Wednesday, August 17, 2016

American Monsters Tour

The third and final book in the Demon Road series is almost upon us... (of course, if you're in Ireland, it may be upon you already...)

Tour details are below. If you can make it, AWESOME. If we're not going anywhere near you, hopefully we will at some stage in the future.


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Jophiel said...

I think it's about time I get to dedicate after all these years, eh?

Jophiel said...

I dedicate this page to the oldies - the family I met when I first poked my head in in August of whoknowswhen. Ink (Star) was the first person to say hi to me, and Nix and Zath were like the epic older brothers that I'd always wanted.

I miss that family. Sure, the new generation are pretty sweet, but I yearn for the days. I loved that atmosphere. We could talk shit for pages and pages, we could fill a post overnight (for an Aussie). Where Eve spammed the damn post button and filled a few pages of the same comment. Where Eden and I were a thing, then me and Dwyer(?) were a thing, and a few others...

But then again, there has been a lot of shit on this blog that I would much rather not remember - but it needs to be said. This blog made my depression so damn bad, you don't understand. There were certain people who made it worse (I won't throw names around), and people who I shouldn't have been responsible for. I've had several accounts claiming to be Chase email me. I've had people threaten to kill themselves because I was low. When I was planning on going, they made everything worse because they were going to go with me. There have been fights. There have been arguments and heartbreak and some of the world's most painful memories.

Anyone remember the Requiem Ball? We don't do it anymore. It's where I first fell in love. It was the highlight of my year for a while. It was glorious and perfect...

But that was the old days.

It's time to move on.

Now, all you newbies (and Noelle <3) this blog is yours. It's your responsibility. Either you can bring her back to her former glory, or you leave her to dwindle out with a few of you commenting every few days. But either way, the choice is YOURS. It's your turn to make a new Blogland.

Make us proud.

Aquila Felis said...

Hear hear.

Heh, I remember stuff even older than that. I remember when this blog had a cliffedge you could jump off, but you'd always safely land in jelly. One time we had a lake filled with liquor, another time we were attacked by an army of trollys.
It was quite insane, for a while, but also insanely fun.
... I think I once had an army of killer-hedgehogs or something.
... of course, they weren't all that deadly.
Still should have a treehouse somewhere round here.

Jophiel said...

Sparky's treehouse, yeah? And that damn cliff... I even had a base that ended up becoming untouchable because it was filled with acidic liquid light...

Damn. I miss it.

Aquila Felis said...

I had my own treehouse! It started off as a nest, cause Aquila was an eagle. ^^

Acidic liquid light? Why did no one give you a vantablack bucket?? Here, have one.
-hands you a vantablack bucket-

Inky Flame #2 said...

Hear hear! I really hope this place can be revived... I've met all you amazing people and it's just been a big part of my life. Like, I talk to Jai all the time, she's my best friend, and although me and Ed aren't together now, we are still good friends

Aquila Felis said...

Well, it's fun to have OCs interact? That's a solid base to revive this thing on.. because it was the live of it, in the first place. The whole emotional interpersonal things kinda... made it complicated.
But in the beginning, I think we were all just here to play with our OCs like we'd play with dolls. It's what I still do with Sven, and it's still fun to me.
Dunno, do you guys still have OCs to play with?

Inky Flame #2 said...

Yep ^.^ Inky is forever active in my mind
I guess she's my fursona

Aquila Felis said...

Aquila got a lot more sassy by now, and Swirl is a confident mess. They are fun to have in my mind, too. ^^
And Sven has like a whole horde of OCs. I sometimes lose track by now. xD

Not sure I remember Inky well, what's she like ?

Inky Flame #2 said...

She's a very kind and loyal wolf, loves her friends and family dearly. Ed isn't really around much anymore but she does her best for her children

I got a horde of characters too xD I actually made a list of them

Aquila Felis said...

I'm still at only two, but I doubt I could handle more. xD

Aquila is fine and fairly normal, but damn. Swirl and her glitter. ... tooo much trouble at times. xD
Technically, Swirl is far more dangerous than Aquila, but you wouldn't know until she shrinks you and cuts your head off with a scythe.

Inky Flame #2 said...

Hehehe awesome!
I think my main characters are inky, tawnee, felix and alys

Jophiel said...

*stares at the vantablack bucket*

Huh. That's ingenious.

Inky Flame #2 said...

Hello Jo ^.^

Jophiel said...

See, Rose is gone. She's been gone for a while. All I have is Joph and Sach, and they're angels. Joph is some innocent little kinky thing, and Sach just likes to torture.

Poor Rose...

Jophiel said...

*salutes Inky*

Rose is still cool if ya want boo :*

Aquila Felis said...

See? Ingenious solutions. Imma make that my business. One ingenious solution costs one cookie. The first one is free. -nodnod-

I'll have a cookie-empire in no time.

Jophiel said...

That means you'll have a dark empire... Doesn't that sound a little Star Wars-y to you?

Aquila Felis said...

Hrm, never watched Star Wars. Something about it just rubs me the wrong way... I very much like Star Trek, though.
And, who says they are dark cookies? They may be Leibniz Butterkekse - those are light! (And only original with 42 teeth. -nodnod-)

Aquila Felis said...

Correction. The cookies have 52 teeth, it seems. :p

Inky Flame #2 said...

Okay ^.^

I still need to see rogue 1 ;-;

Aquila Felis said...

