! *struggles to sit up* It was the oth-hers.. The tiger.. *looks at Alys* They took her.. She was with me, they thought I'd squeal. They took me too. *hate fills his face* Disrespectful mutts.
Michael: I wish I was covering for her, then I wouldn't feel guilty if you were to put a bullet in her head.. But she did nothing. *looks over at her* You should leave her for the wolves to find. She might not have wanted to run but she didn't stop them from hurting a human.
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(You okay?)
(Tired ANF stuff.. So no
You?)
(That's not good.. Sleep! Nap!
My head hurts.)
(You need rest
For fuck sake' my brother won't get out if the bath dispite being told umpteen times
I'm tired and my feet hurt
Dad wants me to do more work
I have exams and revising and I just.. *melts down*)
(Nah. I'll be reet.
*hugs tightly*
Try to relax..)
(*hugs* I can't relax)
(Try breathing?)
(I am breathing )
(Slowly..)
(*breathes slowly*)
(I'm hurting -_-
30 sit ups
12 crunches
12 leg raises and 20 seconds planking -_-)
(Ouch..)
(I an determined to get abs )
(That's not because I feel fat or anything
It's just I've been active since I was three and I have nothing to show for it)
(OMFG MY IDOL DRAGONFEATHER REPLIED TO MY SNAPCHAT
OH, BTW IM Inky Flame ON SNAPCHAT)
In a world, where people are not born equal
Why not stare into the eyes of demons and express a remarkable will to fight
When you feel weak and fragile, why not simply start re-molding everything until you become profound and imposing
To the point that everybody is afraid of what you're capable of
And when you have everything's destiny and future at your mercy, grin astonishingly beautifully before constructing something new
That is what it means to be a true scientist.
That is how gods are born.
(FERA that was an oddly cool thing you said there and
CHLOE WAT DA YA WANT FOR YA BDAY?)
(That was... Poetic
But mankind shouldn't become gods
We are too flawed
Too much hubris
*goes to sing and dance to hello kitty by avril lavrigne whilst sipping on a Smirnoff ice*)
(I DONT KNOW )
(I know it's rude, offensive and so on
But I love blood on the dance floor ;-; it's just.. Their songs are so catchy)
(I need ideas xD)
(Um,. I want to start a garden... Some seeds?)
For now, we are. Your casual person is too flawed to possess greater power.
However to attain something great, the process molds anyone into something different.
Be it evil or good. To become god, your flaws will have to minimize themselves. So it goes hand in hand really.
Some people want to thrive. Some people want to just get by.
And few people, very few people want to be something greater. Of course, you have to have an immeasurable amount of reasons and will to go through such a transformation. Even fewer of those who want to become such an entity, will actually succeed.
(..hmm)
(I want to thrive
It's one of the reasons I joined Wicca
One of the things about Wicca is self empowerment )
(*shrugs* that's all I can suggest
Green witchcraft is my calling, me thinks)
good evening bitches, one and all.
How are we all, tis been a while.
(Em!!!! Welcome back Bach! How's you?)
Hmm, fair enough.
Mine is improvement in all aspects in any way I find. I am not stopping until I've taken my final breath.
I'm still alive so I guess it's a bonus.
Not sure whether to start recording my first gaming video tonight or just set up my streaming channel...
Very hard decisions like this are what weigh a girl down most of the time.
(Hey Em!
Why is everyone suddenly improving their lives?!?! )
(I bought a divination pendulum today!
*offers em hugs*
I'm planning my first YouTube video which I'll do when or if I get into uni)
Well hook me up if you want to collab on anything Inky
and that goes for anyone else, I'm on Minecraft and I have a Steam account.
I am not really trying to improve my life to be honest. I am trying to improve myself in every aspect.
Especially intellectual and physical abilities.
(That'd be so Awesomes ^.^ thank you!)
(I'm trying to improve my physicque by doing a thirty day ab challenge
)
(People are improving themselves..
And then there's me..)
(*hugs jai* you don't need improving ^.^)
Eh...
Me too Sil, I ain't improving myself, I'm just keeping myself busy with projects.
Its the only way I can keep any concentration, I'm worse than a goldfish.
