It's not easy writing a book.
I mean, it's easier than mining coal. It's easier than most factory work. It's probably easier than a lot of office jobs as well.
But STARTING to write a book... those first few inches you have to push that boulder till it hits the edge and starts to roll downhill... THAT'S the hard part.
Not as hard as teaching, granted. Or working on a farm. Or being a doctor or a nurse or a cop or a fireman. I doubt it's as hard as construction, either, or carpentry, or plumbing, or engineering.
But STILL...
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Well maybe I was too busy trying to breathe, instead of focusing on my language
I'll be gone for a few days )
(Chloe, I was merely pointing out that what you said could be easily mistaken for shouting. As Star said - I do not blame you, as misunderstandings happen.)
Just
Fr the record.
I decided to tell my mom to take me to the hospital.
...
So.
She will institutionalize me.
It hurt so much to have to tell her that I tried to kill myself. I couldn't even say the words..
I told her that I took a bottle f melatonin.
She said "so you can sleep, or because you didn't want to wake up?"
And I cried, and said the second one.
I just
...
I don't know if you'll see me again. Or hear from me.
...
*Noelle's casket is carried into the ground, in an empty cemetery* *No one is there for the funeral*
*It is just her*
*the ground is filled up, and there is no gravestone for her*
*Its jut empty and quiet*
@Gemma: I only want you to leave temporarily because I think it might help you. Not out of malice towards you. :/ Just making that clear.
@Sophia: Mmh, I wasn't paying the best attention, tbh, so I'm not sure how much I agree with the 'roleplaying was just denied from her.' Honestly - I can't remember. I agree with the majority of what you said, though.
@Chloe: Yes - like I said, I don't blame you for it.
:/
If a few days away would help you, please take them. I hope they help you feel better. :)
(Noelle, I am glad that you will be getting serious professional help.)
@Noelle: :/ I'm sorry . . .
I really hope you'll be alright . . .
I may not see you or hear from you again, but I won't forget you.
(Star - Gemma withdrew her character, and Chloe had more important things to sort out than roleplay, meaning that both effectively quit the roleplay in a very short space of time, meaning that Jaimie was denied the roleplay?)
(*breaks his vow of silence to say* I know how hard it can be to admit that... I hope it helps... *goes beack to silence*)
Noelle...
@Sophia: Mmh. I don't remember this. :P
I would more phrase it as 'Jaimie was unable to roleplay.' It sounds less intentional and blame-y. But yeah.
*twists bracelet on wrist*
*looks at situation anxiously*
@Alastair: :/
She still has you to rp with soph. So no, jaimie isn't denied rp.
Sophia wasn't there at the time.
And chloe left because jaimie made ber upset. Or at least thats what it looks like. And i wasnt really in the rp anyway. Only joined to save the thing that got hit by a truck. There was no longer any need for me so i left.
She had other people if she really wanted to rp, Star.
(I'd have been happy to... )
@Gemma: Yes, but -
I'm not Jaimie, and I feel uncomfortable speaking for her as if I'm the expert on what goes on in her head, but I would guesstimate she was feeling upset anyway, which was, as Sophia said, why she wanted to roleplay, to distract herself. Having her roleplay cut off (whether or not she could bring it back up again) would, I would suppose, exacerbate her negative feelings, and it is that exacerbation caused her to speak upset-ed-ly.
Once again, I'm not Jaimie, and I'm not an expert on her head. I could easily be wrong. But that's my best guesses.
(May I interject
Heck, it'll be ignored
Jai didn't upset me
Me and jack had a problem that I wanted to focus on, so I left
I thought Jai was aiming at me so I was a bit pissed off because I offered my help and she didn't want it
Turns out it wasn't aimed at me
Now I'm accused of being shouted at
I didn't
Me and jack are fine
And the only one who gave a damn about my problem is Keiron)
*accused of shouting at Jai
...well sorry chloe. I was kind of busy getting told to leave by everyone.
(*huggles Chloe* :/
i'll try and be there for anyone who needs me... )
@Chloe: :/
I could put a longish reply here but I'm not sure it'll help anything.
(Don't apologise gem, a simple misunderstanding
+huggles keiron*
I really do try to be there for anyone who needs it )
(*types an explanation but then deletes it*
Noelle I'm glad you're getting help. I hope with it you'll be able to feel happier..)
*douses the 🔥 with an extinguisher*
Can this argument stop? This is just out of curiosity really...
*No Hate*
Can't we just let bygones be bygones, let all this be water under the bridge
Just all get off the internet and breathe because maybe that'll help
I'm not exactly the best at helping but that's just my thoughts
Its all just one big misunderstanding between friends, who are tired or stressed maybe both
And instead we have a bug bear with thrush of a problem here....
