Ladies and gentlemen, I present to you: the Harbinger of Doom, the Apocalypse Kid, the Hostess with the Mostess (blood on her hands), the World-Breaker...
I have already said... The requiem ball did not happen yet. However I foresee terrible things for the recent future. I don't know if it even will. I think... I think it's not as fun-and-games as we thought. It was all a malicious plan. I will consult my friend on the specifics...
TO PROTECT YOURSELF YOU MUST THINK ABOUT SAFE LOCATIONS. Stay away from the book at all costs. It may seem like it is following you, calling you. DO NOT SUBMIT. RUN, if you must. hide in the sewers for all it's worth. If you want to live
Another thing to do is tell your friends. As the people who work inside are trying to foil the plot, you can help them by bringing attention to the unearthly scheme. They may not believe you but you are Bloggers. You have the power to convince. Make them believe you.
Canada still is a a bit safer. It's not AS popular yet even now. But it is growing.
Derek Landy made a post about the requiem ball. He said that it did happen and that only mages were present. All who survive the following days will be welcome to the next requiem ball taking place on the 1st
He said they had a meeting the previous day and decided it would be easier to do it the way they did it, and they would enjoy the requiem ball alone. It seems like the location it was held was probably the safest for us to hide into, were it not for their occupation of it. The requiem ball, he says, we should feel was taking place all over the world. And now, those who live, will be able to participate for many years to come.
Mostly, actually, the US is a huge soup. In Washington there's a mad convolution. Lots of power there too. You're safe in most states for now though. Like Alaska. Is that where you're from?
very late. I am being kept up by the sounds of the terror, and my worry, and by the fact that it's summer and I go to sleep really late in the summer. its 78 hours
Worked out the perfect prank to pull on band tour in October. Only, which teacher to pull it on? I want to do the main music teacher I have because he'll take it the best I recon. But if we're in separate girl and boy zones again I may have to enlist the help of a cirtain orange-haired flutist
You guys know Death Rose, right? She sent me an email. She wanted me to put up something that she sent. I can't get a reply from here and she won't answer her phone. I'm worried... Her parents won't answer their phones either.
She said:
'Syra, I need you to put this up on a blog that I'm on. It's Derek Landy's blog. Type it into Google, make an account, and copy and paste this word document into the comment bar.
Also, tell them that I'm sorry. And that I wish that this had gone differently. I wish that I could tell them how much they ment to me, but hey, words can only say so much.'
You’ll eventually find this. I know you will. You’ll want to see what was going through my mind when I decided on my fate. I have died inside. I’m empty. I’ve screwed my life over. I won’t be able to do a 3/4 in Outdoor Education. I’m in so much pain. Breathing hurts. I can’t live anymore. I can’t do anything. I’ve lost my appetite. I was lied to. I was told I was on anti-depressants. But it turns out that they were actually nothing. I overdosed. Did you know that? I overdosed on them. I said it was an accident but it wasn’t. I wanted to die. And I tried to hang myself in the wardrobe. I don’t think you knew that one. Remember last year when Mum got a phone call from school saying that a few of my friends were concerned about me because I told them that I tried to hang myself? And I said that I hadn’t heard anything about it? Yeah, it’s called retaliation. I did. On pink shoelaces that I gave to Nikita. So, a lack of heart, a lack of food, in constant pain, no attention paid any attention to my cries of help… Only those people on the blog were there for me. They were the ones that tried to talk me out of this. They were always there for me. There was always someone there. Always someone who paid attention to me and wanted me to live. But they’re just pixels for all I know. They’re just little lines on a screen. PIXELS want me to stay. Not real live human beings that I can reach out and touch. Mum, you said I wasn’t depressed. Well, you know what? I am. I want to die. And, if I may quote Loki, ‘I do what I want’.
My life has been horrible the past few months, not that you’ve noticed, of course. I refuse to live in a family that does not let me express my own opinions, a family that believes I am lying to them when I am sick and injured, a family that forces me away and does not let me have the freedom I need as a growing teen.
Seriously mum and dad. I tried. But, oh, wait. This is just another one of my lies. I’m not actually dead. I’m just hanging by my neck on a tree for fun. Oh, and I stopped my heart. Because I thought it would fool you. It’s just lies, mum. Just lies that make the world go around. Look around the corner. I’m standing there watching your reaction to the lie. You made me smile, mum and dad and the rest of you.
None of you, my family, believed me. I tried to reach out. And see where that got me?
Dannielle (Death Rose)
Bloglandians, I’m sorry that I fucked up this bad. I love you so much, but I’ll only end up hurting you all. I’m going. From everything. Because I can’t stand this shit that I’m being forced through. Thank you, so much, for absolutely everything. You mean more than the world to me. I’m crying as I write this, as I think of all of you. I love you so fucking much. You are also so damn perfect. And beautiful.
And I don’t belong by your side. I belong far away where I can’t hurt you. And this is the only way I can think of doing it.
That was the message she sent me. I can't reach her. I know this might be something massive that a stranger asks of you, but can you try? I've tried about everything, but I haven't seen her in months.
You all know her. And talk to her.
Please, this is coming from a desperate stranger, but please... Please help. I'm really scared.
I don't want my sister to die. And my sister refuses to talk to me.
It's only 7:50. Please Rose, I don't know what to say, I can't tell that everything's alright because it's obviously not, but things will get better. Things always get better.
Rose please, just stay, please.
Shit, shit, shit, shit, shit. I need contact, I don't know how to contact her, I have nothing. Shit, shit. Please just stick a round for a while.
I am crying, I'm hyperventilating, it's a shock that my fingers can connect with the keys and Rose, dear Rose you have made it so far.
Think of something. Look the final boom in the Skulduggery Pleasant series, hang around read it, cry and then read it again. Stay with us please.
I need you Rose, I don't know how to put it into words but I need you in a way that I will never understand. I may be a pixel, but I'm a pixel you could meet if Derek came to Melbourne.
Rose, please just stay because if you go, I don't know what I'll do, people leave me all too often, I won't let you go.
