The competition had nothing to do with me or Skulduggery — it was all to do with an educational video game designed to teach you maths and have, you know, actual fun while you do it. Incorporating historically accurate aspects of Native American tribal life and culture, the game was called Spirit Lake, and the competition was to find someone to become a character in it, using your name and likeness. Here's what I said about it at the time:
"And if this works like they hope it will, this could be the beginning of something huge. This could revolutionise teaching, and learning— not just in America but across the world— and it could be just the thing that's needed to help struggling students make that singular, all-important leap. This could change people's lives."
The competition was a great success. I got in some hilarious responses, and also some heartfelt ones, and while it was not easy to pick a winner, a winner I did pick.
And now I'm going to do it all over again.
These same awesome people — people who include the mother and sister of my personal (Twitter) friend, UFC champion Ronda Rousey* — have another game in development, called Forgotten Trail.
SO — if you like the idea of having a video game version of yourself teaching kids maths across America, give me your reasons why. In no more than thirty words, explain why you should win, and send your entries to skulteams@hotmail.com. You can enter as many times as you like, you can be any age, from any country, and the winner will be announced at the end of July.
Good luck!
* Yes, Ronda does count as a friend**.
** By friend I don't, of course, mean someone I've ever actually met, but that's not what's important here***.
*** What's important is that we're PALS. Some might say buddies. Kindred spirits, perhaps. I might even go so far as to say I've taught her everything she knows****.
**** I haven't ACTUALLY taught her everything she knows, but she knows that I would have, if ever I knew something that she didn't already know. Such as writing*****.
***** Although seeing as how Ronda's autobiography has made it to the New York Times bestseller list — a list I have yet to ACTUALLY grace — this probably isn't the best use of my, or her, time. But even so, I am sure there are PLENTY of things I could teach her. Though probably nothing useful or, you know, not-imaginary, like unicorn-taming, or yodelling******.
***** I'll shut up now.
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«Oldest ‹Older 2001 – 2200 of 4893 Newer› Newest»hopey: yes i do realize, and that's why i am staying on in the small amount of time that you're on ^_^ :)
hey violet ^_^ nahh, you can join ^_^
And sorry about getting a little defensive earlier. Twas' uncalled for.
I wish I could actually rp.
what do you mean violet? ^_^ and you can zaf :)
I still am not really clear what rping is/how one rps...
I wish I could but I suck at it. It's like kf I'm in character I suck
HI VIOLET!
Oh, and one thing about me: I'm not much into rp, so no worries. :)
OH, and I also like the color purple! *high fives for awesome color peoples* My taken name is actually Lavender Hope, and my character's power is adept: shapeshifter. :) A pleasure to officially introduce myself to you. :)
...
Everyone has left me now.
No sign of my internet friends- my now-ex..
My flame is just about burned out. The only thing that stopped me- recalled me, so to say, was to see if I could make it to Univeristy... But I don't know if I can.
Theres nothing
Albeit in a very bad/confusing way. :P My mind is really not working right now.
yay, i like purple as well, dark purple :D ^_^
Hi, made an introduction somewhere, but it was kinda long, and I don't feel like typing it out again. But fun fact about me: "purple" was my first word, and except for like one year in early elementary school, it has always been and probably always will be my favorite color. I also dye parts of my hair purple sometimes. PURPLE PEOPLE UNITE!
adra: *sigh* you can if u really want to ^_^
Adra, if I can say something, you didn't want us to email you. We respected your wish, but we still didn't want to...
We're here for you whenever you need us, but you gotta let us know first. *hugs tightly*
Please don't think we've abandoned you.
And please keep going. If you can make it to Uni, you can make it further.
I'm not going to utter a word because you know what? I don't care.
Zaf, not helping. And I know you care. Please don't make her feel worse though..
And Violet- Dont worry if you see Adra comment, she refuses to let people email her, and never actually responds to comments of support but if you feel up to trying, go for it.
You'll get used to the once a week/day/month comments from her. You want to help but know she won't accept it.
O.O its thundering madly
No, I mean those who have... Well. Really tried-
Aretha and Alastair are going to be distant- and so... Just.... I won't see them as much.