... I still need to see the fifth Pirates movie. Dang, I love those movies. When the first one came out I was eleven, went to see it with my friend - and haven't missed one since. xD
Oh, and the second Incredibles movie is on my list, too. Once it's out.

Inky Flame #2 said...

THE NEW PIRATES IS GREAT

Aquila Felis said...

SHHH, DON'T SPOILER ME!

Damn, really need to go and see it soon.

Bbs, food

Inky Flame #2 said...

Okay ^.^ speak soon!

Imma gonna give my hula hoop a whirl

Jophiel said...

I haven't seen Star Wars either, but something about Empires or something...

*waves to Inky*

wanna know something cool...?

Inky Flame #2 said...

Oh yes please ^.^

Jophiel said...

I've spent over six months thinking I could never fall in love again after this one guy crushed my soul.

Now I've been talking to this guy I went to high school with and things are beginning to change...

:)

Inky Flame #2 said...

Omg I'm so happy for you!!!! I hope it all works out ^.^

I've... recently entered a relationship with a guy who lives about an hour away from uni
We met on an online pagan community and things are going great

Jophiel said...

Thank you <3

And aww that's really cute! It sucks about the distance though, at least he's kinda close!

Aquila Felis said...

Good relationships are so darn great. I already met Sven's family, and he's coming over to meet mine in a couple weeks. Gotta drag him around like five different families so my curious relatives have seen him all. xD
He's a bit scared. :p

Inky Flame #2 said...

Yeah ^.^ it's like one of the closests relationships I've had, and he's visiting me asap when I get back to uni

Awww well I hope it all goes well Aquila!

Aquila Felis said...

Oh it better should, I rearranged my room and changes some furniture just to get a sofa that extends into a 1,20 m wide bed - cause there was no way he'd fit into my 90 cm one with me. xD
I'll make him try all the German foods, too, and take him to castles and lakes and stuff. :3

Inky Flame #2 said...

Sounds like fun *.^

Aquila Felis said...

Sure will be. ^^ We have a castle on top of a former volcano, the largest lake in Europe, the alps, the black forest... we'll have plenty to see without leaving my federal state.
Oh, and Mannheim, the city of squares, where you can live in A1 instead of having a street name.:p

Inky Flame #2 said...

Awesome!!!
Here we have... well... sheep xD

Aquila Felis said...

Oh, I saw some sheep working in Austria that are a special breed, basically named glasses-sheep. They kinda have a black, glasses-shaped mask of hair on their face. ^^
Seems it's called Jezersko–Solčava in English, and the breed is older than the first wordl war... in any case, they look kinda funny. ^^

Inky Flame #2 said...

Awww that sounds cute!

Aquila Felis said...

They sure are. ^^ Oh, I'm kind of scared of cows though. Yes, they don't mean to hurt you - but even if they just playfully bump you with their head you'll get bruised.
In fact, cows are the animals that cause the most deaths around the alps - because people go along hiking paths over meadows with cows, with their dogs. And then the cows have calfs, and think the dog is dangerous, so they try to shoo the dog away.
But the humans think the cows are attacking their dog, so they try to get between cow and dog. They should just let the dog run away and come back to them later, but noooo... they get trampled by a cow instead.
-shakes head-
Cows. Kinda cute and usually harmless... except when they're not. >.>

Inky Flame #2 said...

My friend is scared of cows
I've never really been up close to one so...

Aquila Felis said...

Oh, just assume that their heads are as tall as you, but their bodies are as big as a bathing tub and they weigh easily a hundred times what you weigh.
Being scared of cows is pretty understandable, to me. I mean, they honestly, really don't usually mean harm. They are herbivores, after all. But yeah... a scared or angry cow is faster, stronger, and heavier than you. So it's best to keep a respectful distance. ^^

Inky Flame #2 said...

In the woods where I live some bulls managed to escape
I wouldn't have liked to bump into one xD

Aquila Felis said...

Ooooh, my dad has a good story about an escaped bull.
So, my dad was working on a farm for a while. And one day they noticed the bull was no longer standing in its place - so they ran out through a door in a huge, metal side of the barn, closed the door.
Just a few seconds after, the bull ran against that side of the barn, and the whole side lifted ten cm off ground before swinging back down.
They called the farmer. The farmer went in hitting the bull in the head with a broom. The bull didn't really notice being hit, but it knew the farmer so it went back to its place and allowed them to tie it up again.
If you ever see a farmer hitting a bull or large pig with a broom? Don't get upset too quickly. I swear, they usually hardly feel it.

Inky Flame #2 said...

Oh wow!

I don't wanna work tomorrow ;-;

Aquila Felis said...

What are you doing for work?

Inky Flame #2 said...

Packing facemasks 8-5

Aquila Felis said...

... sounds factory-y. Do you get to listen to music?

Inky Flame #2 said...

It is a factory xD
Yep we have the radio
But it's normally BBC radio 1 on which is crap

Aquila Felis said...

Ey, anything is better than Schlager.
If you've never heard Schlager, you'll find plenty examples on youtube.
People here joke that that music is against the geneva convetion of human rights. ;)

John said...

Well after a ded like that and having just let everyone know I'm still alive what kind of person would I be to screw off into obscurity again?

I do hate being called a "newbie" though, gamer thing.

Aquila Felis said...

