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«Oldest ‹Older 2001 – 2200 of 2545 Newer› Newest»*Adra nods* I know... I don't see why binding his magic wouldn't work. Perhaps we could trap him in such a way- for example, he might walk into the room and we activate a symbol on the floor that traps him- similar to how I captured you in the library all those years ago.
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*ParAdra shakes her head* Allow me. *She will get a rag, and clean up the spill* Would it help if we came back with you?
Yes, that's just what I thought of, too. Do you still have that room that you made before- where you kept me after I came back, so I wouldn't be able to destroy the sigils that bound me?
*Kindred whips around, suddenly feeling so very uncomfortable and out of place. The perfectly aligned paintings on the walls seem to stare at her handiwork on the table as something other. It all seems wrong, too perfect*
Kindred: I- I have to get going. Sorry about the table. *she rushes into the hallway, grabbing her bags. She knocks the leg out from a side table by accident, sending its occupants tumbling to the ground.* So sorry! *she has to get out, it's all wrong, too easy*
*ParaTrip follows behind her, picking his way through the nucknacks and heirlooms on the floor*
ParaTrip: Leaving already? I thought that you planned to stay the night?
*She nods* Yes. But if he is coming here, we need to send the kids and yours and Niccolòs family away. We can't risk them getting hurt.
*ParAdra appears in the hallway* Kindred! *She begins to run after the girl*
*Kindred gets out of the door and begins to sprint away from the perfection behind her. She's young and spry, running faster than Adra could hope to catch. ParaTrip gently lays a hand on her shoulder, knowing she'd try anyway if he didn't*
ParaTrip: YOUR FATHER'S RIGHT,KINDRED. YOU MUSN'T DENY YOUR OWN FEELINGS! *after he's done bellowing his advice at the fleeing girl he turns back to ParAdra, solemn* You can only do so much, my love. Some wounds have to heal on their own. She knows where we are, if she needs us.
*he nods* Of course. Niccolò can look after them- perhaps we can send them to the Sanctuary, to another bound area, so that if he does try to come for them he will have to do it without magic, and get past all the guards first.
Actually- perhaps we should keep Niccolò with us. If we can't come to some kind of an arrangement, we might still need his magic. But we should send someone to look after them.
*Adra nods* Good... we will do that.. *She finishes her drink, and sets it down* *She considers pouring herself another glass*
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*ParAdra nods, taking a deep breath* You're right.
*Adra nods from where she is* That's probably a better idea..
Is there anyone in particular you'd like to send?
*Kindred is soon deep in the woods. She always ensures to be as out if sight as she can be when shunting. That was troublesome in the dimension where everyone lived in glass houses. The whole city was nigh seethrough. She shakes her head at the memory and pushes deeper into the copse. She must shunt in the exact right location, otherwise she will most likely dit*
*There was always something wrong about this world. Everything tyrned out so well for everybody. Every loser seemed to get a consolation prize and a new lease on life, nobody ever seemed to be unlucky. It wasn't right. It wasn't the way things were*
*Shrug had been with her in tge glass city. Things were already vecoming strained by then. They had gotten together as teenagers, it was only healthy that they'd ended up wanting different things. She was at peace with it, she just hoped ge was safe*
*She reached the shunt point. For a brief moment Kindred considered going out to look for Shrug. He must be out there somewhere. Withdrawing the stone from her bag she was reminded that it had just one charge left. She could recharge it, of course. She'd done it before. She could go out looking for him, bring him hime safe, moving from world to world, recharging when she could.*
*The risk was too great. She could look forever and never find him. She'd travelled too far to get lost just before arriving. Soon Kindred Wander had vanished from the dimension she had been in and entered another. She had done this a hundred times before. The difference was that this time, the other dimensiin was home*
*Shakes her head* *Decides on another glass- her hand is shaking now from the alcohol, but it is literally the only thing keeping her numb at the moment* I would have suggested Trip, but it's been ages since I've seen him. I don't think he would want to miss out on this either.
*Scours her memory* We can have them stay with Roshanne.
*ParAdra will sigh, then turn to go back inside to clean up the mess* I hope she finds what she is searching for, then.
Yes... even if she may not always have the best judgement, she has been helpful, and definitely proved herself trustworthy. I'll send Roshanne and Spark with them, and whoever else they want to bring. *he will pull out his phone, and start sending texts*
Good. I'm going to take a shower.
*Goes to their bathroom, and turns on their shower, then waits a few minutes for the water to heat up. She undressed herself, setting her clothes on the counter* *This feeling of dread begins to wash over her, and she begins to feel like her head will explode* *It's so painful and, before her body can even think of falling to the ground, the feeling is gone*
*Her fingers tighten into a fist* *Regardless of how many plans that happen, Leon still has the power to hurt her- and will punish her*
*A few moments later, she steps into the shower, letting her hair fall down*
*he watches as she walks away, and his eyes linger on where she was once she is gone* *the situation makes him terribly anxious, but he has missed her so much, and he is unspeakably glad to have her back, even if she doesn't seem to want to talk to him, still* *closes his eyes, taking slow breaths* *Adra has the right to do whatever she wants- he just needs to make sure she is safe*
*The shower is brief- about ten minutes at the most, and Adra steps out in her towel, examining herself in the mirror* *And then her head spins again, and blood begins to leak from her mouth*
*Immediately Adra moves to the sink, doing her best to be quiet* *Turns on the water, her head spinning quickly for explanations; there isn't anything Leon could have done to the doll to make her-*
*Drip drip drip*
-Adra is suspended from the ceiling, the ropes swinging just barely. There is another crack of a whip, and the skin of her back splits in half, blood seeping from her body, and dripping to the floor just below her. Her toes are just above the ground- so close, but so far. She can hear Salvatore's intake of breath as he sees her bloody back, and the low hiss of excitement that he makes as once again, he flicks his wrist, sending-
*Wipes her mouth clean* *She should really get her magic back as soon as possible*
*Adra walks back into her bedroom and drifts to the closet, consumed by her thoughts* *She might need more alcohol*
*he is deeply concerned for her* Adra, darling, are you alright?
*A deep conflict is in her eyes* I don't want to involve you any more than I have. I don't want you to see me hurting, because I know that that, in turn, will hurt you.
But... If I don't, you'll be hurt that I am not speaking to you.
..