And Sir doesn't email me of his own volition..
I'm going to Europe on Sunday. Maybe I can find a good place to... Run away, or something. Leap from a bridge- just something. It would be nice, to be in the poetic places that I will be.. Just, yeah.
Sorry but you know I can handle so much, but why bother?
I mean....never mind. This is why I'm oh so hated.
don't fight please ^_^
...
Fine, Zafira. Have it your way.
You're a terrible person, you know that?
...
Fine. Goodbye.
Well at least live through Europe and if you jump off a bridge in Paris....At least think before you do, you know maybe some people would miss you, like Aretha?
And do NOT do a Javert.
Right....
Probably should go.
Oh and I know I'm a horrible person, I acknowledge I am and always will be.
goddamnit...seriously people.
Noelle, if you're going somewhere, I hope it's nice. I hope that you like it so much that you'd want to live long enough to move to that safe, special place and live happily. I hope you can meet someone who'll fill that emptiness inside you and show you how amazing you are.
*hugs*
*hugs Zaf*
Because we care. I know you do too, but you mustn't give up on her. At least keep those thoughts in your head...
*curses at her late comment*
If only I were faster at typing...
*curses at her late comment*
If only I were faster at typing...
it's ok hopey, you couldn't have done anything about them jumping each other. At least you're being nice to everyone *hugS*
Sorry Hope, but I just don't have the heart to anymore.
I mean its annoying now.
People have a lot go on, hell I have things a year ago I was not close to thinking would happen, but at least I listen when people talk to me.
I don't lose faith just because someone becomes distant.
I can't help people anymore I tried to be friendly and got rejected for friendliness and yelled at and embarassed and never once was apologized to for the wrong acusations
*sighs*
Zaf, people can change. It's only the thought that "I am me, and cannot change that" that makes you not try. It's possible, but you need to make the effort. Yes, it's a struggle, and changing yourself takes a lot of time, but you can if you really tried...
*knows this is another late comment but doesn't care*
(I'm not going to utter a word because you know what? I don't care.
And Violet- Dont worry if you see Adra comment, she refuses to let people email her, and never actually responds to comments of support but if you feel up to trying, go for it.
You'll get used to the once a week/day/month comments from her. You want to help but know she won't accept it.
I'm sorry you whine about how f-ing shhhty your life is, complain about how your friend deserted you for HER FAMILY and about how she's a idiot, you talk about her like a b*tch and sound like you don't even f-ing like her and basically go 'mememememememememememememememe' and expect us to be sympathetic and listen THEN SAY THAT???
No.
You don't get to f-ing do that, because you're worse that Adra for complaining about shhht and not listening to people.
You say everyone's against you and that no one talks to you.
OPEN YOU F-ING EYES AND STOP SAYING SHHHT LIKE THAT THEN. BE F-ING CONSIDERATE AND THINK ABOUT OTHERS FEELINGS.
I'll likely delete this in the morning when I come to my senses.)
And no I could care less now, what I cause.
I tried okay? The nice me? Lost her. I learned that to care only makes vulnerabilty.
Weakness.
To survive, you can't care.
I'd also like to add that everyone is different. Some react differently to similar things than others.
To use a light example: some people are scared- terrified even- of spiders, while others are completely cool with them.
This is the same thing but on a more serious and emotional scale.
jai: holy shit....you're up? I thought i was the only person in the uk who was up at this point :D but jai....please, don't be so vile ^_^
I might mutter but sometimes it helps me and I realize I was being stupid. Whatever. I could care less nobody here liked me ever anyway and lie that they do.
No its called I could care less and wont be alive tomorrow to care
zaf: honestly, you could admit that what you said was wrong...if you do that now, it'll be better, however if you keep saying i don't care, and trying to turn the tide so that you try to make it seem like you're the victim...well i wouldn't recommend ^_^
(@Fera yes. I'm awake. I woke up from a bad dream just to read this shhht.)
ZAF, I may not agree with some of the things you say on here, but that doesn't mean you're not my friend, okay????
And ever hear the saying- "a soft heart in a cruel world is courage- not weakness"? Because it takes a brave person to see two sides to an argument and still understand them both.