I wonder if we're not all obscure, one way or another. I mean, most of us never met the other people here - or only very few of them.
So technically, you can hang around daily and still be obscure. ... though it works better if you don't have a picture of yourself. ;P

(I mean, my picture would be proof of a crime if this lilly wasn't a subspecies that is not listed on the threatened species list of just that one federal state in Austria I plugged it in...
... in any other country, if caught, I'd face a several thousand Euro fine.
Ooops.Actually, it probably SHOULD be a crime there, too. Just that they were too stupid to add all subspecies of that lilly. They only added the other one.
Just gotta love having a job where you commit crimes by accident.
Still need to improve my knowledge of plants.)

Inky Flame #2 said...

Haiiii John!

John said...

-waves-

Yo.

Inky Flame #2 said...

Dammit I'm always late

Inky Flame #2 said...

I hate it when a night out is cancelled last minute

Aquila Felis said...

Understandable.

I actually have a strong dislike for any kind of not keeping an appointment.

Adra Cruciatus, Little said...

I've stopped for the evening in london and now I'm ready to go home :) yay!

Jophiel said...

Turns out that guy was just another fuckboy.... >.>

In other news, guess who has the stomach flu and is house sitting and has to take care of herself without meds or painkillers?

This mofo right here

John said...

"What kind of person would I be to leave?" *IMMEDIATELY LEAVES*

You gonna be okay there? To my knowledge a stomach flu has never killed anyone but hey I'm not a doctor...

Jophiel said...

*hugs John gently*

I think I will, I'm just suffering right now... I'll be good eventually... <3

John said...

Mk, long as you're gonna survive it.

*Hugs*

It's been a while, have you been alright?

Jophiel said...

I know, I haven't thought about this place for months, and I thought it's about time to poke my head back around for a bit. I've been through a lot, but I'm decent.

How have you been?

Jophiel said...

Sorry for the super late reply, I lost a cat and only just found him.

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Inky Flame #2 said...

Getting my new tattoo today
Nervous but excited

Aquila Felis said...

... how the heck do you even get with so many guys? Like, you make it sound like you mess up with another one every other week...
... if so, raise your standards dammit! You're an intelligent (probably, you got into uni), independent (you better be at that age) woman (by legal age?), so you can do better than half-assed idiots with fear of commitment.
Just sayin.

Adra Cruciatus, Little said...

I'm finally home.. it's so nice. But I'm also horribly ill right now, and might have to go to the Urgent Care because I have a hernia 🙃

Adra Cruciatus, Little said...

Which is perfect, you know, after 48 hours of travel.

Vivanus Keen said...

*slinks in, repairs all the benches, slinks out*

John said...

Oh, cool.

*Sits on a bench*

Jophiel said...

I have a kitty on my desk who keeps knocking stuff off.

I finally understand everything now.

Jophiel said...

That moment when you think something is due tomorrow but it's actually due the day after so you can either go to sleep before midnight or stay up to watch some netflix and be tired in the morning so you end up writing a comment on here instead because yolo and now you gotta go find the satan kitty because he sleeps on your bed and he's not here

Octaboona Ambrosius - (Eater of the Octa Octa no Mi) said...

Adra you were in Israel and London and I didn't know? I should check this blog more!

Hope you had a really lovely time, I'm going to be going to Israel on Wednesday.

Also I just got offered my first job as a library assistant which is super exciting!

Adra Cruciatus, Little said...

Hi Octa! I was indeed!! It had its ups and downs, and I'm still quite ill from dehydration and exhaustion, but it was an incredible experience. I was going to maybe meet up with Noam, but it was hard for me to navigate around Shabbat and also have money to get to where she is/ have free time at the same time.. :(

But lucky me, I was able to see Trip and Laura whilst in London, and that was awesome :$
Next time, we shall grab lunch! I'll drag along a whole bunch of you crazies and we can all meet up, for old time's sake! I hope to go to London next summer again!

And- really??? That's fantastic! *Many many hhgs* I'm so proud of you!!

Inky Flame #2 said...

Happy Lammas!!

Inky Flame #2 said...

Hellooooo

The Awesomely Awesome Ninja Llama who is just so Awesomely Awesome and she was so Awesomely Awesome that everyone DIED (aka FreakFan) said...

Hey guys,

It has been years since I've contributed to the comment section of this blog. Im at university now, in my home country of New Zealand, but still love the books, and popped onto the blog randomly to see what Derek has been up to. I'm so sad that he has been inactive here, this place was my family all those years ago when I created this account (as you can see I had very odd taste in names). Everyday after school I would come online and speak to everyone, lile Eve and Flame Phoenix and Ink Star and countless other people who I would talk to for hours and hours until the comments reached the maximum, and then we'd hop onto an older post to continue on the conversations.

Those were the days.

My account says it was created in July 2011, but of course I was a fan long before that, and I'm lucky to say that I've met Derek twice now and that I have all of my books signed. I thorougly enjoyed his latest book, I managed to buy a copy from a bookshop who had put them on sale an hour before they were properly released, I was over the moon!

I'm just writing this to wish that everyone here is happy and to tell you all to never let go of the child that you once were. We all had such imaginations, especially violent ones thanks to Derek's books, and I hope a part of who we once were will always remain inside of us.

Derek, if you read this, I miss you and your funny posts, I hope to meet you again one day when you do your next tour.

Love from,
FreakFan
(Bianca, age 18)

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Adra Cruciatus, Little said...

Hi Bianca!

I don't know if you remember me, but I do remember you- we spoke a few times ^.^

I am pleased that life has been up for you, and I wish you all the best of luck at Uni!!!

