Tuesday, June 23, 2015

Oh, Woe Is Me

It's not easy writing a book.

I mean, it's easier than mining coal. It's easier than most factory work. It's probably easier than a lot of office jobs as well.

But STARTING to write a book... those first few inches you have to push that boulder till it hits the edge and starts to roll downhill... THAT'S the hard part.

Not as hard as teaching, granted. Or working on a farm. Or being a doctor or a nurse or a cop or a fireman. I doubt it's as hard as construction, either, or carpentry, or plumbing, or engineering.

But STILL...

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Inky Flame said...

(You are awesome Jai

Thank you
It's our five month anniversary tomorrow)

Anonymous said...

(how much more do you have to sing :D :P -bet you sound good :D :P-)

Feraaaa32 said...

jai: nah, you are ^_^ :)

Jai (Silente Tempest - St Of Sinners) said...

(@Chloe not when singing xD There's a reason I'm NOT the singer in BTG.


Yey!)

Feraaaa32 said...

congrats clo ^_^ :) *hugs*

Queen Flora Ophelia of the Flowers; Leader of the New Land of Stickers; Prophet of the New Order; General of the Shadow People said...

@Fera: I got the top comment so I have to ded. I always do the worst deds -_-

Jai (Silente Tempest - St Of Sinners) said...

(@everyonewhothinksIcansing Lolno. You crazy.)

Feraaaa32 said...

so wut, JUST DO IT!! :D :D

Inky Flame said...

(Tanks *huggles* I don't know where the time has gone

Awwww I'm sure you have a pretty voice Jai .^)

Jai (Silente Tempest - St Of Sinners) said...

(*Huggles Chloe back* You're adorable together. *looks at the date* Mm..


Lolno.)

Inky Flame said...

(Awwww thank you ^.^)

Jai (Silente Tempest - St Of Sinners) said...

(You're welcome :)

How many days are there in this month?)

Anonymous said...

(30 )

Feraaaa32 said...

clo: ....what jai said :P ^_^
jai: stop being so negative about yourself >.<

Inky Flame said...

(Thanks Fera ^.^ )

Jai (Silente Tempest - St Of Sinners) said...

(Right. 30. Sooooooooo.. 14.)

Anonymous said...

(till ?)

Jai (Silente Tempest - St Of Sinners) said...

(Till the 14th.)

Anonymous said...

(what happens then ?)

Queen Flora Ophelia of the Flowers; Leader of the New Land of Stickers; Prophet of the New Order; General of the Shadow People said...

Right........hmmm........


I dedicate this page to Camp Nanowrimo because I'm really excited to be doing it again and fingers crossed it will actually push me to be productive with my writing again
*nods*
So, yeah. To Camp Nanowrimo :)

Jai (Silente Tempest - St Of Sinners) said...

(People change their calanders to the 14? The sun rises?)

Anonymous said...

(you wouldn't bring it up if it wasn't something special to you... )

Inky Flame said...

(Hear hear)

Jai (Silente Tempest - St Of Sinners) said...

(Wouldnt I?)

Anonymous said...

(Hear hear

what happens on the 14th that would make you remember and bring it up ? birthday ? )

Jai (Silente Tempest - St Of Sinners) said...

(It's probably someone's birthday somewhere.)

Anonymous said...

(why is it special to you?)

Queen Flora Ophelia of the Flowers; Leader of the New Land of Stickers; Prophet of the New Order; General of the Shadow People said...

I'm going, bye *disappears*

Jai (Silente Tempest - St Of Sinners) said...

(Who said it is?)

Jai (Silente Tempest - St Of Sinners) said...

(Bye flower!)

Inky Flame said...

(Byii flora)

Anonymous said...

(You did by proxy, but me, so why? -_-)

Feraaaa32 said...

bye flora, hear hear ^_^

Anonymous said...

(,-__________________________________________________________________-, )

Inky Flame said...

(If I was a character from te Big Bang theory, I'd be Bernadette XD)

Feraaaa32 said...

But you ARE a character from the big bang...get it? :P

Inky Flame said...

(*looks at you blankly*)

Feraaaa32 said...

*badam-tish* sorry... :P

Inky Flame said...

(I do like Gavin and Stacey)

Feraaaa32 said...

i don't watch the big gang theory XD :P

Commander Sophia Keating (N7 Operative and Council Spectre) said...

Liliana: Good. *she smiles*

Parasite: Do you enjoy corruption, or doing the corrupting?

Bethany: *she sighs happily, cuddling her*

Inky Flame said...

(Gavin and Stacey is a comedy
A welsh girl meets an falls in love and marrys an English bloke)

Commander Sophia Keating (N7 Operative and Council Spectre) said...