Right, don't know exactly what I'm saying there, but whatever.
I mean maybe I just wont come here anymore I can go be elsewhere and never exsist here
Maybe that'll keep her from dying
Knowing i'm there.
jai: aww *hugs* I am sorry. it was very friendly up until now ^_^
hopey: I second that ^_^
you say very wise things :)
(*hugs Fera back*
*I refuse to contribute further to the conversation because if I do I'm going to get pissed and throw my phone out the window*)
Fine
I'm so sorry I was so wrong in what I said oh I'm a horrible bad person! Whatever will I do?
*headwalls*
Zaf, this is backing out of a problem you caused without taking the consequences for it.
You CAN change for the better, but you need to learn WHY this is causing so much upset.
And I'm saying this to HELP, not make you feel worse.
jai: that's probably for the best, if one stops, the other side has to stop as well as there isn't anyone to continue with *hugs again* go back to sleep jai :)
Okay, this is probably a bad time to say this, but good night everybody, I'm gunna get some sleep. See you all in the morning, and I hope everyone who feels bad right now feels better *hugs everyone in turn, sends general virtual love to all*
And I won't. I won't learn because I have very little, if any, desire to do so.
And yelling, won't boost the desire either.
violet: we don't blame you *hugs* good night ^_^
zaf: that's a bad attitude. But i know you're just saying this out of anger. I know.
Says the one up at 4 AM.
*lightly elbow's Frank*
*sighs*
Right, I'm deflated now..
hopey: I am just saying she should go back to sleep and forget about this *pokes your nose* ^_^
(@Fera can't. The God of anger filled my veins with liquid lava and now I need to punch something.)
Things will cool down by tomorrow, Vi... *hugs* Sleep well and good night to you..
Zaf, what time is it for you now? Isn't it also getting late?
jai: *sings a lullaby* shhh. It's ok ^_^ Watch an ASMR vid(they help me) ^_^ :) *hugs so that you can't punch anything*
(@Tam it's eleven o'clock for her.)
11:05pm
Not late I woke up at 10am so I won't be sleepy until 11:30
*goes cross eyed and scrunches her nose*
*makes a face at Frank*
(@Fera Hmph. *aggressively strokes the cat*)
And its thundering so I will not fall asleep...
*mutters something about should think before I talk*
Sigh.
Okay Zaffy.
*hugs because I still care about you*
Jai, punch a pillow if that would help. Pillows make good punching bags. :P
*lightly strokes your head* please
hopey: *smiles at you*
(Yes. You should think before you talk. You know you should. Stop. Playing. Victim.)
hopey: the best course of action would be to try and control it though ^_^ like i said, ASMR vids can be good...don't judge till you haven't tried ^_^
Haha fuck off
(Pillows are unsatisfactory. Too soft.)
zaf: anger much? Stop.
(Haha No. You can't be a b*tch then play victim and cry because people get pissed.)
@Frank: Yeah, controlling it's best, but I know how hard it can be for people who can get really angry. Holding it in would just not help. So the best in that kind of situation would be a pillow. *nods*
*gets an afterthought*
Or a backpack if you're at school...
hopey: *shakes head* what do we do?
No. I won't. I'm fed up with being the one blamed.
Not my fault she can't think a happy thought!
Why do you think I hardly go on? I just feel like people judge me and think I'm horrible.
Why do you think I rp as others?
Fitz is a hell lot better person then I am. Maybe tha's why I like him.
hopey: I used to be the literal personification of anger. I would get so pissed at something i could kill. I've managed to control, others should try to as well ^_^
Yeah, but pillows wont hurt, BUT they'd still give the feeling of release for pent up anger. Tape it to a wall or someplace hard if you want to feel some kind of resistance.
Zaf, same to you. When you get upset, don't take it out on us, please. It won't help anyone.
You do realize, Elleni, I will not answer your questions because they do not relate to me.
I would just give up asking, unless you don't want an answer
(NO AND IT'S NOT HER FAULT EITHER, MAYBE INSTEAD OF BEING HORRIBLE YOU COULD SHOW A LITTLE SYMPATHY!!!)