10pm tonight. Thats 1pm for me, presuming she meant today and not yesterday.
Deathy, I don't know if you are reading this. I mean I doubt that you are, but I'm still typing it. Rose I'm not religious, i won't sprout a load of words about a god I don't believe in, but I will say that despite not believing in god for you I have ended up praying to them. Any of them. All of them. I know you don't have the best life, you want the pain and suffering to stop, but please don't do this. I mean, there are other ways. Run away if needs be. Come to England, go to Snow, go to America go anywhere if it means you don't do this. We a love you so much. You brighten my day for one. My mornings and evening are filled with you, with life and joy. And I don't want to lose you. Seeing you struggle through life, its made me want to punch walls. Made me want to punch your parents and teachers. Death I'm sorry i wasn't there last night to make you happy when you started dropping low. So, even though you probably won't read this I just want to say that, if this is goodbye then thank you for always being there. Thank you Rose.
I was just flicking through my music library when I stumbled across this old song. Rose, please take comfort in us, take comfort skulduggery, take comfort in the fact you could meet Derek Landy in just a few months. Please push through, just keep pushing through.
When your day is long And the night, the night is yours alone When you're sure you've had enough Of this life, well hang on
Don't let yourself go 'Cause everybody cries And everybody hurts sometimes
Sometimes everything is wrong Now it's time to sing along When your day is night alone (Hold on, hold on) If you feel like letting go (Hold on) If you think you've had too much Of this life, well hang on
Everybody hurts Take comfort in your friends Everybody hurts Don't throw your hand, oh no
Don't throw your hand If you feel like you're alone No, no, no, you are not alone
If you're on your own in this life The days and nights are long When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on
Well, everybody hurts sometimes Everybody cries Everybody hurts sometimes And everybody hurts sometimes
So hold on, hold on Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on Everybody hurts
(You hear the clicking in the back of this song, let's pretend the metronome is your heart, let it keep ticking, let it keep beating, let it go on)
And I don't want to say this, but if this really is the last time you'll ever possibly read this blog, know that we all love you. Know that Blake couldn't have asked for a better sparring partner, that Loki couldn't have had a better relationship, know that all of Blogland couldn't have found a better you.
I love you Rose, and I really hop I get to see you at Derek's tour down under. Thank you, for all that you've done.
We fall, tumble in the dark Lost but maybe its the start Of something greater, of something more We try, many times we cry And holding on is hard But we can't let you, I won't let you go
DEATHY, you've been through so much And now you want to go But DEATHY before you leave At least make sure you know All those happy times, All those rainy days, You're lost but you can still find the way, Yeah DEATHY we all just want to say, Please don't go away.
I swear, its always you who's there Always you who with so much heart You've made us smile, you've made us cry I won't, I won't let you die I might be so very far away But just let me, let me say
DEATHY, you've been through so much And now you want to go But DEATHY before you leave At least make sure you know All those happy times, All those rainy days, You're lost but you can still find the way, Yeah DEATHY we all just want to say, Please don't go away.
My hands are shaking. God... im not going to be able to leave my room to say good night to my parents without them sensing somethings wrong, without them seeing the tear stains...
I can't bring myself to tell my parents. What if she does? What if I wake up tomorrow and she's gone? I've already lost my grandmother. I cant loose her too.
I talked to my mum. She just told me to hope. And I have been. This time she seems so set... I've been praying to every god I can think of from any religion....
Death I love you (not like Loki but still love) I might just be a pixel but please you can talk to me anytime. My mum goes through similar problems and if ever you need to talk I'm here. I might be asleep occasionally but I am still here to talk....once I wake up...
ROSE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH PLEASE DONT EVER THINK ABOUT DOING THAT AGAIN BECAUSE I CANNOT AFFORD TO FLY TO AUSTRALIA, TRACK YOU DOWN, AND STOP YOU! *hugs her very tightly and refuses to let go*
*She was slumped against the far armrest of the sofa, asleep. Her breath was deep as her face lost all of its defences, making her look younger and more gentle. She rolled over and muttered quietly, her face starting to twitch with an oncoming nightmare*
*She stopped muttering when his wing wrapped around her, but she flinched and almost started to yell incoherently in her sleep. She thrashed a kicked out, trying to fend off her attacker in her dream*
DON'T!
*More incoherent words were spoken. A few were recognisable. She was screaming for mercy at her attacker as she tried to fight him*
(I haven't even HEARD of Liversedge... Why are you research small places in the UK? OH ARE YOU COMING TO SEE US?!?!?!) (You know nothing Death Rose! (jk) )
*Her breath was ragged by the time she'd finally stopped lashing out. She rolled over and buried her face into Roland's chest, despite still being asleep. She mumbled softly, almost too soft to hear*
I love my angel... My Roland...
*She sighed heavily and shifted slightly in his arms, being as close to him as she could*
(I'm not coming to see you, a friend of mine is looking to live in a small UK-ian town when she's older. I found a place called Liversedge and it looked alright.)
~ Okay. Let's go see them. God, I miss my babies...
*takes her hand, leading her inside to the living room where Ricci is playing with the twins, Thor supervising them while keeping an eye on Zanida, who is laying on the couch.*
*Her face started to twitch and she held on tightly to Roland's shirt. She wasn't going to let go any time soon. She shivered when she felt his wing on her back and trembled in her sleep*
Hmm... Beautiful angel... Mine... All mine...
*A very soft smile tugged at the corners of her lips. She took a deep breath and let it go in a rush, pulling herself even closer to Roland*
(The town I'm in is non-existent in comparison, Tet...)
~ *She grinned and sat down beside Ricci, looking at the twins* Hey Leif! Hey Kari! *She leaned forwards to embrace both and smiled up at Zan* How you doing, rag doll?
*A few moments later, she yawned and sleepily blinked her eyes. She looked around, trying to remember where she was. Then she felt the warmth of someone else*
Hey Roland... Sorry... I must have fallen asleep...
*She laughed quietly and stayed pressed against him*
Also... I didn't sleep talk, did I...? I have a habit of doing that when I'm in an unfamiliar place...
