(Star - if your memory is somewhat bad, would it not be smart to write it down? What's the worst that could happen if someone found the details? They could do your homework for you?)
@Sophia: I wrote it down at the beginning of year nine when it was relevant. Seeing as how no one has expected me to use the website since . . . I don't even know if I'm meant to go on there; I just thought I should check. Furthermore, I did write it down. I imagine it's in my year nine planner. Which I still have, and could look in if I could be bothered. As it is, I have realised it would be more productive to ask C what to do anyway, so I'm just texted her. *snaps fingers in Z formation, which I can't actually do in real life seeing as how I can't snap my fingers* Boom.
@Taia: . . . Yup. All the information I have is "it's on the internet." I think he must have told us on one of the lessons I missed. Oops. I also think I may need a password. Which I don't have. Oops.
@Star: xD *nods* *would agree that asking C is probably more efficient* *:)*
*hugs Chloe again* If this is the same thing as this morning - they may have ideas for what they want you to do, but at the end of the day, they won't be able to actually decide it for you. They can't make you go through your life doing what you don't want to do. And, like Star said, s'only a couple more years. ^^
It's not in my year nine planner. My year nine planner had so much personality to it . . . I can see where I planned word art in it, and I would write down my homework in an imagination manner, and I wrote responses to half the facts, and I coloured all the little pencils. And now I just copy homework down from the board into my planner and that's it. :/
Anyway, yeah. I might not have got the password in year nine. I rememebr I got it in year eight. I know I probably got it again after that - not sure. It might be in my year ten planner. Or not. Probably not . . . Dammit.
@Inky: :/ Well, he should compliment you. Compliments are good, and if he wants you to do better, then he should be encouraging you, and if he isn't, then he can't complain, can he? Also . . . what Taia said. :)
@Star: Oh. :S Um. Wait until you hear back from C? Worst case scenario: you can't access the homework. In which case, will you be able to explain that to your teacher? ^^
@Taia: Yeah, probably. I should probably email him tonight, but I don't want to. Althoguh, if I tell him tomorrow, he'll be like "Why did you not tell me before?" and I'll be like "Er . . ." so yeah. :P
... Sometimes people forget that compliments are things, because we get so caught up in the criticisms. Technically, we are kind of taught to focus on criticisms. Like in science, when you'd have to write up investigations, and you'd have to say what you did wrong/could have done better, but they never asked you to identify and list everything that you did right. We're probably far better trained to pick up on shortcomings than on positive things, so sometimes the latter will be harder to find. Just because people don't identify them, that never means that the good things are not there.
@Taia: Actually, our school has a policy where, when marking, they have to write a strength, a target, and a question. :P
Inky . . . *hugs* I'm crap at finding adjectives for people, or explaining why they're awesome, so please don't expect a paragraph telling you how great you are. But you're a really nice person that we are all genuinely pleased to know, and no negatives will take that away. :)
(hello inks, don't take what your dad said to heart, he is wrong about you not being very bright, i just know you are clever, trust me on that! *offers hug* come now you'll be fine, :) and we your friends will be here for you to help you and have a laugh with you.
:O *hugs Inky* Awh . . . I would say don't cry but I'm kind of pro-crying so . . . :) You'd be fine without us. But I'm glad you have us. So then you're here. If that makes sense. :P
(I mean, I would like to carefully calculate my responses so I could manipulate the situation as I felt it needed manipulating, because this strikes me as being rather useful. However, I can't act, so like yeah let's toss that idea down the drain before it takes root. :P)
I dedicate this page to everyone on here. Every single one of you are amazing. I wish I could go up to every single one of you and give you chloe cwtchs ^^
but heres a virtual one *gives everyone a chloe cwtch*)
A joke, once there was a magic slide, and whatever you said when you went down it appeared at the bottom. One man said 'gold!' and he landed in a pot of gold. The next man said beer! and he landed in a pint of beer. However the last man didn't know it was a magic slide so he said WHEEEE!!! and he landed in the toilet.
Chloe, you're you. I never know how to describe people to explain that they are amazing and more than a descriptive statistic, because I don't have the adjectives? But I know that I am glad to know you. Because I know that you're kind and you're caring and you have both fun and funny. And you're supportive and you're a friend. And I think there's a dinosaur joke on your profile which makes me grin like an idiot. And I don't know a lot about roleplaying, admittedly, but by restricted observation I'd say that you're a good roleplayer, too - adn that would suggest that you're also a good writer, though I haven't read any of your writing, either (your ideas sound interesting, though, hey) ANd you weave Welsh into your English, even though I didn't get the impression that you loved learning Welsh all that much, and that tells a lot because it means that you can accept things for more than just what they have given you, which shows that you're not discriminating, and that you can find or make a place for things, which I'd call a pretty damn good quality to have, and it also puts something familiar into your language which just makes it you:) sometimes, and it's also a thing you can share without becoming esoteric (which is also a good quality, while we're at it). And I don't want to take too much time here and also I'm not getting words for a lot and I don't know how to. BUt my point is that you rule, and you're not an average value, because you're an Inky Value, which is a Chloe Value, which is an awesome value. And like Yeah?
@Star: Oh? Well, you school does a good thing, then? :P But like When you do peer marking, or when you mark you own work, and they ask you for the good points and the target, in my experience people always find the good point a lot harder? WOuld that be the case with you also?
@Taia: :O I should do that when I suffer from a lack of adjectives.
And, yeah, but when you peerassess we have to do it as well (the strengths and targets, at least) and it SUCKS. And actually, it depends who you're sat next to. C or D grade people are easy to give a target. A* grade people are damn hard to find a target for, it sucks. And personally, when I'm marking my own writing, I can do the strength easy, because I know what I've deliberately included, but I struggle for the target because if I'd KNOWN how to make it better I damn well WOULD'VE made it better. I'm mostly speaking marking English, here, incidenally . . .
@Garrett: :P I like jokes. :) I like PUNS. But I like jokes generally, too. They're like little parcels made for absolutely no purpose but to try making people smile.
