But these last few signings have been interesting. I've met quite a few people who have made me stop and think about my role and my responsibilities an an author. This isn't something I wanted. I didn't write these books to be famous or to be listened to— I wrote them to write them. That's it. By my reckoning, I shouldn't have any responsibilities towards any of you. I just write books that you happen to read. Why should I care about you beyond you reading my work and giving me your money?
But of course, I do care. Quite by accident, I assure you. This was not planned. I've met a few of you, I know a few of you, and I've heard from even more of you. I read your comments and your tweets and your letters. Some of you have stories to tell, and I end up listening.
These past few months, since The Maleficent Seven has been released, I've met a lot of new people. I met a girl who thanked me for mentioning the fact that Tanith once had a thing with Aurora Jane— and she thanked me again for not making a big deal out of it. I met a girl with selective mutism who, by the end of our encounter, was chatting away and grilling me about plot details. Then I met a girl who thanked me for Clarabelle.
I smiled and told her how much I loved writing that character. The girl nodded, smiled, told me again how much she loved Clarabelle. Then she told me she had mental health issues, and sometimes she found it hard to separate what was real from what wasn't, and she loved Clarabelle because she saw in her a person who was different from others but who was loved, and accepted, and allowed to thrive.
And I looked at this girl and I didn't know what to say. I came up with Clarabelle because I needed a certain kind of warmth and a certain kind of quirkiness. Never in a million years did I think that someone out there would relate to her.
These three girls have all sorts of pressures on them that I can't understand, and all three of them have a handle on it. The Clarabelle fan was getting the help and support she needs. The girl who couldn't speak was speaking, and she even fist-bumped me on her way out. And the Tanith fan was as strong and confident as anyone I'd ever seen. And as each one of these girls walked off, I realised that they were my readers. These girls, and boys and girls and men and women like them all around the world, are my readers, and if I can do anything to help them in any way, even if it's just to raise a smile when they're feeling low, then I have managed to do something that I never thought I'd be capable of. I'd be able to help them.
We all have problems. We all have issues. We all have pressures. If you don't seek the right kind of help, if you don't know where to look or you don't have the friends and family to support you, things can go wrong. But there is help out there. There are people, unlike me, who know what they're talking about. Every country will have its own helplines and websites, sites like SpunOut.ie here in Ireland. Search for them. Find them. And for god's sake use them.
I am now going back to being selfish and egotistical, and absolutely sure that Holly Smale fancies me.
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*sighs and begins to dismantle the symbol on the floor*
The last time I was in a library, I was reading. Good times..
*smiles broadly* sounds fun!
*stands in doorway, watching Adra*
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*curiosity gets the better of me*
*goes down staircase*
*frowns*
*looks around*
*realizes too late whats happening*
GET DOWN!!!
*burning mn runs into the room*
*glances at Ari* So, where were you exactly, when this all went down?
Talking: Sorry guys, I think I'm going to sleep now. It's late... So yeah. I'll be back tomorrow morning. Bye everyone! *hugs everybody* *disappears with Niccolo*
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*sits up slowly, watching man*
well... thats not what i was expecting...
talking: BYE!!!
*nods* I'd probably best be going as well.. .It's 2:30.
Joy. *rolls eyes*
I'll see you all later, okay! *hugs everyone* LOVE YALL!
Talking: Adra, I'll answer that as soon as I get back, sorry!
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talking: okay.... i think i have to go too... bye *huggs all*
i'll leave you to deal with the burning man
RP:
*yells down stars about the man, then teleports away*
Talking - see you Ari :) *hugs*
oh... sorry dau, i think your alone now :(...
*hugs*
bye
Talking: bye Adra and Snow! *hugs*
RP: great, now it's only me :] with an unidentified burning man.
Talking: Eh I could use a nap. :)
RP: sorry burning man, maybe next time.
*leaves*
Hello not here for long but just want to say hi.
'ello, 'ello. Anybody 'ome!
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*Reappears quietly*
DEATHY!!!!!
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*Waves to Duck and resumes previous position of curled in a ball with head on knees*
Aww, what's wrong Death? :(
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The world.
Yes, the world can sometimes be a wrong place. Things go wrong that you don't want to go wrong. But brush those aside and keep going on with life, think of fun times and happy memories. :)
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It's hard to brush away boulders of hurt, boulders of pain, boulders of confusion... Boulders that have dug themselves into the dirt for over five years can't be brushed away. They're here to stay.