*a sound echoes behind her and she whirls, ready to fight, as a section of the wall becomes see through* *James and Erica stood on the other side* You! Erica: Hello Silente dearest. Your looking well. James: Apart from the broken bones. They look painful. What do you want??
~ They can crawl! Aw... *She pulled Ricci into a half-hug and smirked at Zanida* You know, if you two had listened to that damned letter, then you wouldn't be in this situation. And Loki healing? I don't believe it.
James: I want what I always want. Your pain. Erica: And I want Vivanus' pain and suffering. You can't do this. They'll come for me. They'll kick your butts. Erica: *laughs* Oh but darling that's where you're wrong. James: They won't be coming. They don't even know. What do you mean?
Zanida: Eh. I could have had worse, most of this was from Blake, Hulk only smashed my arm.
Astrid had me wrap Zanida's arm in something, and it worked because at first she was in tears if I touched er arm, but once I wrapped it up, she was calm.
*She noticed her hands holding his shirt and reluctantly let go. She started to wonder what she had been doing earlier*
I can apologise. I don't need sleep. I'm...
*She yawned and covered her mouth. Her eyes teared up, but she wasn't sad or overjoyed, it was just something that happened to her when she woke up*
I don't sleep well... Not a lot... And not one word? Wow. I'm impressed wth myself. I say odd things... I once shouted out something that the enemy, I was being held hostage, wanted to know. I hadn't told them anything after hours of torture, but I fell asleep and they knew everything...
James: I mean they won't know. Because there's a you where they are as well. Whut? Erica: A clone deary. Left with them. Left to hurt Vivanus. What do you mean hurt Viv? Erica: well, that's for us to know and you to never find out honey.
~ Hulk only did an arm? And you were fighting MY sparring buddy?! Oh, it feels like I'm being cheated on! *She stared at Zan in horror* You used my sparring partner... I'm... Ow.... Loki, you're a arm saver. *She held her hand up for a hi-five*
Let me out. James: How bout no. How bout yes. James: I prefer no. Anyway. It's fun time. *james clicks a button and two sections of the wall higher up slide back to reveal cannon like things* ..I know you have bad aim but surely your aim isn't THAT bad. Erica: *laughs* oh if only thats what they did.
James- do not even try. Last time someone hurt my family, they ended up dead. Last time someone killed my family, Thor ended up killing them. Malikith...he never did learn, stupid Dark Elf.))
They decided that talking to me in my sleep worked better than torture. They'd just ask me a question and I'd answer it. It was like I was hypnotised... And then they tried to kill me. But we all know how that would have turned out...
*She laughed softly and then shook her head*
I don't want to go back to sleep. Thunder gives me nightmares... I want to stay with you like this...
*She lifted her head slightly and kissed him gently*
What do you me- *her question was quickly answered as water began shooting from the cannons and into the put below* James: Pure salt water. It'll take a while for your pit to fill up. And even if you swim...well. *another button was pressed and a lid slowly covered the roof of the pit, sealing her in and turning her surroundings black as water started building up around her ankles* James: You'll only be delaying the inevitable.
~ Blake killed your mum...? Ouch. Okay. That's understandable. But... Still... You used my buddy... *She pretended to be offended, but her eyes landed on Thor when he spoke* The... The truth...? Also, Thor, do you still have my knife...? The one I told you to cut me with...?
Thor: *gives her the knife* Yes, the truth. Farbauti told me which one of them was stolen. Zanida, as you know, is older and a few Asgardians invaded the castle, and they took Zanida. Farbauti was devestated at the loss of her daughter, so Laufey allowed them to try for a second child. This time, Loki was born, but he was small, which to the Frost Giants is a sin practically. So they hid him when Odin led the Asgardians into battle, but Odin found him and took him. Farbauti at that point decided she had enough with trying to raise children. She never got over losing Zan though, and she asked me to allow her to see Zanida on Asgard.
*starts panicking as the water pools* James.. James: Yes? Stop it. James: No. Enjoy your stay Silente. *there was a beep and then only the sound of crashing water as the level climbed higher and higher*
~ *She nodded her thanks and listened* Wait, so, Loki AND Zan were cradle snatched...? *She looked at the siblings, her eyes wide* That is so disturbing...
*She nodded and slowly pulled away from him. She got up and stretched before she made her way to the stairs, being careful not to hurt herself again. She made it to Ariana's room without incident and slipped inside silently*
~ You two were kidnapped. Odin as Tyra would be imprisoned if a Midgardian was to do that. It's like Rapunzel... The witch stealing the princess... *She shuddered at the thought*
*Marrok was still awake, sitting right beside Ariana's cot, his muzzle through the bar gaps. He had tried to climb into the cot but couldn't get up with his leg.
Ariana was still asleep, her hand just slightly touching Marrok's muzzle.*
*She grinned at Marrok and picked him up. She hugged him tightly before she looked at Ariana's cot. She was about to put him in when she thought better of it. What Marrok took a bite at her? What if the cub got scared? The cub had a bed anyway.
She plaed Marrok back on his two pillows and, after smiling down at Ariana, walked back out, down the stars, and curled up on the sofa*
I know, but at least we know what happened that night.
Zanida: My mother never got over me...
I wonder if perhaps you have the ice abilities because of Farbauti?
Thor: Farbauti said that Zanida must have known her ice powers from a young age, and then when Tyra shared her gifts with Zan, she forgot until the day Loki revealed the truth.
There was something odd about Zan, which I never understood. She looked like me, but as a child I assumed her to be my cousin, but when Odin revealed my heritage, I never thought about her. When Odin eventually allowed me freedom, with a babysitter, I saw her and it dawned on me.
Zanida: You mind controlled me so I would touch the casket.
~ Loki, mind controlling people is rude. But effective. *She pursed her lips and looked down at the twins. They're had soft toys in their hands, hitting them hard against the ground* What would happen if they touched the casket...?
Marrok wants in with Ariana, but I'm not ready for that. Just in case he has a go at her. Ariana's dead to the world and wolfy is awake. I think he might be a little scared of the storm, but who isn't?