(Big... Gang Theory? Have we been watching a different show?)

Feraaaa32 said...

oh ok, then i don't watch that either :D yup, i've been watching punk gangs beating the crap out of each other XD

Inky Flame said...

(Barney is cwtched up to my back, asleep)

Feraaaa32 said...

awwww, dats cute ^_^

Inky Flame said...

(Thanks ^,^)

Feraaaa32 said...

*hugs*

Inky Flame said...

(*huggles* I'm sleepy
But I won't be able to sleep if I go to bed)

Feraaaa32 said...

why not? :)

Jai (Silente Tempest - St Of Sinners) said...

(*cuddles Sophi!!!!!!!!!!!* *is finally homeeeeeee!!!!!!!!* *grins, snuggling closer*)


Onwa: Mm..*yawns*


James: I enjoy doing to corrupting.


*cuddles her back*

Inky Flame said...

(Cause it's too hot)

Feraaaa32 said...

awww *hugs* it's always too hot in my room...because i am in it *badam tish* XD

Jai (Silente Tempest - St Of Sinners) said...

(Hey again guys :)

Jai (Silente Tempest - St Of Sinners) said...

(Is it me.. or are Greece.. kinda.. flopping. And potentially failing..)

Inky Flame said...

(*huggles* soooo funny XD
Hey Jai ^.^))

Jai (Silente Tempest - St Of Sinners) said...

(Hey Chloe :) wanna rp?)

Star Inkbright said...

Morgan: Yeah, but who is he?

Star Inkbright said...

@Jai: Yeah, I think so. I've read a thread or two about Greece on AVEN, and, yeah. :/

Inky Flame said...

(I be off to bed soon so there's no point starting sorry -\/-
Was up at 4:30 this morning)

Star Inkbright said...

@Inky: Haha lol my night is technically just beginning. XD
(Although I'd personally rather go to sleep earlier and wake up earlier.)

Jai (Silente Tempest - St Of Sinners) said...

(Its fine :)

Inky Flame said...

(Tattoo fixers is a good program)

Feraaaa32 said...

clo: i know riiigghht? XD ^_^

Commander Sophia Keating (N7 Operative and Council Spectre) said...

(*she cuddles Jaimie back, tightly* I am glad that you are home.)

Liliana: *she rests her head on Onwa's chest*

Parasite: Mmm... Shame.

Bethany: Do you think we should go downstairs and get some food? After we've got dressed, I mean...


Ember: The god of destruction?

Inky Flame said...

(I'm off to bed now
Nos da)

Tanya Halcyon (Kas) said...

Good night, Chloe.

Hi.

Jai (Silente Tempest - St Of Sinners) said...

(*smiles* Me too. I'll try stay up to make up for my lack of presence.)

Onwa: *smiles, stroking her hair gently*


James: *raises an eyebrow* I have never found anyone capable of corrupting me while also holding my interest.


Mmm.. probably..

Feraaaa32 said...

goodnight clo, nos da ^_^

Star Inkbright said...

HELP
I NEED CONCEPTS
FAST

Jai (Silente Tempest - St Of Sinners) said...

@Star huh?)

Feraaaa32 said...

star: ? :)

Moss Harbor Elsinore Lantern Cryptic said...

*Sits in her office and seethes*

*The first couple days of classes have been...interesting.*

*She's beginning to seriously consider Rozzy's offer. An adventure sounds rather nice.*

*Ah well, that's what she has books for.*

Feraaaa32 said...

hello carey :)

Moss Harbor Elsinore Lantern Cryptic said...

Hello.

Jai (Silente Tempest - St Of Sinners) said...

(Hey Carey.)

Anonymous said...

(A. Nos da Chloe
B. Hi Kas how be you ?
C. Concepts for what ? I may be able to help
D. Hi Carey how be you too?
E. Hi I'm back.
F. I put a chapter of conductor up btw feedback would be nice no need to thou.
G. I now have a picture blog so I can save space and show you stuff :P)

Feraaaa32 said...

how're you? ^_^

Fabi S. - Fashion-Conscious Fire Wraith said...

[There's a scratching at the door of Carey's office]

Moss Harbor Elsinore Lantern Cryptic said...

(Me? I'm having an absolutely rubbish day, thank you for asking. The coffee machine nearest to my office is out of order.)

(Hello, Jai, Conductor, Moss.)

*Scowls*

Come back during my office hours!

Anonymous said...
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Feraaaa32 said...

^_^

Fabi S. - Fashion-Conscious Fire Wraith said...

[There's no answer, except for a little yowling noise]

Moss Harbor Elsinore Lantern Cryptic said...

*Sighs and gets up from her chair*

This had better be important.

*She opens the door...*

Star Inkbright said...

