You guys rock.
Today is my first free day in... days. Which doesn't sound like a big deal, but it is! Today I bought groceries! GROCERIES! Oooooh!
I've had a few days of highly successful signings, and when I say highly successful, I mean they went on for WAY longer than expected. That kinda drains when they come one after another, but I manage to keep my energy up by soaking up the pain and anguish LSODM has caused you. So it's all good.
Now, fair enough, these three don't look PARTICULARLY traumatised, but I assure you they were crying on the inside.
And this Minion had to put her pain down on canvas in order to deal!
And this one gave me cake! CAKE!
And now that I have a few days off before the Manchester and Liverpool signings this Saturday, what am I going to do?
That's right, I'm going to plot out Book Nine, and discover new ways to ruin your happiness.
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#ChaseForBook9
Death...
I love you. *hugs*
Please don't forget about us.
You're 'perfect in every way,' to quote Little Mix. Okay? *hugs tightly*
#ChaseForBook9
There can be no life without Death.
Just saying.
#ChaseForBook9
You know, Shiva and all.
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Harry: *is disorientated* Um.. Okay... *stumbles after Adra*
Hanna: Do you really expect me to put the gun down? *smiles sadly* I would have expected more from you, Mr. Castalan.
#ChaseForBook9
From what I believe in Rose, life and death live in harmony. As equals
*helps Harry along* Right, so what's up with this Hanna chic?
Oh we'll. That's a shame. I just thought I'd give you the option. *energy crushes the barrel of the gun and breaks Hanna's hands. A small ball of electric energy appears inside Hanna, knocking her out cold* Punk. *goes over and cuffs her*
#ChaseForBook9
*offers Marra a hand*
#ChAseForBook9
*tackles Death and ties her to tree*
Death. You don't annoy anyone. You certainly don't annoy me, and I'm very easily annoyed. Don't leave. We wuv you Deathy-poo.
Rose, there is a beauty in life and death.
Everything dies, but once they do, they decompose and become part of something else. To be honest, Eve was a rock once. We were all rocks. It sounds a bit stupid to be honest, but... We were all apart of something in a past life. And we will become something in a future life. The circle of life, Rose. If you really need to leave, and we truly love you, we will let you go. But just remember that I love you, Dannielle. And I always will. <3
(Sorry if I'm a bit late)
May the force be with you Death. Always.
#ChaseForBook9
Harry: Hanna? I don't know any Hannas...
Hanna: *slices shadows through Mara's chest* *collapses, unconscious*
Mara: *gasps* *pulls hand away from chest* *is covered in blood* *falls onto ground*
#ChaseForBook9
New ways to ruin our lives!?
yay
You make me so happy Derek
STOP QUOTING DEREK, KESSIE *pokes* :P
Sorry wrong time
*hugs Death*
Don't let me go... Cause I'm tired of feeling alone...
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Heya Duck!
#ChaseForBook9
Made a wrong turn once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
This is our song, Rose...
Because no matter what, to me, you're Fuckin' Perfect.
*runs over to Mara*
*kneels and presses healing symbols on hands*
*places hands on Mara's chest*
Hi Duck!
De-eath, can you hear us?
But... That woman...
*sets Harry down against a tree, pulling out her supplies* This is taking too long, you'll bleed out im before we get there.
*begins to work on healing his wounds*
"Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good'
It didn't slow me down.
Mistaken, always second guessing
Underestimated, look I'm still around"
*poofs*
Lol.. Harry Styles is in Blogland. And he is dying.
Mara: *stares up at the sky*
It doesn't hurt... It's numb... That's the scary part...
Harry: No... *pushes Adra away* Fix Mara... She's in trouble.
#ChaseForBook9
Gtg. School.
Love you Rose, always will.
((Vale Kess!!))
*glares at him* No.
*begins pouring alcohol over his wounds*
Deathdeathdeathdeathdeathdeathdeath I love you so so so much and if being here really hurts you more than it helps you, then I want you to go, but if there's any way you can think to stay without being hurt, please, please do. I'll never enjoy this place if I know you're gone. Either way, I'm going to email you every day, and if you're not going to be here I need to know you'll respond, at least sometimes.
#ChaseForBook9
Bye Connor. That'll be the shock Mara, we need to get you to a healing facility. *picks her up*
#ChaseForBook9
Hi everyone...
Hi Em! How are you feeling?
#ChaseForBook9
Hey Ari!