*She plucked a piece of cheese from the plate an leaned against him*
I can do the shopping. You keep an eye on them and I'll go tomorrow. Early. And I'll get some meat for Marrok.
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Tis pretty late here...-Zaf
I have already said... The requiem ball did not happen yet. However I foresee terrible things for the recent future. I don't know if it even will. I think... I think it's not as fun-and-games as we thought. It was all a malicious plan. I will consult my friend on the specifics...
It is Zaffy. Why are you up?
So are you from the morning of the 28th of August?
TO PROTECT YOURSELF YOU MUST THINK ABOUT SAFE LOCATIONS. Stay away from the book at all costs. It may seem like it is following you, calling you. DO NOT SUBMIT. RUN, if you must. hide in the sewers for all it's worth. If you want to live
the 30th
Well... I'm going to Canada the day it comes out.. I doubt I'll be around it.
Nutrient the ball on the 28th?
**but isn't
He would be upset. But I'm not worried. He won't be reading this. He's preparing for our reckoning
Who's a liar El?
Why?/how do you know?
[raises an eyebrow]
Another thing to do is tell your friends. As the people who work inside are trying to foil the plot, you can help them by bringing attention to the unearthly scheme.
They may not believe you but you are Bloggers. You have the power to convince. Make them believe you.
But why? Why didn't the ball happen
Maynard?
It didn't happen yet. Too much chaos
Ah. But it still will happen?
(Hi Fabi!)
And the book comes out August 28th in Canada just like the UK oddly enough, instead of it's usual one month delay
...
Are you joking?!
Canada still is a a bit safer. It's not AS popular yet even now. But it is growing.
Derek Landy made a post about the requiem ball. He said that it did happen and that only mages were present. All who survive the following days will be welcome to the next requiem ball taking place on the 1st
...
I'm just gonna go now.
[Waves]
Oh my dear God you're right. Oh. What about the US? Surely we're safe here?
Bye Fabi!
He said they had a meeting the previous day and decided it would be easier to do it the way they did it, and they would enjoy the requiem ball alone. It seems like the location it was held was probably the safest for us to hide into, were it not for their occupation of it.
The requiem ball, he says, we should feel was taking place all over the world. And now, those who live, will be able to participate for many years to come.
...
Oh. My...
Mostly, actually, the US is a huge soup. In Washington there's a mad convolution. Lots of power there too.
You're safe in most states for now though. Like Alaska. Is that where you're from?
See you, Fabi!!
Nope....
Washington.
*narrows her eyes*
Though you knew that didn't you. Some how... I can just tell.
Like I said, there's a mad concentration of books in Washington... Not everyone can handle it
Hmm. But why can't I find then anywhere in Washington? Do you know where I can get them?
PEOPLE ARE ORDERING THEM. THE BOOKS IN THE BOXES!!!!
DON'T YOU GET IT!!! YOUR HOME WILL BE A SWIRL OF MUSH!!!
Well um....
Well...
I uh... already pre-ordered it? The shadow one?
I UNDERSTOOD THAT
So... what do I do? Do I leave it unopened?
Well I get that people are pre-ordering them. And that they are dangerous.
Yeah. Don't open it. That would be the best thing to do.
Waterstones. It was rather expensive.... $34! Also, Amazon UK. You should be able to pre-order it from there.
The book it's self wasn't too expensive it was the shipping. It's not cheap to ship it across the ocean.
Hide it so no fool will find it. You can't destroy it easily and who knows where it'll end up if you throw it out
Maybe the ocean. Throw it out to sea. is there a pier or something nearby?
The Puget sound. Not exactly an ocean...
Oh don't worry El, I wouldn't throw it put to sea!!
It's for the good of the planet.
Littering is for the good of the planet?! I kinda doubt that...
Silly, right?
kind of oxymoronic, right?
But it's true, and you know it.
Hmm. Well I won't get my book till after many other people have read it. If they act weird..
(Email El.)
What time is it where you are right now Maynard?
Ooh! Maynard! Did you enter a mask in the competition?
very late. I am being kept up by the sounds of the terror, and my worry, and by the fact that it's summer and I go to sleep really late in the summer.
its 78 hours
or 1.17
Ah. So is the whole world affected by this?
No I wished I did, but now I do not.
Those masks are sentient. kind of like Lord Vile armor.. Though the ones who wore them went to the ball permitted. and they came out.... different.
I am very soy sauce Maynard but I have to go. Good bye!
Not the world yet.
but it's spreading
and everyone knows.
Soy sauce is the answer to Saracen's power! Do not forget D.C.!
HEED MY WORDS
See you, Dugglyn!!
...
*shouts* Anyone on?
*waits for a response*
Kinda here, kinda not here. My connection with the past is wavering
I cannot retain this connection anymore. My message to the past is out now. You have 8 days.
I wonder if I can go back farther...
Every time I unlock my tablet, The genius of the back cover welcomes me
(Hi! Bye!!)
Hello...?
Worked out the perfect prank to pull on band tour in October. Only, which teacher to pull it on? I want to do the main music teacher I have because he'll take it the best I recon. But if we're in separate girl and boy zones again I may have to enlist the help of a cirtain orange-haired flutist
You guys know Death Rose, right? She sent me an email. She wanted me to put up something that she sent. I can't get a reply from here and she won't answer her phone. I'm worried... Her parents won't answer their phones either.
She said:
'Syra, I need you to put this up on a blog that I'm on. It's Derek Landy's blog. Type it into Google, make an account, and copy and paste this word document into the comment bar.
Also, tell them that I'm sorry. And that I wish that this had gone differently. I wish that I could tell them how much they ment to me, but hey, words can only say so much.'
You’ll eventually find this. I know you will. You’ll want to see what was going through my mind when I decided on my fate.
I have died inside. I’m empty. I’ve screwed my life over. I won’t be able to do a 3/4 in Outdoor Education. I’m in so much pain. Breathing hurts. I can’t live anymore. I can’t do anything. I’ve lost my appetite.
