Every day after school I would grab my phone and immediately start chatting here. I'd grin whenever someone started up a conversation, and I'd laugh hysterically whenever someone said something funny.
Now I just don't even smile when I come here anymore.
I found myself thinking about leaving the other day. I mean, I actually wonder sometimes why the hell I came. How easier life would be if I hadn't come here. All that's here is fighting. Fight fight fight. If it's not fighting, it's complaining. I hate this. I hate it! Can we not just stop and smile for once?! Maybe be thankful because people actually care about us? I know I'm being a hypocrite, but at least I f*cking accept that you think I'm perfect.
This is screwed up. I'm screwed up. I don't know. Can't we just get along? Can't everyone be happy and not fight? I thought we were a family. Well, obviously you don't think so. This is breaking Blogland apart, I hope you know.
Fight fight fight, complain complain complain. That's all that happens here. And I wish I hadn't come here in the first place. Call me selfish, call me a b*tch, but I just don't care anymore. And don't give me sympathy. You just made my sister leave her home.
And Luce left, as apparently did many others. I think the simple solution is that we all -including me- should get over ourselves and accept that we all can't have things our way and just deal with it. That the talkers want to talk. The the RPers want to RP. And that really, a lot of this is probably pent up emotions from our real life problems fueling this.
[Family Portrait by Pink echoes through Blogland from an unseen source]
_____ please stop cryin, I can't stand the sound Your pain is painful and its tearin' me down I hear glasses breakin as I sit up in my bed I told _____ you didn't mean those nasty things you said
You fight about roleplay, 'bout me and my sister And this I come home to, this is my shelter It ain't easy growin up in World War III Never knowin what love could be, you'll see I don't want love to destroy me like it has done my family
Can we work it out? Can we be a family? I promise I'll be better, _____ I'll do anything Can we work it out? Can we be a family? I promise I'll be better, _____ please don't leave
In our family portrait, we look pretty happy Let's play pretend, let's act like it comes naturally...
Adra, I agree. Except: "Talkers" and "Roleplayers". Because why not just "Bloglanders"? That's what we all are, where it matters, right? A bunch of psychopaths?
But why not make it (and apologies for the Hannibal quote), a bunch of psychopaths, helping each other out? I think everybody'd feel better for it. :)
Rhydian, this is what's going on- everyone knows there is a rift between the incessant roleplayers and the incessant talkers, and pretty much everybody in between, and our haven here has turned into a pile of pain and hate.
I've thought about leaving. I'm seriously considering it now. I wasn't going to announce it, though- just quietly disappear, maybe ghost the comments, and let the issue resolve itself without me. Or let all of you tear each other apart without me. Because I really can't deal with my friends fighting amongst each other. It hurts me immensely to see my friends hurt, and to see them hurt by each other... Let's just say it affected be so badly, none of my friends have dared to fight each other in my presence since 6th grade. But I won't leave. I can't. I never will. You can make note of that now- if I ever leave for any length of time, it's because I'm busy, and I'll always come back eventually. Unless I'm physically dead. It's just not in my nature. And you all know how much I hate when people make the argument 'my pile of pain is bigger than yours', because that's just wrong for so many reasons. I'm not trying to say I've been more hurt or exhausted than anyone else here, or even that I've come close. Just... *sighs* I would do anything- everything- to make everyone happy again. But our problem is that we don't have a solution. In the words of Skulduggery, "Every solution to every problem is simple. It's in the distance between the two where the problem lies." And we have a lot of distance to cover. And if people really feel like they have to leave, I'll miss them all immensely, but I won't stop them, because their arguments are valid, and it is not in my nature to push people over the line, and if leaving will make them happier I want them to do it. But I really just don't want it to come to that. We just need to figure out how to fix this. I will do anything I have to to bridge the gap between the problem and the solution- in this case, 'fighting' and 'not-fighting', but I don't know how to do that.
*leans back in her chair* not you too. *grabs Rhydian* get back here! Running won't solve your problems. It's mucky now, but really, it'll be fixed soon enough.
Well said, Aretha. For a minute there, I thought you were going to leave... Then I said that you wouldn't, and I'm glad.
I'm always going to be here as well... I've accepted long ago that friends come and friends leave and it sucks when they do and we can try and try and try. And I've given up on it.
But this is just ridiculous. No offense to all who have left, but if there is one dropped stich in your yarn, do you quit the project? Hell of a NO! You go and pick up that stich, fix it, and keep going...
The worst part of it, to me, is that there are so many people who can barely stand to deal with the pain in their real lives, and they come here to feel happier. And some people just cannot take a full-on assault of problems and hate from both sides. And these are people I am fiercely defensive of. I would kill to make my friends happy again. I would kill to protect them from all if this. And it kills me so much that I can't. I'm only one person, and in the scheme of things, one person rarely makes a big impact. But I'm staying and I'm trying, anyway, because giving up only makes the problem worse, and- especially here- each person really does count and leave a big impact.