@Sophia:SHFERIPhEOG~PR I'd say you could, if that's what you like. :)
*minus the random letters, sorry. My ear did a thing I'd forgotten that it did and it caught me by surprise and I must have typed things by reflex and then not backspaced but not explained it either. :P
@Inky: No. Okay. Here is the situatuon as it stands:
- I don't know what college I want to go to. - I don't know what subjects I want to take. - I don't know what job I want to have.
All in all, I am drowning in a sea of not-knowing-ness and all my other friends seem to have the next two years all planned out so yeahhhhhh I'm stressing out a bit. :)
@Silente: I like science and art (but I don't want to take art.) Other than that, all my other subjects are about the same on my scale, and I don't mean to boast but I'm sort of good at most of my subjects so that doesn't really help either.
(Ah, I don't think they should make us all decide now. We are too young! I just said I wanted to be a vet cos I love animals and I can stomach it. Truth be told, I want to be an author.)
Angles formed from a semi-circle are right angles Angles formed from the same points on the circumference are equal Angles formed at the circumference are half those formed at the diameter Um Um *only did one lesson on this, dammit :P* Something about angles from a tangent . . . . . . . . can't remember.
Hey, Silente! *hugs* I think that is fair. :) If you wanted help with maths, I'd always be Ok to try. :)
*hugs Star* I didn't decide on mine until the night before I enrolled, so... xD But, I think I said before to try paying attention to which subjects you actually enjoy learning/studying/revising, while you're in the classes, kinda. I'd probably stand by that suggestion, still.
(cant remember much mind, but there was this circle theorem question on the exam and I conquered it easily...it was worth 7 marks! I had an A in my math)
I can see most of the little diagram thingies in my head, I just don't have the words . . .
@Silente: :( We can share our hatred together.
I don't like animals particularly much . . . :P
I like science though. I mean, I fangirl over dead skulls and I find dissections interesting and when my friend offered to show us her stitches I was fascinated and I thinkg about vampires in a biological manner and . . . y'know, it all kind of indicates that maybe I should take biology.
(Which I'm not saying will happen, but plenty of great authors like JK Rowling and Eoin Colfer got turned down a ton of times.)
I think with authoring, you have to try and not aim for it - aim for something else, but if you want ot be an author, do it on the side and don't give up. Keep trying, and one day, you'll probably get accepted. :) Just think, if Fifty Shades got published . . .
(haha yea. And, ive read loads of werewolf books that aren't the greatest... I remember my first thought of writing a story. I was in the natural history museum. I was intrigued by the dinosaurs and wanted to write a story about dinos)
@Inky: :) Don't worry about it. People tell me I sound like one of those old men that goes around preaching stuff. I'm what most people would call TOO inspirational. :P
@Star: I have no idea what I want to do in my future. I took subjects which would keep my options open, I guess. Like, I took chemistry because if I suddenly became intent on doing medicine, it could be theoretically possible to get into med school without biology if I have chemistry. I took physics because I realized at some point that I liked it, and if I had the choice between doing any revision, I did the physics, even if I didn't need to. I didn't take biology because even though I might like the idea of some careers in biology maybe, I realised that I don't like learning biology. I took psychology because it was interesting, and I took it over English language because I decided that I was more likely to apply my studying in psychology than in English, and also because I wasn't sure if I'd enjoy all of the English. And I struggle sometimes with chemistry and I miss English:(, but I don't think I'd change my choices? I have no idea if that would be any help but idk. Maybe try weighing up the things you like about each & keep them in mind, because you don't have to decide yet, after all? ^^
... *doesn't know any of those circle theorems?* *doesn't even remember DOING circle theorems??? o0*
@Taiaaaaaaaaaa: I don't know. People seem to say that you need to go this way or this way. And like I don't know.
I think what I really need to do at this moment in time is to stop panicking, because I think that I probably panick as it excuses me from doign any actual thinking.
Okay.
Calm, logical Star here.
Um . . .
I guess so. But like I don't know.
There's just so few options. :( :( I wish we could take more subjects.
@Inky: Yes, but I can never actually write myself anywhere. Like, I get so far and then get stuck. :P And people constantly get better at writing. Don't rate yourself on the first stuff you wrote; if we all did that, I would be rating myself on the stuff I wrote when I was five. :)
( I guess it helps that the things I write about are based on stuff that happened to me in dreams...the school of the wicked dream I had ...*shudders*)
*Also I took maths. Forgot to mention that. :P ALso looks like I forgot my original point a bit. I think what I actually meant to say, was about types of courses I know I can get into with those subjects, but idk? Never mind. :P
@Chloe: I never deleted my first writings. I put new writing up in front of it, and I could see myself improving when I did. And then I mostly didn't write anything and I keep not writing things but IGNORE THAT PART because that's just me not focussing on writing things. If I compare writing from the past year-or-so to writing when I first came to Blogland, I can be sure without looking there will be a Hell of a difference. But it's good to have a reference point to see yourself improving, because improvement is motivation, and yeah. :) And he more you read and write and do stuff, the better you're gonna get.
Also instead of deleting things, you could try reviewing and rewriting them, because that'd be a good activity maybe.
The subjects you take don't have to influence what you do in the rest of your life at all.
I don't know anyone whose A-Level subjects helped them to get their job. To get into uni, yeah, but after that... idk.
idk.
I think I agree with don't panic. And take your time and you'll figure something out one way or another. And things will work out OK because things do? :)
(I still need to do geography homework/assessment thing... And the biology revision/web search... *sobs* And graphics presentation.... *drowns under a pile of homework*)
@Inky: Well. I don't even know. Like I said, I'm going to say to my characters "Okay, you can have this time to yourselves if you do writing for me." :P I'm not sure how it'll work out.
The second verse, when there's that fast undercurrent and it sounds more panicked. The way his voice is different in the second chorus, more . . . well, less smooth. More desperate, undone. The way the chorus has this specific tone to it . . . I've never been able to describe that tone, but I've been describing it as a "coming home feeling" since I was about eight. The way it has a coming-home feeling in that conext - scary and effective. Similar to Disturbed's Criminal. The BRIDGE. :O Corey Taylor can make his voice so emotional ohmygosh. "Dead visions in your name . . . dead fingers in my veins" and those chords in the background, aching, desperation . . . The very beginning of the song - dun, dun dun, dun, dun dun . . . like a siren but low? Desperation, again.