Inky Flame #2 said...

*rolls in* hello!!

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Fabi -- The killer that sends heart emojis at everyone and hasn't actually killed anyone yet / fashion-conscious fire wraith said...

Oh...

Inky Flame - member of the butter glutton fandom said...

FABI

Fabi -- The killer that sends heart emojis at everyone and hasn't actually killed anyone yet / fashion-conscious fire wraith said...

INKY

Emerald Melody said...

so baby pull me closer in the backseat of your rover that I know you can't afford, bite that tattoo on your shoulder. Pull the sheets right off the corner of the mattress that you stole from your roommate back in Boulder, we ain't never getting older

Goodness, there's still life in the old girl yet!

Emerald Melody said...

Anyone play any Steam games??

I'm starting to get into them now since I got a shed load of vouchers for last Christmas.

Laptop has been hijacked though cause I made the silly mistake of letting my sister plays Sims 4 and now she's hooked lol

Inky Flame - member of the butter glutton fandom said...

Em!! How're you???

I would play but I have no time nor money ;-;

Adra Cruciatus, Little said...

It has been one full year on this post

Adra Cruciatus, Little said...

I've been visiting Aretha for the past few days, and it was a blast. I love her to bits and she is a precious bean who must be protected <3

We also went to a Krav class

She is also a scary bean who can kill people

<3

Adra Cruciatus, Little said...

Sometimes people pretend that you're a bad person so that they don't feel guilty about the things they have done to you.

Fabi -- The killer that sends heart emojis at everyone and hasn't actually killed anyone yet / fashion-conscious fire wraith said...

I'm glad you and Ari got to spend time together!

And yes. That's sad but true...

Sav said...

Nice to see that people still come on here occasionally. Miss you all. - Saoirse x

Inky Flame - member of the butter glutton fandom said...

Guys
I love y'all
Please email me

Feraaaa32 said...

OI .... dafuq you think you doing in my blog?

Trip Castalan, Lord of The Hobbits, The Fourth Most Popular Folk/Parody Banana Thief In The Land said...

I think you'll find that this is my blog, which is why I don't post here very often.

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Trip Castalan, Lord of The Hobbits, The Fourth Most Popular Folk/Parody Banana Thief In The Land said...

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Truly, this is the pinnacle of literary manoeuvring.

Moss Harbor Elsinore Lantern Cryptic said...

Amazing.

Worthless, the Second Best said...

It's because when a Aretha and I talk, we literally write like that xD
We talk like doggo memes

Feraaaa32 said...

I am not very alive but somewhere in between I'd say.

Trip Castalan, Lord of The Hobbits, The Fourth Most Popular Folk/Parody Banana Thief In The Land said...

The books always used to come out around now and my mind keeps thinking that the new book from the new trilogy should be being released and then remembering that it was only released a few months ago. I have a pretty insatiable appetite for more though, so that's good.

Fabi -- The killer that sends heart emojis at everyone and hasn't actually killed anyone yet / fashion-conscious fire wraith said...

[throws purple glitter at Trip and then vanishes]

Trip Castalan, Lord of The Hobbits, The Fourth Most Popular Folk/Parody Banana Thief In The Land said...

:D
*Is totally glittered*

*shimmers merrily*

Hehe good to read you Fabi

Fabi -- The killer that sends heart emojis at everyone and hasn't actually killed anyone yet / fashion-conscious fire wraith said...

Likewise, my good friend.

How's life treating you lately?

Trip Castalan, Lord of The Hobbits, The Fourth Most Popular Folk/Parody Banana Thief In The Land said...

I'm doing really well thanks :) I had a pretty rough time of it a couple of weeks ago, but with some positive changes and some help from Adra I got through it. I'm back to my cheery old self. I'm doing my A levels now, so I'm learning so much so consistently, it's beautiful.

How are things on your end?

Worthless, the Second Best said...

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-HB/Joe- said...

Tom Rosenthal:

"and Time was with him again,
forming on the left.

What if this voyage would take him to death?

and if this was the end,
there were so many things
he wished he had said.

there were so many things, he wished he had said."

Surely this is not the end, but if it is; you were all fantastic. Absolutely fantastic. And do you know what? So was I.

Mycroft Holmes (Ember) said...

Oh my god, it's been forever

Mycroft Holmes (Ember) said...

I was recounting my days spend talking to you guys on this blog to a friend and I realised how much I missed you all...

Mycroft Holmes (Ember) said...

Also, Fabi, I sent you an email just now but I'm not sure if you check your email anymore, so

Inky Flame #2 said...

Hey?

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HI?

Worthless, the Second Best said...

Dad

Trip Castalan, Lord of The Hobbits, The Fourth Most Popular Folk/Parody Banana Thief In The Land said...

Mum?

Worthless, the Second Best said...

:D

*Shuffles over and snuggles Trip* *Showers with kisses*

Anthony Fungus said...

do all you guys do is do this role play thing?

Worthless, the Second Best said...
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Worthless, the Second Best said...

I want to take up less space in the world

Anthony Fungus said...

did any read demon road and see that Amber had online friends

Anthony Fungus said...

It was like Derek Landy took inspiration in this chat thing

Feraaaa32 said...

fuck. how dead is this? XD

Anthony Fungus said...

Very

Inky Flame #2 said...

God I miss this place

Matex Von Darkhour - マテクス said...