I'm the girl you've been thinking about
The one thing you can't live without
I'm the girl you've been waiting for
I'll have you down on your knees
I'll have you begging for more
You probably thought I wouldn't get this far
You thought I'd end up in the back of a car
You probably thought that I'd never escape
I'd be a rat in a cage, I'd be a slave to this place
You don't know how hard I fought to survive,
Waking up alone when I was left to die
You don't know about this life I've lived,
All these roads I've walked
All these tears I've bled
So how can this be?
You're praying to me
There's a look in your eyes,
I know just what that means
I can be, I can be your everything
I can be your whore!
I am the dirt you created
I am your sinner
I am your whore
But let me tell you something baby
You love me for everything you hate me for
I'm the one that you need and fear
Now that you're hooked, it's all becoming clear
That all your judgments that you placed on me
Was a reflection of discovery
So maybe next time when you cast your stones
From the shadows of the dark unknown
You will crawl up from your hiding place
Take a look in the mirror
See the truth in your face
So how can this be?
You're praying to me
There's a look in your eyes,
I know just what that means
I can be, I can be your everything
I can be your whore!
I am the dirt you created
I am your sinner
I am your whore
But let me tell you something baby
You love me for everything you hate me for
Oh whoa ho, oh whoa ho, oh whoa ho [x2]
I am the dirt you created
I am your sinner
I am your whore
But let me tell you something baby
You love me, you want me, you need me!
I can be your whore!
I am the dirt you created
I am your sinner
I am your whore
But let me tell you something baby
You love me for everything you hate me for
I can be your whore!
I can be your whore!
I can be your whore!
But let me tell you something baby
You love me for everything you hate me for
You love me for everything you hate me for
(@Em I don't even have any projects..)
Hmmm. I mean, it all starts in your mind. I cannot say much more than that. You have to commit. It's hard but possible. If you really aren't ok with how you are, start telling yourself you have to. Look up inspirational quotes or videos. Start strengthening your mind.
I am gonna improve my physique to the brink of getting myself crippled.
(I don't see why hou should improve your physicque that much..)
I didn't have anything for almost 2 years.
Don't be comparing yourself to everyone else, when you're ready to do something, it will happen for you. Everyone to their own limits and pace.
(Mm. It infuriates me that I lack motivation..)
(I lack motivation to pass my exams)
(I lack motivation to do anything.
I only ever do things to spite people..)
(*hugs Jai* )
(*hugs back*
Rp? For, like, the 15 more minutes you'll be awake?)
(Okay)
Michael: *rejoins the group in watching for guards while eacaping*
*there are two guards ahead, near the forest entrancd^
I don't aspire to become something great. I mean. We're all gonna die and be forgotten. Life is pointless. I may as well just enjoy it while I'm here.
*shrugs*
You want to aspire to be something great though, go ahead. We all need our reasons to get up in the morning . . .
@Jai: That's a good enough method of motivation as any. Tbh, I'm usually shit at motivation but I've actually got better at motivating myself recently due to having to force myself to revise the whole time . . . it's quite cool but it'll probably die out this week now I don't need to be revising anymore. :P So yeah, if it means anything, you'll probably accumulate greater motivating skills around this time next year.
Michael: *keeps walking until he spots them and motions for everyone to stop*
*everyone stops*
Alys; *whispereI one each?
Michael: *whispers back*
You'll get hurt
Alys: a asking S everyone s free..
*aslong
Michael: I can handle it..
*closes his eyes, breathing deeply*
Alys: I w won't let you do this a alone
Michael: *a furry with a striking resemblance to Alys appears behind the guards, falling over noisily*
*it jumps to its feet and darts into the woods*
(I'm off to bed
Nos da )
Yeah star, but do you know what's after life? Not really. So might as well make 100% of it. See, life is like a half cup of water. You can either think "well i might as well not drink it at all, since it's half empty anyways" or "Well i might as well drink since it's half full".
So apparently the government funding for the pipeline got canceled, so my back yard won't be destroyed now.
Or at least, not in the next few years.
tbh, I blame the British culture for the lack of motivation.
I've noticed a very regular pattern of english people being de-motivated from becoming anything really. I am not sure why it happens but it's probably down to parenting and schooling. I mean of course not everyone but most people.
On the other hand, Britain also has the most securely attached babies.
Maybe sense of security=lack of motivation? Maybe. When one is not pushed by extraneous factors, does one still have motivation?
A sense of satisfaction could also lead to de-motivation. You don't feel broken or weak in ways that affect your every day life, you loose motivation.