What do you want me to do?
Adra... I married you because I want to be involved with you, always, no matter what it does to me. There is nothing else I care about- nothing else for me to live for. I'm sorry that I ever let you doubt that. All I want is to be as close to you as I can, and to help you as much as I can. I will do anything you want me to- if you want me to leave you alone, or if you would like me dead, or whatever else. But please do not ask me to be distant from you for my sake. It is... *he stops* If you are hurting, then I would rather hurt with you. You shouldn't ever have to be alone.
...
I'm sorry.
I'm so sorry.. *Her voice cracks* Please forgive me. *She stumbles as she moves toward him*
*he will step closer to her, and take her hands* It's alright, love. It's alright.
*Her fingers clench his tightly, entire body shaking* Please, please say you forgive me. Say the words. Please.
"Pleaae, don't do it." Adra struggled in her restraints, trying desperately to look after the other girl being hauled from the room. "She's only a child, you monster!" Moments later, she could hear screams from down the hallway, and the same laughter.
*Her fingers are almost white* Please.
Of course I forgive you, my dearest Adra- I always will. *kisses her forehead* *he is still not sure how affectionate she wants him to be with her* Love, please tell me what's wrong.
*Sucks in a deep breath of air* I just coughed up blood again.. and I think because I don't have magic, my body will be more susceptible..
Then, please, let me help you... I can still heal. I know I can't solve this for you, but I can at least hold back the symptoms for you. *he will carefully brush a bit of hair out of her face, and start to heal whatever he can* How else can I help you?
*Shakes her head barely* I keep seeing things. Memories. From when I was with him. The slightest of words causes them to resurface in my mind, and I keep reliving those moments, over and over and over. And no matter how much I drink, it just won't. be. quiet. *With every word, her hand hits the temple of her head, as if she is trying to knock the sanity and sense back into herself*
*She knows that this isn't herself- she knows that she's losing it, but she can't do anything but suffocate- especially now that, since her magic is gone, there is no unbalanced state of numbness for her to retreat in. The flood of pain just is hitting her, wave after wave, knocking her down again an again and again and again and again and she can't do anything about it*
Oh, my darling... *kisses her head again* If we could get our link back, perhaps I could try to help you control them. But I don't know who blocked it, or if we can fix it right now. But if we can't- *he will look for the philosopher's stone she wears around her neck, to see if it is still there*
*The stone is there- as is the stone in her wedding ring, but without any energy to connect to, it's more or less dead* *Even most mortals have an ounce of magical energy, but Leon took everything*
*Hisses beneath her breath, and pulls out her phone* *Types in a number, and waits, setting the phone on the ground between them* *Again, like an asshole, Leon makes her wait before picking up* Leon... I need to speak with you. It's urgent.
*His voice is soft on the other side* My darling Marlene, I'm afraid there is no negotiating on this. I'm being generous as it is by giving you the night off with your family.
Leon, listen to me. I'm going to die if I don't have at least some of my magic back. Even if it is just a little, it's all I need. I can't be of much use to you if I'm dead, can I?
*His voice doesn't waver* when shall we meet?
*Adra looks to her husband* Now.
((I miss you all so much.))
((I feel...inconvenient today. I wanted to say that somewhere, and there's no one to whom I can express that sentiment in real life just now.))
((Carry on.))
*Was just very confused* I've been reading the history of Aladra, and have read several months of role play today- and I was just incredibly confused when I saw your name pop up, because I thought that this page was TLC, and not Derek's blog*
Anyway-
I'm sorry you aren't feeling 100% today, and I want to remind you that you are an incredible, incredible human being. You're so kind, and generous, and really a straight-up badass when you stand up to mean people. I admire you so much, and if you're inconvenient, then the world must be a goddamn mess.
*Hugs Fabu* And I love you. A lot.
*he has already sent their family away* *he will wait for her to hang up before he speaks again* The chain that I made for your stone- the metal is sentient. It remembers emotions. I've imprinted love and happiness onto it- so if you ask, it will give some of that back to you. I don't know if it will help, but I hope it is better than nothing.
Are we going to really talk to him, then, or will we trap him?
*Adra's fingers brush the metal, which is comforting to touch* Oh... Alright. *She will ask it to just continually keep sending what it has to her*
I want to actually speak to him. *Takes a deep breath, bracing herself, then stands, with some exertion* There's a few old warehouses near the Seattle docks. Warehouse 9 is where we need to meet him. But I need some, if not all of my alchemy back. Our lab is unprotected, as is. And I need to get you back. *She means the connection*
*Looks around, then picks up a modest sized knife, putting it in her belt* What is the fastest way to get there? I don't think any of my portals work anymore, since I'm not hooked up
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*then it will just gently send love, affection and happiness to her- it is mostly from Alastair, but some of it also comes from the alien metal itself*
*he is so relieved, and so glad that she seems to want their link back* Yes- we need all of your alchemy back. And if you still want our link, then we need that too. Niccolò can either try and reactivate your portals, or teleport us- otherwise we'd have to get there the mortal way, I think. And, if you'd like more knives than that, I have plenty. Also- it is up to you, but if you would like to be less... drunk, I can help you with that also.
But, Adra- I know this is supposed to be an exchange, and he'll probably ask for more from you in return. I don't want you to be hurt or have to kill anymore- and I don't want to lose you again. I'm sure he'll ask for things like that. I don't know what to do if he does- but maybe just keep it in mind, if you can, I suppose. I'll be thinking about it.
...Anything you can do to help me be a little less drunk, would be nice.
I'm fine with these two knives. I don't expect that Leon will try to attack us. *Swallows hard* I think I have a way to get around killing people. A facade of sorts, where they aren't dead. It was something I attempted with Elias Turner, and he hasn't died. The other victim, an Elder, was supposed to be sent to Hell, but I sent that Elder to a Purgatory-esque place.
*A shiver trickles down her spine* *Stands, and goes to find Niccolo* *Once she finds him, she will touch his shoulder* We need to go to the docks in Seattle, please. *Will hold her husband's hand, for support*
You are so clever, and I adore you. *while they hold hands, he will help neutralize some of the alcohol, so she can be a little less drunk, as she requests*
*then Niccolò will teleport them* Would you like me to go with you? And if not, how long shall I wait before coming after you?