Every day is so wonderful
Then suddenly, it's hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed
I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
So don't you bring me down today
No matter what we do
(no matter what we do)
No matter what we say
(no matter what we say)
We're the song inside the tune
Full of beautiful mistakes
And everywhere we go
(everywhere we go)
The sun will always shine
(sun will always shine)
Cause we are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words can't bring us down
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down
Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today
#ChaseForBook9
Hi Ari!
#ChaseForBook9
Hi Em :3
Hey Ari
Harry: Ow! Adra, please!
Mara: *whimpers*
Hey, Em *hugs*
How're you feeling?
#ChaseForBook9
*flies Mara to the lab, putting her down on a bed, tucks her in*
#ChaseForBook9
Brb eating
Remember that time Deacon attacked that hospital? I said I would keep you safe but I didn't? It's not going to be like that this time, you're going to be okay.
#ChaseForBook9
*glares at Harry* Quit whining.
*begins to stich him up, wrapping the cuts up as well*
*gets to work bandaging Adra's cut*
#ChaseForBook9
*Mara's cut
#ChaseForBook9
No matter how many times that you told me you wanted to leave
No matter how many breaths that you took, you still couldn't breathe
No matter how many nights that you lie wide awake to the sound of the poison rain
Where did you go?
Where did you go?
Where did you go?
#ChaseForBook9
Hey, Ari *hugs*
Harry: *glares at Adra*
Mara: I... my chest is burning *gasps*
#ChaseForBook9
((Can't get me off your mind, can ya? I don't blame you. I am rather fabulous.))
*finishes wrapping him up*
Right.
Let's get you to yer fiancee
Yeah, just checking in on everyone.
Letting you know, I'm still here... ish.
Enjoy the rest of the roleplay guys.
*hugs Emmy tightly*
Ummmm. Ummmm. I don't know what to do. *into earpiece* Adra, Mara's cut is burning. Not literally, what do I do?
#ChaseForBook9
*hugs Em* If you ever need someone to talk to, we're always here.
#ChaseForBook9
*My earpiece is crushed*
((Curious- what is that exactly, Mars?))
Harry: Her cut is WHAT
Mara: Oh wow, Trip, that's... reassuring.. *squeezes eyes shut*
*hugs Em tight*
#ChaseForBook9
Yeah... yeah... so I've been told.
And stop hugging, please.
It only makes me feel more shit.
Adra? Adra? Anyone? What do I do? Oh Khorne...
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Oh.. Sorry, Em. :(
#ChaseForBook9
(As in, the cut, Adra?)
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Em, what's wrong? What's on your mind?
#ChaseForBook9
((Yeah Mars))
*screams*
A SHOT OF REALITY HAS BEEN UPDATED BRB READING AND CRYING BC HARRY FEELS
#ChaseForBook9
*goes into the back room, searching through the bottles*
#ChaseForBook9
((By the way- I have tons of acids and bases and everything. In that back closet- don't choose the wrong one*
(Idk. :P Just.. um... idk. Um. I actually can't wait to kill off Mara in something. Like the MC. Speaking of which...)
#ChaseForBook9
So Ari whats gonna blow my mind?
((JESUS WHY))
*is flicking through poisons, mind strays to the amount of soup Adra has mad recently*
#ChaseForBook9
(She's annoying :P)
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(HEY DON'T DROP THAT THUN THUN THUN)
#ChaseForBook9
*pulls Harry towards the lab*
Right, come on
You wanna know what's on my mind?
Really?
I want to die...
I have tried 3 times in the last few weeks and there's always something or someone putting me on a guilt trip.
I can't fight a diseased body AND a diseased mind, on top of heartbreak.
I just want... to fucking die and be left alone peacefully for once in my god damn life.
That's...
But that's not gonna happen. Nothing I ever plan to do ever happens the way it's meant to.
*runs back out, with nothing to show for it*
#ChaseForVook9
Like we would let you die, Emerald. Honestly. You mean so much more to us than that
*drags Harry through the door*
Em... *Hugs her tightly* So many people are only here because of you. We need you. I need you. Please Em...
Most things people plan to do don't go out the way they planned.
Em, I don't want to guilt trip you, I see it as disrespectful and dishonourable, but there are people who depend on you, need you. I haven't a lot to say, as you are far older and more experienced than me, but please, one day you'll look back at these times, and call them the dark times in your life.
That's all I have, one meagre grain of hope. For you are far wiser than me, and giving you advice is like giving The Buddha a lesson in meditation.
#ChaseDorBook9
What about what I need?
What I want?
What you need? I do not know.
What you want...
#ChaseForBook9
You're entitled to everything you want and what you need. If I can give you that, give you anything, I'll do it.