I find myself being able to easily be motivated when I think about how much better I could be and how much more I could achieve. Fictional characters can motivate me the most, because when i look at them, all i can think about is I wanna be better.
But that's just because I always want to be the one above most in at least one thing. I don't care if some factors don't affect me now, they might affect me in the future.
Some horrible catastrophe happens in the future, I'll feel weak if i can't stop/prevent it. That's what motivates me the most. To change and to control.
(One last thing,.. If Jack passes through here:
I lve you honey, you are perfect and my soul mate )
lol i read that "one last joke".
(Well I'm far from perfect)
Everybody is. Technically, being perfect means being untouchable in every single aspect of life which is literally an infinite amount of things. So...everyone is an infinite amount of things away from being perfect. Theoretically.
Other than theory, we really are far from even nigh perfection. In my thesaurus, not even gods are perfect. I think the only thing that can be perfect is what's after death.
Well, Fera, you see, as an agnostic atheist, I don't believe there is an afterlife. I believe we die and that's it. I just don't really think it makes much sense for there to be an afterlife, and I think the reason so many people believe there is one comes from not liking to accept (or not being able to accept) that there is an end - which I get, I really do. It scares me how one day I will cease to exist, but that's what I believe will happen.
However, I could, of course, be entirely wrong. I'm not intelligent enough to know the workings of the universe. Could be an afterlife for all I know.
Even if there is an afterlife, though, I don't believe any human is worth more than any other. I believe we're all equal, and I believe that although I perceive some people as being more awesome than others, that's just a result of me being human and therefore having a flawed outlook on life. To be perfectly honest, I don't believe anything's objectively good or objectively bad. So to become 'better'? I don't believe there's such a thing as 'better,' only what humans perceive as 'better.' So yeah, I may as well do whatever the fuck I want with my life.
Which is not to say I have no aspirations. I just accept that the point of my aspirations is to give me purpose in life and to make it worth living. I don't expect to actually go anywhere.
I see your point, but don't think it's just British culture. I think it's probably something that happens in a lot of first world countries. I mean, I haven't really noticed any difference between Brits and people of other nationalities.
(Really?
My dad just gave me a lecture on how I've started to become brainwashed by Wicca and witchcraft and how I'm a weirdo
Does brainwashed mean following a path that my family can't accept?
Gee thanks dad -_-
I have a new money bottle, and jokingly I taped a sign to it saying 'Chloe's witchy fund' and I showed my parents and said my sister has contributed greatly to it, as she put her change in it
Mum goes 'if you brain wash her ten I'll go mad')
(Ugh. Ignore them sis.)
(They are really testing my patience
Life's too short to be normal )
(It's like.. I try to explain what it is calmly to them, but they ignore everything I say
And they won't even to their research into it)
Eh, all religious beliefs can be considered the result of brainwashing (and I include atheism in this). It's putting belief in something without proof. It, by nature, is not a logical thing. (Or at least I don't think so. Not meaning to offend anyone.)
You choosing to believe in Wicca isn't being brainwashed by it any more than believing in Jesus is being brainwashed by Christianity or not believing in any god is being brainwashed by, idk, other atheists. Wicca just seems weirder to the average person because the average person is less used to encountering it, so it seems more "out there" . . . It's just hard for people to get used to sometimes.
I'm sorry they're struggling to accept your religion. :( *hugs*
@Chloe: :(
They should at least research it before judging . . . *believes that you have to research things at least a little before you can validly diss them*
(*hugs* I thought parents were supposed to be accepting no matter what)
*or atleast supporting if they can't accept it totally
(Nope. Parents are there to judge you until you collapse from stress and pressure and anger. Or at least that's the vibe I get from my mum and stepdad sometimes.
My dad is lovely though.)
(The thing is my dad has to have everything his way and puts so much pressure on me
But we can laugh and joke
When he's in his control freak modes my mum goes against him to an extent
Then she becomes just as bad
Like they expect me to go back and do two years in college if I don't get in.