I can't go back again, I can't go back again . . . The repetition there. I'm not sure if I can explain that . . . it's repeating in his head, like . . . like when you're . . . when you're . . . panicking, or doing cross country, or you're so cold and you're so cold and your thoughts are fragmenting, and you just think the same thing in your head, over and over . . . Or the repetition. Just - it keeps coming back, he can't get away form it. And just - the whole concept. I believe I mentioned this on my word art blog. Also, like - idk. The other me is dead - the person he was has died, and these . . . fragments are all that's left, and he knows that this is the only life he has, that he won't be born again, but he can't survive, he can't live with this . . . And obviously it just sounds incredible and the vocals are wonderful. :)
Um . . . yeah.
But I refreshed the page and you mentioend Snuff and you don't even know how much I love Snuff.
Phaestra: *appears in a flash of light, bringing Silente's dad back to Blogland with the ring on his finger* Perhaps now you will learn your lesson, mortal.
Okay, so the more I use an emotional trigger, the fainter it gets, so I now no longer cry whenever I listen to Snuff, so yeah . . . that's sad. But like - I don't even know.
Like - I love Snuff.
Like - It hurts so much, so much, that he can't stand to be sad because it hurts too much and he can't stand it, so he's being angry instead, angyr beacuse it's easier, anrgy beacuse it's the only way he'll survive. He's hating her, he's going to hate her, he has to hate her. Oh gosh - I have to rant in order I guess because I'll never say it else.
Bury all your secrets in my skin Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins The air around me still feels like a cage Ane love is just a camoflauge for what resembles rage again He's sad here still, slow and sad, you can tell it from how soft the vocals/music are. He's still wanting her to bruy her secrets in his skin, really, I guess. But he's telling him that love is rage, love is just a camoflauge for rage, love is really rage all along.
So if you love me let me go And run away before I know My heart is just too dark to care I can't destroy what isn't there Deliver me unto my fate If I'm alone, I cannot hate I don't deserve to have you My smile was taken long ago If I can change, I hope I never know He doesn't want to know she loves him, he doesn't want to know, he can't believe she was capable of love, can't believe it because it hurts too much. He's telling himself he's too dark to care . . . he can't destroy his love, because he never had love, of course he never did. Of course he didn't. Denial . . . If he's alone, he can't hate. If he's with other people, of course he can hate, he can always hate. And the last line - He thinks he can't change, his heart will always be dark. He can't change, he can't. If he could change, that would mean he would have to try to change, and he can't face doing that so he'd rather be miserable and think he can't because it's easier . . . . .
I still press your letters to my lips And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss I couldn't face a life without your light But all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight Getting softer again, here. He misses her, he misses her so much, he'll take out her old letters and press them to her lips . . . He couldn't face a life without her, but of course, it's her fault, it has to be her fault because he hates her. And she refused to fight - well, we've established that love is really rage and so of course she had to fight.
So save your breath, I will not care. I think I made it very clear. You couldn't hate enough to love. Is that supposed to be enough? I only wish you weren't my friend. Then I could hurt you in the end. I never claimed to be a saint... My own was banished long ago It took the death of hope to let you go
Of course he won't care, of course he won't. Language getting quite dominant here . . . he's saying "I think I made it very clear" like he's given an order . . . of course, because he has to be a nasty bastard because that's the only way he'll survive . . . the vocals are getting harsher as well, less soft, more angry . . . "You couldn't hate enough to love" - hate is love, love is hate . . . "Is that supposed to be enough?" Once again, dominating . . . "I still press your letters to my lips" implies she has power over him - now he's taking power, he's in power . . . "I only wish you weren't my friend Then I could hurt you in the end" He's telling himself he wants to hurt her, that he wants to, and he WOULD hurt her, if only they weren't friends. He's using it as an excuse because he doesn't want to hurt her, he loves her . . . "I never claimed to be a saint" - either excusing himself (mock-excusing, he's awnting to be someone who isn't a saint) or using it as "I never claimed to be a saint, but you -" . . . And then "It took the death of hope to let you go." He has no hope left, no hope for himself, no light at the end of the tunnel, nothing. Also implying that she was his hope, letting a bit slip here . . .
So break yourself against my stones And spit your pity in my soul You never needed any help You sold me out to save yourself And I won't listen to your shame You ran away - you're all the same Angels lie to keep control... Ooh, my love was punished long ago If you still care, don't ever let me know If you still care, don't ever let me know... Getting harsher here, music getting more angry along with the vocals and language . . . He's screwing her pity and her help, because he doesn't need it, it's fake, of course she isn't capable of pity, he hates her. "You sold me out to save yourself" - deluding himself, deluding himself. "You ran away, you're all the same". She's just the same as everyone else, there was nothing special about her, nothing. "Angels lie to keep control" They're all the same, even the best people are horrible, everyone sucks, I hate them, I hate everyone. "My love was punished long ago" - This is a punishment for trying to love, you must never love again, never. "If you still care, don't ever let me know." If you care, if you're human and you're a nice person and you care about me, don't tell me, beacuse I can't stand it. I'll break apart. I have to hate you, I have to hate you, it's the only way I'll survive . . .
I'm sorry, I love every line of that. The concept is one of the saddest things in the world, beacuse you see, I don't think he'll ever get out. I think he's going to be in this horrible pit of negatvoty for the entire rest of his life and he'll never allow hiimself to love again, because it hurts so much and even though he knows what he's doing, he has to do it because - because - because it's that or suicide.
I have tears, like, running all down my face now . . .
I love that song so much. If I had to pick a favourite song, I couldn't, but that would definitely be one of them. I would recommend it to everyone so much. The plain words on screen don't do justice. Yes, it's very lyrical, but one of my very favourite things abotu Slipknot is the atmosphere.