Em, we can't let you kill yourself. That's what you want, isn't it? Well that's can't happen. We still have Ireland. I still have to meet you. I just can't not see my best friend. You are just so wise and- I'm sorry. But I need you Em... You're the only one I can go to about my problems. It's selfish to say that, but please don't go. Your life is worth so much more than you see
But it's what I want *starts to cry*
I just need that peace, I'm tired of fighting against life.
Jesus I wouldn't mind if it was fucking small stuff but it's not.
It has just been major life changing events, one after the bloody other since I was 16.
I just need *tries to take a deep breath*... peace.
Who said peace had anything to do with dying? Why don't you make a life changing event on your terms? Why does it have to always be other things that control you, right? It isyour life, Em. You deserve to change it as well
Oh Jesus, just fucking forget it.
You don't understand and I'm just fighting with the fucking wall.
It doesn't even matter anymore because I know I'm not gonna get what I want or the peace that I need.
Forget it.
Sorry... I was trying to help
Ah...
...
*goes and takes her soup from the cooking pot, giving herself a little then making a portal and going through, coming back several minutes later with an empty pot*
*leans against the counter, eating*
*lays curled up in a ball crying* I wanna die i cant do this...
125?
Ughh...
I hate that I love you guys so much.
You make it so hard to leave you...
... I hope that's a good thing?..
*offers a kiwano*
hi
shouldn't be around, just wanted to say... well, hi!
i may reappear alot, but i may not as well.
hello..?
Hi- sorry. I'm still doing homework
*raises her soup bowl* And eating
Omg one of my best friends is in LSODM....someone I know irl
I'm reading up on all the old Disney Channel shows omg
Kim Possible :')
And Cory in the House. And That's So Raven!
Sigh. I miss Disney /:
#ChaseForBook9
I WANT TO READ LSODM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OR I WILL DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Shh... Spoilers, Zaf.
Omg
The Replacements
I was obsessed with that show
PETITION TO BRING BACK ALL OLD DISNEY CHANNEL SHOWS
#ChaseForBook9
OR BOTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OR BOTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*sighs*
anyone feel like saving me from the math monster? no?
*sits and sulks*
why is no one around when i am???????
*sobs* REMEMBER WHEN THE SUITE LIFE OF ZACK AND CODY HAD A HSM EPISODE AND APPARENTLY MADDIE SOUNDED NOTHING LIKE SHARPAY
#ChaseForBook9
EVERYBODYS ALWAYS TALKING LIKE ME
EVERYBODYS TRYING TO GET IN MY HEAD I WANNA LISTEN TO MY OWN HEART TALKING
DADLKJHBAJKHDFLD SELF INSTEAD
omg!! old disney shows mara??
i loved the replacements and kim possible.
*sighs*
i wish they would bring 'em back.
*blinks* huh, adra?
BET ON IT BET ON IT
BET ON IT BET ON IT
*stares* what are you on about, adra??
HIGH SCHOOL MUSICALLLLL
GODS
yeah... i haven't watched that... *shrugs*
g2g, byee!!
Bye!
*waves*
MY BOOK JUST ARRIVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hello...
Em! *Hugs* I left this morning. I'm back for you.
Wait, so does that mean you're not actually leaving, Death?
#ChaseForBook9
Kila OH MY JESUS
Hi Em
I am leaving. I just have to know that Em is alright.
Back for me?
You don't have to be Rose, honestly.
ARI!!!! I'd say blow my mind but I gotta go at 9:30 so we must tomorrow
Oh. Can I still talk to you via email?
#ChaseForBook9
Em, you are my sister and I love you. If you're not okay, I'm not okay. I have to know that you'll be okay. *Hugs tightly*
Ari, sure.
Msd. I'm in science with my iPod.
Em- I have a thing to say. but one of my hands is occupied with a phone, so I can only type with one finger, but once I'm done I'll tell you.
#ChaseForBook9
Sorry, I just got a text from one if my old friends in North Carolina... We haven't spoken in years.
*hugs Em again*
Hi Zaf!
#ChaseForBook9
I'm not okay Death.
I feel like crap, emotionally on top of everything else.
I don't know if I will be okay for a while...
*hugs Ari* I need to go cry i do
Hi Adra! And anybody else who's here! I have very limited typing abilities at the moment...
#ChaseForBook9
Is there anything I can do, Em?
Ok, back to two hands, but I have to help a friend with her homework, so I'll be gone for 10-20 mins, but I'll be back after that! *hugs Zaf* *hugs everyone tightly, even if they're not here right now*
#ChaseForBook9
*hugs Ari* Even if its past 9:30 ill try to stay on
Then's nothing anyone can do Rose...
nothing.