*hands Rhydian a cookie, and a miniature penguin, (mostly because penguins rule, and miniature ones are easier to carry :P)*
Aretha: *hugs* Again, I agree. And I agree. And, furthermore, I agree. (:P) But if everybody is willing to put our minds together and agree with at least PARTS of each other, then maybe that distance can become just a little smaller? :) Where you talk about leaving, I think I'd say the same - I never will. I might drift for spaces of time, but will return, always, unless I physically cannot. "My pile of pain is bigger than yours" - It's not right, and again, I can't keep from the agreement. We're all different, but that doesn't mean we're not equal. :) I'd go on, but it'd just be more agreement, and you've said it to perfection alreadily. :)
@Adra: "You go and pick up that stich, fix it, and keep going." We all fall, but it's the getting back up again that counts. *cue Todd offering a hand to help Viola up, and epic feels moment. Or, like, not. :P* Chaos Walking has a lot of wisdom within its pages. So do you. ;)
Adra, I agree with you to an extent, but not beyond that. Firstly I have not accepted that friends come and go. Maybe that's just because of my nature- I've always had only a small group of friends that I consider my family. And no matter what I am never letting any of them go. And I have yet to stop trying. I don't know where you've been, and I'm not judging you, and I'm not saying I'm stronger than you. I'm just saying I disagree- well, more that I can't give up. And again, I don't know where you've been and I do not presume to be any wiser or better or worse than you are, I'm just saying what I believe is right- I don't think people are being overdramatic. I certainly don't think there is a single person who left who just did it to be a drama queen, or because they give up easily. Mostly just because I don't know. I don't know how much pain everyone is in- I can't feel what they do, because I'm not them. I don't know how many hate-and-depression-filled emails Luci has received. I'm not her. I don't know for certain who has been blamed most behind the scenes, or who most of the responsibilities have fallen on, or who's been hurting the most. And frankly, I don't care. I do not care who has been in the most pain. It really doesn't matter to me. What matters is that people are hurting, and hurting so much they've gone so far as to leave, and that hurt isn't stopping. And I am not ok with that. If there was some enemy I could face to stop all the pain, it would be long dead already. But there isn't. And I'm just so sick of everybody hurting each other even more! Just stop it! SHUT UP! For God's sake... *takes deep breath* Sorry. I should not have yelled. And I don't mean to blame anyone, and I'm not even trying to blame everyone. I don't think blame ever matters to begin with. Here's a problem. How are we going to deal with it? That's all I want to know.
I don't check my Tumblr feed for a week, and when I finally do, the first thing I see is this: http://25.media.tumblr.com/f9a56f7300cfe3f65fcfa624f3f1cd7e/tumblr_mqarixYb4P1qzxbd5o1_500.jpg
I feel like a lot of this is blind rage... You know what? Fine! It is my fault! If I hadn't fueled the damn RP, then maybe people wouldn't have gotten angry and left! There. Now, what difference does it make! I've accepted that its part my fault. Does anyone feel better? Does it fix things? No.
Look, we need to start thinking of a way to fix this sooner rather than later.
... I think, in any case, everybody is a part of the problem, and also a part of the solution. Of course, I'd be included in that statement.
Frankly, I think it'd be a hell of a lot easier to 'fix', if everybody was 'fixing' it together. Because I think everybody agrees that we need to stop hurting ourselves and each other, but I think we all need to /realise/ that we agree with eachother.
That's what I'm thinking, anyway. Let everybody know that in this sense, on this matter, we're in agreement, not argument.
When you try your best and don't succeed, When you get what you want, but not what you need, When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep. Stuck in reverse.
And the tears come streaming down your face, When you lose something you can't replace, When you love someone, but it goes to waste, Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home, And ignite your bones, And I will try to fix you.
And high up above or down below, When you too lost to let it go, But if you never try, you'll never know, Just what you're worth.
Lights will guide you home, And ignite your bones, And I will try to fix you.
Tears stream down your face, When you lose something you cannot replace, Tears stream, down your face, And I, Tears stream down your face, I promise you I will learn from my mistakes. Tears stream down your face and I
Lights will guide you home. And ignite your bones. And I will try to fix you.
*hugs everyone*
I can't fix the situation here, right now, but I can hope to make everyone know that they are loved and they are ALWAYS welcome in Blogland. Maybe if we all did that, there wouldn't be this problem?
You're all trying fix the problem, but how can you fix a problem you can see, but not UNDERSTAND?
*hugs everyone*
You can all spew hate at me, but I'm honestly to busy to care, which is why I haven't been on as much.
The song is perfect, (My previous pic came into being primarily because of it, and the album it came in taught me, among other, maybe more valuable things, to paint. But that's not really relevant. Um.), and it's beautiful. Just like everyone who ever became a Bloglandian, and also as the love that IS around, between and within each of them. *hugs* It's good to see you, and it's good to see your words. :)
Hello, Taia, Adra, Zaf and Mara and Fabi if they're still there:) *ninjaeroplanetacklehugs* YOU'RE AMAZING!!
As per that paragraph, you're much better with words than me, Taia! But then, you are perfect, so that is to be expected. WHY ARE YOU SO PERFECT PEASANT THAT ISN'T EVEN FAIR. *secretly hatches a plan to steal Taia's perfectness* It's good to see you too:))
Thankyou, Fabi:) ANOTHER PERFECT PERSON, FABI. This isn't even fair: you just make me feel like a total peasant D: And you as well Zaf!!!! *sends evils* Is this a stupid question, but who's Alexis? Haha, why are you excited?
YOU'RE AMAZING TOO, I'LL HAVE YOU KNOW! /AND/ YOU'RE PERFECT! //AND// YOU'RE BRILLIANT WITH WORDS! ///AND/// YOU GIVE TACKLEHUGS WITH NINJA-AEROPLANE /STYLE/. /STYLE!/ AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, YOU'RE IENI!
So, in conclusion, you don't NEED my perfectness. Because you're perfectly perfect already. :)
"Pretend" we all love each other? I, for one, can't say I have to pretend, anyway. :)
Perhaps. Or learning from the past. I don't know. Both are possible. Does it matter, provided it works. Maybe one could turn into the other. We pretend, but realise, we don't need to. I don't know. But I don't know a lot of things. I don't even know what I'm saying, right now. I probably need to sleep, soon. :P
In my suddenly witless state, I'd like to proclaim that "punctionation" should be a real word. *nods*
*hugs Star back* As are you! :) And, awesome! Sounds like you have good choice in friends! ;) (Though we know that anyway because you're here, of course. :P)
*laughs* Well, there's something ELSE wrong with me, then. xD
I won't be on very much, if at all, next week, but I'll try, if I can. *hugs everyone* I'll see you. :) And there will be hugs. And happiness. And stuff.