Yeah just a suggestion really
*NO HATE*
Goodnight :) )
*hugs Jai*
*nods at Chloe and Keiron :/*
@Rhos: :) Thank you.
(Hello again, Jaimie. *she cuddles Jaimie very tightly*)
Liliana: Do it.
Parasite: So what will it be?
Claire: Who did what now?
Bye Rhos.
Sorry for everyone seeing this. It was between jaimie and i and she brought it onto the blog. These matters should be dealt with in text or pms.
(*hugs star back*
*presses against Soph, hiding in her side*)
Onwa: You want me to sneeze on you?
James: Neither.
Nothing. Never mind. What matters is we're all safe.
(Surely, Gemma it would be better to have it spread on to here so more people can work on fixing it?
*she hugs Jaimie tighter, also, stroking her hair gently* It is alright.)
Liliana: I am rather neutral about it.
Parasite: I will now be entering your mind.
Bethany: What matters to me most is that we are all safe and feeling alright.
(But now it has upset more people
I tried to help
But jai only wants Soph
I tried
But I failed )
(*nods, pressing closer*)
Onwa: *raises an eyebrow*
You're neutral about being sneezed on?
James: you're already in my mind. You're in my dream.
Exactly.
(I'm sorry guys..
*hugs Chloe gently, if she'll accept the hug*)
No sophia. Because you guys are not helping it. Only jaimie and i can mend it. You guys are getting me more annoyed and you're all saying i'm in the wrong and i don t believe that is the case. We're texting now. Just leave it. It's our problem to solve. Please stay out of it.
(*huggles*
I need to stay out of others business
It's always been my down fall
Sorry for coming across like I was shouting
I think I was having a panic attack
But I'm fine )
(I never said you were in the wrong gem)
(*hugs Chloe back* Sorry for making it seem I was angry at you..)
(I didn't mean to upset you..)
(It's okay, I was being touchy)
(So was I. Please accept the apology?)
(I accept your apology )
Not you chloe... star and sophia.
sorry but you guys always turn against me in an argument and hardly ever say anything to the other person even though you try to keep peace. That wont help. I want to be friends with you too...which is why i show that i agree with you and stuff, try to talk to you more...then this happens. I'm always in the wrong to you both...apart from like 2 times...
(Thank you Chloe.)
I'm going to go. I'm too upset right now and of course no one cares cause you only care about how jaimie feels. Apart from maybe chloe and keiron and possibly rhos.
(I care gem..
Guys, don't blame Gemma.. if I wasn't being so touchy she wouldn't have responded in like.)
(Maybe !:P you insult me of course I care :P *offers hugs* )
(My skype is open gem... You can message me anytime
I'm not taking sides
I just dot like seeing friends fighting)
(I can understand that.)
Sorry, I went for a shower, and I tend to get distracted in the shower adn start thinking about stuff and forgetting I need to come back online . . .
@Gemma: I didn't blame you or think you were in the wrong . . . I just know that you often say stuff when you're upset, and so I agreed that you might want to calm down so you didn't upset people. I know I can say a lot of shit when I'm mad/upset, and I know that I always regret it intensely, so I thought if you WERE mad/upset, it might help everyone, including you, if you calmed down first.
I would also haev said the same to Jaimie, because she was also upset adn saying stuff that I thought she might regret, but she wasn't online by the time I reappeared, so addressing her seemed pointless . . .
You may have also disappeared by this point, but still. POsting this. Continuing reply in next comment.
(Gemma, when I think you are wrong, I say so. When I think you are right, I say so. That is all I do.
*she cuddles Jaimie tighter*)
Liliana: Indeed.
Parasite: Then I will just access more of your mind. *she grins, closing her eyes* Five, four...
Bethany: ... Are you alright?
(I'm on my own side :P that just happens to be one where I try to keep everyone mutually happy :P *offers hugs to all* )
Onwa: Hmmm..
James: *panicking*
*brings up as many mental barriers as he can*
Of course I am.
*smiles*
Liliana: What?
Parasite: Three two one zero, lets go! *she hurls her power against his mental barriers, laughing*
Bethany: Okay... Are you sure?
(Gem, there's no possibly about it I honestly care about all my friends :)
I care about all of you more than myself really (yeah that sounds odd but to me as long as my friends are okay, im okay (3 quarters of the time anyway buts that's beside the point )
And so now i'll uss this ded i have to
I ded to,
Peace
Friendships
Love
Freedom
Calmness
Breathing
To apologies and forgiveness
To the seed that is inside everyone, because that seed can either become a weed, or flower into something beautiful and well with you people, I definitely say its the latter, you all have that beautiful flower inside yourself
You've just got to give it time to flower, no one wants a weed inside them do they?