I'm not doin that )
*into uni
(*finds my toy sloth*
*calms down instantly *)
Well, the thing is, parents are humans, and all humans have their flaws. No one can be perfect. I mean, if you and me were to accidentally get pregnant tomorrow, we wouldn't suddenly become completely perfect 100% nice 100% supporting 100% unable to get frustrated and 100% unable to make bad judgement calls in nine months time because that just doesn't happen - we'd still be the same people, we'd still be human, and we'd still, y'know, have all our little idiosyncrasies. So yeah . . . your parents aren't perfect, but nobody is. And of course they'll do things that are less than perfect sometimes, but everyone does. And honestly, I couldn't possibly claim that I'd be able to do a better job than them, so y'know, I can't really judge.
(I guess so.. I just wish they'd not say anything about it)
@Chloe: *nods* :/ *hugs*
Yeah . . . :/ I wish they would, too.
(*hugs* oh well.. What can I do?)
*shrugs helplessly* I'm not sure there's anything you can do. :/
(*sighs* this week has been crap and I just know it'll be getting worse this week)
*coming
(I think dad would have a fit if he knew I bought a divination pendulum yesterday..
:( :( :( *hugs*
It's okay. It's one week in your life, and next week it'll be in the past. You can get through it. :)
^the next week
*this coming week
(*hugs* thank you)
(Nope, they have to be nice to you on June 5th. Thems the rules.)
@Chloe: :)
(Awwww hopefully
I'm gonna be so ripped by the end of my ab challenge O.o)
Mate. I got linked to this video by this YouTuber and it was incredible.
It was like the best thing.
I'm like reeling in shock now.
I LOVE it when you suddenly find something awesome like that.
I would post a link but it's like half an hour long and it's quite boring and statistic-y so I don't think anyone really wants to watch it. :P
(I downloaded it but then I never actually.. Uh.. Started. I did like two sit ups then mentally ranted about feminism and how I shouldn't change myself and all the stuff I don't believe in but can use as an excuse when I'm feeling weak willed and then I got rid of it.)
(Awesome star!)
(Today I've done 40 sit ups
20 crunches
20 leg raises and 30 seconds planking
I am determined to get abs
It's just been a personal goal for mine )
(That's cool star!
I do want to lose weight and maybe get a slight six pack.. I just have absolutely no will power and no one to spite lose weight for.)
(RAVEN!! HOWS YOU, YOU AMAZING HUMAN BEING?!)
(OMG GO SIENA!!!
Also HEY RAVEN!!!)
(Do it for yourself Jai.. When you exercise you feel way better)
(From my experience when you exercise you feel way worse, what with the aching stabbing pain.
Also trying to do stuff for myself never actually work.)
Hey! I'm good thank you, admittedly, being a bit of chickenshit right now, but good yeah. How are you guys?
(I'm okay, on a weeks break from school (and thus from exams) at the moment which honestly is just giving me time to stress.)
@Jai: About the "feminism and how you shouldn't change yourself" blah blah thing . . .
Personally I don't believe one needs to change themself FOR ANYONE ELSE, but I think changing yourself FOR SOMEONE ELSE is different to changing yourself FOR YOURSELF. It's like how many girls wear makeup to make themselves look beautiful - but the "look beautiful" isn't about being attractive to other people, it's about feeling better in their own skin. And I've seen plenty of posts on Facebook where men say "I actually find it better when girls don't wear makeup like that" and girls respond saying things like "Well believe it or not, not everything women do is to make themselves look more attractive to men! I like wearing makeup like this because /I/ like it, and whether or not it looks good to you is irrelevant to me!"
I don't wear makeup, but the same thing applies . . . I want to have the confidence to wear clothes that make myself look good /to me/ and do my hair in a way that looks good /to me/, because if I think I look better, it makes me feel better . . . and it shouldn't matter what anyone else thinks or what is 'fashionable.' It should be about me doing what makes me happy. (Within reason).
Of course the "I don't care about what people think!" is easier said than done, but to me . . . "I shouldn't change myself" is much more about "I shouldn't change myself for other people." You shouldn't ever have to change yourself for someone else, but if changing yourself is a fun personal goal for you and it makes you feel better, then you should go for it. :) I don't know . . . I think it's just about doing what's best for you - if chnaging yourself isn't doing what's best for you, then absolutely you shouldn't have to change yourself, but if changing yourself IS what's best for you, then it kind of goes against the principle of the thing to deliberately avoid changing yourself.
I hope most of that makes sense.
(Incidentally, I don't think it's necessarily feminism, either. Feeling comfortable in your own skin is not necessarily related to gender equality. But that's neither here nor there.)