*Adra shuts her eyes barely* It would be better if you waited here, or back home. As of right now, you are our best card that we can deal.... I'm sorry, but if things get hairy, I don't want him to try to take your magic, or handicap your abilities in any way.
*Will wait a second, then nod to Alastair* We should go. Give it half an hour, Niccolo. *Gives him a look, then hauls Alastair to the warehouse*
*The building itself is decrepit and old- it likely hasn't been used in around twenty years. There are holes occasionally in the ceiling from which water drips* *In the center of the structure is a metal table and metal chairs. Two on one side, one on the other* *Adra glances at Alastair, then takes a seat*
*Niccolò nods, and will disappear, then*
*Alastair will go with Adra, and sit next to her* *he will still hold her hand, if she will allow it*
*Strolls in* Oh, so you did happen to come. Let's make this quick, then. This interruption is quite unwelcome. *Pulls out the chair, and sits* what is it you desire this time?
We need Adra's alchemy, and our link back.
Why should I grant that to you?
Because if Adra doesn't have her alchemy, she will die. And as far as the link goes- I don't see any reason why you benefit from us not having it.
No, that's where you're wrong. She isn't going to die. If there have been any complications with her internal anatomy, it's because her body is struggling to work on it's own, without the magic to sustain it's life. She'll live, it'll just be excruciatingly painful for her. But, then again, that is the point, isn't it?
You misunderstand. This isn't caused by her body struggling to cope without magic. It's caused by a pre-existing, very physical condition she has had for some time, that her magic allowed her to survive with. So it isn't "just painful," as you seem to think. It is killing her.
*Anger briefly flashes behind his eyes, but then fades* *Settles back in his chair* Alastair, I haven't misunderstood the situation at all. Unlike the two of you, who have only personal experiences from which you base off your knowledge of Hell, I have seen what happens on a larger scale. With the experiments my government has conducted, hundreds of people have been sent to the grave and back at my bidding. I make the works of Sigmund Rascher and Josef Mengele look like child's play.
So when I say to you that her body is not dying, simply adjusting, my word is the law.
[hugs Noelle]
I love you too. You're an amazing and very talented human being.
Thanks.
Give it back anyway. I'm sure she'll be much more effective at following your orders if she has it.
She can do it without magic; I know this because she has done it before. This matter is closed.
As for the link between you two... I can have it unbound, if you really so desire. I suppose that, since you are now aware of her job, it wouldn't help with keeping you in blind, so to speak
What advantage do you gain by keeping it from her?
Certainly you must know- especially having that particular man who used to lodge in your head who had a proclivity for power. It's about who has the upper hand. You see, because our dear Marlene does not have her alchemy, all of those little symbols from you home are much easier to bypass. With her vulnerable, to, she is much, much easier to influence. *Reaches into his coat, then, and is holding something inside hispocket* *He then turns to adra* Marlene, if you would please demonstrate.
*Adra makes a small sound in the back of her throat, and slides her hand down to her hip, drawing her small blade from her belt* *She looks at it for a second, shocked, and then turns to Alastair* *She's trying hard to resist* *But her arm lifts, knife in hand*
*he watches her carefully, poised to move closer and block her if she tries to hurt herself* Love, what is he making you do?
*Darts forward, colliding with Alastair and likely knocking him and his chair to the ground* *Presses the knife to his throat, pushing hard enough to begin to cut into his skin* *Adra knows that he isn't bothered by this though, and her other hand has a fistful of his hair, keeping his head down against the floor* *Hurt ghosts in her eyes* I'm sorry, I can't help it.
*Leon stands from his chair* Well then. Marlene, you are going to hold him here until I leave. And if you or him move, you're going to stab that knife into your thigh. *He straightens his coat* I'll see to it that your connection is restored. *Tips his hat* Good day. *He turns, and there is a flash of bright light, and he is gone*
*oh* *he will offer her a soft smile, just so she knows that it's alright, and then speak after Leon leaves* It's alright, darling.
*Adra remains on top of him, and once Leon is far enough away, the hold loosens from her; she drops the knife* Damn. *Her fingers skim over the cut on his throat*
*he will take her fingers, and kiss them* How are you feeling?
Quite dizzy, actually.. *Scoots back on him a little bit, so she is only sitting over the tops of his legs- she doesn't imagine that the floor is comfortable* *Her eyes avert themselves from the wound guiltily*
*the cut will already be starting to heal- and he will sit up, then* Darling, I'm fine. It wasn't your fault- I know you didn't want to. And I've asked you for worse than this before. You have nothing to feel guilty for. *kisses her head* I'm sorry I didn't get your alchemy back...
Oh- I suppose you're right... Don't worry about the alchemy, we can find another way. We always have.
*Alastair might begin to feel his wife's consciousness seeping into his periphery, like a dark cloud enclosing over a clear sky*
Besides, I noticed something. When his hand was on my Voudou figurine, I could feel his thoughts. He asked me to attack you, and I heard him speaking in my mind. I think what touching the doll did was make what he was thinking have an influence over me.
-waves-
First time i've been put off commenting because someone was RPing. Think it's just because there are so few people on the blog that I feel awkward just, typing something. This must be how new people felt. :S
Carry on peoples.
*he is so glad, and so relieved to have it back* *he will hug her, if she doesn't mind- he just wants to be closer to her* Are you saying we can use that against him?
You're more than welcome to join, if you want. It's up to you.
*Of course, and she tucks her head underneath his chin* I believe so. It will need some brainstorming, for sure, but I think it is worth a try.
Then we'll try it. *kisses her head, and then will rest his head over hers again* In the meantime, what can I do for you? Do you need any food, or something to eat?