It's alright, I found enough concepts. :) Sorry. Had a moment of panic there. Similar to when you've had two weeks to do your homework and are doing it in lesson changeover haha.

Fabi S. - Fashion-Conscious Fire Wraith said...

[There's a smallish silver cat sitting outside, giving itself a bath]

Anonymous said...

(Ah ! alright then lol

do you ever just get like a random burst of happiness and want to share it but then immediatly look at yourself and go this isn't you, be depressed you weirdo.... :P)

Moss Harbor Elsinore Lantern Cryptic said...

*Blinks*

No cats on campus, except indoor cats in designated dorms, and you haven't got a collar, so you can't be one of those. I'm afraid I'm going to have to ask you to leave.

Moss Harbor Elsinore Lantern Cryptic said...

(No, I can't say I've experienced anything similar.)

Fabi S. - Fashion-Conscious Fire Wraith said...

*The cat, of course, says nothing, and looks up at Carey*

Mrow?

*The cat headbutts Carey's ankle*

Anonymous said...

(ok then ... makes sense I suppose any normal person wouldn't scold themselves for being happy.)

Star Inkbright said...

((@Keiron: No, because I am, weirdly enough, generally happy. :P
But seriously - DON'T STOP YOURSELF FROM BEING HAPPY. :)

Fabi S. - Fashion-Conscious Fire Wraith said...

((What Star said.))

Dugglyn Carzainia said...

Bye, bye Miss American Pie
Drove my Chevy to the levee but the levee was dry
And them good ole boys were drinking whiskey and rye
Singin' this'll be the day that I die
This'll be the day that I die

Star Inkbright said...

*nodsnods at LanternLantern*

Moss Harbor Elsinore Lantern Cryptic said...

*Carey blinks some more*

Well, don't just sit there looking cute!

*She picks up the cat and carries it into her office*

Let's see if we can figure out where you belong.

(Sorry, Fabi, I have to go now.

Goodbye, everyone.)

Dugglyn Carzainia said...

Nope, i always act hyper and happy when I'm hyper and happy!

Which is most of time..!

Dugglyn Carzainia said...

Bye Carey!

Dugglyn Carzainia said...

Msd

I keep randomly poofing so now I'm saying it! Msd

Star Inkbright said...

@Dugglyn: XD *hugs*

Chione Asahina said...

That song is like the longest song ever with lyrics lol. 8 minutes long. American Pie-Don Maclean

Fabi S. - Fashion-Conscious Fire Wraith said...

(Bye Carey)

*The cat looks pleased and purrs*

[Nods at StarStar]

Hi Dugglyn, Chione.

Anonymous said...

(I /act/ happy and hyper all the time too ! :D

but I think people don't like me, when I am happy I think I make people annoyed therefore being happy makes me sad. )

Chione Asahina said...

Bye carey.
Hi star, duggy and fabi.

Commander Sophia Keating (N7 Operative and Council Spectre) said...

Liliana: *she closes her eyes, starting to fall asleep*

Parasite: Ha. I could have you corrupted unbelievably easily. Mmm... And then rather than have you focus just on Silente, I would have us both make an entire city turn insane.

Bethany: I feel so safe with you...

Star Inkbright said...

@Keiron: :( Don't think that.
I mean, if you started acting like Dugglyn you'd probably think you were annoying people, but I don't know anyone who's annoyed by Dugglyn. In fact, her way of acting makes my day just have that bit more of happiness in it, and it makes me smile. It's nice.
I appreciate happiness, and I don't know anyone who's voiced that they don't (although Catherine doesn't like optimism, which is similar but not the same).

Jai (Silente Tempest - St Of Sinners) said...

(Hi again gemmy)


Onwa: *falls asleep against her*


James: *chuckles*
An insane city.


*smiles, kissing her hair, holding her tighter*
Good.

Fabi S. - Fashion-Conscious Fire Wraith said...

If people are annoyed by your happiness, you need to find better people to be around.

Star Inkbright said...

Just to clarify - That's not to say that everyone SHOULD act happy. If you're not happy, you shouldn't feel forced to act happy if you don't want to. But if you ARE happy, I don't seem any harm in showing it. :)

Dugglyn Carzainia said...

Awww, thanks Star!
*hugs*

I have to go, pie!

Star Inkbright said...

@Dugglyn: Yw. :) Fours!

Star Inkbright said...

OMG my friendship grou just went to bed.

I can't believe that.

It's only half eleven.

:) Well, anyway, I'll probably be here until at least midnight.

Chione Asahina said...

Hey sid, keiron, Sophia.
bye duggy.

I think i'm going to go too. Really tired.

*throws pink and black paint and glitter at sid and smirks*
Goad you liked the chapter.