*hugs*
YOU'RE ALL AMAZING AND PERFECT AND LOVED AND PUNTIONATION IS A WORD. (Statement slipped seamlessly into conversation, there. :P)
Oh. *Thinks* Last year, my friend's birthday party came around and she was sad 'cause one of us was away on holiday. So we set up a Skype call and all chatted together :)
Well, I'm here again. Msd/mbd. Adra, I hope you didn't think I was blaming you back there, because I really didn't mean to. I didn't mean to blame anyone, I swear, and I'm sorry. I just want everyone to be happy again.
I can't believe Six months ago I was alone I didn't know you, I'd never seen you, or heard your name And even now, I'm so amazed it's like a dream It's like a rainbow, it's like the rain Some things are the way they are and words just can't explain
I never saw blue like that before Across the sky, around the world You're giving me all you have and more No one else has ever shown me how To see the world the way I see it now, oh I I never saw blue like that before
*hugs tightly back* I'm sorry if I made you feel worse. I'm sure we'll figure something out, too. So far I think people have come up with some good possible solutions.
*sips the glass* I'm in a surprisingly good mood save the fact that some guy just sprinted past us suspiciously... Seconds later followed by the arrival of an ambulance. I think he murdered someone
Well, most great thinkers and writers get their ideas in the bath. That is a complete generalisation which I put in for no apparent reason. My idea is a collaborative called "What did you do during the war?" It's about the upcoming Ireland-Everyone war and what different characters did. So Zaf for instance, no matter how much she wants to write a story about her character fighting on the same side as Skulduggery, would be unable to do so as her character would see the war as justified and sensible.
MY PARENTS ARE SUPER DUPER CLOSE TO FINDING OUT ABOUT THIS ACCOUNT AND THAT I HAVE THE ABILITY TO TALK TO PEOPLE! I NEED A WAY TO PROVE THAT NONE OF YOU ARE FREAKY OLD STALKERS!!!! D:
Effie would be proudly defending the Irish, Raeza would try to sit out the battle by a computer rigged to do important stuff probably against the Irish, Fabi wouldn't tell you. I know what she'd try to do, though. She'd probably get herself killed.
[Laughs slightly]
I've also got a collab idea on my blog, but I think I'd be rubbish at making it happen, so... [shrugs]
Jubi! I compiled reasons to prove each and every one of you is in fact not a creepy stalker. Please don't be offended, I made it for this sort of situation with my parents. I'm not here, just saying.
We've been walking in really crowded areas that seemed kind of sketch and I was getting really anxious and some sketch people- men- wherever I go STARE AT ME CREEPILY.
DAMN YOU Y CHROMOSOME! WHY MUST I BE ASHAMED OF YOU?! WHY MUST MY FELLOW MALES BE SO FUCKING AWFUL!? WHY?!!!!
I'm sorry Adra, on behalf of MY ENTIRE FUCKING GENDER I apologize. I know it doesn't make it any better, but I really feel the need to. Why must they be so creepy?
Why is my gender the bullshit one? Why is mine the one that does all the creepy stuff like stare at FOURTEEN YEAR OLDS?! WHY!? WHY!?
*continues for several minutes* Okay, I need you to tell me to fuck off or I'm just going to keep getting pulled back.
Ari, I'm more worried about the technical stuff. The idea would take more working together than MC, and I'm not really sure it would work. Also I might lose interest entirely. You're more than welcome to help, though, or just run the thing.
Creepy, Adra... That doesn't happen to me. I'm gonna go with the bad part of town theory. Or maybe you look like a tourist. People generally stare at tourists.
I don't know... Maybe? I sort of have another idea in mind, but boring stuff has to happen first, and the jailbreak chapter wasn't particularly... I don't know.
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«Oldest ‹Older 3201 – 3400 of 4970 Newer› Newest»I used to love coming to Blogland.
Every day after school I would grab my phone and immediately start chatting here. I'd grin whenever someone started up a conversation, and I'd laugh hysterically whenever someone said something funny.
Now I just don't even smile when I come here anymore.
I found myself thinking about leaving the other day. I mean, I actually wonder sometimes why the hell I came. How easier life would be if I hadn't come here. All that's here is fighting. Fight fight fight. If it's not fighting, it's complaining. I hate this. I hate it! Can we not just stop and smile for once?! Maybe be thankful because people actually care about us? I know I'm being a hypocrite, but at least I f*cking accept that you think I'm perfect.
This is screwed up. I'm screwed up. I don't know. Can't we just get along? Can't everyone be happy and not fight? I thought we were a family. Well, obviously you don't think so. This is breaking Blogland apart, I hope you know.
Fight fight fight, complain complain complain. That's all that happens here. And I wish I hadn't come here in the first place. Call me selfish, call me a b*tch, but I just don't care anymore. And don't give me sympathy. You just made my sister leave her home.
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... I'd rather not talk about it, Jubi lol
Hi all! How are you? Mara? Have I missed something?
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Has Luce left? What's going on?
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Hello? Anyone here?
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*hugs Mara* we can't let anyone else go...
@Mara:
I think
That
Is a perfectly
Valid point.
And I also think
That nobody would actually
Disagree with you.
Nobody needs to argue
To change something
But merely suggest a solution
Or an action
That helps everybody
(/everybody/)
And hurts nobody
(/nobody/).
And I think that is one of them.
That's probably the only thing I'll be saying on the matter, though I may word it differently, if I feel the need. :) ^^
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What the fuck is going on?
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^^^ Taia...
And Luce left, as apparently did many others. I think the simple solution is that we all -including me- should get over ourselves and accept that we all can't have things our way and just deal with it. That the talkers want to talk. The the RPers want to RP. And that really, a lot of this is probably pent up emotions from our real life problems fueling this.
I
Luce...who else left?
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Em, Rose, a few others...