Well if the boulders are too far down just cover them up with dirt so they don't bother you.
Try to live with them.
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And then the rain comes and washes away the dirt. It'll do a temporary job but not in the long-term
Well just TRY to forget about the metaphorical boulders. Try and make them a suppressed memory.
Might be distant, going to have a shower.
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Death, I know you aren't here, but smash the boulders up, and make a path with them.
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Can't Trip.
Anyone still there?
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Hello my fellow lunatics! How are you all?
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...Hi?
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Hi okay I'm going to be on longer this time. Unusually I have been busy
MISSY! Haven't heard from you in ages! *hugs* How are you?
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Hi Miss Cain!
And hi... uh... Rhydian?
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I'm not Rhydian. I'm River. Have any of you met me yet?
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Read my profile. It explains everything.
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What a long name river!
Yes, I know Maegan. So what month is it?
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Okay, then Hi River^^
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DRAGONA! I've missed you. *hugs*
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July. Good. You guys have time to prepare.
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Its july I don't really get what your on about.
He's from the future so he's saying that something big I'd going to happen.
Yelloo all :)
everyone alright?
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Oh it's nothing Maegan. Well...I suppose you all need to know. In November this year there's going to be a really big event that could destroy Blogland. And then there's a huge battle after it.
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Oh good a battle. I always enjoy those.
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OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Sorry people I am so oblivious to what is going on
HI PEOPLE! *tacklehugs everyone*
Err, sorry for being distant. I want to get my Science report done. *nods*
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Hi Lia! How are you?
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Also, that's a different Dragona. Or at least I think it is. Dragona! Are you a different Dragona to other Dragona?
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*Closes eyes and smiles tightly at River's words* I planned something in November. Something that could possibly tear Blogland apart (or bring it closer together). Might I inquire about any relationships between this mysterious event and myself?
Hi Flora! I'm... Not better but possibly getting there!
I'm good Rhydian, you? :)
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Trip, I don't know if there is another Dragona but I can tell you that I am me. Is that enough?
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Good to know Death <3
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Oooh! Better question! Are you Dragona Pine?
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MAYBE DRAGONA IS A IDENTITY THIEF
*moves eyes left to right*
I'm good Lia! Wait. I'm not Rhydian. Read my profile. It explains everything. Hasn't anyone met me yet?
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Trip, no, I'm not Dragona Pine. I don't even know who that is... But don't you remember me?
Of course I do! But there's another Dragona who we haven't seen in a while.
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Gotta go! Bye my compadros
@Death: Well...I wasn't actually there. Well my future self was there. I was at the battle not the huge event. So I'm not sure if you cause it.
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Bye Maegan!
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Ahh, I get it :) then hey River! I haven't /technically/ met you, seeing as I've only met Rhydian. I haven't met Rhydwyn (think I spelt it right) yet either - will he be turning up anytime soon? I understand that your timeline is complex
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Oh... well, I'm only Dragona without anything else, Trip^^
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BYE MAEGAN!
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Bye Maegan!
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@Lia: Rhydwyn will come on. Basically Rhydwyn is like a ghost. A ghost is someone' soul that had no body. But Rhydwyn is a before ghost. Before his soul had a body. Rhydwyn dies. He should come on in September and dies in April. Not very long. And he's in the right order btw. He's not complex like me.
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Ugh. Living is so much effort. ._.
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Hi Mara! *hugs*
What do you mean?
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Hello Maralie! I don't believe we've met. Which is a little odd. I've met everyone here. *shakes hand*
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I have to say I don't agree Mara.
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*Walks over to Mara singing*
Keep breathing my angel...
Keep breathing my angel...
Damn, gtg now... don't think that I'll come back the next few hours. -.- Bye everyone!
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Mars, I almost hung myself with my tie today. I understand 100%
Bye Dragona!
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*tacklehugs Mara*
Hullooooo!!
Bbs, dinner!!
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Bye Dragona
Maralie life isn't that hard. And death what do you mean you nearly hung yourself?
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I would expect quite literally.
New Hide chapter.
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Hey Dragona *hugs*
Stuff is just going on...
Hey River *shakes hand*
I'm Maralie, but call me Mara.
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River, I mean, I almost made a noose and ended my worthless existence mere hours ago.
*hugs Death* *Then punches her arm* Don't! Just don't! Don't say that. Or think it. Why? You have a great life. Don't let everything go.