Commander Sophia Keating (N7 Operative and Council Spectre) said...

(Time skip, Jaimie?)

Parasite: It could be our playground.

Bethany: I love you. So much. You are everything I have ever wanted and more.

Anonymous said...

(...thanks. )

Star Inkbright said...

(Fours, Chione. :)

Everyone's going to bed tonight. Wtf.)

Morgan: Yeah, what does that entail?

*lessens the heat energy he's emitting*

Chione Asahina said...

Glad* night guys! *leaves hugs in a box and a 'take one' sign

Star Inkbright said...

:) *obeys sign*
*hugs hug*

Commander Sophia Keating (N7 Operative and Council Spectre) said...

(Star, I will most likely be up longer, given the heat. I am used to Canadian temperatures.)

Anonymous said...

(night Gem -doesn't know if he should read it, he wants to but wonders if it's weird or not-

bye Dug )

Star Inkbright said...

@Sophia: :(

Anonymous said...

(knowing me I'll be up past 2)

Star Inkbright said...

I want to cut my hair so it's about chin length or so at one end, and slowly increases in length as you go around my head until it's much longer at the other side.

Thoughts? Good idea or terrible idea?

Sadly, a brief internet search did not yeild any images, so . . .

Lizzie says it's an awesome idea and I should work to make it happen. :)

I'd have to grow my hair a bit before trying it out, I think, so I have time to mull it over and stuff.

Commander Sophia Keating (N7 Operative and Council Spectre) said...

Ember: He wages wars, causes natural disasters and generally causes things to explode. It is why he is one of the weaker gods. His powers do not contribute to the realms.

Anonymous said...

(sounds like it could be cool if it's done right... but ehm it might grow in weird? or if they do it wrong you'd be pissed.)

Commander Sophia Keating (N7 Operative and Council Spectre) said...

(Star - It would be asymmetrical, and may not look right. Is asymmetrical hair something you want?)

Star Inkbright said...

Morgan: *nods*

((@Sophia: It would be intentionally asymmetrical. :P
(Omg. Love that word. Asymmetrical. It's so beautiful.)
Yeah, I guess so. I mean, things that are perfectly even tend to irritate me, and plain long hair also irritates me because it's just a sheet of hair and I'm like "what is the point in this." I've had my ayered for the past few years because I think layered hair is beautiful, bu the hairdresser doesn't layer it as much as I'd want. :/

I also have a partign on one side and have for all my life, so arguably my hair is already asymmetrical (and I like that), but I guess I'd also have to decide whether the thick side or the thin side would be the long/short side . . . hmm.

@Keiron: Yeah, well, I'm not sure I have the confidence to ask a hairdresser to do it, that's the other thing. Not sure I could do it myself. Might have to enlist the help of my friends.
If I started it from shoulder length instead of chin length, then if it went wrong I could just lop it off.

Noelle said...

Adra sat alone at the diner, pushing around the leafy pile of salad with a fork. She wasn’t hungry, per se, but she didn’t have anyone to eat with. Although, according to the tests, she does have to eat. Doctor Rayman ordered her to.
She gently placed her hand on her belly, rubbing it softly, comfort more to herself than the small collection of cells that were growing inside. She couldn’t tell her Alastair yet. She had done everything in her power to protect him from this secret. Part of her knew that he suspected her of keeping a secret; that perhaps he may have noticed her memories being tampered with, but she knew for sure that he had no idea of the secret herself. She didn’t know of it either until nearly an hour ago.
Having a third child would be awful. Barely had she just recovered from having a second child- and Alek was born premature. What if the baby was born early too? What if her body is unable to have another child, because it is still rebounding from the pregnancy with Alek?
She sighed.
She really needed to take birth control. Either that, or freeze her eggs. Get her tubes tied. Something.
Her fist came down hard. One thing was for sure. She was not giving up sex with her husband.
Smiling, Adra placed her head in her hand. No, she wasn’t giving up that. That was too… too… Too wonderful, too liberating.

Noelle said...

Flushing as her soup came, she quickly recomposed herself, and crossed her legs. The waiter gave her a strange look, undoubtedly confused with her look that screamed “I’m turned on”. She lapped at her soup.
Besides, she knew how Hell would come if this child had schizophrenia as well. Cara had miraculously missed the gene, but Alek was undoubtedly stuck with the disease. Between two parents who are active carriers, well… To have a second schizophrenic child would be terrible- not just for her, but for the child.
It didn’t take long for her to finish her soup, and when she did, she paid and went back to her car to drive home. She had promised Alastair that she would make dinner that evening, and her free time was nearly up. He was at work, and so she only had a few hours left before he returned. As she drove along the busy downtown streets to Savan, the building of which their penthouse is in, she passed a number of ambulances and police cars, as the brief thought of becoming a vigilante crossed her mind again. Of course it was purely Romantic to envision herself as a Batman type figure, but a part of her found guilty relish in the idea. Her husband was an Assassin, so why couldn’t she do good things too? She even lived like Batman. Wealthy billionare, a cook, a bodyguard- a significant other with beyond-earth beauty? Of course she could be a vigilante.
Now, to convince her over-protective husband…
Her mouth fixed itself in a hard line.
No.
Pregnancy be damned.
She is going to fight.