[Family Portrait by Pink echoes through Blogland from an unseen source]
_____ please stop cryin, I can't stand the sound
Your pain is painful and its tearin' me down
I hear glasses breakin as I sit up in my bed
I told _____ you didn't mean those nasty things you
said
You fight about roleplay, 'bout me and my sister
And this I come home to, this is my shelter
It ain't easy growin up in World War III
Never knowin what love could be, you'll see
I don't want love to destroy me like it has done
my family
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, _____ I'll do anything
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, _____ please don't
leave
In our family portrait, we look pretty happy
Let's play pretend, let's act like it comes
naturally...
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Why? Why did they leave?
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^^^ Adra... (?) :P
Adra, I agree.
Except:
"Talkers" and "Roleplayers".
Because why not just "Bloglanders"?
That's what we all are, where it matters, right?
A bunch of psychopaths?
But why not make it (and apologies for the Hannibal quote), a bunch of psychopaths, helping each other out?
I think everybody'd feel better for it. :)
^^
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I know, I agree with you, Taia. But it was the only way to... Explain what I meant.
And because the blog is so damn dramatic, and we are all whiny teenagers, that's why, Rhydian
Yeah, I changed the lyrics a bit. Deal with it.
Also, I'm not really sure which category I fit in...deal with that, too.
Distant, writing a ded. Or just whatever comes out.
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I...this is partly my fault. I can't stay here any more. I'm done. I don't think I can cope with losing some of my best friends.
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*hugs Fabi*
That unseen source is incredibly good at selecting songs with fitting lyrics.
It's perfect. :') ^^
@Adra: I know what you mean. *hugs, too*
And, yeah, whiny teenagers comes in there, somewhere. Teenage-hood is like that. :P
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Rhydian, it's everyone's fault now.
It's your choice if you leave, I suppose. I don't have the energy to try and convince you to stay.
I don't want to lose another friend, though...
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Rhydian, this is what's going on- everyone knows there is a rift between the incessant roleplayers and the incessant talkers, and pretty much everybody in between, and our haven here has turned into a pile of pain and hate.
I've thought about leaving. I'm seriously considering it now. I wasn't going to announce it, though- just quietly disappear, maybe ghost the comments, and let the issue resolve itself without me. Or let all of you tear each other apart without me. Because I really can't deal with my friends fighting amongst each other. It hurts me immensely to see my friends hurt, and to see them hurt by each other... Let's just say it affected be so badly, none of my friends have dared to fight each other in my presence since 6th grade. But I won't leave. I can't. I never will. You can make note of that now- if I ever leave for any length of time, it's because I'm busy, and I'll always come back eventually. Unless I'm physically dead. It's just not in my nature. And you all know how much I hate when people make the argument 'my pile of pain is bigger than yours', because that's just wrong for so many reasons. I'm not trying to say I've been more hurt or exhausted than anyone else here, or even that I've come close. Just... *sighs* I would do anything- everything- to make everyone happy again. But our problem is that we don't have a solution. In the words of Skulduggery, "Every solution to every problem is simple. It's in the distance between the two where the problem lies." And we have a lot of distance to cover. And if people really feel like they have to leave, I'll miss them all immensely, but I won't stop them, because their arguments are valid, and it is not in my nature to push people over the line, and if leaving will make them happier I want them to do it. But I really just don't want it to come to that. We just need to figure out how to fix this. I will do anything I have to to bridge the gap between the problem and the solution- in this case, 'fighting' and 'not-fighting', but I don't know how to do that.
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*leans back in her chair* not you too.
*grabs Rhydian* get back here! Running won't solve your problems. It's mucky now, but really, it'll be fixed soon enough.
Well said, Aretha. For a minute there, I thought you were going to leave... Then I said that you wouldn't, and I'm glad.
I'm always going to be here as well... I've accepted long ago that friends come and friends leave and it sucks when they do and we can try and try and try. And I've given up on it.
But this is just ridiculous. No offense to all who have left, but if there is one dropped stich in your yarn, do you quit the project? Hell of a NO! You go and pick up that stich, fix it, and keep going...
I'm going to email Luce. ( did someone say Death left? ) if so I'll email her as well. I'm not losing my best friends.
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[hugs Ari]
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The worst part of it, to me, is that there are so many people who can barely stand to deal with the pain in their real lives, and they come here to feel happier. And some people just cannot take a full-on assault of problems and hate from both sides. And these are people I am fiercely defensive of. I would kill to make my friends happy again. I would kill to protect them from all if this. And it kills me so much that I can't. I'm only one person, and in the scheme of things, one person rarely makes a big impact. But I'm staying and I'm trying, anyway, because giving up only makes the problem worse, and- especially here- each person really does count and leave a big impact.
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No, Rhydian, Death didn't leave. I would have been all over her already, don't worry.
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*hands Rhydian a cookie, and a miniature penguin, (mostly because penguins rule, and miniature ones are easier to carry :P)*
Aretha: *hugs*
Again, I agree.
And I agree.
And, furthermore, I agree. (:P)
But if everybody is willing to put our minds together and agree with at least PARTS of each other, then maybe that distance can become just a little smaller? :)
Where you talk about leaving, I think I'd say the same - I never will. I might drift for spaces of time, but will return, always, unless I physically cannot.
"My pile of pain is bigger than yours" - It's not right, and again, I can't keep from the agreement.
We're all different, but that doesn't mean we're not equal. :)
I'd go on, but it'd just be more agreement, and you've said it to perfection alreadily. :)
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I've sent Luce an email. Hopefully she'll listen. If not I think I'll leave to.
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..... My dad Just showed me this show called Coupling on Netflix... O.O
Hi! *Yawns, because I got about one hour of sleep last night*
How is everyone? :)
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SAPH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *supermegatacklehugsofdoom*
HI!!
@Adra: "You go and pick up that stich, fix it, and keep going."
We all fall, but it's the getting back up again that counts. *cue Todd offering a hand to help Viola up, and epic feels moment. Or, like, not. :P*
Chaos Walking has a lot of wisdom within its pages. So do you. ;)
@Aretha: /Yes/.