Noelle might not be able to think a happy thought, but that doesn't mean we should help her think darker ones.
I know you've tried, Zaf, but please, keep trying. I know it seems useless, but we shouldn't give up on people just because they gave up on themselves...
No, apparently sympathy got me in trouble.
Apparently when you try and make up, you only get in more trouble.
No, I don't because it never happened.
@Frank: *sighs* Just keep trying? *response to the lately noticed what do we do question*
And I know people can control their anger, but you need small steps first.
zaf: please, calm down now. I understand you're feeling cornered. I very well know myself, what it's like to be cornered. However, trying to fight back is just going to make things worse.
hopey: jeez *shakes head*
jai: if u really want to, just punch something then go back to sleep and forget this happened ^_^
El, don't forget that she TRIED. Sometimes, Zaf really TRIED to support Noelle...
(Okay yep nope I'm gonna go rip my pillow apart now. Or punch or wall. Bye.)
*nods at Frank in understanding*
jai: please *sigh* *Hugs*
Oh! Last July Adra begged to collab a plot with me, we emailed, worked it out, and did.
Things went so good! It looked like we had made not friends but not enemies.
Then the DM from Derek came.
Apparently I did something in our plot to upset Adra, which I didn't know I did.
Then after I lost my shit, I had calmed down enough to realize that okay her friends said something.
Then his comment on the blog.
Rose helped me.
Because Rose knew I was innocent, but how could I trust Adra again? How did I know someone she talked to would twist my ROLEPLAY and get me in trouble?
Again.
But nobody listened, but Rose. Nobody told Derek how I hadn't done anything, but Rose.
But you tell me, why I should be kind to someone I can't trust.
*hugs Jai*
Try not to hurt yourself too badly...
I know it's not an excuse, but just a thought to consider.. Zaf's not completely full of negativity...
hopey: that should be "please don't hurt yourself at all" :D ^_^
And I did try to support her but I was told to shut up, by her.
We overlook these things because we don't listen to Zaf's side ever.
hopey: i know she isn't. But when cornered, if one can't admit some facts, she/he will start lashing out on people. basic instinct ^_^
Zaf, I'm trying..
Frank: Yeah, but sometimes you gotta accept the choices of others. If Jai wants to hit something, let her hit something and hope she chooses the pillow over a wall.
I don't blame her, she can't control her friends, I just don't trust her to talk about something and it gets taken the wrong way.
i wish i knew what happened, os i could make my own judgment... huh ^_^
hopey: *sigh* *hugs you at least*
Again IGNORING WHAT I JUST SAID I DONT FEEL SAFE EVER TRYING TO BE NICE BECAUSE HER FRIENDS TOOK THINGS AND TWISTED THEM ONCE AND WHO KNOWS IF THEY WILL AGAKN
@Frank: Heck, /I/ wasn't even here for the first time it happened, but yeah... it's been happening on and off since I've been back..
hopey: it's gonna stop at one point ^_^
WHEN DID I EVER SAY ADRA TOOK THINGS? NEVER IT WAS ALL HER FRIENDS SHE NEVER SAID SHIT EVEN TO TELL ME SHE WAS NOT COOL WITH SOMETHING
I SAID HER FRIENDS DID
HENCE WHY I DO NOT FEEL SAFE TALKKNG TO HER AGAIN IN FEAR HER FRIENDS WILL DO THAT AGAIN
DO I NEED TO SPELL IT OUT?
I'm going now before I walk outside and hope I get struck by lightning
*hugs Frank back*
*HUGS ZAF JUST BECAUSE*
*hugs El and Jai too*
Thanks, I just feel angry now.
**HUGS ZAF IN HOPES TO STOP HER FROM GOING OUT AND GETTING HIT BY LIGHTNING
Not fucking intentional I just am fed up with her wanting to die.
Okay? I can't do it anymore just sitting here and thinking oh she survived will she tomorrow?
Comments like the ones she make frustrate me to hell because she wont listen and I cant control my anger as well as I used to
You know?
Drop it El.