Ummm I would write more (about motivation and suchlike), but I'm being called to go down for lunch. :)
(I feel a bit down trodden ...)
(*hugs Chloe gently*
*wanders off to google how to motivate oneself*)
(*hugs jai*
To make things worse, my brother has come home upset
His friend won't allow him in his garden when he will le the other boys in..
What's wrong with me and my siblings? All three of us have had problems with friends..)
(*hugs back*
Nothing is wrong with you and your siblings)
(No, there is
We are too nice and we allow ourselves to be walked over)
*rolls back in eating a Gold bar*
@Chloe: I think nearly everyone has had problems with friends . . . if I met someone who'd never had any friendship problems, I would be shocked and would be like "But . . . but . . . but you're missing out on, like, a normal part of life!" and would sort of just be watching for when they encounter their first friendship problems a few years down the road - because I would bet they'd, like, overreact and think it was the worst thing ever, whereas everyone else involved in the dispute would be used to such friendship problems from growing up and would be so much more used to dealing with it . . . so I guess I'd be wanting to watch it happen out of a combination of concern for them and out of a measure of "Ha! Now you have to see what WE went through," but not once would I assume they'd make it to the end fo their life without encountering any (unless they died an early death or are one of those peculiar people who are happier without any friendships and hence have no friends and are happy about it).
And even if there are more humans who don't suffer friendship problems than I realise, I still don't believe there's anything wrong with you . . . friendship problems rarely occur out of something being "wrong" with one of the participants; it's usually just a lack of compatibility or a misunderstanding. I've been friends with plenty of people who I'd rather not have been friends with, and very rarely has it been because I've believed they're an awful person . . . usually it's just because I don't think we're very compatible and believe we'd be better off apart.
TLDR - nothing wrong with you. :)
@Jai: :( Would it help if I insulted you so you could gain motivation from wanting to spite me?
Additionally . . . my mum read an article one time titled "How to motivate yourself when you're running and hating it," and she was ranting about it for a good few days because she was like "If you hate running . . . DON'T RUN!" However, what's noteworthy about her rantings is that the next clause out of her mouth would usually be "Find a sport you ACTUALLY ENJOY and do that instead!"
I'm someone who hasn't really got on with sport through most of my life . . . actually, it's been the only school subject where I've consistently been terrible. I believe this is mostly because I am TERRIBLY uncoordinated and have a fear of airbourne projectiles, and so I've been put off sport for, like, forever.
Additionally, I'm usually of your opinion about the pain thing. In general, I don't like pain. I'm just like "dude why would you want to put yourself through pain."
So, yeah, I tend to avoid sports which involve coordination or airbourne projectiles, and I tend to avoid sports with excessive amounts of pain . . . but there ARE still sports that I can enjoy doing. Rockclimbing is my best example (LOVE rockclimbing. Tbh it often feels a bit like a problem-solving game, like a game you play on your phone where you have a little stickman with two arms and two legs and you have to try and position his arms and legs in the right place so they can reach the holds. If you reach the right holds, you can get him up the wall), but nowadays I swim for half an hour on a Tuesday night and that's rather fun too. So yeah, I believe if you look around a bit, you can find exercise that you enjoy doing.
I guess exercise is a bit like therapy. It's good for you, but you have to search around a bit as not all therapists are suited to everyone and it's important for you to find one that's right for you in order for it to work. :P
Also, I think it's important to remember that you'll always enjoy it more once you get going. I know I love rockclimbing, but I never actually want to /go/ rockclimbing. I just know that I have to go because we've booked in and we've paid, but by the time I get there, I always enjoy it. And knowing that I'll enjoy it regardless of how I feel about it before I start does tend to motivate me better.
Following on from that - I've mentioned how I swim on a Tuesday, correct? Well, I go with my mum, and every week she says "I'm so glad you come swimming wiht me, because I always really enjoy it when I get there, but if you weren't going too I'd never have the motivation to get myself there." Tbh, I probably wouldn't still go if it weren't for her, either. :P Are there any friends you can arrange to do things with? Because if you know that you've arranged to meet up with someone, it'll make it much easier to motivate yourself to go through wiht it.
Sorry for the massive walls of text . . . seeing as how I have no revision to be doing and all this free time, I don't have the motivation to filter all the rambling out so I'm just typing and typing and typing. :P
(Okay that then?