*free hugs for anyone still ghosting*

Hope you're feeling better Ari :(

Hey Inky!! I miss it too. I check back every now and then hoping to see a new post. Derek has said on more than one occasion that the blog is not forgotten, but still nothing changes. Regardless, I hope everyone is doing well.

(Especially Jophiel, if you're still around? I'm an Aussie too :) Seems like you were having a hard time this year - hope things are working out better for you)

Fabi -- The killer that sends heart emojis at everyone and hasn't actually killed anyone yet / fashion-conscious fire wraith said...

Oh hey it's my fifth blogversary. Or maybe it is tomorrow. Might be tomorrow. TBH I forget.

Jophiel said...

Hey kids. I'm kinda surprised that this has been so dead. Honestly, I'm not sure what to think. But I have a really important thing for you guys to understand.

Jophiel said...

I always say how this place used to drag me down, and once I got away, I got better. I never meant that as an insult. It has just taken me some time (and some therapy) to realise that I, a young and easily influenced teenager, was being emotionally manipulated by people on this platform that I considered my closest friends.

I didn't realise it at the time.

I didn't realise that people emailing you claiming to be a dead friend and begging you not to tell anyone was so torturous.

Chase was emailing me. He told me not to tell Em. now i have my suspicions as to who that may have actually been, but i wont call anyone out on it.
I had people threatening to kill themselves if I tried.
I had people threatening to kill others if I tried to hurt myself.

do yall realise how fucked up those are??

That's only some of the horrible things that happened to me on this blog. The only ones I can remember, thankfully.

Emotional abuse is a lot easier to overlook if you're young and it's from your friends. Just remember that. And be safe. And kind.

~ Rose

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I can feel the nostalgia
for the way this place used to be.
When the sun shed light till forever
and the skies rained joy to the sea.
Somehow all that’s left is a graveyard,
of flowerless tombstones and moss.
This place was loved so deeply
so I refuse to believe it is lost.

See I came to this place a traveller,
once the war had already begun.
Sure people chatted on in the background,
lost in ephemeral moments of fun.
But it was impossible to hide the fighting,
that ravaged it’s way through the land.
The trauma, the tragedy, our typing --
to me, there was no wonderland.

And I never said much in these moments,
because a disease had stolen my song.
Although now I could sing forever
about the first place I’d ever belonged.
I mean this place meant more to me
than anywhere else I had been.
And I loved it despite it’s cancer
as I found friends behind a screen.

I stay because I’m a believer,
the kind of girl who feeds the strays.
And because even though I’ve grown older,
you couldn’t ever keep me away.

Raven Astracae said...

The first post I ever saw on this blog, was in April 2014 when Derek postponed revealing the title of Book 9 to address the issue of bullying. This place was rife with terror when I came here, and yet, I miss it so much. I guess for many of you, there’s these great memories from before any of that had started. But for me, I have great memories all through that time. So sure, there were good days and bad days and days that should have never really happened at all - but I never cared that the world was broken. Because I had you all standing beside me.

My point is, some of us miss the old days but they’re not coming back. And some of us don’t even know the old days. But everyone who ghosts here and pops back in does so because they miss the friendship, which isn’t limited to the old days - friendships are immortal. So maybe this blog doesn’t have to return to the old days, maybe old friends just have to return to the blog.

Worthless, the Second Best said...

Oh, first post of the new year for me? Alright, I'll take it- and I'll give a few pages worth of thoughts. You're welcome to read it; I reflected like so earlier this summer a few pages back, and I'm sure this will all have the same sentiment.

Worthless, the Second Best said...

So, I first came onto this blog after The Faceless Ones was published, I think. God knows how long ago that was. I think that was the summer that I moved to Kentucky from North Carolina. That was a really tumultuous time in my life, because not only had my parents split up in what was a really ugly and long-to-end divorce, but I was leaving my childhood home of eleven years. I left all of my friends, my history, and father behind to begin a new life. And so I found solace in the community here. Everyone was so creative and enjoyed reading. I was always a little nerdy, and was known for having my nose in books. It was nice to be a silly kid with a bunch of other silly kids, and it was nice to talk about common interests.

Things were good for a while, and then, as we all know, Zaf and I went head to head for a few years. And I can't stress this enough (because it is something I often allude to-- not that it's something I dwell upon often, but what occurred between us honestly shaped most of my teenage years and made me who I am today) but BOTH myself and Zafira are equally responsible for what went down. Or, at least, I believe so. I know that I have some friends -some truly wonderful, kind friends whom I love more than anything else in this world- who still to this day say that I am not at fault for what happened. But regardless of what actually did occur, this is what I choose to believe.

Zaf was in a very difficult time in her life, as was I. She lashed out, but I was equally cool and cold back to her. I'm sure that made her more angry at me, and her resentment worsened. After a while, I let that anger overtake me. It hurt sometimes, but I always knew that, if I really wanted to, I could have made it all stop. I could have tried harder to make peace. But I didn't. I chose not to email Zaf, or Skype her, or text her. I chose not to text her at all or try to genuinely treat her like a person, too. If I had, I know it could have been resolved. But instead, I chose to sit back, and let her destroy herself in the process, because I believed that it was what she deserved.

And I should have been more compassionate. As predicted, Zaf did self-destruct. She lost friends here, and the community as a whole fell apart very soon afterward. I sometimes wonder what would have happened had I taken the initiative, and had been the bigger person. Perhaps things today on this blog would look much different.