No, exactly :)
Think of things like the flower, they get better with time and will become something beautiful
So in example lets use me,
Inside me is a rose, because I'm beautiful on top, but boy do I have my thorns
Its like something I read / heard
Life is like a rose, you have to put up with the pricks to find the flower
Hopefully you get what I mean, this is a bit long really...
Anyway back on subject
As I said, inside you all is the seed for a beautiful flower, it is your favourite flower
So give it time so sprout and then flower and trust me you'll be much much happier with it in the end
So now my parting words for you
Never let no one tell you, you ain't beautiful
The end
Onwa: You don't care if you're sneezed on?
James: *cries out, flinching, his mental barriers somewhat faltering, slamming quickly back into place*
Definitely
*smiles*
You're still glowing.
(Hear hear)
(Hear hear)
(hear hear)
@Gemma: Also, yeah, I keep disagreeing with you, and it actually really annoys me because I don't want to.
But the most time when I disagree with you is when you get mad and say stuff (it's not a trait unique to you, I do it too, so don't feel like I'm faulting you in particular . . . :/), so, like, yeah.
I didn't think you were in the wrong here; I didn't think anyone was in the wrong here. If I did think someone was seriously in the wrong, I think I'd make you aware of that.
The thing is, I care about Jaimie more than I care about most people. My caring is a pretty odd thing, and I'm still trying to work out how it works, but the fact of the matter is that I DO care about her more than I care about most people. It's not a particularly fair fact, but hey, I don't pick my emotions, I just roll with them. And if my brain decides that I'm going to care more about Jaimie than the average person, then I'll roll with that and I'll care about her, because I don't see any reason to, like . . . try and stop myself caring about her.
It's not the I care LESS about you than the average person. I care about you as much as I care about most of my friends, and like, I like most of my friends. They're cool people and they matter to me. :) And if that caring falls short, I'm sorry. I'm not the best at caring - plenty of people (hey, Chloe and Keiron) have said that they really do try to be tehre for anyone who needs it, and like, I can't claim the same. And I'm also not the most reliable and not the most observant, and sometimes, things just fall through my net and I forget to do or say stuff. Like I forgot to ask Chloe if she was okay earlier, because the thoguht just plain didn't occur to me. I should probably think before I type more.
In short - I'm not perfect, and me not treating your perfectly isn't due to me disliking you. It's due to me not being perfect. So please don't take it personally.
Eh. Typing thoughts. How scary.
I originally thoguht that personality test was talking a load of rubbish when it talked abotu the differnece between my inner self and my outer self, but it wasn't entirely. If I could lie, I would probably have an inner self and an outer self. As it is, my inner self is my outer self, except my outer self has some things I want hidden emitted from it, and my outer self can also have things edited out of it.
And when my inner self becomes my outer self, it feels like I've had too much taken out of me and it's kind of scary and uncomfortable and I just breathe and wait for the emotions to go away, because that's what I do with uncomfortable emotions, and I think I'm tired because I'm rambling but then again I've been rambling all night.
(@Star I text her your message to make sure she gets it sometime soon..)
*if I could lie and if I wasn't so fond of talking
Liliana: Not when it is you doing the sneezing?
Parasite: Your mental barriers are adorable, I am just pointing that out. But as someone who has already accessed your memories previously, they are slightly useless and can be ignored entirely.
(Jaimie, out of curiosity, why did James move his hand a little closer to the Parasite?)
Bethany: Just a little...
@Jai: :) Thank you, but it's okay.
Onwa: Ah. That is more understandable.
James: *grunts*
No.
(Heat of the moment reaction. He thought she wanted him too. And he's an impulsive guy.)
Its beautiful
Still breathing.
Liliana: Good, I am glad.
Parasite: You're no fun. *she sighs* Okay, okay. I'll tell you the truth. But I only lied because you weren't being honest with me. I'm kind of already in your mind. But that's fine. That's not a problem, right?
Bethany: Just like you...
Claire: You're having another weird mind conversation, aren't you?
(That is good, Star.)
(@Star that's a good thing :)
Onwa: *smiles, kissing her gently*
James: *blinks*
Oh..
And you.
Yep.
Liliana: *she kisses her back, smiling* Mmm... It is hurting, and I am feeling very weak.
Parasite: *she bops him on the nose* You need to lighten up a bit.
Bethany: No... Not me...
Claire: It's weird.
(@Jai&Sophia: XD Well no shit.