But it's not just one person.
I think everybody would agree.
But everybody needs to agree /together/.
Right?
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:)
*pokes everyone*
Hi Saph! *hugs*
Oh, heck, I've got to be up at, like five o'clock tomorrow morning. May have to dash soon, therefore. (With emphasis on 'may'.)
I'm doing okay, thanks, all things considered. :)
And yourself?
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Adra, I agree with you to an extent, but not beyond that. Firstly I have not accepted that friends come and go. Maybe that's just because of my nature- I've always had only a small group of friends that I consider my family. And no matter what I am never letting any of them go. And I have yet to stop trying. I don't know where you've been, and I'm not judging you, and I'm not saying I'm stronger than you. I'm just saying I disagree- well, more that I can't give up.
And again, I don't know where you've been and I do not presume to be any wiser or better or worse than you are, I'm just saying what I believe is right- I don't think people are being overdramatic. I certainly don't think there is a single person who left who just did it to be a drama queen, or because they give up easily. Mostly just because I don't know. I don't know how much pain everyone is in- I can't feel what they do, because I'm not them. I don't know how many hate-and-depression-filled emails Luci has received. I'm not her. I don't know for certain who has been blamed most behind the scenes, or who most of the responsibilities have fallen on, or who's been hurting the most. And frankly, I don't care. I do not care who has been in the most pain. It really doesn't matter to me. What matters is that people are hurting, and hurting so much they've gone so far as to leave, and that hurt isn't stopping. And I am not ok with that. If there was some enemy I could face to stop all the pain, it would be long dead already. But there isn't. And I'm just so sick of everybody hurting each other even more! Just stop it! SHUT UP! For God's sake... *takes deep breath* Sorry. I should not have yelled. And I don't mean to blame anyone, and I'm not even trying to blame everyone. I don't think blame ever matters to begin with. Here's a problem. How are we going to deal with it? That's all I want to know.
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[hugs all]
Still vaguely here, attempting the impossible.
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*pokes Adra back*
*REG*
:)
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Gtg. If I want to leave Blogland i'll tell you all tomorrow. *hugs everyone*
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*hugs Rhydian*
*Hugs everyone*
I dunno, I may be wrong. But from what I know, this is what I see.
@Rhydian: I very much hope you choose to stay, then. Either way, good luck. *hugs back*
@Adra: "I don't think blame ever matters to begin with. Here's a problem. How are we going to deal with it? That's all I want to know."
I wish everybody on the planet could read those words.
Not just the Bloglandians of them. :) ^^
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* @Aretha:
Sorry. ^^
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*facepalms*
I don't check my Tumblr feed for a week, and when I finally do, the first thing I see is this:
http://25.media.tumblr.com/f9a56f7300cfe3f65fcfa624f3f1cd7e/tumblr_mqarixYb4P1qzxbd5o1_500.jpg
*shakes head*
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I feel like a lot of this is blind rage... You know what?
Fine!
It is my fault! If I hadn't fueled the damn RP, then maybe people wouldn't have gotten angry and left!
There.
Now, what difference does it make! I've accepted that its part my fault. Does anyone feel better? Does it fix things? No.
Look, we need to start thinking of a way to fix this sooner rather than later.
...
I think, in any case, everybody is a part of the problem, and also a part of the solution.
Of course, I'd be included in that statement.
Frankly, I think it'd be a hell of a lot easier to 'fix', if everybody was 'fixing' it together.
Because I think everybody agrees that we need to stop hurting ourselves and each other, but I think we all need to /realise/ that we agree with eachother.
That's what I'm thinking, anyway.
Let everybody know that in this sense, on this matter, we're in agreement, not argument.
:)
^^
=
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Star is perfect, and I will kill anyone who argues.
Teaspoons...
[Tries not to cry]
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[Nods at Taia]
[Sings]
Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are...
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[hugs Mara]
Same...
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*sits with a cup of tea next to Val*
Mbd msd
*nods*
*hugs Fabi*
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[hugs Taia back]
[hugs Adra]
[hugs anyone hiding in the shadows]
And for the record, I'm writing a really long speech still, just haven't posted it yet.
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Sorry for my rant.
I got annoyed.
I still am.
But it's bottled up now.
Hopefully.
Hey, if you can, go on YouTube and look up Avril Lavigne, When You're Gone.
It describes my feelings right now.
Then again, you don't have to.
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[hugs Mara]
[Continues to type very fast on speech on laptop while commenting on iPod]
This might be a video...
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I'll look up the song.
Funny thing is, I'm currently listening to Alice. It just finished...
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I is here at ihop
When you try your best and don't succeed,
When you get what you want, but not what you need,
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep.
Stuck in reverse.
And the tears come streaming down your face,
When you lose something you can't replace,
When you love someone, but it goes to waste,
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home,
And ignite your bones,
And I will try to fix you.
And high up above or down below,
When you too lost to let it go,
But if you never try, you'll never know,
Just what you're worth.
Lights will guide you home,
And ignite your bones,
And I will try to fix you.
Tears stream down your face,
When you lose something you cannot replace,
Tears stream, down your face,
And I,
Tears stream down your face,
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes.
Tears stream down your face and I
Lights will guide you home.
And ignite your bones.
And I will try to fix you.
*hugs everyone*
I can't fix the situation here, right now, but I can hope to make everyone know that they are loved and they are ALWAYS welcome in Blogland.
Maybe if we all did that, there wouldn't be this problem?
You're all trying fix the problem, but how can you fix a problem you can see, but not UNDERSTAND?
*hugs everyone*
You can all spew hate at me, but I'm honestly to busy to care, which is why I haven't been on as much.
*hugs everyone again*
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*hugs Mara*
And-
*hugs again*
@Fabi: Whatever it turns out to be, I'm sure it'll be itself with truth and perfection and Fabi-ful awesome. :)
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That song...