*something to drink
*The Dead End Bar was doing very well in 2014. Nowadays it mostly catered to cultists and lowlifes as they became more and more desperate for business. Back in 2014 it was a hotspot for for the Ukranian magical literati. Here rogues and poets would meet and mingle with detectives and adventurers, seeking muses and lovers to feed their works. Their fabulous robes were pigmented with shiftweave, morphing and growing to imitate the styles around them, a perhaps blunt comment by the bar's patrons on the incestuous nature of fashion. Of course, these robes would go out of fashion as well. So did the bar. The great and the good grew bored, making way for a rogues gallery of a different kind*
*Trip Castalan took none of this in. He was behind the bar, mixing a drink. Well. He was mixing six or seven drinks whilst cleaning two shot glasses with his spare hand. He was in constant motion, moving cash, drinks, glasses and his body, completely removed from his surroundings. He must have been aware of its stimuli as he definately responded to them, but they didn't seem to affect him in any way*
*2014 was a better time for Trip, but this one was not the Trip of 2014, he was a much older man.*
*Adra won't want anything* *She will just go home with him, and once there, climb into bed*
*Amongst all of the sensory input, Trip was focussed on his watch. Four seconds. He tapped two glasses against the counter. One contained something or other, the other some pink stuff. Trip had already forgotten. Three seconds. This was a spare moment. Trip took a second to breathe. One often forgets to breathe when meddling with time and it can cause realy bother. Two seconds. Trip stacks the glasses. The patrons reach for their drinks. One second. Trip spritzes the man beside him. Gerald or something.*
*Once there, Adra will just lay with her husband, and sleeps*
*The nightmares will descend down on her, then, and suffocate her*
*Alastair will stay awake as long as he can, to try to soothe her nightmares*
*Appreciates it, but will still likely wake up multiple times, in tears* *Each time, she will clutch to Alastair, as if he is a buoy keeping her from drowning*
*Graham flails in response. He clips a patron, sending them tumbling into the glasses. Trip imitates a laugh, to suggest that he's just having a joke with Garry. Afterwards he turns to the glass and starts tidying up. Gareth begins tending to the customers, the glass rendering their shiftweave a bit scratchy and very revealing. He looks up to plan his route to leave. In precisely twelve minutes and thirty two seconds the glass he has collected must be in the bin of the street outside.*
Woman with hair: I saw that.
*Trip begins to walk along behind the counter, to where it bled into the surrounding crowd.*
Familiar, slurred voice: Oi mate, I saw that.
[Hey asshole, she's talking to you.]
*The woman with hair is now blocking Trip's path into the crowd. She must be removed in order to ensure swift resolution of the plan.*
Excuse me, I must put this in the bin.
[Oh nice one. Shut up]
Woman with hair: You made that happen on purpose.
Lies. Slander. Please, I haven't the time for this.
*The woman jokingly drapes herself across Trip's path, unaware of the danger she is putting Trip's mission in*
Woman with hair: I must know your motive!
[Drunk, clearly, her speech is extremely slurred. And who are you to judge? You're the one who wants to drink, I haven't a clue. WE'RE THE SAME PERSON]
Woman with hair: Not that this mysterious silent act isn't sexy, but it isnn't really helping yer case.
[Change tack it's your only shot]
I thought it would be funny. Can I go now?
*Trip looks at her with genuine earnestness. This discourse has cost him 20 seconds*
*A young little red haired- blonde girl will walk into the bar* *She is only 18, so she isn't supposed to be in there probably, but she wants some water* *Will watch what is occuring*
*he will hold her, when she does, and speak to her softly, stroking her hair* I'm here, my darling, we're home. You're safe.
Woman: Oh a comedian, eh? *she lays a hand on Trip's chest. He looks down at it, a look if vague disgust bursting across his face*
[What. She likes you, moron, remember when people did that? No. Well use it anyway, I believe in you.]
*Trip thinks back. He hasn't had to think on his feet for some weeks now.*
[Yes, that'll do.]
I'm sorry, my heart belongs to another.
Woman with hair: Oh, who is she? I'll have her locked away.
Nono, I mean literally. I sold it to Queen Marsden in the year 2099.
*she rocks back, laughing. Trip slips past, into he crowd. A small grin is on his face*
___
*a manager stands beside the girl, watching his staff deal with the incedent*
Manager: You shouldn't be here. I can see it. *he indicates to his eyes, stained with a switling turquoise pattern*
*Adra's eyes shut more, clenched* *Takes deep breaths, slowing her heart down again* These ones were about Salvatore again..
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*The girl bites her cheek* But I'm thirsty.
Manager: And the starving man is hungry, yet the law cares not when he steals. You must leave. *he indicates to a purple haired man hurriedly making his way past.* Hey Karl, take this girl out of the club, would you?
*Karl looks up at the manager. He strikes the girl as a rather sullen kind of guy. His face sits in an entirely neutral stance. His eyes are perhaps his only notabke feature besides the hair. They seem to be bottomless purple pits of roiling purple and unfathomable depth. They seem sad, heavy with regret, as if caught somewhere between the fear and joy of memory*
Certainly, sir. I would also like to resign immediately, I intend to become a dedicated follower of fashion.
*Oh*
*The girl frowns, and points to Trip* Hey, I know him!
Come on. *he turns about to leave, the manager slightly shocked to hear his quiet if hardworking staffer make such a bold claim. He isn't sure if he's joking. After all, payday's tomorrow. Trip begins making his way through the crowd*
:(
But.. I know him. And I'm thirsty
*She sees the woman bothering Trip* *Wants to help him leave, and wil log up to the woman* Excuse me, can i bother you for a moment? I am having troubles with my dress and need someone to help tie the top.
*Trip is now seriously behind. He has to be outside in three minutes and five seconds. He grabs the girl by the arm* Let's get out of here. *he pulls her towards the door*
*Oh* *Noelle blinks, and will come with Trip* Where are we going?
To a bin. *he finishes leading her outside and then stands by a nondescript waste bin, watching his watch.*
So apparently you know me? Whoever you think I am, I'm not him.
[Good job with that believable lie mate. Who even cares It's not like she's dangerous. You're shit at threat assessment, in fact, you're shit at living.]
*Trip searches through his mind to find anything that might justify his previous statement*
I'm a doppelganger if we ever meet he will die.
You're Trip Castalan.
And I just helped you. You look like you need help. What can I do?
*Trip looks at her for a few moments. The light of the moon highlights his five o'clock shadow and roughed up face. He looks like a man who has been out at sea for a little too long, so he has ceased to appear adventurous and exotic and is now simply weary. He drops the glass shards into the bin and tosses the dustpan he was holding them with away.*
Nope. I'm a doppleganger and you didn't help me. I don't need any help. Things are going exactly to plan. What are you doing at this time of night? Do you need me to drive you somewhere?
*he nods, and kisses her head* You're safe, now. I'm sorry, my love.
I just wanted water.
*Noelle, tentatively, will touch Trip's arm* What happened?