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(Star - if your memory is somewhat bad, would it not be smart to write it down? What's the worst that could happen if someone found the details? They could do your homework for you?)
(I'm really happy thank you
hello Taia, how are you?
hello star , how are you?)
(Why is that, Chloe?)
Back.
@Sophia: That IS better than having nothing to do at all. *nods*
@Star: :/
Do you have to do for tomorrow? ^^
Chloe? *hugs*
(My parents are mean and controlling and arggh
It's a long story)
(*accepts hugs*)
@Sophia: I wrote it down at the beginning of year nine when it was relevant.
Seeing as how no one has expected me to use the website since . . .
I don't even know if I'm meant to go on there; I just thought I should check.
Furthermore, I did write it down. I imagine it's in my year nine planner. Which I still have, and could look in if I could be bothered.
As it is, I have realised it would be more productive to ask C what to do anyway, so I'm just texted her.
*snaps fingers in Z formation, which I can't actually do in real life seeing as how I can't snap my fingers* Boom.
*to do it for
I'm alright, thanks Garrett. Trying to figure out if I've actually forgotten to do something. :P
It's great to hear that you're so happy. :) ^^
(Chloe - I believe it would be unwise to run away.)
@Taia: . . . Yup.
All the information I have is "it's on the internet."
I think he must have told us on one of the lessons I missed.
Oops.
I also think I may need a password.
Which I don't have.
Oops.
@Inky: :( . . . *hugs*
:/
I'm sorry.
Just a few more years . . . *hugs*
(Star - that would make sense.)
(Yes we'll my dad said I'm not the brightest)
@Inky: Don't listen to him.
Number one - there are multiple ways of being intelligent.
Number two - intelligence isn't everything.
(Thanks star but I can't remember the last time he ever complimented me)
@Star: xD
*nods* *would agree that asking C is probably more efficient* *:)*
*hugs Chloe again*
If this is the same thing as this morning - they may have ideas for what they want you to do, but at the end of the day, they won't be able to actually decide it for you.
They can't make you go through your life doing what you don't want to do.
And, like Star said, s'only a couple more years. ^^
It's not in my year nine planner.
My year nine planner had so much personality to it . . . I can see where I planned word art in it, and I would write down my homework in an imagination manner, and I wrote responses to half the facts, and I coloured all the little pencils.
And now I just copy homework down from the board into my planner and that's it.
:/
Anyway, yeah. I might not have got the password in year nine. I rememebr I got it in year eight. I know I probably got it again after that - not sure. It might be in my year ten planner. Or not.
Probably not . . .
Dammit.
@Inky: :/
Well, he should compliment you.
Compliments are good, and if he wants you to do better, then he should be encouraging you, and if he isn't, then he can't complain, can he?
Also . . . what Taia said. :)
(Can't bloody wait to move out
I have low confidence anyways without all this
Luckily I have you guys to talk to )
@Star: Oh. :S
Um. Wait until you hear back from C?
Worst case scenario: you can't access the homework. In which case, will you be able to explain that to your teacher? ^^
*hugs Inky*
Tell yourself what's good about yourself. Seriously. If you keep thinking it, then eventually it'll start to sink in.
@Taia: Yeah, probably. I should probably email him tonight, but I don't want to. Althoguh, if I tell him tomorrow, he'll be like "Why did you not tell me before?" and I'll be like "Er . . ." so yeah. :P
(*hugs Star* Ill try, but I really cant think of much)
*hugs Inky*
Dinner, sorry. Bbs.
(byii Star)
... Sometimes people forget that compliments are things, because we get so caught up in the criticisms. Technically, we are kind of taught to focus on criticisms. Like in science, when you'd have to write up investigations, and you'd have to say what you did wrong/could have done better, but they never asked you to identify and list everything that you did right. We're probably far better trained to pick up on shortcomings than on positive things, so sometimes the latter will be harder to find.
Just because people don't identify them, that never means that the good things are not there.
(that's inspirational. I think that's true
I cant honestly think of anything great about me. Im just...average)
(Hey Ed)
(Inky, whats wrong?)
(My parents are making me wanna run away... nothing I wont get over
it just gets to me when my dad says im not the brightest)
(Inky, he iwrong, you are amazing)
(*smiles * thanks Ed. it wouldn't bother me so much if hed compliment me. So how are you ? ^^)
(I am fine thanks. You are amazing Inky)
(Aww that's sweet. So are you. Its amazing how one compliment makes you feel great)
@Taia: Actually, our school has a policy where, when marking, they have to write a strength, a target, and a question. :P
Inky . . .
*hugs*
I'm crap at finding adjectives for people, or explaining why they're awesome, so please don't expect a paragraph telling you how great you are.
But you're a really nice person that we are all genuinely pleased to know, and no negatives will take that away. :)
(hello inks,
don't take what your dad said to heart, he is wrong about you not being very bright, i just know you are clever, trust me on that!
*offers hug* come now you'll be fine, :) and we your friends will be here for you to help you and have a laugh with you.
(*hugs* you guys...I never cry but you guys just reduced me to tears. I don't know where id be without you)
:O
*hugs Inky*
Awh . . . I would say don't cry but I'm kind of pro-crying so . . .
:)
You'd be fine without us. But I'm glad you have us. So then you're here. If that makes sense. :P
This sounds weird, but I suddenly have the urge to be an Ez-like person.
(Back in half an hour)
( you guys are all amazing ^^)
(okay Ed)
@Inky: Of course we are. ;)
*hugs*
(It seems I have returned.)
(I mean, I would like to carefully calculate my responses so I could manipulate the situation as I felt it needed manipulating, because this strikes me as being rather useful.
However, I can't act, so like yeah let's toss that idea down the drain before it takes root. :P)
(*hugs*
Hello Soph)
(It seems like I have to ded...
I dedicate this page to everyone on here. Every single one of you are amazing. I wish I could go up to every single one of you and give you chloe cwtchs ^^
but heres a virtual one *gives everyone a chloe cwtch*)
(Wait. Are you hugging me?)
:)
*hugs back*
(No, soph. It was aimed at Star. But I gave you a cwtch)
(Good. *nods*
What is a cwtch?)