*hugs Ieni*
*and hugs*
*and hugs*
The song is perfect, (My previous pic came into being primarily because of it, and the album it came in taught me, among other, maybe more valuable things, to paint. But that's not really relevant. Um.), and it's beautiful. Just like everyone who ever became a Bloglandian, and also as the love that IS around, between and within each of them.
*hugs*
It's good to see you, and it's good to see your words. :)
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IENI!!!! *tackles*
Oh, now that it's too late, Dad agrees to take me to the Tempest. Lovely. :-(
Sorry I poofed, iPod ran out of battery without warning.
Beautiful song choice, Ieni [hugs]
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Hello, Taia, Adra, Zaf and Mara and Fabi if they're still there:) *ninjaeroplanetacklehugs*
YOU'RE AMAZING!!
As per that paragraph, you're much better with words than me, Taia! But then, you are perfect, so that is to be expected. WHY ARE YOU SO PERFECT PEASANT THAT ISN'T EVEN FAIR.
*secretly hatches a plan to steal Taia's perfectness*
It's good to see you too:))
Msd.
IENI!! Zaffy excited *bundles explosivies* Alexis turned 11 today
Msd to eat
Thanks, Taia, but it's sounding more like a combination of Star and ViHart so far... Of course, they're both awesome, but still.
[is ninjaeroplanetacklehugged]
[hugs back] So are you, Ieni.
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Thankyou, Fabi:)
ANOTHER PERFECT PERSON, FABI. This isn't even fair: you just make me feel like a total peasant D:
And you as well Zaf!!!! *sends evils*
Is this a stupid question, but who's Alexis?
Haha, why are you excited?
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Blogger Fabienne Sickofallthisnonsense said...
Star is perfect, and I will kill anyone who argues.
Teaspoons...
[Tries not to cry]
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July 21, 2013 at 9:31 PM
Star Inkbright (Ink!) is saying...
Fabi is perfect, and I will kill anyone who argues.
Thank you ...
[Tries not to laugh with happiness, because I think I'm meant to be asleep]
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July 21, 2013 at 22:22 PM
Guys.
I have a solution.
I have a fucking solution.
(I think).
And the solution is - ignore all this.
Pretend we all love each other.
Pretend the conflict never happened.
And all just do whatever we want.
It may go wrong, but I think just being happy and loving each other and pretending that nothing is wrong may get us somewhere. :)
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*is ninjaaeroplanetacklehugged*
*hugs back*
YOU'RE AMAZING TOO, I'LL HAVE YOU KNOW!
/AND/ YOU'RE PERFECT!
//AND// YOU'RE BRILLIANT WITH WORDS!
///AND/// YOU GIVE TACKLEHUGS WITH NINJA-AEROPLANE /STYLE/. /STYLE!/
AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, YOU'RE IENI!
So, in conclusion, you don't NEED my perfectness. Because you're perfectly perfect already. :)
*nods*
Very msd. :/
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Alexis is Zaf's ((fictional)) daughter
And wbd, I am moving around a lot, but the iPod can't, because it needs to charge.
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What would you do? What would you say?
[Hugs Star]
[Shrugs doubtfully]
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And now I am going to stop talking about It, because It never happend. ;)
IENIIIIIIIIIIIIII! :) *ninjaeroplanetacklehugs*
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*smiles* I'm sure it's wonderful, Fabi. :)
*hugs Starness*
"Pretend" we all love each other?
I, for one, can't say I have to pretend, anyway. :)
Perhaps.
Or learning from the past.
I don't know.
Both are possible.
Does it matter, provided it works.
Maybe one could turn into the other.
We pretend, but realise, we don't need to.
I don't know.
But I don't know a lot of things.
I don't even know what I'm saying, right now.
I probably need to sleep, soon. :P
Msd
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Sorry, I'm distant.
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That's a great idea, Star
*?
*?
Messing up punctionation-
O.O
"punctionation"
There is something wrong with me.
I don't even know. xD
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I love all of you, but I am aware that some people habour resentment towards other people. *shrugs*
*hugs Taia* You're awesome. :)
You remind me of my friend at school. That's a good thing, coz she's awesome. XD
*sings for no apparent reason*
And I can feel it
Won't embrace it
It's overwhelming
How far you take it
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[hugs all]
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@Taia: Well, NOOOOOOOO. You only just realised? XD
Joking. :P
@Adra: *hugs* :)
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OH MY GOSH SOMEONE SET THE STORY OF ANAKIN SKYWALKER TO AN A7X SONG. *screams*
Wow.
I AM WATCHING THAT. :)
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Val and I are walking around Seattle in tiaras nd crown trains. We're videoinglol
Lucky Adra ill never meet another Ameriminion but i will meet NJ soon
[Laughs]
Have fun with that! XD
I'm suddenly randomly and spontaneously changing the dedication...
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In my suddenly witless state, I'd like to proclaim that "punctionation" should be a real word. *nods*
*hugs Star back* As are you! :)
And, awesome! Sounds like you have good choice in friends! ;)
(Though we know that anyway because you're here, of course. :P)
*laughs*
Well, there's something ELSE wrong with me, then. xD
@Star and Adra: Both sound incredibly awesome. :3
Very wbd, and muchly msd.
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[hugs Zaf]
Val and Adra are less than an hour away right now, and I'll probably never meet either. :-(
Hopefully I'll be able to meet Val sometime, though.
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YOU BETTER FABI
I hope I meet a fellow Ameriminion! Least I'm meeting NJ she's coming over 2014 or 2015
I gtg idk wheb j be back
[Laughs]
I'll certainly try.
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OH MY GOSH. THIS IS ABSOLUTELY BRILLIANT.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=InvlRK0pvAI
I hope you guys get to meet each otehr. *hugs*
I'd love to meet you all. The chances of me going to America aren't all that big, however . . . :(
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Bye Zaf. [hugs]
I'm starting to get really tired of being stuck at home... It'll be good to go to King Lear tonight...