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*Adra breathes slowly* okay... *She pauses, and then quickly pulls him down, to kiss her*
*oh* *then he will kiss her back, just gently*
*He would be able to taste her- but also taste salt from her tears* *Will kiss him a few times, both long and short, continuing over and over*
*But then, after a while she will just hug him tightly*
*he will return each of her kisses, and then hug her tightly back, running his fingers once through her hair* *he so adores her*
*Softly, in his ear* I'm sorry.. I want to be stronger for you.
Don't be sorry, my darling. *pets her hair* You are so, so strong. You amaze me.
*Reaches up, her fingers brushing his bottom lip* *Kisses him again, softly* You are still upset... with me, I think. What are you thinking?
*he will return that kiss, too, and then closes his eyes, breathing out slowly* *first, he wants her to know that he loves and admires her so deeply, and that she makes him so happy- he will send that to her, so she can feel it* When you first disappeared, I assumed you had been taken. I went to look for you, but when I found you, you ran away. And then- I didn't really think you wanted to kill me, but I did wonder, for a second. It seemed like you wanted so badly to keep your feelings and your situation from me, even once we were back home. My darling Adra, I know you have been through so much- not only recently, but throughout your whole life- and it was wrong of me to assume you would know that I would always rather be close to you and help you, no matter what it does to me. But then, it felt like you either didn't trust me, or didn't want me to be close to you anymore. And now... I just want to do whatever I can to make you really feel that all I ever want is to be as involved in your life as I can be, as long as you'll have me, even if that means I might get hurt.
*Her eyes do water*
I'm sorry... I'm so sorry. I just.
I didn't want to involve you because you give me everything- life, reason to live, stability, love.. And- if I am in the line of fire, if something happens to me, I can't leave the kids, A- a- and I don't want to hurt you.
I know it's wrong of me to assume anything, but I've lost so many people, Alastair. My parents.. my friends... lovers.. children.. *She begins to just cry* Anyone who gets close to me eventually gets killed. And Leon is fucking terrifying, to me. He murdered my people, and he feels nothing at all. If there is anyone who could single handedly ruin everything we have, I undoubtedly know that it is him. So I'm sorry- I trust you with my life and soul, but the person I don't trust is myself. I'm afraid that I'm not strong enough to beat Leon and, if that is true, I don't want you to come down with me.
*Her hand gently cups his chin, then strokes his cheek* I'm sorry for not telling you, but I am so scared right now. I just can't lose you too.
*he will catch her hand, and kiss it* I'm sorry he frightens you so much. I will do my best to make sure that you don't lose me, and I will do everything I can to help you take him down. I just couldn't stand to lose you, either- to Leon, or to fear. *kisses her forehead* Thank you for telling me all of this. I am so sorry you've had so much loss in your life, and I will try to make sure you don't have to endure more of it.
*Adra tucks her body against his* I know... It's alright. *Briefly, will just leave her head tucked against him*
*Trip looks down at the girl's hand, his cold eyes relenting, becoming sad*
A lot of things, Noelle.
*a moment passes and his eyes harden again. He shakes her off*
I'm fine though. Things happen. All you can do is make the best of them. That's what I'm doing.
Where do you need taking?
Um- nowhere. I just wanted water.
*Thinks about saying more, but doesn't*
*for a brief moment Trip considers asking one of many questions, but soon realises that he simply hasn't the energy for a mystery*
Very well then. Good night. *he turns and begins to walk down the dimly lit road. The humid night air seems to blur hus silhouette. He could be almost anybody*
*Oh, okay*
..okay, bye.
*Noelle still doesn't have water* :(
*the manager stumbles out of the club with a bottle of water. The sound of the rubbish truck moving up the street grumbles in the distance*
Manager: Karl! Hey Karl? *he turns to Noelle* Was he being serious?
Serious about what?
I'm better today
Today is going to be better
Hello??
I need to ask something... I started a storyline on the blog that I want to continue but can't remember where I put the bloody thing.
Any quick way to find my comments or am I stuck scrolling for days??
i find existence to be incredibly painful and i hate it.
i want to die a slow and excruciating death. i want it to be both mental and physical hell.
i want someone to beat me but not just that. humiliate me. crush me till i drop dead
Nope.
What you're feeling now, its not as permanent as you think Fera.
Don't let it consume you.
The better days, no matter if you think there are so few of them, outweigh the bad.
not to me. i am demon spawn. i've always had a natural attraction to negative forces and ideas. it is permanent to me and will always be. the feelings that consumed me are me. the good in me has almost finally given up. took its sweet ass time. it's still a few years too soon before i become a monster but it'll eventually happen. and when it happens i'll be truly alone, instead of having the illusion of companionship. like i've always wanted it.
Even if you think that way, feel that way. I'll still be here.
I'd rather be a companion to a monster than a companion to a memory of someone I once knew...
hehe thank you...fuck it seems my good side is still fighting haha. i've always felt about the same amount of attraction to light as dark. i am like a malleable being, reflecting back on existence itself. whether i am good or bad isn't the question. it's which one i feel like. i rarely step in either direction but when i do, it's a firm one. my girlfriend hurt me so much. but i don't want to take it out on her. so i guess i came here. all that anger and negativity that naturally built up within my intense self got redirected.
It's alright to feel hurt if you're hurt. Don't deny your emotions that.
But your hurt shouldn't have to take you over.
I have a lot of bad days and I'm like a bat out of hell when I'm in a foul mood. But I know it's not me. It's the depression.
When I've wavered the storm and felt when I've needed to feel at the time, the good times seem a lot better than usual.
haha i deny myself a lot of things to be honest. because i wanna be like that. i wanna toughen up even more and tank through all my ambitions. it probably doesn't help that my feelings were always ignored by everyone but oh well i'll tank through that too
I think I'm trying to give comfort here...
Dunno how I'm doing lol
umm idk nothing comforts me but thank you :p
I'm sorry you feel upset, Fera. I hope tomorrow is better for you
Sup peeps
So I did a thing
https://youtu.be/LyljWQPChXk
(Making a video was something off my bucket list)
Fera, i'm always on Facebook if you need to talk and I ghost on here every couple of days, when I remember to check.
If John pops by at any point...which If he cares, he will because that's why i'm here...