Being nice is a good thing.
Well.. On the plus side my room is tidy.
Still not motivated me but.. Yey for clean room.)
(But star... They aren't like normal arguments
It more like... All three of us have put our friends before anything only to get abandoned)
@Chloe: That's not something that's wrong with you . . . being nice is a good thing. :)
It's just about finding people who are compatible with those traits of yours . . . either finding people who'll respect you and won't walk all over you, or finding people you don't mind walking all over you.
(Yeah.. I like to think I haven't been affected too badly by it
Bu my sister has some sort of social phobia that she had concilling )
@Jai: Ahh we both said it. High five. :)
@Chloe: :( *hugs*
Well . . . I'm less likely to guarantee that that happens to 100% of people, but I still think it's pretty common . . . particularly in romantic relationships, tbh.
It's . . . well, friendship is a tricky thing, because like, you put your trust and love into people, and often that's not gonna work out for you and you are gonna get hurt . . . but like, you will always eventually find people that are worth being friends with, and who will appreciate it when you put them before anyone . . .
It's still not anything wrong with you. Like me and Jai have said, being a nice person is good. And getting hurt is, sadly, a part of life . . . and all of you and your siblings will eventually find good friends who won't walk all over you. 'Twill be okay. :) *hugs*
:( I hope your brother's alright, though . . . it really sucks that that's happening to him.
@Chloe: :( :(
Well, I hope the counselling is helpful.
(Part of my whole sports motivation exercise problem is that the sports I probably would enjoy (rock climbing. Boxercize. Not really much else..) either cost a lot or aren't available anywhere near me and because of that I don't do it, because I need to save up or because it's not worth an hour bus ride there for an hour long session of whatever it is.
As well as that my friends don't really exercise.
Grace does Explorers but a) money and b) that isn't just exercise so it probably wouldn't help.
Chloe doesn't do anything.
Neither does Naoise.
My mum runs around the house cleaning.
And like.. No one I'm close to does any exercise that I would do.
My brother does Judo but I was getting hurt too often when I did that so I quit.)
I been doing a lot of talking here so I think it's time to write the disclaimer that I'm not an all-knowing authority and I fully admit that I may be completely wrong. My opionions are opinion, not fact, and if people choose to believe me about anything and find out I am utterly and completely wrong, I'm sorry for misleading you. :(
Msd.
@Jai: Ooh, ikr about the money thing . . . it really sucks that one has to pay money to do a load of these things. I'm lucky in that my parents can and will pay for me, but I realise I'm lucky and I think it sucks . . .
And yeah, Judo is pretty brutual, I think. Never tried it, though.
Could you ask your friends if they'd be interested in starting anything with you? They might be intested in trying something new . . .
Oohhhh gtg bye.
(My brother is over it already
I just don't like seeing my baby brother upset
My sisters concilling is finished )
(Chloe isn't interested in any sport, when she goes to college her plan is to play just dance to keep fit..
Naoise is way to busy.
Grace is busy too.. And would probably demotivate me..
And like.. I'm mainly worried because when I go to college I'm expected to get a job by my mum and step dad and I'm also expected to get good grades and revise.
And I won't have manitory games sessions either do I'll have to do my own exercise to keep fit which just isn't really gonna happen much..
I mean if I do get a job I'll maybe use the money for rock climbing or something..
I'm considering looking for a job with water stones.. Just a part time job..)
@Chloe: :( Don't imagine most people do . . .
@Jai: :/ *hugs*
Yeah . . . college is hard, particularly if you have a job . . .
:) I think a job with Waterstones would be awesome . . . but then again, I love Waterstones. It's one of my favourite places in all of Hull. It's like filled with books and then we have a Costa upstairs so you can sit there and drink in in this lovely warm room filled with books.
:/ I hope you manage to get a job, if you're going to be facing pressure to get one by your mum and stepdad . . . but try not to work too many hours. My school tell me that if one works over 20 hours in a week whilst doing sitxh form as well, that's when your grades start to suffer.
:) Here, rockclimbing is expensive, but the sessions are three hours and most people don't go every week (usually once every two weeks).
RAELLY gtg now.
(Bye star!
What really annoys me about the job thing is my big sister was pressured to get a job so much, like, and unfair amount.
But my big brother is allowed to just never be in the house because he's off smoking weed and never is he told he has to get a job, hell half the time he doesn't even do his chores for the house!