Star Inkbright said...

*reading*
*interested*

Anonymous said...

(*likes the rp*

-is partially wondering if this one will become a non single one-)

Noelle said...

((No... There isn't anywhere I was going with it. It was just a story. ))

Star Inkbright said...

((Birth control, Adra. That's where it's at.

I think I mgiht be going to sleep around now . . . fours?))

Anonymous said...

(awkaii! :/ jw if you were going to take it somewhere as I'm curious especially because I like your writing :P)

Noelle said...

((Yeah, you would think that they would use birth control, considering how often they have sex... Which is, on average, more than once a day.))
((Alright.

I'm considering writing a new story with new characters.. I wonder how it will turn out..))

Star Inkbright said...

((@Noelle: Mmh. I just really don't think that not using birth control is responsible or sensible in that situation.

:) Probably well, knowing you.))

Anonymous said...

(goodnight star *hugs*

you should Noelle :P I like your writing I'm sure everyone will

-the implant? )

Noelle said...

I agree, Star. I forget Adra's reasoning behind it. Mmhm.

And- for the record, the story that I'm writing is rather disgusting. In my writing, I like to put a lot of realism into the text, and what I write is inappropriate for some. It would be best if I left it off the blog and sent it to whomever is interested in the story.

It's about a man who has turned thirty, and begins to kill people.

Anonymous said...

(I'd be highly interested. you could always make a blog post? )

Star Inkbright said...

@Noelle: Mmh.

You can probably consider me interested.

Actually am tired now.
Let there be sleep. :P

Anonymous said...

(if not and email is the way you wish to go then - keironcairns@gmail.com )

Noelle said...

No, I don't have blogs anymore.

Very well, I'll compose the email now, and send it later.

Anonymous said...

(Yeh ! cool cool :) mbd I'll try keep commenting if you wish...


don't know why you would as you odn't know me but yeh.)

Noelle said...

its okay. I rarely refuse to allow someone who wants to read my stuff, read my stuff.

Anonymous said...

(Yeh okaii :) i'm glad ... for the record I don't hate you either.)

Noelle said...

I've sent it..

I think I'm retiring for the evening. Alastair hasn't appeared on our private blog yet, so I'm certain that Aretha is asleep.

Goodnight.

Anonymous said...

(thanks I'll check it out soon goodnight :D )

Zanida Laufeydottir Queen of Asgard (Zafira Kerias) said...

I knew Aretha hated me, I knew it from the moment it all began. Never liked me once she found Adra, yeah who needed me? Who? Nobody. I should just be the wall, not needed, not part of life, just there. Because that's what I am: just there.

*sighs*

Anonymous said...

(If it helps at all Zaf I like you, I don't hate you and you're part of my life :P



*hopes it helps but knows that he doesn't matter so it's not worth much* {~}-{~} )

Zanida Laufeydottir Queen of Asgard (Zafira Kerias) said...

And now with Adra back, I may as well just go. Her being back just will cause more hate to me, more oh Zaf is a bitch.

I know nobody will give a shit, you'll all read this and say I'm playing victim.

One day: you'll realize I do feel it. Why does nobody actually like me?

I can feel it: I can feel when I comment, people cringe. People leave. Go silent.

Yeah. So much for tryjng to come back. It'll be just like it was. Everyone gravitates to Adra, then because she hates me, like everyone here, I'll be back in a corner, unwanted, forgotten, hated.

I think I hear the flood waters, we had nice flooding. I better move fast.

Not many will care.

Anonymous said...

(*points to above comment* I CARE! *slaps melodramatically both hands on face looking deep into eyes* You are loved just as much as everyone else goddamnit! Everyone has falling outs now and then just deal with it and realize they still like you for you. )

Zanida Laufeydottir Queen of Asgard (Zafira Kerias) said...

Whenever Adra is on, its like people think of me as what I'm not. I'm different and nobody listens! You're one of a few who won't call me names or insult me and degrade me.

Most will. Most will let me... Be hurt.

I'm going to bed, I want to be well rested to go tomorrow

Anonymous said...

(To go? ....


Goodnight ... *hugs* feel better and don't do anything /silly/ please. )

Noelle said...