This latest post is for you.
http://skulduggeryfan100.blogspot.co.uk/
*Adra will be sitting by herself, then, picking idly at her fingers* *She is nervous, a bit, but doesn't care much for things* *Watches her kids run past her, and briefly wonders if she will see them grow up*
*That's alright- she would rather them grow up without her than not at all* *Alrhough it was not her own preferred way, she managed- but, all hopes considered, Cara and Alek will not have to do so*
*It's going to be bad enough when Alek grows up- as an empath, he is susceptible to experiencing others' emotions, and given his parents' dispositions, Adra prays that he won't get into any fights*
>:/
I'm waiting impatiently..
On Sunday, my professor promised to post our final grades- this morning, around 3AM, he sent an email saying that he finally did it, but when I checked the Banner, there wasn't anything posted!
I'm quite nervous, actually.. I really want a 4.0, and I already received an A- in Biology (which sucks, but is certainly better than my anticipated B). But this final class that I am waiting on is Statistics. I never had any trouble with the context- it's just that back in March, with my flare-up following Madie's death, dog's death, and the whole laundry list of rather sad and depressing things that happened, I often would become really out of it during class. Not to mention that, since March, I've gained 10 pounds in weight...
Anyway, I digress
I was really distracted all the time and couldn't thing. Looking back on it, I was definitely disassociating, and I felt like I couldn't breathe... a lot. I was just suffocating all the time and I hated it.
So I don't know how that month will affect my final grade. Last time that I checked, I had an A in Statistics- however, I don't know if potentially not getting an A in this final would affect my final grade.
It's so nerve wracking. One A- on my record I can do, but I would really rather not have two- or anything worse than that.
In other news, I finally got to use my new soap!!
It's layered and has two dinosaurs inside- like stratigraphy
But I love it!
Update: I got an A-
:/
That 3.93 CGPA needs to come up
I'll take it
*Alastair will move to join his wife, and take her hand to kiss it, if she will allow him* May I ask what your plan is, my darling?
So I'm going to write a bit of a paragraph.
Over the years, there's been a lot. But most of you know this. If there is one thing good that has come out of my time on this blog, it has been the hard lessons that I have learned. And, if I may, I want to share a compiled list of some important things, in no particular order. Most of this has taken some serious blood and tears for me to learn, and I may add a short caveat of my experiences to maybe help clarify some points. But I've been thinking about this lately, and figure that, chances are, some of these points could help other people too.
1.) It is never okay to attack anyone.
Even if you are right. Even if the other person has wronged you, past or present, it's never justified to try to hurt them, or make them feel guilty about either actions you have done, or actions that they have done. We are all our own people, and responsible for our own reputations and outlooks on life.
2.) Addiction takes many forms.
For me, it was loneliness. I was addicted to the depression and the anxiety, because I felt that it was much easier to retreat into my head than try to be happy. I was afraid that, if I were confident, people wouldn't like me. And pity is much easier to get than is acceptance and friendship.
3.) It's okay to get better.
We are loved be the people we call friends. They love you, regardless of your struggles, and if you become well again, they will only love you more. Self-sabotage is a positive feedback loop, and it's not fair to cry about not having friends when we are the ones who made ourselves unbearable enough that they left us.
4.) This blog- or other online forums or communities- is not the end all/be all. Having online friends is okay, but if you get to the point where you dont have many, if any, real life friends, you're in trouble. And you should probably take a sabbatical.
5.) People have different opinions.
You don't have to agree with everyone you meet. You don't have to be best friends with anyone either. It's okay to disagree, but don't argue. Name calling is a red flag for bullying, and if you feel that much anger towards another person, you need to remove yourself from the situation peacefully, and move on. Sometimes, two sides won't budge. There isn't a point of fighting forever.
6.) Times change.
New people may annoy you. But you have to remember that you don't OWN the blog. You are here as a guest, just as much as the next person. And abusing newcomers or returning oldcomers is an insult to the forum moderator- in this case, Derek Landy.
7.) Don't argue about whose life is worse, who has more shit to deal with.
Apparently this one needed explaining a few times on the blog. We've all got about 60-80 years left of we're lucky. In a year, you won't remember these conversations. In three years, the issues that plague you now probably won't matter.
8.) Be the bigger individual.
Forgive other people. Always.
9.) Life gets better. The only thing that could stop it is yourself.
10.) Taking breaks is okay.
Being on here every day is exhausting. Considering how most people here are adolescent/ of high school or secondary school age, we are all raging hormones. It is easy to come on and instantly be depressed and begin to spiral out of emotional control.
11.) Don't make depression blogs
They don't help you feel better. You feel worse, actually.
12.) Be straight up with yourself.
I lied- this might be my most important point. Sometimes, I would get caught up in the situation. For example, there were times a few years ago, when the bullying was occuring, when I would begin to hyperventilate and cry. And I told myself that all of it was stupid- that I shouldn't let people hurt me, and that this was just words on a page. Well, sometimes it is okay to listen to that small, rational voice, too. And
Always ask...
"Do I actually want to be happy?"
Seriously, ask yourself. Do you actually have any sort of drive to change your life and move forward? Or, do you like feeling the way that you do? Because if not, perhaps that is something worth assessing. Growing up is a hard decision to make (and yes, it is a decision), but it cannot be done by sticking by adolescent morals and themes.
This has been some things that I have learned. They do not in any way apply to every person in similar situations, or otherwise. I have found that just thinking about these points has helped me grow as a person- different than whom I was two years ago. And I think that this could do some good to anyone who reads it. This is also not targeting anyone in particular. I just want to maybe give some advice, and would be pleased if even some of this helped someone out.
I'm actually going to bed now, Alastair- but I'll keep writing with you somewhere else, if you'll have me.
((Of course.))
I read the wrong comments, forgot to go to the newest comments page :|
And then *this* comment was deleted before posting. I'm really bad at this.
Anyways, the older comments mentioned the tour from last year and how some of you won't be able to make it. What about this year? Antibody planning to meet Derek?
*anybody
I swear I've gotten better at the whole autocorrect thing.
No.. I never read the final book, and I won't see him unless he is in England for the one day that I'm there
I might try to have breakfast with Laura though
I'm cleaning my bedroom today :)
Except, I'm slowly losing my mind. I have so many things and I feel like I'm becoming my mother- a hoarder- and as someone whose anxiety triggers my OCD, I feel like I'm melting????