I'm done I want to move pn you are not helping me I feel like hurting someone mpre then I did before
*sighs*
*walks over to a tree and sits at its base, leaning against the trunk*
*has run out of things to say*
*again, suggests hurting a pillow as opposed to a person*
*or, even a wall, if that's what you wish*
hopey: *walks over to the tree and sits by you* hey ^_^
*keeps her eyes on the lake's surface*
Hi.
*pauses for a moment*
I still think you should get some sleep.
Fera- How exactly are you still even up?
hopey: i know you do, but hey...sleep can wait, people won't *turns head* ^_^
zaf: i am on roids :D
Fera- Dear lord :P
El- I said drop it, and since you won't I have. Therefore you are not getting an answer from me. If you wish to waste time repeatedly asking, go for it, but as I stated- I will not be responding.
*rolls her eyes at his response to Zaf, smiling a little*
*pokes Hopey with a baby dynamite stick*
Look it won't explode anyone!
And it will continue to happen, no doubt.
*smiles more at the dynamite*
It's cute. :P
hopey: haha *hugs*
i like trains *gets hit by train* if any1 gets the reference,you're my soul mate :D
zaf: of course it won't, too buff for it m9 :D
There we go! I knew we were close.
I dedicate this page to well okay...this sounds really bad but bear with me, its something I look to.
I dedicate to Fitz, shush he may be fictional but I have a reason.
I look at myself often and asl what the hell happened to me.
Fitz does the same thing often, his is a lot more pronounced.
He knows what happened, he knows his love for another to save their life, made him how he is.
I know my jealousy and anger at another got me to where I am.
See, I think of how he wanted to kill Ward for throwing him in the ocean, but he didn't.
I think of that moment, to remind me that I am working to be better.
He's far better then I am and deserves my dedication, because maybe I'll be like that, able to let gp of my anger.
Are you now a zombie, Fera?
*knows several references to trains; doesn't know any with 'I like trains' part*
*unless she forgot, which is possible*
*hugs back*
:)
I better sleep now...
Night everyone!
Hear hear, Zaf. To a hope for changing to be better. :)
But it's gotta be backed by action. *nods*
Still, there's always hope. :)
hopey: it's ok, you're the only exception that i can make on my list of "people i like" everyone else i like knows the reference :P :)
zaf: Nah, i am just shiai labeouf :P
Sleep well, Zaf. *hugs*
ok zaf, sweet ones ! ^_^
elleni: *hugs?* goodbye ^_^
OH. Is that from Indiana Jones? Cause I think I remember something like that!
If it's not, eh. Still a good movie with Shai LaBouf(*no idea how to spell it either XP*) in it.
hopey: nope and nope, but good guesses :P JUST DO IT *tenses while squatting* :P
*hugs El back*
Bye.. Please don't think too much about this, okay?
*has no idea*
*gives up*
Sorry. :P
It's ok *snuggles* ^_^ jeez, these roids can keep me goin for quite a long time, right? :P
Well thats great.
A stupid bird, yes bird, is chirping
At midnight
Why exactly are you taking them...?
*looks out* well...for me, the sun is almost up...soo...birds are all chirping :D
@Zaf: :/ That sucks..
hopey: It's a joke :P *pokes you*
Yeah and if I shut mt window its hot
FERA I AM SERIOUS WHY ARE YOU NOT SLEEPING???
*says the person who used to pull all-nighters often in the past*
(I'm just worried; ignore this comment.)
*sticks her tongue out and pouts*
I can be very gullible okay? I can believe a lot of things if they're said even somewhat seriously.
Which is always why I say or show when I'm joking, like, really obviously.
@Zaf: how loud is the bird?