And then I've been told that I have to get a job when I'm at college and it's like ?!?!?! The hell??
I don't know how much rock climbing would cost here.. I dunno. I don't know what I'll do for exercise because no sports interest me..
@chloe *hugs*
I hate seeing my little brother upset too..)
(My brother has now lost his sympathy from me
He almost decapitated me!)
(He almost decapitated you?)
(He kicked a ball at my head
He kicks like a mule)
@Jai: -_- :( :( *hugs . . .*
@Chloe: XD
(Ahh xD Whoopsies.
@Star much -_- Very grrr. *hugs back*)
(I go outside to play sympathy football with him and that's what I get)
(Aww. Poor Chloe :(
Also STAR!
Can we please meet up in the 6 week holiday preferably in August and definitely preferably without Thomas so I can give you your damn Christmas present!!! I know it'll be awkward because we've only ever met up with Thomas there but trust me it'll be trice as awkward (for me anyway) with him there!!! You can bring as many friends as you want and we don't have to hang out if you don't want I just want to give you your damn present!)
(I wanna meet you guys ;-;)
(@Chloe I wanna meet you too! But it's SO EXPENSIVE to meet you!)
For Fabi:
I'm so glad :)
I mean, it was a stupid idea in the first place. Fossil fuels are absolute shit, and I honestly think that big oil corporations are shit, too.
And
I'm so glad you get to keep your yard. I'm sure it is beautiful. (Washington is an awesome and beautiful state!)
(Hey Noelle!!!
I will travel your way Jai in the future ^.^)
(Hi Noelle
@Chloe good! I want to meet you!)
(This time I will be wearing more than a coat too xD )
(And you'll actually be wearing clothes!)
(Yes!!!
For anyone who wasn't there when we met;
I was wearing clothes.. Well a maid outwit which was short and my coat was log so it looks like I was only wearing a coat!)
(It was so short xD I swear you looked so dodgy. Great first impression.)
(Sorry XD )
(It's fine, it was a fitting first inpression)
@Jai: Yep!!
When you get into Facebook comment fights about social justice issues
And you're the only one who uses statistics and reputable resources to back up your argument
(Thank you star! Sorry that it's without Thomas..)
@Noelle: :) Nah, that's good. Pretty much means you win.
I don't tend to look up stats or resources, tbh, not unless it's a) a major argument or b) for debating at school. But I don't often argue about social justice other than lightly/conversationally, so . . . don't have much reason to.
(You know what i said about me and my siblings having friend issues?
I just found out my friend is having a party tonight
My other friends were invited
I wasn't
They look like they're having a blast from the pictures)
@Chloe: :( . . . . *hugs*
(*hugs* atleast I know where I stand now)
:/
(What do they say? The more you do the less that you get
Oh well, I won't have to see my friends again )
(*appears*)
*thanks you get
(*hugs jai*)
(*hugs back* hey)
@Chloe: :/
(Rp?)
(Sure xD you start)
(Where were we?)
Michael: *a furry with a striking resemblance to Alys appears behind the guards, falling over noisily*
*it jumps to its feet and darts into the woods*
Right
Vital question for anyone who's watched Supernatural.
So you know in Season 1 Episode 2 of Supernatural, when they go to that Haley girl's house?
And like there's this scene that goes pretty much like this:
*sound of someone knocking on door without anyone actually knocking on the door* ((bloody continuity error :P))
Haley: *opens door (there's two front doors, and she opens the inner one)*
Dean: You must be Haley Collins. *doesn't wait for an answer, just gestures to himself and Sam* I'm Dean, this is Sam, we're, uh, we're rangers from the park service. Ranger Wilkinson sent us over. He wanted us to ask you a few questions about your brother Tommy?
Haley: *hesitates* Let me see some ID.
Dean: *holds ID up that declares he is Samuel Cole* There you go.
Haley: *scrutinises it closely* *must surely notice it says he's called Samuel despite the fact he just introduced himself as Dean, unless she's blind or illiterate* *doesn't say anything about this obvious discrepancy* ((second continuity error in less than five minutes. *whistles innocently :P)) *looks up at Dean*
Dean: *smiles*
Haley: *opens outer front door* Come in.
Dean: *moves around door so it doesn't like hit him in the head*
Haley: *sees the Impala parked on the curb behind them* That yours?