I was lied to. I was told I was on anti-depressants. But it turns out that they were actually nothing. I overdosed. Did you know that? I overdosed on them. I said it was an accident but it wasn’t. I wanted to die.
And I tried to hang myself in the wardrobe. I don’t think you knew that one. Remember last year when Mum got a phone call from school saying that a few of my friends were concerned about me because I told them that I tried to hang myself? And I said that I hadn’t heard anything about it? Yeah, it’s called retaliation. I did. On pink shoelaces that I gave to Nikita.
So, a lack of heart, a lack of food, in constant pain, no attention paid any attention to my cries of help… Only those people on the blog were there for me. They were the ones that tried to talk me out of this. They were always there for me. There was always someone there. Always someone who paid attention to me and wanted me to live.
But they’re just pixels for all I know. They’re just little lines on a screen. PIXELS want me to stay. Not real live human beings that I can reach out and touch.
Mum, you said I wasn’t depressed.
Well, you know what?
I am.
I want to die.
And, if I may quote Loki, ‘I do what I want’.
My life has been horrible the past few months, not that you’ve noticed, of course.
I refuse to live in a family that does not let me express my own opinions, a family that believes I am lying to them when I am sick and injured, a family that forces me away and does not let me have the freedom I need as a growing teen.
Seriously mum and dad.
I tried.
But, oh, wait.
This is just another one of my lies. I’m not actually dead. I’m just hanging by my neck on a tree for fun. Oh, and I stopped my heart. Because I thought it would fool you. It’s just lies, mum. Just lies that make the world go around.
Look around the corner. I’m standing there watching your reaction to the lie.
You made me smile, mum and dad and the rest of you.
None of you, my family, believed me.
I tried to reach out.
And see where that got me?
Dannielle (Death Rose)
Bloglandians, I’m sorry that I fucked up this bad. I love you so much, but I’ll only end up hurting you all. I’m going. From everything. Because I can’t stand this shit that I’m being forced through.
Thank you, so much, for absolutely everything.
You mean more than the world to me.
I’m crying as I write this, as I think of all of you. I love you so fucking much.
You are also so damn perfect. And beautiful.
And I don’t belong by your side. I belong far away where I can’t hurt you. And this is the only way I can think of doing it.
Ten pm tonight. That’s when I leave. I love you.
Shit. Shit shit shit shit shit. Please tell me that doesn't mean what I think it means. Please.
That was the message she sent me. I can't reach her. I know this might be something massive that a stranger asks of you, but can you try? I've tried about everything, but I haven't seen her in months.
You all know her. And talk to her.
Please, this is coming from a desperate stranger, but please... Please help. I'm really scared.
I don't want my sister to die. And my sister refuses to talk to me.
Please.
I'm going to try. I have to.
Snow, last time we talked, it was about the pros and cons of suicide. I thought it was just a random topic. But... I don't know...
Thank you, I've got to go. Dinner, even though I don't have an appetite after reading through that.
Thank you.
No, Rose, No.
Rose, rose, rose, please. No.
It's only 7:50. Please Rose, I don't know what to say, I can't tell that everything's alright because it's obviously not, but things will get better. Things always get better.
Rose please, just stay, please.
Shit, shit, shit, shit, shit. I need contact, I don't know how to contact her, I have nothing. Shit, shit. Please just stick a round for a while.
DEATH ROSE. DANIEL. IF YOU ARE GHOSTING, MIF YOU ARE SOMEHOW READING THIS, LISTEN TO ME.
DONT YOU DARE. DONT YOI EVEN THINK ABOUT IT. PLEASE. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH AND IM CRYING AS IM TYPING AND I CANT SEE THE KEYBOARD.
PLEASE. I HAVE TO MEET YOU. I HAVE TO MEET MY AMAZING, PERFECT SISTER.
I LOVE YOU. I'D DO ANYTHING FOR YOU. I WOULD SACRIFICE MY LIFE FOR YOURS A THOUSAND TIMES OVER.
PLEASE
dannilivo@gmail.com
deathyrose@gmail.com
Her emails
I am crying, I'm hyperventilating, it's a shock that my fingers can connect with the keys and Rose, dear Rose you have made it so far.
Think of something. Look the final boom in the Skulduggery Pleasant series, hang around read it, cry and then read it again. Stay with us please.
I need you Rose, I don't know how to put it into words but I need you in a way that I will never understand. I may be a pixel, but I'm a pixel you could meet if Derek came to Melbourne.
Rose, please just stay because if you go, I don't know what I'll do, people leave me all too often, I won't let you go.
I have to go... I dont want to, but I have to... please, death, please...
10pm tonight. Thats 1pm for me, presuming she meant today and not yesterday.
Deathy, I don't know if you are reading this. I mean I doubt that you are, but I'm still typing it.
Rose I'm not religious, i won't sprout a load of words about a god I don't believe in, but I will say that despite not believing in god for you I have ended up praying to them. Any of them. All of them.
I know you don't have the best life, you want the pain and suffering to stop, but please don't do this. I mean, there are other ways. Run away if needs be. Come to England, go to Snow, go to America go anywhere if it means you don't do this.
We a love you so much. You brighten my day for one. My mornings and evening are filled with you, with life and joy. And I don't want to lose you.
Seeing you struggle through life, its made me want to punch walls. Made me want to punch your parents and teachers. Death I'm sorry i wasn't there last night to make you happy when you started dropping low.
So, even though you probably won't read this I just want to say that, if this is goodbye then thank you for always being there. Thank you Rose.
I was just flicking through my music library when I stumbled across this old song. Rose, please take comfort in us, take comfort skulduggery, take comfort in the fact you could meet Derek Landy in just a few months. Please push through, just keep pushing through.