Like
I have so much that I want to change
Even my walls, which are still the gross pale beige staple color that they were since this house was built, feel so impersonal. Over the years I have tried to cover the walls so that it feels like me, but now all of the wall hangings are closing in on me and I'm suffocating
So I ripped them all off and feel much better
But now I have the weird beige color again 😞
I'm hoping I can just talk to my mom about getting a new bed. I have had this one for around ten years now, and it's super uncomfortable and just falling apart (may be why my back has been having so many problems)
I might go for a twin bed this time, though. That will open my bedroom up for some more space. It will also mean I can begin to put my plants in my windowsill
No point in all of that, I'm just talking/ telling the story :)
Oh
There is now a cat on me
Thank you for sharing the story. I hope you will be able to do something about your walls, and I am pleased that you and your cat are enjoying each other.
Oh
I thought me and my brain were past the 1:30 AM /warp drive moods.
Nope
*Hits brain softly* Hush, now. I've been wanting to sleep for over one full R.E.M. Cycle now. Let me sleeeeep and stop thinking about the scaries >:(
https://instagram.com/p/BUieTPeg-Fu/
A very nice video about a kitty with paralysis and they give her acupuncture and it helps and I cried for a while this morning seeing this
Update!!!!
I get to see Trip AND Laura on the same day!!
I've known Laura for about seven years, and Trip for about four. I am so ecstatic!
Seananners said hi to me in a video again!!!!
:D
I am living for all of the Wonder Woman news that has been coming out! All the little articles, the informational videos- hell, even the clickbait! It's about time WW had her first live action film!
It's so good to see women be celebrated like this- especially in a very male- centric industry. All we need is to celebrate female POC as well, and I will be quite satisfied ^.^ well, and I'm sure other minorities should be celebrated too- the disabled, LGBTQ&c individuals, religious diversity... actually, now that I say it, it isn't so much an industry that needs to fit to accommodate "x" amount of minority A and "x" amount of minority B, but rather, it should change so there is less discrimination against such minorities- that people can be free to act despite any identity they associate with.
That's the thing with inclusion- I don't think in this case it is important to highlight every single minority in existence, but rather, make it easier for minorities to reach stardom as it may be for, say, a white male actor or white female actor (not that reaching stardom is by any means easy- but rather, it is often MUCH more difficult for minorities to be involved as it may be for a majority group.
...
Thoughts.
Anyway. Psyched for WW. Gal Godot is fierce!
*Gadot
helu
I'm enjoying this facebook thing quite a bit!
I recognize so many people in the comments but i'm trying to be hush hush and not expose their secret identities :p
@Mara
@Luci @Zaf @Jai
I got Resurrection today! can't wait to read it. Really disappointed Derek has deserted the blog altogether now...
And @Zath and @Em and @Gep, too. Hehe. Many good times are being reminisced in my head- like Sparky's theme park, the Island, Nixion being here literally every day- the weird chatzy war between Kallie's lot and Aquila's lot... Flame, and Luciana, and NJ, and the entire family :)
Such good times...
I remember Sir's first summer. I think it was my first official summer as well, so that was cool :)
XD but I was an infant, and I was literally like 13- this was about five years ago, I think (summer of 2012?). So I was around 12-13, though I met Laura and Mariah when I was just about to turn 12.
Hehe....
Really, really, really good times.
I remember the hilarious Skype calls with Sam, and NJ, and Zaf, and Em, and Flame.. and it was just the lot of us being absolutely stupid with each other and mishearing what the other person said, and some very strange things coming out of that...
That was Fam!One
Fam!Two began in 2013(?) which consisted of Trip, Rhydian, Star, Fabi, Mara, HB, Aretha, Flora, Em...
Fam!Three began around 2014, aka: the TLC gang, which was (mostly) Fabi, Star, Trip, Mara, Ari, and Em- though others dabbled in and out.
But now Fam!Four is small. It was really mostly just me and Ari for a while, and of course I still speak to Trip all the time, but it is really broken. There isn't really a cohesive unit. I speak to Em, and Trip, and Aretha, and (recently resurrected, thank god) Fabi pretty regularly, but it has been largely fragmented.
It's kinda sad...
I feel lots of nostalgia to the hUUUUGE gang from way back when: Lynx, Lydia, Kallista, Aquila, Dragona, Raven, Luci, Gep, Nixion, Skyril, Ivy, Flame, Eve the ROCK, Thrust, Taia, Willow, Ieni, Zath, Melica, Kestrel, Octa, Lav, Mist, Dau, Saph, Miss Cain, Lenka, Pyro and Red, Robin, Kilandra...
That's just scratching the surface..
Jesus, those were good times with some good folks. I hope they are all doing well :)
Now I'm hunting a lot of these people down on Facebook... they are going to be so confuse
Dang though, the GLOW UP IS REAL
The sad thing, I think, was that i was never closer with some people.
Take Snow, for example, or Jubi, or Ed.
I think that's probably what I do regret- not having stronger relationships with everyone
OOOOH
or Dugglyn. We were close, but I always wished I could have known her better- emailed more. She was really cool and I celebrate who she is 🎈🎈
Also
I am 89% sure that Red and Pyro are still dating.
Which means that they have been together since 2011
2011, guys
Wow
(Got two accounts now cause for some reason my phone likes to keep me on this account despite me logging outta google)
(I miss this place 😭)
I think everyone is gone, probably.
I was lucky enough to talk to Mara this morning- and now I'm feeling super nostalgic! It's been probably since 2014 or 2015 since we last chatted.
I'm gonna try to find Sir though.
FUN ANNOUNCEMENT ALERT!
FUN ANNOUNCEMENT ALERT!
FUN ANNOUNCEMENT ALERT!
FUN ANNOUNCEMENT ALERT!
So, as many of you know, my character/ muse of Adra was, originally, a Necromancer (only for a few months- and back when Adra was more representative of myself, rather than her own entity). Since then, as I have explored more of her background, and changed her so that she fits her own original story- meaning that she is an Alchemist, rightfully.
In the past few months, I have been exploring her history, ancestry, and identity as an alchemist, and I am beginning to run a blog that explains what Alchemy is in detail, a well as some major anthropological insights into Alchemist culture on Gaia.
It is accessed here: http://alchemicalbond.blogspot.com/
You're all welcome to check it out! I just thought it would be a cool project to endeavor upon, and hope that some of y'all check it out!