(cwtch is like welsh slang for a cuddle)
:P
Sophia.
(Oh damn. Could you just skip me out? I dislike physical contact.)
(how about a friendly high five ?)
A joke,
once there was a magic slide, and whatever you said when you went down it appeared at the bottom. One man said 'gold!' and he landed in a pot of gold. The next man said beer! and he landed in a pint of beer. However the last man didn't know it was a magic slide so he said WHEEEE!!! and he landed in the toilet.
(haha that's funny ^^)
(I don't high five. I am fine as I am, thank you.)
@Garrett: XD My dad's told me that . . . a variation of it, anyway. :)
@Sophia: I don't like physical contact either. But it's a virtual cwtch. It doens't REQUIRE physical contact. :P
Chloe, you're you.
I never know how to describe people to explain that they are amazing and more than a descriptive statistic, because I don't have the adjectives?
But I know that I am glad to know you. Because I know that you're kind and you're caring and you have both fun and funny. And you're supportive and you're a friend. And I think there's a dinosaur joke on your profile which makes me grin like an idiot. And I don't know a lot about roleplaying, admittedly, but by restricted observation I'd say that you're a good roleplayer, too - adn that would suggest that you're also a good writer, though I haven't read any of your writing, either (your ideas sound interesting, though, hey) ANd you weave Welsh into your English, even though I didn't get the impression that you loved learning Welsh all that much, and that tells a lot because it means that you can accept things for more than just what they have given you, which shows that you're not discriminating, and that you can find or make a place for things, which I'd call a pretty damn good quality to have, and it also puts something familiar into your language which just makes it you:) sometimes, and it's also a thing you can share without becoming esoteric (which is also a good quality, while we're at it).
And I don't want to take too much time here and also I'm not getting words for a lot and I don't know how to.
BUt my point is that you rule, and you're not an average value, because you're an Inky Value, which is a Chloe Value, which is an awesome value.
And like
Yeah?
@Star: Oh? Well, you school does a good thing, then? :P
But like
When you do peer marking, or when you mark you own work, and they ask you for the good points and the target, in my experience people always find the good point a lot harder? WOuld that be the case with you also?
(hear hear, to your ded inks)
(Only the thought of it, Star. Which isn't much better.)
(thanks Taia...that meant so much to me. you made me cry more ^^)
(thanks Gar ^^)
@Taia: :O
I should do that when I suffer from a lack of adjectives.
And, yeah, but when you peerassess we have to do it as well (the strengths and targets, at least) and it SUCKS.
And actually, it depends who you're sat next to. C or D grade people are easy to give a target. A* grade people are damn hard to find a target for, it sucks. And personally, when I'm marking my own writing, I can do the strength easy, because I know what I've deliberately included, but I struggle for the target because if I'd KNOWN how to make it better I damn well WOULD'VE made it better.
I'm mostly speaking marking English, here, incidenally . . .
@Sophia: Just se virtual hugs as little parcels of affection. :) That's what I do.
(Yes, but that's still affection.)
(everyone need affection Soph)
*is virtually Chloe Cwtch'd/hugs back :)*
@Sophia: :P
@Chloe: :) :)
*offers a tissue* Sorry. :P / :)
@Sophia/Star: *laughs* Consider it a sensation of comfortable warmth being transferred and/or wished upon you?
(*takes tissue* thanks ^^)
(I don't want affection.
Taia - I prefer the cold, actually. I could think of it as a sensation of cold?)
@Sophia: What's wrong with affection?
(I don't want it. My mind rejects it.)
(Sophia isn't comfortable with affection *shrugs* we all don't like something. I don't like chips. Affection is Sophia's chips.)
(*bombards Soph with affection*)
(Hey Sil ^^)
(Hey. I got bored of trying to do maths. By which I mean i got confused. Maths. Yuck.)
(im glad I don't do math anymore)
@Garrett: :P
I like jokes. :)
I like PUNS. But I like jokes generally, too.
They're like little parcels made for absolutely no purpose but to try making people smile.
@Sophia:SHFERIPhEOG~PR I'd say you could, if that's what you like. :)
("SHFERIPhEOG~PR"? What does that mean?)
@Silente: *is in eleven and top set maths, if she needs help? Can't promise to remember/be able to explain, though*
Well.
I'm considering taking maths next year.
But I have NO IDEA WHAT THE FUCK I WANT TO TAKE NEXT YEAR HELP.
(Star, do you have any ambitions?)
*year eleven
*minus the random letters, sorry.
My ear did a thing I'd forgotten that it did and it caught me by surprise and I must have typed things by reflex and then not backspaced but not explained it either. :P
(*hugs Star* take subjects you like and/or are good at..)
(@Inky lucky -_-)
(@Star its graphy algebra stuff...I just not in a mathsy mood.)
@Inky: No.
Okay.
Here is the situatuon as it stands:
- I don't know what college I want to go to.
- I don't know what subjects I want to take.
- I don't know what job I want to have.
All in all, I am drowning in a sea of not-knowing-ness and all my other friends seem to have the next two years all planned out so yeahhhhhh I'm stressing out a bit. :)
(I can do circle theorems...circle theorems was my bitch)
I dislike graphs . . .
@Silente: I like science and art (but I don't want to take art.)
Other than that, all my other subjects are about the same on my scale, and I don't mean to boast but I'm sort of good at most of my subjects so that doesn't really help either.
(Ah, I don't think they should make us all decide now. We are too young!
I just said I wanted to be a vet cos I love animals and I can stomach it. Truth be told, I want to be an author.)
(I despise graphs.)
Um um um
Ummmm . . .
Angles formed from a semi-circle are right angles
Angles formed from the same points on the circumference are equal
Angles formed at the circumference are half those formed at the diameter
Um
Um
*only did one lesson on this, dammit :P*
Something about angles from a tangent . . . . . . . . can't remember.
Hey, Silente! *hugs* I think that is fair. :)
If you wanted help with maths, I'd always be Ok to try. :)
*hugs Star*
I didn't decide on mine until the night before I enrolled, so... xD
But, I think I said before to try paying attention to which subjects you actually enjoy learning/studying/revising, while you're in the classes, kinda. I'd probably stand by that suggestion, still.