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Hey :)
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HEY SAPH! :)
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Star! *tacklehugs* How're you?
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HELLO SAPH
My friend is going to the UK...
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Hi Fabi! Aww, permanently? :(
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For the rest of the summer. She's missing this party we were supposed to organize together, though. :-/
She offered to Skype me from near the Globe Theatre, but of course I can't...
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Sorry for poofing.
But I've gotta go.
I won't be on very much, if at all, next week, but I'll try, if I can.
*hugs everyone*
I'll see you. :)
And there will be hugs.
And happiness.
And stuff.
*hugs*
YOU'RE ALL AMAZING AND PERFECT AND LOVED AND PUNTIONATION IS A WORD.
(Statement slipped seamlessly into conversation, there. :P)
Bye~
~
SOME-
ONE-
KEEPS-
MOV-
ING-
MAH-
AH-
AH-
CHHAAAIIIIIIIRRRRRRRRRR~
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Bye Taia [hugs]
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*facepalms*
I only go and misspell my own word. xD
*punctionation
BYE!
*more hugs :P*
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Hi/Bye Tara! *hugs*
That sucks Fabi :( You could have the party next summer.
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At this point, Marian took over the organizing of it. [Laughs] She's awesome, and more organizedy than I am.
It's a surprise party for this other person, though, for an occasion that happens this year, so... [Nods secretively]
It has to happen anyway, it'll just be smaller, I guess.
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Oh. *Thinks* Last year, my friend's birthday party came around and she was sad 'cause one of us was away on holiday. So we set up a Skype call and all chatted together :)
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Meh, at this point, Marian is in charge of planning. XD
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So how are things with you?
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Gtg :( bbl. Bye!
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Bye Saph [hugs]
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I'm still distant
*hugs Saph*
Well, I'm here again. Msd/mbd. Adra, I hope you didn't think I was blaming you back there, because I really didn't mean to. I didn't mean to blame anyone, I swear, and I'm sorry. I just want everyone to be happy again.
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I can't believe
Six months ago I was alone
I didn't know you, I'd never seen you, or heard your name
And even now, I'm so amazed it's like a dream
It's like a rainbow, it's like the rain
Some things are the way they are and words just can't explain
I never saw blue like that before
Across the sky, around the world
You're giving me all you have and more
No one else has ever shown me how
To see the world the way I see it now, oh I
I never saw blue like that before
Hayley Westenra....
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*hugs tightly* yeah... Thanks for clearing that up. And I know. But we'll figure something out
[hugs Adra and Ari]
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*hugs tightly back* I'm sorry if I made you feel worse. I'm sure we'll figure something out, too. So far I think people have come up with some good possible solutions.
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*hugs Fabi* So... Who's all here now?
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Sort of here. Doing an elaborate ded, though, so wbveryd.
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Oh, yeah, I've been waiting for that. My guess is it'll be, like, the best ded ever.
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Well I'm thoroughly sad, who wants a drink? *puts up hand* Me! *pours self a glass of blood red liquid, sits down*
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*nurses drink*
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Um. It'll be weird. I can say that much. Assuming it doesn't explode or anything. But hopefully it'll lift the mood!
Hello Trip.
No, thank you.
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*sits down next to Trip* Sounds like it's the kind of thing we could use, Fabienne.
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*finishes drink, sits back* On the flip side, I got my next Hide chapter started, and I had an excellent idea for a collab, so it's not all bad.
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*puts head in hands* But GOOOD! It feels like our world,this little one, is crumbling all around us. Argh!
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Oh! What's your idea, Trip?
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TRIP, MY LOVE! *tacklehugs*
*sits* I'll have a red wine, if you don't mind
This is not the first time a world of mine has crumbled, and I have watched others crumble as well. We will get through it, I have faith.
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*watches Trip and Adra* *starts to giggle* Wow, I ship you guys so hard!
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Sure Adra. *laughs* My love? Next you'll stop punching me! *pours wine and hands it to Adra*
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*glances at Niccolo* I have faith as well. Well, technically I don't believe in anything but-
Long story
*sips the glass* I'm in a surprisingly good mood save the fact that some guy just sprinted past us suspiciously... Seconds later followed by the arrival of an ambulance. I think he murdered someone
ARRRGHHHHHH
STUPID MC CHAPTER STILL HASN'T SAVED
IT HAS BEEN 3 MONTHS
UGH
(is probably not here... Btw, Trip, which country are you from? Just wondering...)
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Death!!! *hugs tightly* Hi!
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Well, most great thinkers and writers get their ideas in the bath. That is a complete generalisation which I put in for no apparent reason. My idea is a collaborative called "What did you do during the war?" It's about the upcoming Ireland-Everyone war and what different characters did. So Zaf for instance, no matter how much she wants to write a story about her character fighting on the same side as Skulduggery, would be unable to do so as her character would see the war as justified and sensible.
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Cool, what idea Trip?
Hi Death! [hugs]
[Facepalm] Blue and yellow duck. Oookayyy....
[hugs Mara]
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I'm an English lad me! You wouldn't believe it from the times I come on, which reminds me! Sleep! Night all! You god damned sleep stealing gremlins...
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Interesting idea...
[Considers]
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AHA!
Knew it. :P
I was wondering why you were on so late, Trip, because I thought you were from England... I was right XD
*hugs Fabi*
Oh, God... They're playing Shift or Pass again...
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*laughs*
By the way, I was being serious. The suspicious guy in Seattle... 0_0
Should've tripped him
It was a joke I swear! *cowers in fear then fades out to go to sleep*
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AWH, bye Trip! *hugs*
Bye Rose? *hugs*
Seattle is weird and suspicious in general.
Then again, so is the middle of nowhere.
Byee Death [hugs]
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Hm. That's a cool idea. I guess I would be killing a lot of people...