Maybe it's because almost three years have passed since Zaf has said any ill word against me, and maybe it's because I've forgotten what it was like every day, and I've forgotten how it felt. I know that it felt bad, and I was depressed, but I'm not like that anymore. As I say now, this perspective is something I choose to believe now.

Worthless, the Second Best said...

But the fact of the matter is, most of us on here are teenagers. I've mentioned this before, and I will mention it again, but there are people on here (people who used to annoy me to no end, but it's because I saw myself in them) who are teenagers, and going through a lot of emotions. Growing up is hard, and it's even harder nowadays when anything means everything. We are more aware of our existence than we were two hundred years ago, and there is so much to be stressed about.

So people like Rose, and Emerald, and Silente, and Kas, and a few others (although these four happened to come to mind) were people whom I, honestly, used to avoid. And I'm sure they felt the same about me to some extent- I would be surprised if it were anything different.

But the reason why I was at odds with them is because I, as aforementioned, saw myself in them. I saw people who were depressed, and struggling.

When I was depressed, I was afraid to let go of the darkness, and I was sabotaging myself. I didn't want to get better. Not because I had a lack of energy, but because I liked when people felt bad for me, and fawned over me. And when people pay that kind of attention to you for the first time in your life, it feels really fucking good. And I know it was wrong of me to abuse the sympathy and emotions of my friends (including, most of all, Aretha, whose patience knows no bounds) but it is also something that I have had to forgive myself for. It takes a lot to admit to yourself that the only reason why you're depressed is because you want to be, but it takes even more to forgive yourself for feeling that way. I truly did hate myself. You all know this- and I hurt myself and did stupid things. Was it a cry for attention? Probably. Did I actually feel that way? Absolutely. But I only felt that way because I wanted to feel that way, and I was afraid of who I would be without the depression. I wasn't sure who that Noelle would be.

Worthless, the Second Best said...

I typed up the story of what happened the night that I took my life, and so if you want more detail, you can click the link below. I give more thoughts and insight into it on my blog. I want to leave it off of here because I want to give you guys the choice on whether or not you want to read it. I know it's triggering stuff, so it is completely your choice if you want to read. However, if it is something you think you are stable enough to read, my insight might help you- especially if you too are struggling right now. I don't want anyone to ever feel the way that I did, and I am hoping that maybe reading what I realized can help.

https://alchemicalbond.blogspot.com/2018/01/a-note-about-my-experience.html

Anyway, long story short, my experiences on this blog really changed me. It led to a long and lonely and heartbreaking teenage years, but I'm glad for what happened, in a twisted way. I wouldn't have matured, or have been so insightful, had this place not been here. And although I remember how happy we used to be, I am content knowing that everyone has moved on with their lives and grown up and grown more into the person that they were meant to be. And I'm glad for the time we were able to have together, brief though it might have been. I'm glad that I was able to be a part of everyone's journey. We're all on this planet to learn, and I hope that this place helped each of us grow.

Worthless, the Second Best said...

I'd also like to mention, as a final note, Zaf and I made our peace long ago. We talked on Skype, I think (maybe it was a long email exchange) but we talked about that time between us. I think that that conversation showed a lot of growth for the both of us that, we don't have to be friends (neither of us have an active desire to be) but that we can part ways as people who once had a great deal happen to them, but who can move on with your lives with a clear conscience.

I don't know. I think, if asked today if I consider her a friend, I would say yes. I don't know all of her feelings on everything that has happened (I'm curious, though. As we all know, I'm incredibly vocal and a very open person about my thoughts) but she, being more private, choses to keep that to herself. I don't blame her. I'm sure that what happened between us scarred her just as much as it did me. But, anyway, I do consider her a friend- or an ally, at the least. Like I said, it was because of her that my life was changed. If I hadn't had known her, I wouldn't be where I am today. And I quite like where I am today.

Inky Flame #2 said...

I really miss you all... when I last commented here I comepltely forgot it was my sixth blogversary and honest to god I’ve had so many great times here. I’ve made really good friends, I met a dude I was with for two years and I found one of my closest friends... who I’ll be seeing hamilton with in the next few months

Hope y’all are living great lives

Amethyst Temerity said...

Every once in a while I will remember this blog and the good times that happened here. Coming back to this and ghosting for some time or even just rereading all the conversations that happened calms me, especially when I'm having a bad day. It's kind of funny but whenever I feel a bit sad or lonely I come back to this place because I associate friendship and happiness and just good times with here. Of course, we can't forget the bad but I still cling to the times when everything was just... happy. I hope Blogland can be revived in some way. I really miss the old days, meeting new people, chatting, roleplaying... I miss you all.
*hugs everyone*

Garret Falcone said...

Seeing so many people leaving their peace and final thoughts on here got me feeling retrospective. Now this is the first time in months that I've thought about here... but either way reading some comments got me thinking on my own influence on this place however small it was.
Don't get me wrong I brought both some good things and some serious bad things here and I'm not proud of them but that's hindsight now and that's not me. Either way for better or for worse I made some friends here and I haven't talked to them in an age so maybe I'll hit them up again.

Cheers for the memories and life lessons

Aquila Felis said...

Well, like... this won't be coming back to life. Not without someone hanging out here every evening for weeks.

... I'll be gone in a month. But I think, until then, I'll be checking in here every evening. Just to see if this will stay dead. Gotta test theories once you put them up, no?