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I might have a great life but I'm not happy. I'm never happy despite what I may say.
Why aren't you happy? Tell me. Because I bet you that my/Rhydian's life is worse. But I'm not thinking about stuff like that. I did, but things got better. Please just tell me why
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No one is ever happy, not really. To be truly happy is to only feel the emotion happiness at some point in time. That can't happen, there will always be conflicting emotions. Or at least, that's how I see it.
#ChaseForBook9
My life used to kind of suck too, because people were all arseholes to me! But things do get better, and I became a stronger person for it.
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*hugs Death*
I really want to say something, but... sorry. *hugs again*
Shut the door, turn the light off
I wanna be with you
I wanna feel your love
I wanna lay beside you
I cannot hide this even though I try
Heart beats harder
Time escapes me
Trembling hands touch skin
It makes this harder
And the tears stream down my face
If we could only have this life for one more day
If we could only turn back time
[Chorus]
You know I'll be
Your life, your voice your reason to be
My love, my heart
Is breathing for this
Moments in time
I'll find the words to say
Before you leave me today
Close the door
Throw the key
Don't wanna be reminded
Don't wanna be seen
Don't wanna be without you
My judgement is clouded
Like tonight's sky
Hands are silent
Voice is numb
Try to scream out my lungs
It makes this hard girl
And the tears stream down my face
If we could only have this life for one more day
If we could only turn back time
[Chorus]
You know I'll be
Your life, your voice your reason to be
My love, my heart
Is breathing for this
Moments in time
I'll find the words to say
Before you leave me today
Flashes left in my mind
Going back to the time
Playing games in the street
Kicking balls with my feet
Dancing on with my toes
Standing close to the edge
There's a pile of my clothes
At the end of your bed
As I feel myself fall
Make a joke of it all
[Chorus]
You know I'll be
Your life, your voice your reason to be
My love, my heart
Is breathing for this
Moments in time
I'll find the words to say
Before you leave me today
You know I'll be
Your life, your voice your reason to be
My love, my heart
Is breathing for this
Moment in time
I'll find the words to say
Before you leave me today
When words fail, music speaks.
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Everything is going wrong. My uncle is dying. I'm getting bullied. My parents really don't care about me. I'm getting picked on by my family. No one cares. I can be in my room for hours without people noticing my absence. My grades are falling. People ignore ignore me when I have something important to say. No one respects me. I am doing everything wrong. I'm dying inside...
It's true Mara.
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Heh, I was in a surprisingly similar situation a few years ago. Death, I know it isn't fun now, but things really do get better. Well, not better, but back to their usual level of suckiness.
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*hugs everybody*
I'm so sad to hear that you're having such a hard time, Death and Mara. *hugs again*
Please don't leave us, Death.
Death...Oh Death...I'm going to tell you what happened to Rhydian/me.
I got bullied. It was horrible. When I finally told someone it carried on, on Twitter. The idiots stared to bully my sister. I wanted to kill them. But I also wanted to die. I couldn't see the point. And there's something wrong with me. It effects the way I think. So I struggle in School. So I'm classed as Special Need, and no one treats me as an equal. No one thinks I have a mind of my own. Don't you dare think your life is shit. My life has been like this since I was born. By the sounds of it this has been a year or so for you. My life is worthless. But I'm still here...
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Yeah, Death. Even if it feels like the whole world doesn't want you, we do. We need you Death. If you do it... It would destroy us.
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*started
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It's been like this for five+ years. I'm having a shower.
*Vanishes in a weak light*
((The light represents my current life force*
death. That's five years for you. I've had fourteen years. I think I got it kinda worse.
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*hugs Death* I'm so sorry.
Bloody wrong lyrics...
*It makes this harder
*Flashing lights in my mind
*There's a numb in my toes
The thing is, I don't have a bad life.
I do have friends. I rarely get bullied. My mum is amazing and my dad is too. My stepfather's nice most of the time. I saw One Direction in concert.
I hate myself for thinking I have such a bad life.
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Well, a weak light representing her life force, that isn't scary in the slightest is it?
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*hugs Death*
But we care.
The people in your area may not give shit, but we do.
Oh, yeah, I'm back.
Still doing Science and munching on Skittles.
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Death...Don't you dare think that little light is going to make me think that your life is crap. That's your opinion. My light/life force thingy...Well, I probably don't have one. Your life can get better. Mine is going to. So don't throw it all away.