(cant remember much mind, but there was this circle theorem question on the exam and I conquered it easily...it was worth 7 marks! I had an A in my math)
I can see most of the little diagram thingies in my head, I just don't have the words . . .
@Silente: :(
We can share our hatred together.
I don't like animals particularly much . . . :P
I like science though. I mean, I fangirl over dead skulls and I find dissections interesting and when my friend offered to show us her stitches I was fascinated and I thinkg about vampires in a biological manner and . . . y'know, it all kind of indicates that maybe I should take biology.
@Taia: :) Yes . . . thank you. :)
But yeah. Freaking out. :P
@Inky: Yaaaaay! :)
(im doing a biology project. ui have a trip down the uni on Friday)
Cool. :)
(Star, what is for you, you will have. That's something I try and stick to)
@Inky: :) Thank you.
(Well, im no good at giving inspirational speeches and the like, but I try to worm in a little bit of advice here and there)
(well Chloe if you want to be an author, then go for it don't let others tell you what you should do)
@Inky: :) Advice is good.
( Gar- thanks, but im hardly Derek ^^
However I will write and I will send it off
Star- it is, but I find people say really inspirational stuff and im there like:
me:...)
@Garrett: And if she fails . . . ?
(Which I'm not saying will happen, but plenty of great authors like JK Rowling and Eoin Colfer got turned down a ton of times.)
I think with authoring, you have to try and not aim for it - aim for something else, but if you want ot be an author, do it on the side and don't give up. Keep trying, and one day, you'll probably get accepted. :) Just think, if Fifty Shades got published . . .
(haha yea. And, ive read loads of werewolf books that aren't the greatest... I remember my first thought of writing a story. I was in the natural history museum. I was intrigued by the dinosaurs and wanted to write a story about dinos)
@Inky: :)
Don't worry about it. People tell me I sound like one of those old men that goes around preaching stuff. I'm what most people would call TOO inspirational. :P
You see
I can't really write.
@Star: I have no idea what I want to do in my future.
I took subjects which would keep my options open, I guess.
Like, I took chemistry because if I suddenly became intent on doing medicine, it could be theoretically possible to get into med school without biology if I have chemistry.
I took physics because I realized at some point that I liked it, and if I had the choice between doing any revision, I did the physics, even if I didn't need to.
I didn't take biology because even though I might like the idea of some careers in biology maybe, I realised that I don't like learning biology.
I took psychology because it was interesting, and I took it over English language because I decided that I was more likely to apply my studying in psychology than in English, and also because I wasn't sure if I'd enjoy all of the English.
And I struggle sometimes with chemistry and I miss English:(, but I don't think I'd change my choices?
I have no idea if that would be any help but idk. Maybe try weighing up the things you like about each & keep them in mind, because you don't have to decide yet, after all? ^^
... *doesn't know any of those circle theorems?*
*doesn't even remember DOING circle theorems??? o0*
(you can, Star. You are better than me ^^
I mean, look at the first stuff I wrote...maybe I need to delete that )
@Taiaaaaaaaaaa: I don't know.
People seem to say that you need to go this way or this way.
And like
I don't know.
I think what I really need to do at this moment in time is to stop panicking, because I think that I probably panick as it excuses me from doign any actual thinking.
Okay.
Calm, logical Star here.
Um . . .
I guess so.
But like
I don't know.
There's just so few options. :( :( I wish we could take more subjects.
(*reads next question*
*stares at the question*
..
Yeah no not happening bro.)
@Taia: But thank you. :) *hugs*
@Inky: Yes, but I can never actually write myself anywhere. Like, I get so far and then get stuck. :P
And people constantly get better at writing. Don't rate yourself on the first stuff you wrote; if we all did that, I would be rating myself on the stuff I wrote when I was five. :)
@Silente: :(
Do you think I could do a deal with my characters?
"I'll give you half an hour to yourselves every day if you write me stuff"?
( I guess it helps that the things I write about are based on stuff that happened to me in dreams...the school of the wicked dream I had ...*shudders*)
(haha, thatd be cool Star)
I have no problem with ideas.
Just
not getting stuck. :/
@Inky: Would it?
Okay then.
*Thank you. :)
(I get you. I can place a general plot. But then I get stuck. And that's where the babbling kicks in)
(WHY IN GODS NAME WOULD YOU GIVE US OVER 21 ALGEBRA/GRAPHS QUESTIONS FOR HOMEWORK?!?!)
*Also I took maths.
Forgot to mention that. :P
ALso looks like I forgot my original point a bit.
I think what I actually meant to say, was about types of courses I know I can get into with those subjects, but idk?
Never mind. :P
@Chloe: I never deleted my first writings. I put new writing up in front of it, and I could see myself improving when I did.
And then I mostly didn't write anything and I keep not writing things but IGNORE THAT PART because that's just me not focussing on writing things.
If I compare writing from the past year-or-so to writing when I first came to Blogland, I can be sure without looking there will be a Hell of a difference.
But it's good to have a reference point to see yourself improving, because improvement is motivation, and yeah. :)
And he more you read and write and do stuff, the better you're gonna get.
Also instead of deleting things, you could try reviewing and rewriting them, because that'd be a good activity maybe.
(I DONT KNOW! I HATED GRAPHS...)
(tHANKS FOR THE advice Taia)
(will this help Sil?
http://i.kinja-img.com/gawker-media/image/upload/s--XjIpHF0n--/p6h2secysb7sixmuiqwi.jpg)
(I welcomes you Ed ^^)
(Thanks)
(how are you?)
(Fine thanks, you?)
(FOURTY EIGHT! FOURTY *UCKING EIGHT QUESTIONS FOR HOMEWORK ALL TOGETHER! WHAY THE HELL?!)
(I am better, thanks ^^
I DONT KNOW SIL, WHY WOULD THEY DO THAT?)
(I am back.)