Why I'll be gone? Cause I doubt ghosting here is very... sane. Not for me. I have plenty fun memories, but plenty bad ones, too. And I've moved on since last time I was here.
I have a full time job. I moved out of home and 600+ km away from my family. I live in Berlin, now. ^^ So, I moved on irl - and I think it's time to move on from here too.
Meaning my blog will be gone, as well. But until then, I made allll the old posts visible again. I only ever got to 98 of them, never made it to 100.
... I kind of like leaving it that way.

So yeah, I'll be around. And then I'll be gone. See ya, or maybe see ya never. ;)

Aquila Felis said...

Told Sven about this.
"bit needlessly dramatic", he said.
I think that defines the blog pretty damn well. ^^

Trip Castalan, Lord of The Hobbits, The Fourth Most Popular Folk/Parody Banana Thief In The Land said...

Meaningless?
How dare :P

Honestly not sure if this is the evening. I toyed around with doing something like this, but I wasn't sure because I kinda like how the blog is now, in a settled dust way.
I might do one of those retrospectives on my time here, I dunno. I was kinda a dick a lot of the time, so looking back on it is pretty hard without trying to talk to the world about it
I read a bit of your writing Aquila, I liked it :) If you're not here rn I'll probably be back tomorrow at 5, but I'll probably be checking all day.

Aquila Felis said...

Well, I'm here now. While doing dishes. xD
Adult life. :p

Trip Castalan, Lord of The Hobbits, The Fourth Most Popular Folk/Parody Banana Thief In The Land said...

What is this adult life you speak of, I am no understand

But yeah dishes still hanging around in my life, even though I don't have to adult. What were you eating?

Trip Castalan, Lord of The Hobbits, The Fourth Most Popular Folk/Parody Banana Thief In The Land said...

https://discord.gg/bAaK9bb

We've been playing mafia here btw :P

Trip Castalan, Lord of The Hobbits, The Fourth Most Popular Folk/Parody Banana Thief In The Land said...

Oh crumbs XD

That's a discord link to Adam Koebel's server.
Still good if that's your jam, but I was actually talking about Fabi's minigames blog http://bloglandpuzzlesandgames.blogspot.co.uk/

Aquila Felis said...

I ate noodles with bolognese sauce I made from scratch. Like some responsible grown up.
... kinda like cooking, like the clean-up less, though. And I'm still adjusting to cooking for just one person. ^^
... I imagine playing mafia as in playing werewolf?

Trip Castalan, Lord of The Hobbits, The Fourth Most Popular Folk/Parody Banana Thief In The Land said...

Pretty much yeah. We're actually doing a skulduggery themed one Fabi came up with this time around.
Cooking is fun, yeah. I really wanted to make pizza today, but we didn't have any yeast, so I eneded up just using cake dough without any sugar :P

Aquila Felis said...

I do want to try to make pizza dough some time, but for now I have a frozen one sitting in my freezer. >.>
I kinda still have to put up furniture and paint some more, this weekend. My family helped me drop things off, here, and did leave me a nice (red!) toolbox, but yeah. I'm not fully moved in. Yet.
... one room doesn't even have a ceiling light, yet. xD
... and I realllly need some curtains, living on ground floor.

Trip Castalan, Lord of The Hobbits, The Fourth Most Popular Folk/Parody Banana Thief In The Land said...

That's really cool! Where are you living?

Aquila Felis said...

In Berlin, pretty far west. Like, far enough from the center for the people from the inner part to joke it's not Berlin anymore.
Gotta say I like it. It's calm, no drunks, no drugs, and I have trees both sides of my street.
And a little shop selling cloth by the meter just opposite my house. I like sewing. :3

Aquila Felis said...

Need to nap now so I can do the wash tomorrow morning.
I'll check in some time tomorrow again, though. ^^

Trip Castalan, Lord of The Hobbits, The Fourth Most Popular Folk/Parody Banana Thief In The Land said...

Haha, sorry. I never was very good at checking back in on blog conversations. It was one of those things I was trying to get better at, but then kinda ended up not needing to :P
Sounds like a nice suburb. Berlin's really fun, it's a cool place. Are you studying there or is it like, work or summit?

Aquila Felis said...

I got a fulltime job at a medical scientific hotline. ... pretty much tell doctors and pharmacists if they can or can not split a pill in half. ;P
Not exactly fancy, but it pays well enough for me to live on my own. :)

Trip Castalan, Lord of The Hobbits, The Fourth Most Popular Folk/Parody Banana Thief In The Land said...

Is that all phones? Bc i wonder how long that can last what with the internet

Aquila Felis said...

It is phones. Well, actually it is headsets and computers. ^^
And, plenty long. They don't always have the info they need looking-up-able. So why not call the service hotline of the producer?
I'm mostly doing it for experience in the pharmaceutic industry, so I'll be more attractive to employers later on.
... well, and for the chance to live on my own. ;)

Trip Castalan, Lord of The Hobbits, The Fourth Most Popular Folk/Parody Banana Thief In The Land said...

That's really cool. Do you wanna research or sell or something?

What I meant by the internet is more sorta the idea that it would presumably be better for your company to operate over some digital messaging service to get lower operating costs r something.
I guess they've probably already looked into that if it's a possibility :P

Aquila Felis said...

Actually, they probably have unlimited calls with whatever provider they are with, it's the standard for home phones anyway. xD
Also why I need to get a phone that's able to talk to my router, cause then I don't have to pay a cent for inner-German phone calls. :)

Aquila Felis said...