Thanks. :)
(I mean, breathing-through-emotions breathing. But yeah. :P)
Hang on, there was roleplay somewhere. *frowns, and scrolls*
No, I think I responded last.)
Morgan: *shrugs* If we knew what we were doing, there'd be no mystery.
Onwa: Mmm.. good. Perhaps I should drink the rest of my cider..
James: *twitches his nose, frowning*
Hmm. I haven't had anything to lighten me up.
Definitely you
Says the 10 year old telekenetic vigilante girl
(Apologies, Star.)
Elizabeth: I am not a fan of mystery. Knowledge is always better than secrets.
Liliana: Will that not make you stronger?
Parasite: Perhaps if you did better than just moving your hand closer, you would have something to lighten you up.
Bethany: No...
Claire: I'm not weird!
Morgan: And I prefer to find out knowledge from secrets.
((Dw, anyway. I'm better at forgetting about roleplay than you.))
Onwa: Mine hasn't been tampered with.
James: *blushes the very tiniest bit*
**clears his throat*
I've no idea what you mean.
Yes
Are too!
[7/2/2015, 22:22] Catherine: Carrie: *opens the door* Izzy!
Isabelle: *smiles*
Carrie: *hugs Isabelle*
Isabelle: *awkwardly stands, unsure of what to do* *kind of hugs her back*
((XD That's me when people hug me.))
((I FINISHED DRAWING ALL THOSE STARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It looks os beautiful. :) :) I'm so impressed with myself. <3
Now just to add colour. :P
(@Star Yey!!!)
@Jai: Thanks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! C:
(You're welcome :)
Elizabeth: It is better to be open than secretive, and knowledge should be shared, not hidden.
Liliana: Ah, right.
Parasite: Your mind says differently.
Claire: I'm not! Don't call me weird!
((C:
I showed it to Cat and Lizzie and they complimented it.
C:
I'm having an arrogant moment now. XD))
Morgan: In general I agree. I just like finding out things.
Onwa: Mm.. so, shall I?
James: I'm sure if does. How long left?
Okay, okay.
*smiles*
Weird isn't always bad you know.
XD
Dan is so much like Lizzie.
She frequently says comments like "I AM THE FEMALE VERSION OF HIM" and "He is my spirit animal" and "Love that dude". :P
Liliana: If you wish?
Parasite: Four and a half hours.
Claire: Then stop calling me weird and acting like it is!
Elizabeth: I do understand where you are coming from, I simply disagree.
Ember: I like a good puzzle, myself.
(Star, I rather doubt I would get along with Lizzie, in which case.)
(@Star xD)
Onwa: Hmm..
James: That is rather a long time..
Okay, sorry.
*rolls eyes*
((@Sophia: XD Lizzie's not that bad. She's not a sociopath. Although sometimes I think she has anger management issues.))
Morgan: I don't think it's better that there are secrets. I'm just grateful to them for giving me things to work out.
Liliana: I... It is getting where it is hard to move.
Parasite: It is.
Claire: So you should be. *she nods*
Bethany: Lots of people would think that I'm weird...
Onwa: *chuckles, kissing her gently*
Mm..Good. Let's see if you like drunk Onwa as much as sober Onwa.
*gets up, lifting the barrel, starting to drink straight from it carefully*
James: Four and a half hours.. shall we look around the asylum?
You are weird, in a good way.
*curls up*
*looks around*
*fades*
(*hugs Kassy!!!*)
:/ *hugs kas8
I...
Sorry. Good bye.
@Kas: :/ . . . . .
Elizabeth: Perhaps I have spent too long around Berengaria, but I believe reading is a better alternative, for me.
Liliana: *she kisses her back* Mmm... I am sure that I will love drunk Onwa.
Parasite: If you wish.
Bethany: I've always thought that being weird was bad...
Claire: See? Weird is bad!
Morgan: *smiles, with a slight hint of bitterness and a slighter hint of wistfulness* Medication is my better alternative. Mysteries are on the long list of lesser alternatives.
Ember: You'd rather take drugs? Do they make you high or something?
( I got really happy there... my mum has a friends from school in Belfast and she said she could take us there to see the sights when we're over but It looks like the only day she can do is the day we come back :'( and the only other way -apart from renting a car and me driving there which I don't think they like under 25's doing that as insurance for them is too high...- is an 8 hour bus journey because it has to go to Dublin first which means it'd be 16 hours of traveling if we got bus ... :( I doubt we're going belfast now but at least I still get Letterkenny and giant's causeway and Donegan :D )
*hugs Star and Jaimie*
Morgan: *gives Ember a rather flat look* *more strongly than he'd been speaking previously* I'd rather take /medication/.