(My homework is spreadsheets, revision and coursework)
(I should be revising biology. I had a psychology test today, and I have one on Friday. I have a biology test tomoz)
(Tests, everywhere)
(It is in college -_- I don't have any n English which is good
I had 100% in my chem basics test. But it was balancing equations and writing formulae so...)
(WHY CAN'T I WRITE CONCISELY DAMMIT ARGH. :P)
@Star: But like
You don't need to go this way or that way.
The subjects you take don't have to influence what you do in the rest of your life at all.
I don't know anyone whose A-Level subjects helped them to get their job. To get into uni, yeah, but after that... idk.
idk.
I think I agree with don't panic.
And take your time and you'll figure something out one way or another.
And things will work out OK because things do?
:)
*hugs Silente* D:
Hi Ed! :)
I HAVE NO IDEA SIL D: D: D:
Does anyone have any relevent, memorable URLs for this new blog of mine?
(Hi Taia)
@Taia: :) :) :)
*hugs*
Thank you. :)
(whats the blog about?)
(I still need to do geography homework/assessment thing...
And the biology revision/web search...
*sobs*
And graphics presentation....
*drowns under a pile of homework*)
(Dead memories in my heaarrrt)
@Inky: Well. I don't even know. Like I said, I'm going to say to my characters "Okay, you can have this time to yourselves if you do writing for me."
:P
I'm not sure how it'll work out.
(Naww Sil :()
I LOVE THAT SONG
I DID WORD ART FOR THAT SONG.
I'M NOT SURE IT WAS PARTICULARLY GOOD WORD ART, BUT IT WAS A PARTICULARLY GOOD SONG.
(hmmm, I am crap at names...
the best I can come up with is character time... but I don't know)
(Star - quiteabigdeal.blogspot.co.uk ?)
(IT IS A BRILLIANT SONG)
@Inky: Thanks for the spark. :)
. . .
Damn.
That was another spark.
Now I have two sparks! D:
@Sophia: . . .
TOO MANY SPARKS
@Inky: I KNOW
I COULD RANT ABOUT THAT SONG. :)
(BURY ALL YOUR SECRETS IN MY SKIN
my fav song, Snuff)
(The choices)
(The choice of work experience)
*smiles generally*
*hugs Star back*:)
@Star: ALL YOUR WORDART IS GREAT SHUSH. :P
(shit, I printed off my homework but forgot I actually had to DO it xD
wbd)
(also forgot to hit play on my music, so I've just been sitting in silence THINKING I had music playing? :P)
(That's what I do Taia (:)
(*surfaces*
I have come to a compromise!
I relax and the homework doesn't get done.
Sounds bril.)
(That doesn't sound very productive, Silente.)
(does anyone like the pretty reckless?)
(i push my fingers into my eyes, its the thing that slowly stops the ache)
(what song is it?)
(@Soph It is...sorta...the more relaxed I am the better my mind works...so the better it WOULD be at the work.
Were I doing it.
Details.)
(That somewhat makes sense, Silente.)
(well what do you like doing ed, that might narrow done your choices for work exp)
(... I think it rained on my homework while I was sitting here. Right next to it?
Why am I so oblivious to everythinggggggggg? :o)
@Silente: :(
Um, prioritize? :/
@Chloe: :)
@Chloe(Again!) : I haven't heard of it, Chloe. A band? ^^
Duality, Garrett.
I shall rant about this song.
The second verse, when there's that fast undercurrent and it sounds more panicked.
The way his voice is different in the second chorus, more . . . well, less smooth. More desperate, undone.
The way the chorus has this specific tone to it . . . I've never been able to describe that tone, but I've been describing it as a "coming home feeling" since I was about eight. The way it has a coming-home feeling in that conext - scary and effective. Similar to Disturbed's Criminal.
The BRIDGE. :O Corey Taylor can make his voice so emotional ohmygosh. "Dead visions in your name . . . dead fingers in my veins" and those chords in the background, aching, desperation . . .
The very beginning of the song - dun, dun dun, dun, dun dun . . . like a siren but low? Desperation, again.
I can't go back again, I can't go back again . . .
The repetition there. I'm not sure if I can explain that . . . it's repeating in his head, like . . . like when you're . . . when you're . . . panicking, or doing cross country, or you're so cold and you're so cold and your thoughts are fragmenting, and you just think the same thing in your head, over and over . . .
Or the repetition. Just - it keeps coming back, he can't get away form it.
And just - the whole concept.
I believe I mentioned this on my word art blog.
Also, like - idk. The other me is dead - the person he was has died, and these . . . fragments are all that's left, and he knows that this is the only life he has, that he won't be born again, but he can't survive, he can't live with this . . .
And obviously it just sounds incredible and the vocals are wonderful. :)
Um . . . yeah.
But I refreshed the page and you mentioend Snuff and you don't even know how much I love Snuff.
I'll rant on a different comment.
(I have ideas Gar, just choosing)
@Ed: Um, *seconds Garrett's question*? :)
(I went to a vets for work experience and I watched operations. I thought it was ace)
(you got it star, that song was one of my childhood.
that's good ed,
so how are you feeling now inks?)
@Ed: In that case, um, which might be more useful/more interesting/more enjoyable?
@Star:
*wow*
*makes note f that song*
(I am better Gar, thanks to you guys
Taia- what you said really moved me. It is now my screensaver, so I can look at it when im down)
(I may go to an architect)
(@Soph wanna continue where we left off? *not quite sure where we left off but yeah*)
(That is awesome, Ed ^^)
(Yes, sure. We could start from Phaestra taking Silente's dad back to Blogland?)
(Okay.)
*is still sat talking to mama and Granmama*
Phaestra: *appears in a flash of light, bringing Silente's dad back to Blogland with the ring on his finger*
Perhaps now you will learn your lesson, mortal.
*goes searching with symba* ed? Where are you?
@Chloe: Oh, that's good. :)
I've a friend who went to a vets' for work experience and swept floors, so I'm glad yours went well. :) ^^
@Ed: If that's what you want to do, then I'd say it'd be a good idea. :)
:0
*hugs Chloe*
:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)
I'm very happy I could help. :)
Thank you. :)
(*hugs* you are a great person Taia )
(I want to be an architect Taia)
*Is asleep under tree*
*looks back at Phaestra and her father*
Hey papa...