Learn from my mistake..
... just because a glass jug withstood tea water (aka hot water) several times, doesn't mean it will keep doing so.

-walked out on the cracked jug full of boiling hot water, after realising there was no safe way to move it-
... and also after realising bringing my face real close to it to look at the crack was a baaaad idea. It's a night full of self-taught lessons. ... glad I realised before a mix of glass shards and boiling water could cause permanent damage.

... well then, guess I gotta add a jug to my shopping list.

Eve the ROCK said...

Am I still me...?

Eve the ROCK said...

I am! Great. Um, I was just thinking now on Blogland all the fun times. But it was the not-fun times that brought me back here and away from my bed time. It was so silly, but I just really wished I would pop in and see all my friends chatting like in 2012. But instead I’m seeing everyone writing things that look like goodbyes. I don’t know, I guess it’s just ‘cause I’m 18 now and scared of growing up or life moving on without me. And I just wanted to leave my email here, I hope someone who remembers me as a friend can see it. You don’t have to reply, but I just feel so sad seeing you guys seem to disappear without a trace. I don’t know if you feel the same, but this is my email address so you know I’m still a real person there are ways to find me, even if you don’t want to find me.


evej@outlook.com

I’m going to probably feel like an idiot if I find out emails are displayed on profiles or something. Anyway, it was more of a gesture.

So yeah, I was thinking about what it was like and I miss being stupidly happy like that. I think a few of us ended up messing that up. I messed it up by being a shitty friend to someone I really cared about but never proved it. Star, I’m sorry for never replying to your emails and you even tried so many times to keep the contact going and I paid you back with see-through excuses. Emailing was supposed to make us closer friends, but I ruined it. I think that was the time where everyone started drifting apart. I don’t know if I’ve even apologised for that before, but it still makes me feel terrible because you were always there to listen to me and my stupid 13 year old troubles. It would’ve been so easy to just respond once a day but I couldn’t even manage that. Anyway, the reason the guilt has stayed is because you were a great friend. Besides the bad memory I put in there, I only have good memrories of you. Thinking about you is making me miss you and I hope you’re at a happy place in your life, that’s all.

I want to read the old comment sections so I can remember everyone and everything that happened but it would be embarrassing and painful at some parts haha. It’s just hard to think about, it’s like trying to fit into your old cubby and realising you’re too big for it now. At this age I’m realising that things really don’t last forever and life takes you on a one-way trip. My childhood looks so far away from here and the worst part is that it’s going to keep getting farther until it disappears. As a result of this I feel as though my personality is forcibly regressing itself. My mind is well aware of how I’m feeling but time just doesn’t care. And ‘the past’ for me isn’t even that big yet. I don’t know how I’ll handle it.

Anyway, this looks really pathetic but I’m actually content most of the time, I’m just treating Blogland as my personal diary today apparently. I can’t turn back time, so my next impossible wish is that all my friends from 2012 Blogland and I can appear in the same place irl and meet each other like that. Maybe it would be special in it’s own way. I just want to hug you guys.

I think you’re all gone but I’ll check this place every Tuesday from now on just to see.

Aquila Felis said...

Oh don't worry about your childhood vanishing. At least in my experience, life is more like one of those russian dolls. You know, the ones with smaller ones in them?
I have plenty smaller mes wrapped in other, older mes. I'm basically an onion. And if you think about it, you may be, too.
Just cause your outer layer is all new and changed (and the most outer one is a protective rough one), doesn't mean the inner ones are gone.
Sure nothing lasts forever and memories do vanish at times - but there's still younger you somewhere in you. Promise. ;)

Aquila Felis said...

Aight.
It IS a little premature, but I don't think a couple hours more or less will matter, now.

Bye all, and bye Blogland!

Inky Flame - member of the butter glutton fandom said...

Hello, if anyone is there

Inky Flame - member of the butter glutton fandom said...

Have y’all heard of the app amino
It’s an app and you can create communities
It’d Be cool if we could create one for members to drop in if and when they want to talk

John said...

Sounds like a good idea to me.

John said...

Oh and hi, long time no see.

Fabi -- The killer that sends heart emojis at everyone and hasn't actually killed anyone yet / fashion-conscious fire wraith said...

one month later...

Inky Flame #2 said...

Hello

Inky Flame #2 said...

I’m going to make an amino
I’m gonna open two public chats: general discussion and a rp one
People can make their own public chats but I think you’ve gotta hit a certain level

I’ll post a link here when it’s up :)

Inky Flame #2 said...

http://aminoapps.com/c/Blogland

The community needs fleshing out but I wanted to get it out there

Elleni the Ghost said...

it feels really weird being here

Elleni the Ghost said...

hey everyone
i was reading back through the old stories and roleplays and i was starting to miss it
so fabi and i set up a discord server for bloglanders
discord is basically skype for gamers but there's way more to it
there are servers, which are group chats basically
and in each server, you have multiple channels like little chat rooms for specific things, like roleplay channel or mafia channel
since on the blog, we don't get notifications and we have to constantly refresh, i feel like this will be easier cuz its just a messaging app for bigger groups
we're hoping to move the mafia games to discord
so email me if you want a link to the server
thanks guys!

Emerald Melody said...

*dusts the cobwebs off my comment box*

Dayum... how long has it been??

Lewis Ravenscroft / Rhydian Blake said...

too long em, too long

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