Perhaps it is because you occasionally have outburts.. Where you completely go bezerk on people. The last one being upon me, earlier this month. (May have been one since then- I only document ones when I'm here)

...

Just a hought

Noelle said...

For the record.
June 12th, beginning at 3:40 AM, GMT.

"I'm not going to mutter another word because, you know what? I don't care."
"I mean it's annoying now" (in reference to my posts)
"It's not my fault she can't think a happy thought"
"Why should I be kind to someone I can't trust"
"I am just fed up with her wanting to die"

I stopped documenting at 4:43 AM, GMT.

But you get the point.

Anonymous said...

(everyone has arguments Adra -btw do you prefer Adra or Noelle? or anything else?- I know sometimes they can go too far -not saying it did or didn't- but I guess I am a very forgiving person and want to give the love to everyone :P)

Fabi S. - Fashion-Conscious Fire Wraith said...

When you're hurt, and you express it by harassing or bullying people, other people are less likely to react in a comforting way than they would if you expressed your feelings in a way that didn't just make more people hurt.

...

Also just a thought.

Noelle said...

I like Noelle, please.
And kudos to you for being kind. I'm afraid I don't always have that luxury... I don't really like people who have hurt me.. Or hurt others, and I don't forgive easily, especially if I was being hurt for a long time.

But again, it's a commendable trait that you forgive.

Anonymous said...

(okaii :) Noelle it is

I don't always have that luxury but I try my hardest most of the time. I'm glad you think so though...

I think that can be twisted into a nice way if you look at it from all perspectives, like "I am fed up with you wanting to die... because I like you and you wanting to hurt yourself makes me so upset and I've showed I care so much... why can't you see that we care and that we really don't want you to die. I can't trust that you will be here tomorrow and that breaks my heart it's annoying me that you have to post these things as I feel at fault" :/ :?

maybe don't take my word for it but I can see it from a nice point of view as well as malicious but I prefer to look on the bright side as much as possible... you know to help from slipping back into the darkness.

Hey Fabi :P I kinda get that too but I don't believe in suppressing yourself not always healthy for you or others, I mean it can be put differently sometimes but in the heat of the moment/ if you have had enough/ have been broken then maybe you just can't put it differently anymore.)

Fabi S. - Fashion-Conscious Fire Wraith said...
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Noelle said...

*Fairly certain that That was NOT the perspective at the time, based on other evidence that I left out due to its brevity*

But thank you for the suggestion.

But..

.
..







I'm starting to think that coming here was a bad idea. Honestly, I've just been bored out of my mind since Aretha is traveling in a different time zone.. Plus I don't have a lot of people available o speaking to in real life right now so I figured I would try here... To try to keep myself busy? To say the truth, if I just sat around with no one to speak to, I would fall hard back to square one with my depression. Right now, I'm not even self harming every day!

However
Many people of late do have a point. Whenever I come here, fights start.


So I'm going to go again. I'm sure that this place may be somewhat calmer in my absence- and I know for certain that I won't have to worry about commotion or attacks upon myself, since I won't have to put myself in a vulnerable position for them.

So yes.
I'll just... Go. It will be best for everyone.

You'll maybe hear back from me if I'm having a bad day. Perhaps it will be too late for you to hear back. Who knows. Goodnight.

Fabi S. - Fashion-Conscious Fire Wraith said...

There are a lot of conflicts when you're not here as well, Noelle. It's not all your fault.

[sends hugs]

And I'm glad you're making progress.

Fabi S. - Fashion-Conscious Fire Wraith said...

Also I sent you an email...

Anonymous said...

(If being here will help stop/ slow the self harm then I am a firm supporter of coming here. If it helps your depression in the slightest then it is better than nothing. -remembers it at the time but things do get escalated... "some of the worst things happen with the best intentions" :/

@zaf sorry if I offended you by trying to make your words good... I feel you may not talk to me now because trying to help both of you. Soy! Also not saying it was the worst thing I just think that quote fits in it's place because I believe you had good intentions yet most took it as bad and turned on you.-

@fabi I suppose but it can be hard. I am sorry if i'm coming off wrong it's 4:15am and I'm kinda loosing my points...)

Noelle said...

But for the record.

I snapshot every time that I feel threatened, in case things are deleted.
And my folder is full of them.

It was me who talked to Derek- it was always me, and to be honest- I would have again, November, but the first two times had no avail. November was terrible because I was called "a retard", and my "depression is fake".

So yes.
I do document everything, because I didn't last time. Last time, I was a victim, and I lost control, but this time, I intend to put up more of a case.

So there it is.
Goodbye.