When your day is long
And the night, the night is yours alone
When you're sure you've had enough
Of this life, well hang on
Don't let yourself go
'Cause everybody cries
And everybody hurts sometimes
Sometimes everything is wrong
Now it's time to sing along
When your day is night alone (Hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go (Hold on)
If you think you've had too much
Of this life, well hang on
Everybody hurts
Take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts
Don't throw your hand, oh no
Don't throw your hand
If you feel like you're alone
No, no, no, you are not alone
If you're on your own in this life
The days and nights are long
When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on
Well, everybody hurts sometimes
Everybody cries
Everybody hurts sometimes
And everybody hurts sometimes
So hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
Everybody hurts
(You hear the clicking in the back of this song, let's pretend the metronome is your heart, let it keep ticking, let it keep beating, let it go on)
And I don't want to say this, but if this really is the last time you'll ever possibly read this blog, know that we all love you. Know that Blake couldn't have asked for a better sparring partner, that Loki couldn't have had a better relationship, know that all of Blogland couldn't have found a better you.
I love you Rose, and I really hop I get to see you at Derek's tour down under. Thank you, for all that you've done.
Death Rose
We fall, tumble in the dark
Lost but maybe its the start
Of something greater, of something more
We try, many times we cry
And holding on is hard
But we can't let you, I won't let you go
DEATHY, you've been through so much
And now you want to go
But DEATHY before you leave
At least make sure you know
All those happy times,
All those rainy days,
You're lost but you can still find the way,
Yeah DEATHY we all just want to say,
Please don't go away.
I swear, its always you who's there
Always you who with so much heart
You've made us smile, you've made us cry
I won't, I won't let you die
I might be so very far away
But just let me, let me say
DEATHY, you've been through so much
And now you want to go
But DEATHY before you leave
At least make sure you know
All those happy times,
All those rainy days,
You're lost but you can still find the way,
Yeah DEATHY we all just want to say,
Please don't go away.
Just don't go, away...
My hands are shaking. God... im not going to be able to leave my room to say good night to my parents without them sensing somethings wrong, without them seeing the tear stains...
*hugs Snow*
Rose, my darling, I.....
POTATOES! CAN I JUST PUNCH A FRICKING GODDAMNED WALL BECAUSE IT WILL MAKE ME HURT.
ROSE YOU NEED TO LIVE, YOU CAN'T JUST RUB YOURSELF OUT, YOU CAN FIX YOUR PROBLEMS.
*hugs Raven*
*hugs Rose*
*hugs Sil crying all over her in the process*
*hugs Rose, just like the cuddle dinosaur you are would*
*hugs Snow, I know the feeling*
*wipes away Ravens tears*
Shhhhhhh...
1 hour....
No. You have to think positive. Whether you think it is or you think it isn't you are right..
An hour from now Rose will come online and hug us all and say sorry for scaring us...
So do I...
I can't bring myself to tell my parents. What if she does? What if I wake up tomorrow and she's gone? I've already lost my grandmother. I cant loose her too.
I don't know Snow. I don't know...
I talked to my mum. She just told me to hope. And I have been. This time she seems so set... I've been praying to every god I can think of from any religion....
And I cant sleep. I should, but I physically cant
I know the feeling Snow. But we can't do anything else.
It has taken me since half 11 but it worked and pulled through.
She is staying and she is going to try and work through everything, with everyone by her side.
We haven't lost her.
She is staying :)
Thank you. Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you.
Omg thank you so much em thank you thank you
*actually hugs Emerald*
Oh thank God for that
Oh thank God for that
Anything for my friends.
*hugs everyone.*
(Hello.)
*hugs Em back*
Tell her we love her..
I don't know if you're reading, Rose, but I love you so much.
*hugs Em*
*really needs sleep*
*really needs to stop crying*
*but at leasr now they're tears of joy*
Oh, thank god.
*huggles Rose*
Death I love you (not like Loki but still love)
I might just be a pixel but please you can talk to me anytime. My mum goes through similar problems and if ever you need to talk I'm here. I might be asleep occasionally but I am still here to talk....once I wake up...
Boop.
*tacklehugs Rose*
Hey...
And she makes her triumphant return :)
*hugs close* I love you, more then your heart can ever comprehend. *smirks* My queen.
Em. How is this triumphant? It's horrible.
I'm not a queen... I'd be more like a lowly servant girl. That's what I am. A lowly servant girl.
Because everyone was worried and the fact that you are now here, still with us.
I would say that is pretty triumphant.
ROSE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH PLEASE DONT EVER THINK ABOUT DOING THAT AGAIN BECAUSE I CANNOT AFFORD TO FLY TO AUSTRALIA, TRACK YOU DOWN, AND STOP YOU!
*hugs her very tightly and refuses to let go*
(Sorry, I poofed.
"Always expect trouble. Failing that, create trouble for someone else.")
Shit.
Give me five minutes.
My rib feels like it's breaking.
You are my queen. Are you not in love with a god? You are my queen.
Shit. Ow. Shit. Fucking. Rib. Ow.
*stops hugging Rose incase that is somehow what's making her rib hurt*
Please, NEVER scare us like that again..
No promiseds, Tetris.
Loki, how is being in love with a god make me a queen?
Right Rose, ready to continue.
You have lead love...
Then if you wont promise not to do it...
Promise to at least give us a days warning? Please?
(Playing Mass Effect so wbd. Getting shot is distracting.)
Because I am the rightful king.
*gives half of the ded to Loki because he's better at words than my author*
I dedicate this page to Rose and to her living.
Everyone here loves her and never want to lose you. Ever.
Loki can add if he wants.
(Okay...)
*She was slumped against the far armrest of the sofa, asleep. Her breath was deep as her face lost all of its defences, making her look younger and more gentle.
She rolled over and muttered quietly, her face starting to twitch with an oncoming nightmare*
(I'll promise to give you at least 12 hours warning next time.)
(But you're not king. Not yet. I'm just the prince's plaything.)
(Okay. Twelve hours if you ever plan to do it again.)
(Deal.)
*Roland gently moved so he was behind her. He held her close and wrapped his wing around her, keeping her safe.*
Roland: *whispers* You are safe. Do not think you are not my dear.
*Another bout of thunder rolled through over the house. Roland flinched slightly. It was really loud.*
(Good. That way I have twelve hours to rob a bank, fly to Australia, track you down and stop you. Which I hope would be enough time...)