And if I didn't, I would most likely figuratively and metaphorically die. It's less of a choice than a necessity. *looks distant for a moment, thinking about his more medication-deprived times, then his expression blanks slightly as he cuts off that chain of though*
*comes back to the conversation, his voice softer again* . . . But, yeah, drugs can be pretty fun. *smiles slightly*
((*hugs Kas :)*
@Keiron: :/ :/
Well, at least tehre's that. :)))
*figuratively adn literally
((OMG
I really AM getting tired. I made Kaladin's speech fail majorly earlier. -_-))
((I'm actually rather scared about starting to colour my Ludo board.
What if I go wrong? :o))
So I'm procrastinating by writing this. XD))
I faced a decision..
And
Well
i was brushed off like a pesky fly.
Thank you for that. I appreciate it. It's good to know that I'm taken seriously around here.
If anyone you actually care, I made a new blog- a public one. You can look at it if you want, or you can just ignore me. Either way, the blog is now there if any of you get the strange desire to see how I'm doing.
just- whatever. I'll probably delete the blog soon, anyway. Apparently no one believes me when I have talked about my suicide attempts, or my depression or self harm so-
Just
Goodbye
I believe you. I think you need to find help, to become a stronger, better, and confident person.
It was like me at Drama Camp this week, I took on a freshman to sing Angel of Music, I taught her the song, and confidence. She got up and sang and afrerwards hugged me and said that this week I taught her to be confident and believe in herself, and I got choked up, because I couldn't believe it, but she taugjt me to step up to the plate.
I never did sing before, publically, duet or solo. I did though, tonight. Monday I told them our choice, the teacher didn't know I could hit E or F on the staff to sing as Christine. So I hit them, he went silent, and went on playing. I got up and we owned it and I felt happy.
I knew I could do it and I surprised my parents even.
(*hugs Noelle* Thank you..)
Onwa: *grins and chugs the cider*
James: *stands up*
Left or right?
Weird isn't bad! I think it's good.
(that awkward moment when you look up from your laptop screen and it's 7am... )
(good luck Noelle with your life and things that are happening in it :) )
(so this is a heads up for peoples, I'm not going to be on for the rest of today
Because I'm going out and then going to my friends birthday party :D
So yeah just though I'll tell you guys why I'm not here just in case, you know...
Yeah anyway I'll see you tomorrow with a high chance of a hangover :S )
*Does believe Noelle*
*is apparently going out now?*
(Watching a Korean Drama and well I'm addicted shipping people and shouting at my laptop for them to goddamn kiss already :P :/ :'( why won't they kiss ? goddamn emotions . )
(Noelle - If by "brushed off like a pesky fly", you were speaking about our reactions, that is hardly the case, and it is unfair to say that. If you were talking about the hospital not accepting you, so the hospital was being the one that "brushed" you away, I am sorry about that.)
Liliana: *she watches her, tilting her head, starting to find it hard to move*
Parasite: Right.
Bethany: Why? Why do you think not fitting in is good? Surely it's bad?
Ember: I prefer alcohol, personally. Tastes good and is rather flammable.
Elizabeth: Alcohol is a drug, Ember.
If ductape really fixed everything....
*shrugs*
That'd be nice.
(If you can't fix it with duct tape you're not using enough. :P)
*nods*
There is simply not enough ductape in the world to fix a broken...
I'll go find some more ductape and try again.
(A broken ?... :/ *offers hug* need help fixing something that duct tape can't touch? )
*hugs*
I'm okay, just a rough evening.
How are you? How is your Korean Drama? Have they kissed? I don't even know what's going on but for some reason I trust your shipping judgement and I'd like very much for them to kiss.
(*hugs back smiling* thanks :D they did :) finally on the second last episode :P I stayed up 13 hours straight watching this lol... I'm glad you trust my shipping judgement that makes me feel good :D )
I'm sorry for the rough evening... I hope it gets better... hey you just made my day :P I should return the favour somehow.)
:)) That's nice.
*shrugs*
It's ok.
Ummm...Or you could just have a happy day and not give me anything?
(But I feel like you need it :/ I should help... a tiny thing can make a person happy for hours :) I just don't know how...
ehm would you like to rp maybe? I can't think how else to make you happy.)
(Bring Raven back? Please. Oh my potatoes, please. She doesn't talk to me anymore and I don't know if she'll come out at first so her character might be a little shaky but please yes. I would live to rp with you.
You can start and I'll go and search my mind for her.)