*Adra abruptly jumps from a cliff and is skewered by a sea of rocks*

*Noelle, however, swallows three large bottles of red and blue colored acetaminophen, before taking a number of bottles of melatonin and drinks all the NyQuil that she possibly can* *Makes sure too, covers her head with a plastic bag*

Anonymous said...

(was it something I said?... I'm sorry..... :'( did I end up on the documentations? I wanted to help! :( I'm sorry please don't kill yourself. :/

*conductor resurrects her body with necromancy*

*keiron shoves his fingers down her throat making her puke up the pills b4 they do damage ripping the plastic bag off in the doing*

I feel really bad rn ... i'll try and stay up, email me if you want I know you have it now.)

Anonymous said...

(It's coming up for 5am i'm shattered... if you NEED me, I'm sorry please hold off for 7 hours? when I wake up )

Jai (Silente Tempest - St Of Sinners) said...

(*sighs*
*hugs Noelle and Zafira*

Zaf, you're being paranoid. Yes, people don't necessarily see you as an amazingly kind person, but you say bad things when you lose your temper. You know you aren't ignored, we've said this so many times.

Noelle you don't cause arguments. Differences in opinions do. Sometimes you have differences in opinions, that makes you human. You don't have to leave for it, the arguing will calm down after a couple of days and if needs be I'll talk to Soph, although I don't think that'll be needed. If Zaf decides to argue (not saying she will) then we can deal with that too if it happens.

Neither of you need to leave.

@Star Ohhhh my friend has hair like that! although hers starts just above her shoulder and finishes just above her.. chest. It's cool :)

@Soph we're gonna roast today xD)


(Yes)


James: Mm. A playground of the insane.


*smiles, kissing her gently*
I love you too beautiful. I never expected I'd get a partner.. then I met someone but.. you just.. outshone them buy a mile.
*grins*
Both literally and figuratively. Right now you're probably outshining the street lights for the people outside. And you're so hot I could roast marshmallows from you. Figuratively. You're amazing..

Inky Flame said...

(It is raining
But it's still BOILING)

Star Inkbright said...

Keiron, I may need to email you in order to update you on events last year so you can understand the situation up there better. I don't know if you read back, which is part of the reason I'm emailing.

Inky Flame said...

(Hey star)

Commander Sophia Keating (N7 Operative and Council Spectre) said...

(Hello.

Jaimie - When it is the hottest day of the year, it is likely.

Liliana: *she wakes up, stretching a little, cuddling against Onwa's chest*

Parasite: Now you are getting the idea. To me, targeting thousands of people is better than targeting one.

Bethany: *she kisses her back, blushing a little* I'm not beautiful... Or hot. And I don't really know what marshmallows are... Are they a type of meat you roast?

Star Inkbright said...

*waves to everyone* :)

@Jai: Cool! :)

@Sophia: Is it? Darn. I was enjoying this. :P

Star Inkbright said...

@Sophia: I think I responded last on the roleplay. morgan nodded.

Commander Sophia Keating (N7 Operative and Council Spectre) said...

(Hello, Star. Yes, it is the hottest day of the year.)

Ember: I bloody wish I was Phaestra's daughter instead right now so I could heal myself.

Star Inkbright said...

Morgan: Healing is pretty useful. However, if you were Phaestra's daughter you mgiht have died back there and not been able to heal.
*shrugs*

Commander Sophia Keating (N7 Operative and Council Spectre) said...

Ember: Good point. And I like eating meat too much. *the passage once again opens up, this time into a large hall without a roof*

Elizabeth: *she is fighting several of Archeos' soldiers and several demons in the centre, using two daggers, occasionally firing a bolt from the small crossbows built into her gauntlets* *she finishes off a soldier by stabbing him in the neck with her dagger, immediately appearing beside a demon before the soldier has even hit the ground* *she ducks under a strike from the demon, firing one of the crossbows - causing eighty crossbow bolts to embed themselves into the demon, killing it*

Ember: *rather than walking down the stairs to the hall, she leaps over the railing, landing behind a soldier, knocking him flying with a pulse of fire*

Star Inkbright said...

Morgan: *makes another mental note at that, then frowns at the state most of his mental notes in this file are in*
*quickly closes mental file as they enter hall*
*looks at Ember, judges that jumping over the railing would be a bad idea, and runs down the stairs*

Anonymous said...

(mornin' :/

I replied btw Star.)

Commander Sophia Keating (N7 Operative and Council Spectre) said...