What?
... Hello?
Em I just did the following: I have said fuck in every setence
I know that this isn't the right mood for me to say this but I have a limited time so...
GUYS
I'M IN WASHINGTON DC
:D
Right sorry I'm semi back.
*waves*
Hey Sparks
FLORA THE SHIT,
*punches her*
Flora OMG
Adra help legit help I'm at THE part...
I don't know what you mean.
125?
Because if you are, no spoilers. Shh
Em, if there is anything I can do, tell me. I'll swim to Ireland if I have to, okay sis?
Em, I'd just like to point something out to you, now that I have two hands and therefore ten fingers at my disposal. And similarly to Trip, I have a ton of respect for you and I know you're older and wiser than I am, and you have more experience, and I in no way, shape, or form intend to tell you how to feel or presume to know how you're feeling better than you yourself. But you said what you want is to die, and I think what you actually want is something very different. In short, if I interpreted correctly, your life has been one tragedy after another- and I don't take the word tragedy lightly- for years now, and you've never had a chance to let go of the pain and truly be happy. You can't feel peace, and you think you never will, so you want to die, in hopes that maybe you'll find peace in death. But when I hear you say something like that, I don't believe what you really want is to die. I think what you really, truly want is just to be happy. You want peace. The only reason you say you want death is because you think you can't have peace in life. But the problem with that is
a) people care about you. All of us here- you're part of our family. We need you like we need air. And there's the fact that every time a good person dies- their light goes out- the world is that much darker. And humankind desperately needs all the light that it has.
b) will you find peace when you die? You're assuming so- from your perspective of life, at the very least it can't be any worse, and you'd rather feel nothing than so much pain, so death should be a welcome relief. But even though you've been through so many years of pain, there is still happiness in the world, and the only way to feel it is to keep living. Even if you can never quite let go of all the pain, at least you can feel some happiness at some point in your life. You're still very young when you consider that a full human lifetime can last a little over 100 years, and even though that might look to you like more and more years of pain, it can also be years worth of opportunities to find happiness. You have children to care for, and I'm sure they can bring you plenty of happiness. Do you like the feel of the sun on your back in the summer, or the way the breeze ruffles your hair in the fall? The taste of your favorite food? The feel of your favorite clothes? The sound of your children's laughter? These are things you'll never be able to experience again if you die. But every day that you spend alive is a new chance to be happier. It may not come today, or tomorrow, or even a year from now, but if you stay alive you will find happiness again, and even though you've been through so much, if you give your life a chance, in the end it might actually be worth it.
#ChaseForBook9
Totally PSYCHED right now :D
Been here the last few days - yesterday we went and said hey to Lincoln (the picture is on my twitter) and today we went and sat in Senate and listened to them discussing the whole Syria thing :D
god...I'm such a geek :P
tomorrow we're heading off to go and spend a few days with the Amish :D
51 fucks sake look at my tweet to Derek it'll give you the gist of what I mean
^ that goes for everyone who tries to or wants to end their own life. Minus a few Em-specific parts (most of us don't have children).
Hi Sparky!
#ChaseForBook9
There's nothing Death...
I wish I could tell you but I just... *starts to cry*
*hugs Ari tightly* If i disappear assume I fell asleep and will be back fully at like 5:30 tomotrow (and I'm still asleep beside Niccolo holding his hand you movr me or him befoe I wake I skin ya!)
*hugs Em tightly* You can make it, Em, I know you can. And we'll be here for you, whenever you need us.
#ChaseForBook9
((He didn't just lay there that whole time... XD Night, Zaf!))
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Em...
((Lemme fall asleep by him pwease? I have no god damn emotion left between LSODM and....you know...))
..I don't think there is anything I can say that can top that, so I won't try to. But Em, you know how much I love you. Please don't let all those wonderful times be fire nothing. Tortilla?
Singing the Bohemian Rhapsody?
All those Skype calls with Sam and Flame and they were totes flirting with each other?
The time I my legs failed me??
Okay I be off before I get caught awake! *nods and falls asleep wherever Coco is* ( He comforting to me shhh please Im prolly gonna cry myself to sleep I have no emotions left)
I would say something to you Em but I don't feel like we know each other enough for me to be able to say anything of much worth. Plus, all your closer friends can say exactly what I would say and much much more a lot better, so I'm just going to leave it to them and, instead, just give you a hug
*hugs Em*
We all love you, okay?
AY! When NJ burst our ears!
*poofs for real*
I just want that peace.