(Yeh ! Coool )
*climbs from the shadows onto the lake edge solidifying into a human shaped shadow looking around cracking every bone in his body*
*stops at the lake edge after finishing her daisy chain and ties it around her head*
*frowns at the shadow because she can't fins the human to go with it*
Hello? I'm Raven, and you might not exist and mum said don't talk to strangers but I end up doing that a lot these days but hi anyway.
*holds out a daisy chain big enough to be for a wrist*
Would you like a daisy chain?
*the shadow tilts*
*the veil of shadow lifting from toe to head all gathering in his eyes*
*they turn void black before blinking they return to their original royal blue colour*
Hello *bows* I'm Conductor Remnance, *raises an eyebrow* last time I checked I exist *smiles* I'd love one thank you *places it on his right wrist* would you like a shadow chain ?
*tilts it's head * (soY! )
*smiles when the shadow changes*
That is so cool. Dutch Potatoes. That is like, the best thing I've ever seen. Well, not reallt, I've seen a lot, sorry, but that was one of the most awesome things ever.
*smiles even bigger*
You can make shawdow chains? I would love one, I will be so cool, like cool kid with captial a capital C. Does that make you a...
*frowns, forgetting the word*
a necromancer?
*Grins* That's me just getting started... *smiling that someone thinks he's even remotely awesome* I can make much more than shadow chains, these clothes you see are all made from my shadows, my lake house I am their master much better than those normal Necromancers *grins*.
*takes out his baton conducting the air around him shadows following in a strict line behind swishing it towards /her?/ wrist the shadows curving and changing into a little bracelet with small black flowers on it*
*her jaw drops a little bit*
Woah, you're like a shadow potato. That's so cool.
*stares at the little shadow bracelet*
This is one of the best things someone has...it's so pretty...oh...and...flowers and everything. I would hug you right now.
*takes a slight step back*
But you have cooties and even though I'm vaccinated you have to take precautions.
(Yes, Raven is a she and she's about 13, but she acts a lot younger because he brain is a bit messed up.)
(cool cool :D :P made me laugh with the cooties...
btw I replied email.. guessing it was you)
*tilts head holding back a laugh* Potatoes are great right? :P
*grins widely* I'm glad you like it... No need to hug you gave me this great daisy chain and all *looks at it* It's soo pretty too and I wouldn't want to be responsible for cooties now would I? Think what the people would say *sticks tounge out*
Potatoes vary in level of greatness, it all depends on the mood. Potatoes are like Smurfs. I think.
*smiles*
Like how it can me anything from good to bad. Potatoes, in this case, are very very good.
*smiles and sits down cross legged tipping out a bunch of daisies from her backpack*
You'd be surprised who would want to give young girls cooties.
*starts to weave them together quite quickly, years of practice*
There was this one guy, Felix, and I told him I didn't have my shots yet and he touched me anyway and then someone else told me cooties didn't exist. But they do.
*makes a face as if it were obvious*
Or else I wouldn't have to tet vaccinated. Would I?
(It seems I disappeared briefly.)
*nods trying to understand* that makes sense, I'm glad my potatoes are very very good *smiles*.
He touched you anyway ! No... did you hit him back? What if you caught something? I promise I have my shots look *draws little x's with his baton on his arm then punches it ((that's how kids in my school did cooty jabs))* They must have them if they think they're fake... how isn't vaccinated these days it's downright dangerous. *looks mesmerized at how fast she's making them* You must love Daisy's you're a pro at making chains.
(Hey Soph... it would seem so.)
(Hello, Conductor.)
(how's you?
I'm great b4 you ask :P)
(btw If it seems awk that I add you to a blog circle it's because I can reach all yall's email faster :P)
(I am rather glad the weather is slightly cooler - I am used to colder temperatures, and I become... agitated when I am too warm. I am also considering a temporary change in display image, despite liking my current one very much, and a change would be to an image I prefer less, but nevertheless.)
*looks shocked and shakes her head*
You can't hit people, that's mean. I'm very against violence, I wouldn't hit anyone, even if they did give me a life-threatening illness.
*smiles and nods at the shots.
Good.
Yeah, my mum used to sing me songs about how if I wore daisy chains they'd keep me safe from bad things and then she'd sit down and we'd spend hours in the garden making daisy chains.
*smiles*
So now I keep doing it, for mum and so that other people are safe too.
(Hello Soph. How are you?)
(Hello, Raven. I have stated above your comment, and it saves me from typing it out again. Yourself?)
(I was going to say don't type it out again but then I got kinda nervous and I didn't want to seem demanding, sorry. That's good to hear.
Well I'm below average but ok, and I'm realising that sometimes you don't need duct tape to fix things.)