hopey: I appreciate your worry :) *hugs* oh btw...i desire lots of drinks and food that i usually wouldn't wanna eat...staying up late...being sick in the morning...am i prego? :O NOOOOO XD
hopey: I see *pats head* It's ok :) yeah, like i would ever take roids to gain muscles, they're very stupid to take ^_^
*screws up her face at the head pat*
>.< :P
Good. I'm relieved. ^.^
hehe, what are you doing with your face :P although, it is not possible for you to screw it up ^_^ yeah, tehy increase blood pressure as well, so myocardial arrest, i am coming! (says a person taking them XD :P )
*myocardial infraction i meant :P
Ya know, just squeezing my eyes closed and scrunching my nose because I don't like head pats.(not really, it's just fun to react that way :P; I do that in real life to people who pat my head)
hopey: yeah i got that, but i meant your face still isn't "screwed up" after that :) ^_^ hehe, for me whether i like it or nahh depends on who does it for me :P
Meh, you know what I meant anyway. XP
Did you fall asleep? :P
Sleep well, Frank. :P
*moves him to a soft patch of grass and sets a lightweight(because summer) blanket over him*
oh yeah, i did manage to fall asleep somehow ^_^ thank you hopey, *hugs* see you later :)
*hugs back*
You're welcome. ^.^ Have a good- /morning/. XP
I can't believe this.
I thought we were over this.
I thought Zaf had turned back into that person who came on and ranted happily about people like Fitz.
I thought maybe that on a subconscious level I could learn to forgive and slide past it all.
I thought maybe everyone could be friends with Zaf.
I thought maybe Noelle could come on without verbal abuse being hurled her way.
Well. I am an optimistic person, I guess.
I just - I'm not even gonna say anything, because this went on front a year and no one anything said made the slightest bit of difference. To think what I say in five minutes before I go to school will solve the problem? Nahhhh. Probs just stir up more trouble.
But yeah.
I -
I -
I don't even know.
I'll have you know that I was sat there crying whilst I was reading last night. In horror, shock and disbelief. I'm completely fine now - I'm not looking for sympathy. All I'may ing last . . . last night was horrible, and Zaf,if you're looking for symaths, targeting Noelle is the very worst way you could go about it.
And I really hope we never see this again. and if we do, I sincerely hope I'm awake.
Now, gtg, school.
(*curls up* I think I'm going to go for a few days)
(*hugs Chloe*)
Hang in. Not going into school this morning. YUSSSSSSS.
:( *hugs Inky* If it would make you feel better, please do . . .
*hugs Elleni and Jai*
Alright! Here until about 12. :)
(*facepalms at star* Dufus! *hugs back* Maybe you should sleep a bit more then?)
:/
*sighs*
*hugs Star, Chloe, and Jai*
(*hugs Tam*)
It's weird though... This time is different from all the other times there've been arguments on here; like, I actually don't feel so upset... Detached maybe? Or just...
*shrugs*
I don't even know. This is a really strange feeling though. Like, even during the talk, I kept my emotions out of it and just spoke my mind.
And then I'm just looking at everyone else getting so upset and I wonder why am /I/ reacting so calmly all of a sudden?
Like, I'm not even that upset at Zaf, but I still just wish she'd see how she acted and would change, you know?
*shakes her head*
I gotta go...
@Jai: Yeah, if I'd known that before I woke up, I would have gone to sleep longer bc like I'M TIRED, but I won't be able to get there now. :(
@Tamami: Weird . . .
Okay, if it's a debate-type argument, I y'know, mostly just got for it bc unless the subject matter is effecting me (gender stereotypes -_-) I'm fine. But if it's like, an argument that is like, people hating on each other - well, if I don't take sides, I'm just like 'ughhhhhhhhhh why life why' and so not really emotional. But if someone is really out of order? Then I get MAD. And I have to go cry (it's usually a weird kind of struggling-to-breath crying, when I'm mad) and banging my head into walls and biting my phone and snapping up my set square and punching pillows and whispering "FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK" etc. to get rid of it. I mean, usually I don't get that mad and just have to like do one violent action whispering swearing. But like - yeah.
I've worked out that you should never speak arguments when you're mad, because you end up being too hurtful and you regret it, but sometimes when I am mad I just want to start hurting people before my anger fades enoguh that my logic kicks in, so I just type really fast before my emotions fade and then when they do I'm like "shit."
So yeah. That is why I don't always follow my advice of "don't argue when you're angry." Angry-me likes saying hurtful things sometimes.
I'm also reeeeeeeeallly rambling now and I think it's because I'm really tired. Dammit.
(Hello.)
Liliana: It appears so. *the demons turn towards them, hissing*
Claire: *she reaches the road, grinning and putting her foot down and accelerating away from the pickup*
Bethany: ... That's fast.