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Bye Death!
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GUYS!!! I NEED HELLPPPPP
MY PARENTS ARE SUPER DUPER CLOSE TO FINDING OUT ABOUT THIS ACCOUNT AND THAT I HAVE THE ABILITY TO TALK TO PEOPLE! I NEED A WAY TO PROVE THAT NONE OF YOU ARE FREAKY OLD STALKERS!!!! D:
*nods* I may/ may not... It all depends
Um... Why would a creeper stalk the SP fandom when they would get more out of the HP or Twilight fandom?
I DON'T KNOOWWW MY PARENTS ALWAYS THINK UP A WAY TO MAKE EVERYONE UNTRUSTWORTHY
Effie would be proudly defending the Irish, Raeza would try to sit out the battle by a computer rigged to do important stuff probably against the Irish, Fabi wouldn't tell you. I know what she'd try to do, though. She'd probably get herself killed.
[Laughs slightly]
I've also got a collab idea on my blog, but I think I'd be rubbish at making it happen, so... [shrugs]
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That shouldn't be too hard, Jubi.
So, I took a practice PSAT today and got really good scores!
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D:
[Thinks hurriedly]
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...Seattle's a weird city
Power just went out briefly... For a full second.
And the grocery Store lost power when Mom was there earlier.
Something weird and creepy seems to be going on.
Msd.
And Jubi--the video ded with the pic of Clemy has my hand in it and proves I'm not really really old and wrinkly?
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Oh good for you Ari!
Jubi! I compiled reasons to prove each and every one of you is in fact not a creepy stalker. Please don't be offended, I made it for this sort of situation with my parents. I'm not here, just saying.
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Yes, it is.
Especially Capitol Hill. And Fremont. And in general.
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I'll email it to you Jubi, I'm pretty sure I have it somewhere...
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*glares at Trip*
Ghoster...
And I don't think I really like Seattle... It's really sketchy
[Raises eyebrow]
So you're a creepy stalker, Trip! XD
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Thanks, Trip!
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In about 11 hours though. Okay, GOODNIGHT! *puts on ring and disappears*
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... ARGH PEOPLE WILL NOT QUIT STARING AT MY HELP I NEEDS TO GET OUT OF HERE AHHH I DON'T LIKE It
It's so fucking hard to turn away! *punches self in face and makes self unconcious*
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*curls up in a ball* I really really don't like this....
FABI HELP MERHHH
I'm over half an hour away, Adra!
I'll be headed to Seattle after dinner, though. King Lear in the park!
Don't worry, you'll be fine. :-P
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What's wrong, Adra?
Fabi, I just read your collab idea, and I think it's awesome! If you're worried about it catching on, I'll help, if you want. XD
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*falls on face* NUUUUU
... ARGH. PEOPLE, HAS MY SKIN TURNED BLYE AND HAVE I GROWN HORNS??? NO SO STOP LOOKING AT ME IM BLOODY 14 FOR CHRISSAKES
Dinner--bbs.
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We've been walking in really crowded areas that seemed kind of sketch and I was getting really anxious and some sketch people- men- wherever I go STARE AT ME CREEPILY.
JUST NO
I'm going to RIP THEIR BALLS OFF, DAMMIT
*shrugs* Just try to ignore them, I guess.
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*scowls* it's not that easy...
Well, I'm sorry...
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THANKS TRIP!!!
Sorry i poofed again :-/
*shrugs* thanks. I just needed to vent there for a sec...
DAMN YOU Y CHROMOSOME! WHY MUST I BE ASHAMED OF YOU?! WHY MUST MY FELLOW MALES BE SO FUCKING AWFUL!? WHY?!!!!
I'm sorry Adra, on behalf of MY ENTIRE FUCKING GENDER I apologize. I know it doesn't make it any better, but I really feel the need to. Why must they be so creepy?
Why is my gender the bullshit one? Why is mine the one that does all the creepy stuff like stare at FOURTEEN YEAR OLDS?! WHY!? WHY!?
*continues for several minutes* Okay, I need you to tell me to fuck off or I'm just going to keep getting pulled back.
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Ari, I'm more worried about the technical stuff. The idea would take more working together than MC, and I'm not really sure it would work. Also I might lose interest entirely. You're more than welcome to help, though, or just run the thing.
Creepy, Adra... That doesn't happen to me. I'm gonna go with the bad part of town theory. Or maybe you look like a tourist. People generally stare at tourists.
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It's fine Jubi, I get it.
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And I am back from dinner.
Here for another fifteen minutes or so, then I'm off to see the wizard. Not really.
[Will not be acknowledging Trip's presence, as A. He needs sleep and B. He isn't here]
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Thank you Fabi, I appreciate it.
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*hugs Trip and Fabi* thanks guys... I really appreciate it,
*laughs* Trip, I'm not telling you to fuck off. Sorry.
HELLLOOOOO FABIOOOOOO
Okay, round three. I'm going to get you this time sleep! Bye!
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BYE TRIIPPPPP!!!!
......for the moment at least
>:D
HELLOOOOOOOO JUBIIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEIEIO
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*rolls eyes* riiiight.
Jubi!!!!!! The wallpaper in your picture is on the wall in my room!!!!!
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ARI!!!!!! AWESOMEEEEEE :D
I am leaving in four minutes-ish!
You know the feeling when you've just made a bunch of good plot twists, and now you're sort of in a boring part?
Yeah...
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Distant, trying to find my first comment... This is really hard...
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Fabi- I'm having the same problem! Is there anything I can do to help you?
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Hi! Wbd, and have to disappear in a minute, but hi!
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Hey Saph!
And story of my LIFE, Fabi.
Hi! Wbd, and have to disappear in a minute, but hi!
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I don't know... Maybe? I sort of have another idea in mind, but boring stuff has to happen first, and the jailbreak chapter wasn't particularly... I don't know.
Probably not, thanks though.
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