*looks shocked* Oh! sorry.. I just like to make sure things are dealt with, I wouldn't stand for someone giving me such a disease. Your Mum sounds smart, she must've know that the fairies would be drawn to them and would keep you safe.
(I like not being warm too :/ it's good right now but it's been getting warmer at night :( and change it if you wish you can always go back ? Jai knows you love the drawing)
(Is that why you are below average?)
(The idea is to change it back, Conductor, after perhaps a day or two. I am just attempting to find a suitable picture which suits the colours I have in my images (red and black), and one that looks alright.)
*pauses the chain and weings her hands together*
Maybe you can deal with it without violence, with words instead. You know, ask questions first don't pick up the killy thing to begin with. I mean, I was a bit shocked, so I may not have handled it very well.
*mumbles something about having a panic attack and fainting*
But words are pretty cool.
*smiles*
My mum is awesome. What about you? Do you have parents?
*resumes the daisy chain*
(Well then I think that'd be fine :) throw it up a little... you know )
(I'm not sad because of the duct tape thing, the duct tape thing is me being happy. So yes, the duct tape thing is making me feel below average but that's an improvement to before.)
(Being entirely honest, it is just change for the sake of change. And as I said, I would like any other display image less than my current one.)
I have often found that not to be the case but it doesn't stop me from trying every now and then to find the genuinely nice people and be nice back *smiles* like you. Although I do agree wholeheartedly *smiles*. Not alive... But I can still contact them thanks to my magic *smiles thinking of them*.
(well if you can find one you like better with those colours... ? maybe since you want change? )
Everybody has a nice person within them and even if they're not nice to you, you should try and be nice back to them because then you can bring out the nice person. No one can be truly horrible, just as no one can be truly nice. We just have try our best and come into everyday putting out nicest version forward, or something like that, I don't really know.
*frowns*
I'm sorry that your parents are gone but its good that you can talk to them still.
(No, you misunderstand. I would like any image less than this one, so not liking it as much does not especially matter, so I am just looking for one suitable just for a change.)
(Ah! okai I getchu... if you have one you like then use it... even if for a short while.)
*ponders the wisdom* My whole life has been warranted around violence, at the star all was to survive, then my brother took me over and went on a killing spree. *nods* I like being able to talk to them too... make it feel like they're not really gone, just far away.
(The one I have currently decided to try is possibly more white than I would have liked.)
*stiffens a bit but tries her best not to let it show and takes a deep breath*
Oh.
*sudders*
That's not good, that's not very nice.
*nods at him but is still a little stiff*
Yeah, I think that makes sense.
*shakes her head to clear it then smiles*
Do you talk to them often then?
Guys....I was asked if I ever took singing lessons, when I responded no, the paremt couldn't believe I sung Angel of Music so well.
Then the parent told me if I wanted to learm to sing higher off the staff they knew a teacher who could teach me.
O.O
*nods* not nice at all, he's gone now though... he accidentally got rid of himself.
I make sure to at least once a month, the afterlife can get boring apparently, only so much netflix. Would you like to meet them?
(Soph Photoshop it ?
That's cool Zaf...are you taking lessons now?)
Currently we have to discuss as a family, money wise, I would like to personally because I want to do stuff with singing and all and yeah so I'm probably going to tell my mom I want to.
(That's really cool Zaf.
Good job.
...
For real, Con?)
*frowns*
I don't know if that's good or bad...
*smiles*
I like meeting new people, and since I didn't get hurt talking to you as a stranger today I guess it couldn't do any harm.
*nods and gets up after putting the daisies back into her backpack*
Yeah, I would.
(It's going to be morning soon and I haven't slept for a while. Well it seems like a while, in reality it was only a day and I feel tired. I'd love to continue this later Con, if you want to, but I must make a visit to sleepland.
Goodnight and goodbye Con, Soph, Zaf and ghosters or people I missed.)
(the name? :P or netflix?
how much are they? I know they can be dear)
*loosens his muscles* It's good... less killing sprees *halfheartedly smirks*.
*nods* ok then, they are basically going to be a projection onto smoke, they couldn't hurt you if they tried.
*flicks his batons in circles gathering shadows into a spiral sending black lighnight striking into the middle making the smoke sizzle like white space on an old tv*
Afrementa (mum) *hits the smoke furiously on the other side* is this thing on?
Celcrinonos (Dad) One of these days dear, that's going to get old... but it will happen at the same rate as you and you're still, as beautiful as the day I married you.
Af: Hello there Conny *mimes hugging*
Cel: Sup boy ? *holds his fist out for a bro fist*
both: Ohhh! who'd this youngin? got yourself a girlfriend?