*She stopped muttering when his wing wrapped around her, but she flinched and almost started to yell incoherently in her sleep. She thrashed a kicked out, trying to fend off her attacker in her dream*
DON'T!
*More incoherent words were spoken. A few were recognisable. She was screaming for mercy at her attacker as she tried to fight him*
(Geez, Tetris. You'll never find me.)
(That's what you think.)
(I know it, Sil.)
(UK-ians. I'm doing a little research on small places in the UK. I found one place called Liversedge. Has anyone been there before...?)
*Roland wrapped his wing around here tighter. He took every blow she gave, he didn't care as long as she didn't hurt herself.*
Roland: It is okay Rose. You are safe. No one is hurting you.
(I haven't even HEARD of Liversedge...
Why are you research small places in the UK? OH ARE YOU COMING TO SEE US?!?!?!)
(You know nothing Death Rose! (jk) )
Come on, love. Leif and Kari want their Mommy, and believe me....They do. You also can see Zan.
*Her breath was ragged by the time she'd finally stopped lashing out. She rolled over and buried her face into Roland's chest, despite still being asleep. She mumbled softly, almost too soft to hear*
I love my angel... My Roland...
*She sighed heavily and shifted slightly in his arms, being as close to him as she could*
(I'm not coming to see you, a friend of mine is looking to live in a small UK-ian town when she's older. I found a place called Liversedge and it looked alright.)
~
Okay. Let's go see them. God, I miss my babies...
(...you could try Huddersfield? *wink wink nudge nudge poke poke*)
*He smiled as he started caressing her hair.
The thunder rolled over head again. He flinched. He never normally flinched but because it was right over the house, it was particularly loud.
His wing started rubbing Rose's back.*
(It looks a little big...)
(..does it? Oh.)
*takes her hand, leading her inside to the living room where Ricci is playing with the twins, Thor supervising them while keeping an eye on Zanida, who is laying on the couch.*
((Yes, the thunder rolled, its Thor saying how he wants to strike the house with lightning. Oops. -Zanida))
*Her face started to twitch and she held on tightly to Roland's shirt. She wasn't going to let go any time soon. She shivered when she felt his wing on her back and trembled in her sleep*
Hmm... Beautiful angel... Mine... All mine...
*A very soft smile tugged at the corners of her lips. She took a deep breath and let it go in a rush, pulling herself even closer to Roland*
((*runs in* *hugs Loki* *laughs wildly and runs away*))
(The town I'm in is non-existent in comparison, Tet...)
~
*She grinned and sat down beside Ricci, looking at the twins*
Hey Leif! Hey Kari!
*She leaned forwards to embrace both and smiled up at Zan*
How you doing, rag doll?
*He held her as she slept. He was still unsure how to hold her, how to react. He felt useless.*
Roland: *whispers* and you are mine.
(Oh, God. I don't even know what I was intending to write for the Roland RP... Dear Lord... I'm so sorry, Em. That was a bigger fail than usual...)
*stares up at the top of her pit*
*her magic is bound, she could feel it*
*ever time she moves pain greets her*
(It's okay lol you can wake her up if you want or do whatever Rose. You're taking the lead this time around lol)
*A few moments later, she yawned and sleepily blinked her eyes. She looked around, trying to remember where she was. Then she felt the warmth of someone else*
Hey Roland... Sorry... I must have fallen asleep...
*She laughed quietly and stayed pressed against him*
Also... I didn't sleep talk, did I...? I have a habit of doing that when I'm in an unfamiliar place...
*a sound echoes behind her and she whirls, ready to fight, as a section of the wall becomes see through*
*James and Erica stood on the other side*
You!
Erica: Hello Silente dearest. Your looking well.
James: Apart from the broken bones. They look painful.
What do you want??
*the twins giggle, and Ricci watches*
Ricci: Kari and Leif chased each other while crawling!
Zanida: *smiles, and looks over at Rose* Horrible. The bones are healing which hurts like Hell. *laughs* Loki is very good at healing.
~
They can crawl! Aw...
*She pulled Ricci into a half-hug and smirked at Zanida*
You know, if you two had listened to that damned letter, then you wouldn't be in this situation. And Loki healing? I don't believe it.
*He smiled at her as he watched the fire, holding her close and keeping her warm.*
Roland: Do not apologise for going asleep, you need your rest. And you did not mutter a word.
(GOD DAMN THRESHER MAW!)
James: I want what I always want. Your pain.
Erica: And I want Vivanus' pain and suffering.
You can't do this. They'll come for me. They'll kick your butts.
Erica: *laughs* Oh but darling that's where you're wrong.
James: They won't be coming. They don't even know.
What do you mean?
Ricci: Huggy!!!
Zanida: Eh. I could have had worse, most of this was from Blake, Hulk only smashed my arm.
Astrid had me wrap Zanida's arm in something, and it worked because at first she was in tears if I touched er arm, but once I wrapped it up, she was calm.
((*sighs* Are you finished hugging, Silente?
Also, James wouldn't last two seconds if he ever tried to mess with us.))
*She noticed her hands holding his shirt and reluctantly let go. She started to wonder what she had been doing earlier*
I can apologise. I don't need sleep. I'm...
*She yawned and covered her mouth. Her eyes teared up, but she wasn't sad or overjoyed, it was just something that happened to her when she woke up*
I don't sleep well... Not a lot... And not one word? Wow. I'm impressed wth myself. I say odd things... I once shouted out something that the enemy, I was being held hostage, wanted to know. I hadn't told them anything after hours of torture, but I fell asleep and they knew everything...
James: I mean they won't know. Because there's a you where they are as well.
Whut?
Erica: A clone deary. Left with them. Left to hurt Vivanus.
What do you mean hurt Viv?
Erica: well, that's for us to know and you to never find out honey.
~
Hulk only did an arm? And you were fighting MY sparring buddy?! Oh, it feels like I'm being cheated on!
*She stared at Zan in horror*
You used my sparring partner... I'm... Ow....
Loki, you're a arm saver.