That security. That comfort.
I just want all of it back because it's just been taken from me and now I just feel cold and vulnerable because of it.
((Realistically, there's no way he'd stay in one place for that long, unless there was another thing going on, but there isn't... But technically I haven't moved him, so you can say you're both in the same place. If I rp later tonight, though, I'll go back to the 'he moved' thing.))
#ChaseForBook9
*looks at Flora's name*
Sticker.
STICKERRRRR *claws at it* I HATE THAT WORD
Emerald Melody. Please... This is where I really envy Ari and her way with words. But Emerald. You've pretty much taken me in and made me feel at home. I don't know how I could ever repay you...
*Hugs Em tightly* I love you, big sister. I love you so much. Please don't leave me...
@Adra: why do you hate stickerrr?? :(
that part of my name is from the sticker war me and Luce had at leeds :P
*paws at Em's arm*
Oi. Listen up. You aren't vulnerable. And when all this happened those months ago, I told you it wouldn't be easy, remember? I told you it would take years at least. And you said you know. Remember the five stages? The third one, Em. That's farther than you were. Not that that matters in any rate, but I know you remember that conversation. But I told you that I would be there for you, as would everyone else and we'd help you through it. Because you're not alone. Ever. Never have to be.
It has been taken from you- that's so painfully true- but you can get that feeling back. As hard as it is, if you stay alive you can find something else that makes you feel that way. If you die, you'll never have the chance.
#ChaseForBook9
Em, look at this. I mean, I've never been too too close to you, but I still care about you immensely, and so does everyone else here. Adra and Death are obviously especially close to you. There's a reason why we care so much. People like us don't find ourselves drawn to dark people. We find the special ones- the good ones- the ones that bring light to the earth. Lights search for other lights, because so much of the world is dark, and we cling to each other. Simply put, you're more important to us than you even realize, Em, and you're more amazing than you'll ever be able to realize if you end your life now. We want you happy. We know that's what you deserve, and we know you can get it if you just keep living. We wouldn't want you here so badly if it was really going to be pure misery all the time. There is hope, hard as it may be to see, but you can only reach it if you give yourself a chance.
#ChaseForBook9
Um... Are you all still here, or...?
#ChaseForBook9
I'm trying really hard for everyone. Because I do have people who need me.
I have you guys, my son and Chase's kids. And I know that everyone needs me.
But something that Adra said to me really hit home. When your body is trying to kill you, it doesn't help that your mind tries to kill you too.
And she's right.
I'm the no man's land in this epic battle of which one is gonna kill me first.
Rather than the battle of which will kill you first, why not make it the battle between life and death? I know you're trying hard. I'm not in your position, so I can't say too much, but you can choose to live, as impossible as it seems, and that choice- that chance at happiness you can get from living- that's something to fight for.
#ChaseForBook9
distant/msd, sorry... But if anyone needs/wants to talk to me, I'll respond to an email for a while longer. :)
#ChaseForBook9
-Adra's right here-
And what Adra meant is that yes, it is hard. But the fact that you have made it for this long is fucking awesome. Why stop now? Prove yourself wrong. Hell, even put yourself in Drew's shoes if it helps. Pull from their strength, because he's a part of you. He came from you.
Hel.... Lo?
No...?
Hi sparkylarkydoodah.
*nods*
... Please never call me that again.
i just had to do an anime caricature. i did a ninja.
hi, btw
Hi Snow...
But SPARKYYYY
No.
*stern face*
No.
and now i have to go
BYE!
Bye Snow!
PLEEEEEAAASSSEEEEE
...Sparky?
Nothing? At all?
Okay...
*gets a phone call*
*frowns* Well then...Another long night...
*grumbles and makes a portal, heading for New Delhi*
No.
*waves faintly, already getting to work*
((Which means I'll be going now nighty night Spar-chan.))
D:
hello...?
*sniffs*
my friends are so nice, reading my (probably boring) blog...
Hey hey hey.
hey sparks.
you need a random question on you profile. *nods*
Do I?
Hey, btw, how old are you?
why?? *raises eyebrow* tell me first, mate.
SAPH!!!
Why... What?
Tell you what?
How old I am?
*fistpumps*
okay, i ded to...
being free.
*nods at sparky*
I'm 15.
And curious.
*shrugs* fair enough.
i want you to guess first, hough. just a little experiment.
*Though
... 13?
*nods* exactamoondo.
*bows*
i guess i portray my age well.
though one time someone guessed 15... *shrugs* they were so... disbelieving.
*nods*
I'm pretty good at guessing.
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