(yeh that's fine Raven :P sleepy sleep *hugs* )
Hey.
*waves at everyone*
(Hey kas *waves*
i think i wbd now tbh I was procrastinating big time with raven lol )
*nods*
*curls up*
Omg.
I actually went out today.
There were, like, people.
:/
I am eager to curl up here on my own and return to my hermit status. :P
(I'm going out in three hours, though. Why? I've done enough social interaction today. :/ Either way.
*curls up in room on own*)
*places rabbits in Star's room*
(Hello, Star.)
Seriously. I haven't been home alone yet today. I feel deprived. :P
Apparently spending this much time alone doesn't improve my social interaction tolerance. XD XD
:) Hey, Kas. :) :)
*hides from rabbits*
Meh.
I dedicate this page to alone time. I love alone time. Especially if I can spend it talking to people online. Which I know sounds a bit weird but still. XD
*rabbits jump around*
(Hear hear...)
O_o
*hides under duvet from rabbits* *waits for them to jump out of the room*
*rabbits can't leave the room because the door is closed*
*they jump everywhere*
*one rabbit jumps onto the bed*
(Buses, Yey.)
Onwa: *chuckles*
Mm..
*finishes the alcohol and grins broadly, turning to Liliana, eyes shining brightly*
Fun time.
James: *nods and sets off right*
Because.. its being unique? I'd rather be weird than normal because then I've a new view on the world. People probably thought loads of inventors were weird but they helped the world?
(Hello, Jaimie.)
*hides from rabbits*
*they can't bite me/scratch me/other through the covers, right?*
. . .
*gets up and opens door, watching floor carefully to make sure I don't step on rabbits*
*climbs back into bed*
Hey Jai!! :)
Omg why were their two exclamation marks in my greeting to you, Jai?
I swear I only wrote one. :o
Never mind. Anotehr one can't do much harm. :)
*all of the rabbits jump after Star and snuggle against her*
* . . .*
*tries not to move*
*tries not to relax*
*focuses on positive emotions in case rabbits can smell emotions like dogs*
*looks around helplessly for someone to come rescue me*
((I'm not good with animals. XD))
*rabbits brush their ears against Star playfully*
(*laughs while watching star and the bunnies*)
*carefully resumes stayed very still and trying to relax, waiting for bunnies to desert me*
@Jai: :P
(*covers starry in carrot shavings and lettuce and dandelion leaves*)
*rabbits fall asleep, snuggled warmly against Star*
(Gtg, bye.)
JAI!!! *glares XD*
Fours Kas! :)
*tries to think of a way out of this XD*
"Clinical depression is not about willpower. It has absolutely nothing to do with willpower.
Trying to simply will away clinical depression is like trying to will away cancer.
For Noelle, depression has progressed beyond just sadness. Her brain is physically not producing chemicals that she needs in order to feel happy.
I can also say that Noelle Purcell is one of the most resilient people I have ever known, and she does want to get better. She does make a conscious effort. She speaks regularly with a doctor. She was prescribed medicine to try to help her. It didn't, so she went back and asked for better medicine. She has made active efforts to stop harming herself.
And still she is depressed, because she is suffering from clinical depression, and willpower is not enough to end her very physical illness.
She has been told numerous times before that she needs to be motivated to get better, and while again, I do appreciate the intentions of those who have told her that, it doesn't help her. Because she is trying, but she is also dealing with a physical illness that she cannot control by trying to change her mood. So it makes her feel as though they don't understand, and it frustrates her because she is trying so hard, and gaining so little from her efforts.
Personally, I really don't care all that much about what Fera said- from my perspective, his intentions were good, the effect they had on Noelle were bad, the escalation of conflict was bad, and now it's over. But I think it should be explained that Noelle is trying her hardest, and that while the significance of the word depression has faded with overuse, actual clinical depression cannot be reversed by power of will alone."
-Alastair
He wrote this, and I thought that a lot of you would do good with understanding this.
...
*Returns to death*
:) Thank you, Noelle. :)
(Hellllooooo
*collapses* Cardiff UNi is amazing but huge
I love the student union
But turns out I can't apply for midwifery and psychology -_-)
@Chloe: Hey!
And - -_-
(You can only write one personal statement for all unis and courses
But you have to write why you want the course placement
But I can't write about two)
@Chloe: :/ Oh . . .
(I can't decide )
(Sil: *murmurs into the gag that was forced upon her!!!*
Hmm.. What would you prefer, bringing new life into the world and occasionally having to tell people it's not gone right.. or trying to help people who need it?)
(Hmmmm I don't know! I'm an indisicive person
How art thou?)
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