*She held her hand up for a hi-five*
(Hehehe nope! *keeps hugging Loki* *stops hugging Loki* okay. Now Iz done. *nods*
James: Ah Loki the god of mischeif. Hmm.)
(Crap I remember this mission. :/)
Let me out.
James: How bout no.
How bout yes.
James: I prefer no. Anyway. It's fun time.
*james clicks a button and two sections of the wall higher up slide back to reveal cannon like things*
..I know you have bad aim but surely your aim isn't THAT bad.
Erica: *laughs* oh if only thats what they did.
*He pulled her closer to him when she let go.*
Roland: *chuckles* Well that was a unfortunate event.
It is still late during the night if you want to go back asleep. The thunder is getting worse.
*laughs, high-fiving Rose*
Zanida: Actually, he and I had an argument and I sort of tried to avenge Farbauti.
Thor: Your mother came by to see you, a few times actually. I finally learned the truth of you and Loki.
((Good.
James- do not even try. Last time someone hurt my family, they ended up dead. Last time someone killed my family, Thor ended up killing them. Malikith...he never did learn, stupid Dark Elf.))
*She smiled up at him, shivering at his warmth*
They decided that talking to me in my sleep worked better than torture. They'd just ask me a question and I'd answer it. It was like I was hypnotised... And then they tried to kill me. But we all know how that would have turned out...
*She laughed softly and then shook her head*
I don't want to go back to sleep. Thunder gives me nightmares... I want to stay with you like this...
*She lifted her head slightly and kissed him gently*
(Gah zombies.)
What do you me-
*her question was quickly answered as water began shooting from the cannons and into the put below*
James: Pure salt water. It'll take a while for your pit to fill up. And even if you swim...well.
*another button was pressed and a lid slowly covered the roof of the pit, sealing her in and turning her surroundings black as water started building up around her ankles*
James: You'll only be delaying the inevitable.
~
Blake killed your mum...? Ouch. Okay. That's understandable. But... Still... You used my buddy...
*She pretended to be offended, but her eyes landed on Thor when he spoke*
The... The truth...? Also, Thor, do you still have my knife...? The one I told you to cut me with...?
(James: Then lets agree not to get in each others ways Loki.)
Thor: *gives her the knife* Yes, the truth. Farbauti told me which one of them was stolen. Zanida, as you know, is older and a few Asgardians invaded the castle, and they took Zanida. Farbauti was devestated at the loss of her daughter, so Laufey allowed them to try for a second child. This time, Loki was born, but he was small, which to the Frost Giants is a sin practically. So they hid him when Odin led the Asgardians into battle, but Odin found him and took him. Farbauti at that point decided she had enough with trying to raise children. She never got over losing Zan though, and she asked me to allow her to see Zanida on Asgard.
*starts panicking as the water pools*
James..
James: Yes?
Stop it.
James: No. Enjoy your stay Silente.
*there was a beep and then only the sound of crashing water as the level climbed higher and higher*
((Sadly, you have my plaything, and I want it back, hand over the vampire.))
*He kissed her gently as well as he held her close to him.*
Roland: The little ones have been quiet, would you mind checking on them? I shall fix us up some snacks.
~
*She nodded her thanks and listened*
Wait, so, Loki AND Zan were cradle snatched...?
*She looked at the siblings, her eyes wide*
That is so disturbing...
(Play thing??
James: Of course. After she had a little swim.)
*She nodded and slowly pulled away from him. She got up and stretched before she made her way to the stairs, being careful not to hurt herself again. She made it to Ariana's room without incident and slipped inside silently*
I knew Odin took me, but I never knew how Zanida ended up on Asgard.
Zanida: Tyra took me, she actually stole me from my parents. That's sick.
Thor: That is exactly what I said, and I did grant your mother permission. She seemed to truly mean her love for you, well both of you.
~
You two were kidnapped. Odin as Tyra would be imprisoned if a Midgardian was to do that. It's like Rapunzel... The witch stealing the princess...
*She shuddered at the thought*
*Marrok was still awake, sitting right beside Ariana's cot, his muzzle through the bar gaps. He had tried to climb into the cot but couldn't get up with his leg.
Ariana was still asleep, her hand just slightly touching Marrok's muzzle.*
*She grinned at Marrok and picked him up. She hugged him tightly before she looked at Ariana's cot. She was about to put him in when she thought better of it. What Marrok took a bite at her? What if the cub got scared? The cub had a bed anyway.
She plaed Marrok back on his two pillows and, after smiling down at Ariana, walked back out, down the stars, and curled up on the sofa*
I know, but at least we know what happened that night.
Zanida: My mother never got over me...
I wonder if perhaps you have the ice abilities because of Farbauti?
Thor: Farbauti said that Zanida must have known her ice powers from a young age, and then when Tyra shared her gifts with Zan, she forgot until the day Loki revealed the truth.
There was something odd about Zan, which I never understood. She looked like me, but as a child I assumed her to be my cousin, but when Odin revealed my heritage, I never thought about her. When Odin eventually allowed me freedom, with a babysitter, I saw her and it dawned on me.
Zanida: You mind controlled me so I would touch the casket.
(James: Ah good. For once the meddlesome god doesn't argue.)
~
Loki, mind controlling people is rude. But effective.
*She pursed her lips and looked down at the twins. They're had soft toys in their hands, hitting them hard against the ground*
What would happen if they touched the casket...?
*Marrok whimpered as he settled back down into his bed.
Roland came back into the living room with a plate of crackers a cheese and two bottles of beer.*
Roland: how are they? and we must do some food shopping either tomorrow or the next day.
Marrok wants in with Ariana, but I'm not ready for that. Just in case he has a go at her. Ariana's dead to the world and wolfy is awake. I think he might be a little scared of the storm, but who isn't?
*She plucked a piece of cheese from the plate an leaned against him*
I can do the shopping. You keep an eye on them and I'll go tomorrow. Early. And I'll get some meat for Marrok.
(Sorry Rose sweets, I have to go. Getting ready to go to the doctor soon. I'll talk to you later. Love you xx)
((I have to leave too...spur of the moment we're going to NYC....-Zaf))
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