Elizabeth: *she slashes another soldier in the stomach, causing him to double over* *she rolls over his back, blocking a strike from a demon that was aimed at Ember* *she twists the arm of the demon, slitting its throat*

Ember: *she sends a stream of fire at a demon, starting to burn it* *the demon grasps the crossbow bolt in her shoulder, and pulls on it as it dies* *it gets ripped out and she cries out, holding her shoulder, the wound getting wider* *a soldier hits her in the back of the head with his shield, knocking her unconscious* *the soldier thrusts his sword downwards*

Elizabeth: *she raises a hand to the soldier whilst firing a crossbow bolt at another, impaling him with several bolts rather than just one* *a blue pulse of energy fires at the soldier, knocking him back before he ran run Ember through*

Commander Sophia Keating (N7 Operative and Council Spectre) said...

(Hello, Conductor.)

Anonymous said...

(Hello Soph. :/ how be you? )

Star Inkbright said...

((OMG.
People like me. :D

(Sorry, I've just spent a while spamming my friends with photographs of my computer screen, so I thought I'd spam you guys instead.

OMG.

OMG.

:)


@Keiron: :) I'll head over to that tab now.))

Morgan: *reaches bottom of stares and fires laser light out of his hand at a soldier*

Star Inkbright said...

Ugh. Let me think of a ded. :P

Anonymous said...

(sorry if I come across weird 5 hours sleep :P and just up without a wakemeup yet )

Commander Sophia Keating (N7 Operative and Council Spectre) said...

(I am warm, Conductor. Yourself?

Yes, Star. People like you.)

Soldier: *the laser hits him and he drops*

*a small group of soldiers begin to advance towards Morgan, shields raised*

Elizabeth: *she seems to move twice as fast as normal, ducking and diving underneath blows effortlessly, daggers slicing everywhere as she takes on several soldiers and demons simultaneously*

Anonymous said...

(I am tired. tbh

and I thought that was obvious too star :P of course we like you -along with others but we're better so we like you more :P - )

Star Inkbright said...

@Keiron&Sophia: Yes, but you KNOW me. It always surprises me when people who I DON'T know like me. :P

Zanida Laufeydottir Queen of Asgard (Zafira Kerias) said...

I. Knew. It.

From the beginning she was the tattler!!!!

Oh she is so damn lucky I have better things to do then be here today... I knew it!!!

I feel accomplished. I was right, and I have EVERY DAMN RIGHT to blame her for last year. Oh yes I do! Nobody's big shot enough to say crap to me, when I ain't here!

*goes because drama camp time*

Zanida Laufeydottir Queen of Asgard (Zafira Kerias) said...

And if you all are so damn bored, you gotta gossip theories on me, you need help. Badly.

*poofs for real*

Star Inkbright said...

@Zaf: . . . What?

. . .
Okay, you lost me.

Commander Sophia Keating (N7 Operative and Council Spectre) said...

(Zafira, perhaps some context would help your argument. Then again, that is unlikely.)

Star Inkbright said...

If someone intentionally stands on your toes it doesn't give you the right to behead them, does it?

For the record, I honestly can't rememebr who reported it to Derek the first time, but I know that people who aren't Noelle have also contacted Derek at times.

Also, of course I have no life, haha. You should know this about me. :)

Star Inkbright said...

*not that I'm saying Noelle hasn't.

I just don't see what's wrong with 'tattling.' I am all for involving other people if they could help.

Commander Sophia Keating (N7 Operative and Council Spectre) said...

(I am wondering whether she is going for her old argument of, "I bullied someone therefore it is their fault". Which is a completely useless argument. It would be, in effect, the same argument of beating someone up in the street and then blaming the victim that a CCTV camera caught them.)

Anonymous said...

(back from shower

@Zaf me? my theory was to help both of you... and I said I was sorry that if me twisting your words offended you, I was looking for a nice way to put your words as I know you cared.)

Star Inkbright said...

@Sophia: Haha, that's Dan's argument. He says it's not his fault if he stabs/shoots people, it's their fault for annoying him. He says that if you just do whatever he wants then no harm will come to you, and that if you don't do whatever he wants, it's your fault because you could have perfectly well avoided it by doing what he wants but you chose not to. :P

And then Dan wonders why Kaladin threw him out of a window. :P

@Keiron: :/ No, she was having a go at me for emailing you, I think (feel free to correct me if I'm wrong).

Chione Asahina said...

*mumbles* no fucking wonder she goes to drama camp cause she's such a drama queen...and now we've lost Noelle again...

Commander Sophia Keating (N7 Operative and Council Spectre) said...

(Star - I would possibly do worse. Does Dan suffer from a narcissistic personality disorder?)

Garret Falcone said...

(Guys I know this isn't my beef really

But i think I know exactly what Zaf meant

Its another dig at Noelle... Not you K or you Star neither of you have done anything wrong in this case right now

Thats why I believe it to be anyway and that's what the evidence seems to say
Especially if you read back to last night too

Thats all folks )

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