Dean: *looks pleased* Yeah.
Haley: Nice car. *starts walking inside house*
Dean: *starts walking after her* *turns and mouths something to Sam*
Sam: *rolls eyes and follows them inside the house*
WHAT DOES DEAN MOUTH TO SAM????????? I can't work it out. -_- And I'm like writing it, so I kinda wanna know.
It's probably something about her being hot, and it's like one word, and my lip reading skills are like 0.
(And yes I did just write that entire scene from memory. XD
*goes off to find a life*)
Alts: what...?
(*hides*)
Michael: shh
*the mimic runs in front of the apparently deaf guards*
(*glares at Jai*)
Guards; *are human so don't judge*
Guard 1 : hey you! *runs after it*
(*laughs evilly*)
*it runs as quick as it can*
Michael: *looks slightly weak*
*creeps up behind the other guard silently*
(We aren't into that!)
Guard 1: *chases it$
Alys: *picks up a leaf and chucks it at the guard 2*
*it turns into an enchanted weight that pushes him over and he won't be able to shift if for a few hoursi
(Okay xD)
Michael: *looks confused at the sudden random weight*
(*glares^)
Alys; *whispers* I have magic too.. Come on guys
(*grins* I'm very sowwy.)
Michael: *still looks confhsed*
(No you aren't!!)
Lays: don't question it
Guard 2: HELP ME!!
Alys: q wuick!
(Of course I am!)
Michael: Everyone run!
*grabs Alys' arm, dragging her into a sprint*
(Then you're forgiven)
Als: *runs with him*
*the furries follow*
(*grins*)
Michael: *the mist masks them so he won't be recognized*
*sprints with them through the woods, waiting until they're a safe distance away*
Alys: h how far?
Michael: *slowly slightly*
*the fake Alys from earlier disappears*
*a small fox forms at his feet*
Alys you're in charge now, keep everyone running. I need to go back before the whole place is on lock down.
Alys: o okay.. Be safe!
Michael: *nods before turning to run back towards the house*
*the mist remains around the group*
Alys: c come on guys.. *runs*
*they follow*
Michael: *is being drained quickly, both from running and maintaining the mist and fox*
*shakes his head, continuing to run*
*the fox also runs*
*they get to the lake*
Alys: t this is good enough ..
Eval; so.. What should we do now
Mike: we can live here..
Michael: *stumbles and falls over, groaning, so tired*
*slowly closes his eyes, figuring it's fine to just rest.. Just for a little bit..*
*is at the edge of the woods*
*the fox lays down and sleeps, before both it and the mist fade away*
Als; t the fox has gone.. *somethings telling her that something is up* be r right bak., *runs back to where Michael is*
Count: what's all this noise? *walkz outside with a gun*
Michael: *is still laid down, exhausted*
*hears the count and looks up*
*curses quietly and grabs a sharp rock, making cuts in his skin, rips in his clothes, rubbing dirt into his skin*
*lays back down*
Count: sir? Michael? What did this to you?
Alys; *reaches michael*
*sees the count and freezes*
Count; foxy *points gun at her* you did this!
Alys; n no...
Count: *pulls the trigger*
Als: *tries to move but gets hit in the shoulder*
Michael: W-wait!
*struggles to sit up*
It was the oth-hers.. The tiger..
*looks at Alys*
They took her.. She was with me, they thought I'd squeal. They took me too.
*hate fills his face*
Disrespectful mutts.
Alys: *falls, clutching her shoulder*
Count; why do you cover for her? You don't have to lie Michael
Haha
It was white males
Then it was straight white males
Then it was cis het white males
Nowadays it's cis het mono white slim Christian males
XD It just keeps expanding. I reckon that a few years down the line I'll've found a list of ten adjectives in front of "males."
Michael: I wish I was covering for her, then I wouldn't feel guilty if you were to put a bullet in her head.. But she did nothing.
*looks over at her*
You should leave her for the wolves to find. She might not have wanted to run but she didn't stop them from hurting a human.
Count: she's been nothing but disobedient
I should put her down
(I know star..
My brain can't even comprehend it all..)
(It's growing xD it's almost scary)
Michael: No. Just leave her. She'll likely die from bleeding out anyway.
*uses a tree to pull himself upright*
Count: I'm not cruel, I won't let her suffer more *aims at her head*
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