Papa: hello daughter. *staying very still*
*frowns* what's wrong.
Papa: nothing. Your friend here just wanted a word.
*spots ed*
*goes over to him with symba*
*pokes him*
*Wakes and sees symba* What? *Looks for escape*
Ed! Ed look, it's okay *pets symba*
*symba purrs*
*Looks afraid* No
Phaestra: I am teaching this mortal a lesson.
W what would be your reaction if it were a wolf standing here?
@Chloe: :) :) :) :) :) *hugs back* Thank you. Means a lot to hear it. C:
As are you. ;) ^^
@Ed: Then I think architecture for work experience would be a handy move. :) ^^
*looks at Phaestra* lesson?
Snuff Snuff Snuff
Here I go
Okay, so the more I use an emotional trigger, the fainter it gets, so I now no longer cry whenever I listen to Snuff, so yeah . . . that's sad.
But like -
I don't even know.
Like -
I love Snuff.
Like -
It hurts so much, so much, that he can't stand to be sad because it hurts too much and he can't stand it, so he's being angry instead, angyr beacuse it's easier, anrgy beacuse it's the only way he'll survive. He's hating her, he's going to hate her, he has to hate her.
Oh gosh -
I have to rant in order I guess because I'll never say it else.
Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
Ane love is just a camoflauge for what resembles rage again
He's sad here still, slow and sad, you can tell it from how soft the vocals/music are. He's still wanting her to bruy her secrets in his skin, really, I guess.
But he's telling him that love is rage, love is just a camoflauge for rage, love is really rage all along.
So if you love me let me go
And run away before I know
My heart is just too dark to care
I can't destroy what isn't there
Deliver me unto my fate
If I'm alone, I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you
My smile was taken long ago
If I can change, I hope I never know
He doesn't want to know she loves him, he doesn't want to know, he can't believe she was capable of love, can't believe it because it hurts too much.
He's telling himself he's too dark to care . . . he can't destroy his love, because he never had love, of course he never did. Of course he didn't. Denial . . .
If he's alone, he can't hate. If he's with other people, of course he can hate, he can always hate.
And the last line -
He thinks he can't change, his heart will always be dark. He can't change, he can't. If he could change, that would mean he would have to try to change, and he can't face doing that so he'd rather be miserable and think he can't because it's easier . . . . .
I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldn't face a life without your light
But all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight
Getting softer again, here. He misses her, he misses her so much, he'll take out her old letters and press them to her lips . . .
He couldn't face a life without her, but of course, it's her fault, it has to be her fault because he hates her. And she refused to fight -
well, we've established that love is really rage and so of course she had to fight.
TBC
(Gtg, bbl maybe.
Y'all are awesome. :)
*hugs all(who want hugs)*)
So save your breath, I will not care.
I think I made it very clear.
You couldn't hate enough to love.
Is that supposed to be enough?
I only wish you weren't my friend.
Then I could hurt you in the end.
I never claimed to be a saint...
My own was banished long ago
It took the death of hope to let you go
Of course he won't care, of course he won't.
Language getting quite dominant here . . . he's saying "I think I made it very clear" like he's given an order . . . of course, because he has to be a nasty bastard because that's the only way he'll survive . . . the vocals are getting harsher as well, less soft, more angry . . .
"You couldn't hate enough to love" - hate is love, love is hate . . .
"Is that supposed to be enough?"
Once again, dominating . . . "I still press your letters to my lips" implies she has power over him - now he's taking power, he's in power . . .
"I only wish you weren't my friend
Then I could hurt you in the end"
He's telling himself he wants to hurt her, that he wants to, and he WOULD hurt her, if only they weren't friends.
He's using it as an excuse because he doesn't want to hurt her, he loves her . . .
"I never claimed to be a saint" - either excusing himself (mock-excusing, he's awnting to be someone who isn't a saint) or using it as "I never claimed to be a saint, but you -" . . .
And then "It took the death of hope to let you go."
He has no hope left, no hope for himself, no light at the end of the tunnel, nothing.
Also implying that she was his hope, letting a bit slip here . . .
TBC
So break yourself against my stones
And spit your pity in my soul
You never needed any help
You sold me out to save yourself
And I won't listen to your shame
You ran away - you're all the same
Angels lie to keep control...
Ooh, my love was punished long ago
If you still care, don't ever let me know
If you still care, don't ever let me know...
Getting harsher here, music getting more angry along with the vocals and language . . .
He's screwing her pity and her help, because he doesn't need it, it's fake, of course she isn't capable of pity, he hates her.
"You sold me out to save yourself" - deluding himself, deluding himself.
"You ran away, you're all the same".
She's just the same as everyone else, there was nothing special about her, nothing.
"Angels lie to keep control"
They're all the same, even the best people are horrible, everyone sucks, I hate them, I hate everyone.
"My love was punished long ago" -
This is a punishment for trying to love, you must never love again, never.
"If you still care, don't ever let me know."
If you care, if you're human and you're a nice person and you care about me, don't tell me, beacuse I can't stand it. I'll break apart. I have to hate you, I have to hate you, it's the only way I'll survive . . .
I'm sorry, I love every line of that.
The concept is one of the saddest things in the world, beacuse you see, I don't think he'll ever get out. I think he's going to be in this horrible pit of negatvoty for the entire rest of his life and he'll never allow hiimself to love again, because it hurts so much and even though he knows what he's doing, he has to do it because -
because -
because it's that or suicide.
I have tears, like, running all down my face now . . .
I love that song so much. If I had to pick a favourite song, I couldn't, but that would definitely be one of them.
I would recommend it to everyone so much. The plain words on screen don't do justice. Yes, it's very lyrical, but one of my very favourite things abotu Slipknot is the atmosphere.
*Backs away* I... don't tell me there is a wolf at the cottage as well?
(Byii Taia *hugs*
Awesome Dtar ^^ I tell you... That song gives me feels)
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