Lily: ... What?
(Hey Sophi! *cuddles*)
Onwa: *flexes her fingers, ready*
*rolls eyes, sighing*
Seat belt.
*puts her own on*
This could get fast.
Manuel: N-nothing. Sorry. Surprised.
I don't know whether to actually post some thoughts here or not about last night.
Opinions?
I wouldn't because I don't want to stir up trouble, but I spend most of the year before this not saying stuff so as to not stir up trouble and that is what pushed me to become more honest. So yeah. Hiding stuff = not good.
But at the same time, stirring up stuff = not good.
Oh. I'd probably have to edit if I posted it here anyway.
Yeah. Posting. Edited version.
Tama, the reason I'm so upset when I'm usually never upset by arguments is because I watched this go on for a year. I've watched this time and time and time again. Nothing ever changes. Nothing ever gets better. And it makes me so mad and so upset and so frustration because I am just so done with this shit but it keeps on happening.
And added to that -
imagine you have a really weak candle flame, and it's really weak and it's flickering and you think it might go out, and all your really need is for someone's hands to wrap around it and shelter it so it can grow. That's Noelle. But Zaf just comes along and hse blows as hard as she can at that damn candle and it hurts so much because you know it's gonna go out and you know it's gonna go out and it might have gone out anyway and it was touch and go ANYWAY but wiht her blowing it?
And you watch and you watch in horror and there's nothing you and do and like yeah crying now.
In simpler words, I'm not upset rn because of last night. Poeple like you and Fera aren't upset because of last night. This is two years' worth of upset building on top of each other and building on top of each other. And the worst thing? I'M fine. I'm in a good mental place and my life is good and none of it is directed at me and I'M sat here crying because of all of this shit. Noelle? Imagine what SHE'S like.
Well. You've seen.
Alright. Going to teach myself Further Maths now.
Good luck to me . . .
(Star, believe it or not - people rarely change. What happened last night was always going to happen. It did not surprise me in any way. I am, however, refraining from saying anything more.
Hello, Jaimie. *cuddles Jaimie back*)
Liliana: *two demons leap towards them* *she grasps one by the neck, holding it away from her whilst slashing at it with her dagger* *she fires black energy into its head, and it crumples into dust*
Bethany: It's plastic...
Lily: Are you okay?
@Sophia: *shrugs*
I'm an optimist.
It's why me and Cat disagree.
But yeah. Every time it happens I get upset. This is really quite normal.
Onwa: *catches the other one, an energy slice cutting it clean in two*
Oh.. one sec.
*jumps out, running to the house*
*grabs a seatbelt cover*
*runs back, putting it on Beth's seat belt*
There.
Manuel: *nods*
I..am.
(*hugs Star tightly*
I was there too, when it started...i know...)
*hugs Gemma tightly*
(*hugs gemmy* you were meant to be asleep.)
(It's so hard to read that. Things on the blog were so good back then...adra and trip were adorable and i thought Adra and i were quite close but i suppose we weren't. I rped with Zaffy and i thought we were friends too. I got her on fb and stuff. That's when i first made Chione. But then the argument kinda killed blogland and most people who were regulars stopped coming on regularly and people who somtimes came on didn't come on anymore. They just disappeared...)
(Yeah..)
Ah, yeah, Tadra. :) Tadra was my favourite Blogland ship until Aladra came along . . .
Yeah . . . :/
. . .
Fun times.
We really need more group roleplays . . . and when my exams finish I really want to help make that happen. Until then, though, I'm just here like "er yeah."
(Sid i fell asleep just after i got off the blog. I meant when that with Zaf and Adra started years ago.
I think people forget how old i am on here sometimes just cause i'm mainly in this generation.)
Adra didn't really start. Adra just sat there.
(@Gemmy ah okay. I thought you meant when it started last night.)
(The main RP i remember from back then was like the closest i was to adra. The forest was on fire and Adra was rushing round trying to help people. She made a bridge over the fire to help me get across i think.
I also remember when Niccòlo was in the lap qnd we were trying to get a name out of him, John Smith. The one Zaf always talked about.