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*Mine isn't going to
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Why is the world evil? *soul cries lakes of tears*
Mara, Don't hate yourself for other people's failings, but don't hate them either. Just forget them, if they feel the need to ruin your life, what good are they?
Rhydian, I'm so sorry to hear that. But, you seem quite strong. Just, hang in there buddy, soon no one will care.
Death, please, whenever your life goes dark, remember us? Don't think of what a jerk everyone in the world is, just happy things. I sound like such an idiot... I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M DOING!
*calms self down* I know these times are hard, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel. One we escape the stupidity of childhood, people will realise what they've been doing, driving people to the edge. It stops, when people mature it does stop. And those who don't stop are shunned.
It Get's Better.
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@Mara; Yes I kinda am. My life is shit. It's just really annoying when I come here and you guys are saying that you hate your lives. I don't get it. Your normal, and things can get better for you. My life isn't going to change. My life isn't going to amount to anything.
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*It Gets Better.
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*laughs* Normal! There's a good one Rhydian! Sure, I don't hate my life or myself or even others, but I'm far from normal! Even if I wanted to be normal, I don't think normal would want me to be it!
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*to everyone* Whether your lives are normal or terrible, whether you feel happy or sad, whether you think your life will get better or not, remember this.
There are always people who care about you. Right here, all the time. And they will always be there for you, when nobody else is.
Because we love you.
*stands next to dau* Yeah!
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Seconded!
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I think I'm going to go now. Not really in the mood for talking.
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Okay, Rhydian. *hugs*
*stands united with Trip* YEAH!
*hugs Rhydian* Just remember, we love you okay? All of us.
And your life won't amount to nothing just because of your disability. I've read your writing! It's brilliant!
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Speaking of writing, I can't wait to read your fanfic Rhy! :)
*Trip and Dau stand on some kind of mound next to each other with their hands on their hips with the sun rising behind them. There's a random flag too, fluttering in the wind*
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*is the one in the background waving the flag*
Bye Rhy. *hugs*
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How did we get here?
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*turns around and looks at the sun* It's not moving! The sun's broken!
Jeff! Jeff!
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*dramatic music plays*
*stand triumphant*
*random flag flutters*
*whispers*
You guys forgot to wear your capesssss
*still waves around the flag*
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*Jeff the handyman runs up*
Jeff, the sun's broken again.
Jeff: I'll get right on it!
*runs off to fix sin*
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Wut? The sun is broken? Who's Jeff?
Wait a second, what's this mound made of! *picks up wine gums* Wine gums?
How does this thing even stay standing?
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Ohhh that's who Jeff is. *gives Jeff a tip*
*wears cape*
Don't you know Jeff? He's the caretaker, keeps blogland working. Lovely guy, really.
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*puts cape on as sun is fixed and resumes triumphant pose and music*
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*Dau giggles and points to glue next to mound*
GLUUEEE.
*mutters* I have to go have a shower.
*noms Skittles from the Skittles mound*
*mouth is now a rainbow*
:3
LOKI DOKI, DAU!
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Bye Dau!
Oh and Missy, I wrote a new Hide chapter!
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YAY FOR HIDE CHAPTER!! :D
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That's... That's freaking it! Okay!! I know people's lives are worse than mine!! I understand that! I embrace the fact that I should be so lucky but you don't get it!! Okay?! I've freaking sick of everything this world has to offer!! I can't to bloody anything right!! *Starts crying* Every time I'm on, there's a depressed mood! It's me who's bloody doing it!! It's my fault!!! It's always my fucking fault!!! You'd think after all these years I'd have gotten over it but I haven't!!! I'm bad because I give the people who are good a freaking reason!!! No one has ever given me a reason!!! A reason to co to us my bloody damned life!! It's ruined!!! I killed it when I started reading the bloody vampire books! *Curls into a ball and begins to speak very quietly*
I help people who cannot help themselves, who need a hand because I'm so bloody self-centred and superior to ask for help. If you guys actually knew me, you'd hate me. You'd yell at me. You'd end up feeling depressed whenever I came past...
*Stands up and talks confidently* So, life is not life without death. It's time to come full circle. From life to death. *Slow smiles appears on face* Next time you see me, it'll be a name on a headstone. Goodbye.
*Vanishes*
DEATH!!!
I don't care what you think of yourself, because your perfect, ok!?
I love you no matter anything. Please. Please see this, and don't go.
Remember the deal you made with Em?! Do you remember that at all!?
Please.
Don't go.