Hello~
It's been a while...!
Hello, my darling!!!! <3 I don't know if you're still here- apologies- but welcome!!
I have 100% spent the last 20 minutes watching this beautiful dance video over and over...
https://www.facebook.com/plugins/video.php?href=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.facebook.com%2Fsoufianetheatre%2Fvideos%2F996471607123163
I hope it works, the link!
It was quite beautiful, but also incredibly disturbing. Of course, no story behind this piece is offered, so how everyone interprets it is very interesting, but the story I saw behind it was that it was an abusive relationship..
Clearly, the two dancers are incredibly powerful and gifted and the way they move is just stunning- but their choreography felt so subtly violent; the way he would flip her around with her foot, and it felt as if the whole time she just was more like a ragdoll...
I highly recommend that anyone who sees this comment watch the video. Visually spectacular, disturbing, but just a masterpiece.
S12 is on Netflix!!
Destiellll :)
I realized- if some people stop back in, I am 100% Adra hehe.
GUYS!!!
I got to say hello to Sir!
I'm so pleased!
I have recently been making avatars for many of my characters... I am thinking of posting them to the "Character Facts" blog. If you all are interested!!
And, of course, the alchemy blog is open as well.
I lock my eyes and the whole world drops dead.
That whisp’ring opera preys upon my fear,
They tick and click and cry and caw and toil,
Where daunting souls reside inside my head.
They’re closing in; their pleas are what I hear-
“Dear Lord please help, I dread my mortal coil”.
Shut down my mind and the whole Earth’s deceased-
(The sinew of my gut is undulate)
-My hope for Zion’s stolen by Hell’s snare,
My skull’s a cage, my pain does still increase.
Doomed that I am, my mind is ruminate---
---My life lays in my ‘cophagus, where there:
I shut my eyes and the whole world falls dead,
And I along, to flee the words unsaid.
سأذهب الى اسرائيل في اسبوعين مع استاذي من صف العلم الانسان و التاريخ. اشعور بسعيدة و اريد ان اسافر الى مسعدة و البحر الميت و هيفاء أيضا . كل يوم ساستشقظ حوالي الساعة الرابعة في الصباح و سانام حوالي الساعة العشرة و نصف في المساء. اريد الاتكلم اللغة ألعربيه الى الناس في نفس المنطقتي. بعد اذهب الى اسرائيل، سأسافر الى بيتي في مدينة سينسناتي. سأشعور بمتعبه جدا و ساريد النوم كثيرا.
متأسفة if there are some spelling or grammatical errors; it is about 2AM..
I'm actually quite tired.. I might either pass out or empty the contents of my stomach and I can't tel which bevaause itscon fusing??
Sleep
أحب ال اذهب الى غرفتي و أحب الانوم
HAHAHAHAHAHA nosleep
It'd be a shame to lose contact with everyone 😓 I have Fb if others are interested
If so my email is chloe@cfc.co.uk
I'm having fun doing all of these things :p
I'm writing a bone-themed speech
incredible
yo peoples and monsters
Not boundless brier, sea, nor brush, nor fire
Could segregate our paths from intercourse
We have been scorched by thoughts of shared desire
That physical absence cannot divorce.
Not Hell nor Heaven could pull us apart,
Since love, will we eternally define
-No devil can displace my counterpart-
He's fixed, since intimately he is mine.
If only wind would lead me to his side,
Impossibility transfixes me...
But Fact's imagination's cyanide
That weighs me down to Earth's Reality
I'm faced with hopeless doubt, yet well I know,
That time will lead me to my Romeo.
This was the one time I attempted Romantic poetry.
Could have been worse
Could have been better lol
Thinking a lot today
You know, nothing with Madie's case has happened in a while. I mean, it's just awful, and I think having closure on the case would help a lot of people, myself included.
I wasn't able to attend the funeral, because it was the middle of the school week when she died, and I didn't have the money.
The girl who was driving the car is being charged for murder. I've seen the traffic camera videos , and heard the audio for the people who called 9/11, and this girl who ran Madie over was clearly intentional in her actions. Like, she swerved to hit Madie, she deviated from her normal course to hurt her. I think though, even though this girl who killed her claimed that it was an accident, she dragged Madie for about 80 feet, at which point Madie was dislodged from under the car. And then the girl drove away.
Like
Even if she accidentally ran Madie over, even if that was the case, you simply don't continue driving.
Her mother and grandmother in many videos clearly spoil this girl to death- she is all "I'm perfect and I would never do that", but her social media posts clearly show that she's a mean girl. And it's just sad, because I know that her family has helped encourage this behavior from the girl who killed Madie.
I just hope they can get this girl in jail soon- it's been almost two months since she surrendered herself to the police. Madie deserves justice.
I suppose I'm just reflecting a lot today about how sad it is that people like Briana, people who have been spoilt, who are mean and cruel, are so brainwashed in this world. That if would be awful if she got away from this. Hurting people is never okay, and if you hurt someone on accident, you grow up, and you own up to it. That's just how the world works.
But Briana isn't owning up. She's continuing to deny that she did anything wrong
And now someone is dead.
It's just frustrating, and it happens a lot in life, and it just sucks.
In other news
http://skulduggery.wikia.com/wiki/Adrasdos
This makes me very happy ^.^
Jesus Ads lol
Take a breath...
I don't know what breathing is, Em
Listen, I will revive this blog, even if it is just me
I'm all for reviving the blog girl, I'm with you when it's not 12:50 in the morning on my end.
But it's kinda hard when the author doesn't even update his own blog.
Anyway it is late, so we will plan, divide and conquer tomorrow.
Night love xxx
I don't blame him. I think he has every right to do so.
Goodnight!
I just heard a disturbing audio of a man being mauled by a bear back in 2003
How did I get here
Help
This is so scary
Happy 3rd Wedding Anniversary, Chione and Blake.
:o
I am very excited! I'm going to see Twelfth Night at the Globe next week. ^.^ It is one of my favorite comedies :)
If I lived in London, I would probably end up seeing every show there, to be honest. I'd love a good King Lear or Titus Andronicus.
And then I'm going for coffee with Laura :)
But before the Globe I am spending my morning with Trip and, hopefully, I can see him again in the evening time :)
❤
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