And when Zaf was pregnant again with christopher and got ill...
I still to this day don't know what started the argument...something Adra said or did to Zaffy and she held a grudge but she never told me what...)
"To estimate the gradient of a curve, you can draw a tangent to the curve at the point in question as accurately as possible, then use its gradient to estimate the gradient of the curve at the point."
That is the first sentence.
. . .
I'm finding myself giving up already. :P
(Lol Star, what language even is that?)
Adra did nothing.
The first time I remember Zaf being resentful of Adra was over the summer. Um . . . not last summer, the summer before. Idk which summer. The summer when the roleplaying kicked off, the summer with the demons plot. And Zaf emailed me saying she was a bit annoyed because Adra was online all day every day and was kind of the centre of things. I can't remember what Zaf specifically said - it was about two years ago. And I remember I agreed with Zaf (there was the whole chatters vs. roleplayers argument going on at the time, and I was mostly on the chatters side. I didn't mind the roleplay too mcuh, but I would just sit there ghosting for hours and I would sometimes feel a bit excluded and resentful), and I remember telling Zaf that Adra broke up for summer really early so she'd be back to school before us and therefore she wouldn't be online as much, so it was okay, we just had to wait.
. . .
Yeah.
That was before I was friends with Adra, clearly. Kicking myself for not appreciating the awesomeness of those group roleplays while they were there . . . they were really inclusive whilst also being easy to do without people there and just - amazing. Adra's demons plot - great.
@Chione: AQA Further Maths iGCSE, apparently.
I already took French and German! I don't want another language! :P
Okay, it would be good if I had people to talk to so I can break up my Further Maths a bit. If I don't find people to talk to I'll probably just end up rambling. You have been warned.
(I think who caused it is largely irrelevant. What Zafira is doing/has done is unacceptable. There is absolutely no need for it.)
Liliana: Mmm...
*the wall of fire expands, engulfing some of the demons before spraying high into the air and dissipating*
*a demon appears behind Liliana, grasping her and sinking its fangs into her neck*
Liliana: *she grunts, pulling it forward and sending streams of black energy through its body* *she holds her neck gently*
Bethany: Thank you. *she smiles, putting the seatbelt on*
Lily: Are you sure?
(I am a person. Am i not?
*looks down at herself now confused as to if she's a person or not*)
"The derivative of a constant is zero."
I'm sorry what now??
:) You are, indeed, a person, Gemma.
But I'm going to be here for the next few hours and I thought you might disappear in that time. :P
(Star stop talking Alien.
i know English, German, very little French, very little Spanish and Some Japanese and i can't understand what that is asking.)
:P
I think it's meant to be English.
But it's clearly a peculiar dialect.
. . .
Waittttttttttttttttttt how many languages do you know??
(Star, I believe I will be here until about ten past twelve.)
@Sophia: :) I'll be here until about quarter two.
Hi!
(I was supposed to be going out with a friend but when i text him last night, obviously i couldn't type so i don't think he understood 'are we still going out tomorrow' so he probably went to bed late and will wake up at like 3 and yeah. Either i wake him up and he's incredibly tired today or we leave it and i don't see him for 2 weeks cause this is the last free day i have before my holiday.
I think i've became more of a chatter than a roleplayer now...)
@Gemma: Oh . . .
:/
Well, I hope things work out.
*tilts head* Maybe.
English. Obviously.
Did German in school and went up to higher also been to Getmany so i can speak quite a lot.
Very little French, i can say my name and stuff but that's it.
Very little Spanish, i can count to 10, say hi and another couple of phrases we learned like 'hina cola' which is please wait your turn' because Spanish pensioners are terrible and were shoving their way in front of us.
I know more Japanese than French or Spanish xD Again i know a couple of words and phrases and can sing in Japanese.
i know 'baby mine' from Dumbo in Japanese ^.^)
Ah, cool. :)
I know English, and I did French and German in school but that's it . . . don't even know German that well after doing it.
My mum can speak some French, some German and some Dutch but she tends to muddle them up quite a bit. XD It's like she has a 'languages' part of her brain and when she reaches into it she just gets any language.
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