*A reason to continue my bloody damned life
DEATH!! DON'T BE AN IDIOT!!! We all love you so much. Please...just please don't do it.
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SHIT! SHITSHITSHITSHITSHIT!
Death! Please! No! Don't leave us Death! Pleasepleasepleaseplease!
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Death.
Please don't do it.
I actually started crying, BECAUSE I CARE, OK.
I CARE ABOUT YOU.
I CARE ABOUT EVERY FREAKIN SOUL, ESPECIALLY YOU GUYS ON THE BLOG.
And I don't think we can deal with another loss.
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Death...please don't. I'm crying. Please. Just talk to us. Talking helps.
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Death! I'll give you a bloody reason to continue your promising life! THE FUCKING FUTURE!
Sure now every one's a jackass! But in a few years you'll find nice people! Real people who can give you a real hug! Death, if you won't stay alive for us, stay alive for them.
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And if you won't do it for the future, do it for us.
Please, Death.
Please.
I'm begging you.
I would do anything for you to not go.
Just don't do it.
Death...you're one of my best friends. I'm asking. No. I'm begging you. Please dont end it all
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Death. get your ass back here!
just stay ok? we love you deathy! your our deathy and you will always be our deathy. STAYYYYY NOWWW!!!!!1
Cause we love you? isnt that a good enough reason?
*hugglesdeathy*
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FUUUCK! FUCK NOOOO DEATH DONT! JUST COME BACK!!!!!!!!!! NO DEATH! FUCK!
She's gone...she's gone...I...I just don't have the energy to go through something like this. We love you Death...*hugs Death tightly *
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*falls to knees, then the floor, speechless*
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You cant leave u sin the dark here death! YOU CANT! YOU JUST FUCKING CANT! For all we know, you could already be dead. AND MAYBE ITS BETTER NOT TO KNOW! but we wont know unless you come back. and you may never come back. so PLZ DEATH DONT! JUST FUCKING DONT DO IT!
I.. I'm done. I've played my cards, now you play yours, universe.
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FUCK NO! JUST FUCK NO!
DEATH CANT BE GONE! I WONT ALLOW IT! DEATH COME BACK! SHIT DEATH JUST COME BACK! COME FUCKING BACK NOW DEATH! IM NOT GOING TO STOP TILL I SEE ANOTHER FUCKING ONE OF YOUR COMMENTS DEATH! I NEED TO KNOW, I NEED TO KNOW YOU ARE HERE! DEATH PLEASE DONT JUST DEATH COME THE FUCK BACK.
I'm done with this. I can't stay here any more. I'm done. It's time. I'm done with Blogland. I can't take it any more. I love you all so much...Don't forget me...
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Tomorrow at school. That's when it ends.
No! Rhydian! Death!
Siii-hii--iiit!
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IM NOT GOING TO FUCKING ALLOW YOU TO LEAVE TOO. TOO MANY HAVE LEFTG ME IN THE DARK DEATH. SO MANY HAVE LEEFT ME UNKNOWNING. AND YOUR NOT GOING TO BE ONE OF THEM!!! YOUR GOING TO COME BACK HERE. your going to come abck, and, and tell us your safe. tells us your not dead. DEATH PLEASE!
I just... I just... I just... I just... I just... I just... I just...
I CAN'T!
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There's not fucking point. I have no bloody future.
I DON'T FUCKING KNOW! GOD DAMMIT! I DON'T FUCKING KNOW! WHAT DON'T I KNOW? MOST THINGS! IT HAUNTS ME! OKAY? AND IT'S TIMES LIKE THESE... times when I need to know... It gets to me.
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DEATH DONT DO IT! FUCK DONT DO IT! DONT FUCKING DO IT! Ill leave too. ill leave with rhy. unless you tell me your OK. unless you say your not going to go. UNLESS YOU DONT JUST. DONT!
Death...please. don't you fucking dare. I'm begging you. Please. Things get better. They always do. I'm leaving. I can't take it any more. *hugs everyone * Remember me...
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DEATH! YOU HAVE A FUTURE! A BRIGHT ONE! THESE TIMES ARE HARD I GET IT! BUT TIMES CHANGE! Please... please Death...
I can't... I just can't...
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Tell me three good reasons why I should keep breathing? I see none. Go on, try. Something might happen...
YOU HAVE A FUCKING FUTURE, DEATH.
THINK ABOUT IT!!
YOU COULD MOVE OUT, YOU COULD MOVE OVER WITH ME, YOU COULD DO ANYTHING.
Promise me, Death Rose, that when you can, you'll move out, and live with me if you'd like.
Promise me.
Well I'm having a breakdown. Which is just excellent...
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Rhy, don't you fucking dare! Come back here now!!! Even if I'm dead, this is still a fucking family that you're part of!!! You only just joined and you are fucking staying right here!!!
If you think that, then i suppose there is no way of persuading you otherwise death. i have no more words to tell you not to do it. I have no words, I have nothing.
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ALL RIGHT! MY SANITY IS UNIMPORTANT HERE!
REASON FUCKING ONE! Without you, we would fall apart. Blogland can't take such a loss, not after all we've been through with you. If you die, the community could die with it.
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Death...tell me that you actually would do this. Tell me. Tell the spazzy kid that your going to kill yourself. Tell me. Don't lie. Don't hesitate. Just tell me
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RHYDIAN SAINT, YOU GET YOUR ASS BACK HERE RIGHT NOW.
NOW
Death, three points:
1. Emerald.
2. Us.
3. Hope. There is always hope.
Don't worry Trip, you're not alone on the breaking down point... I don't know if I can deal with this anymore...
Rhy, I've held a knife against my throat before. I seriously would do it. I am more serious than ever when it comes to death.
Em...
I have reasons for you to be alive Death. many reasons. but im not going to list them. because if i did, the word limit would be exceeded.
SECOND! Your life is precious. All life is! Each and every human can do great wonders, each and every human can create great works, books, plays, songs, machines, theorems, WEAPONS, happiness, sadness, joy, hate, clothes, plans, plants, power!
Just a few things that each and every human is capable of creating! And with every less human, there is less of all these things.
I can't stay. I'll tell someone. Mum or dad. I don't know. I'm not going to stay here. I can't... and I won't
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You stay, I stay. You go, I go...
Rhy. You. Are. Staying. Right. Here. What do I do to make you stay?
If I stay, please tell me you won't kill yourself. Please.
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Th- thir- third. Em...
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Good.
You remember the promise you made with Em.
Now please, think about it.
Think if it'll be worth it. 2 lives gone, or none.
RHYDIAN SAINT, DON'T.
PLEASE DON'T.
Just... please.
Don't make it another life gone.
Don't.
F
I closed my eyes and let my finger tap wherever it wanted to. It landed on the F. F for fine. F for I will stay.
For Rhy and Em.
For Cain and Trip. For Eld too.
Well, it' pretty obvious who I'm going to ded to here isn't it?
I ded to PANCAKES! (just kidding)
I ded to Death and Rhydian. They've spent YEARS now being psychologically tortured by others, but have pushed through it. We all love them, even if they say we shouldn't, and all know they're worth something. Even if they don't.
We love you.
and I suck at writing deds.
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THANKYOU! Good thankyou Death. Thankyou!
Talk: *Sneaks in to catch herself up*
Omfgg.
You have no idea how happy I am right now Death.
Next thing I'm doing is finding your number and calling you and telling you to your... um, ear, how much I fucking love you, okay?
Same with you Rhydian.
Actually, I want to do that to everyone, no matter how much of a stalker it'll seem like.
I just need to tell you straight to your... ear. Unless you have Skype. Then I can tell it to your face *nods*
Yes! *laughs hysterically* Thank you Death! *hugs and doesn't let go* Thank you thank you thank you!
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*quakes and falls to the floor*
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Oh my... I think I'm crying tears of happiness.
*looks at self in mirror*
Yup. Tears of happiness and the biggest smile of relief.
*tacklehugs Death and Rhydian and pretty much everyone to the ground*
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*Pauses then bursts into tears* *Curls into tiny ball and sobs into knees*
Thank you so much Death! *hugs* you have no idea how happy I am. Thank you so much. *hugs and is probably never going to let go*
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*random muscles start to clench and unclench*
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*crawls over to Death*
*hugs*
*brings out packet of Skittles*
Want one?
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I know it seems hard now Death. But things get better. And I'll be there by your side, every step of the way. rhydiansaint@gmail.com
If you wanna talk that's my email address.
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*Shakes and continues to cry*
*hugs Death tightly *
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*Starts crying into Rhy's shoulder*
*continues to hug Death and probably won't let go for a while*
There there...
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Fuck you all... You just saved my damn life again...
You'll be alright. I promise. I swear on my life that you will get through this.
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