With Desolation only a few days away, I am still hard at work on the third and final Demon Road book.
From the beginning, I wanted these books to be as streamlined as possible — I wanted them short and punchy. Now, I completely failed with Demon Road, as it was a pretty big book, and only got slightly better with Desolation, which is shorter, but it looks like I'm finally getting the hang of this with Book 3, which will hopefully be the perfect length.
And the title?
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«Oldest ‹Older 2001 – 2200 of 4833 Newer› Newest»*hugs Gemma tightly* :/ I haven't felt what you've experienced, but I do believe you when you say it's difficult.
:) 2 out of 22 is better than none. I don't have resolutions . . .
aww gemma *offers hug* Not many people can actually keep resolutions, so don't worry about that :) And your body is fine. There's nothing wrong about it. You're not ugly :) You're attractive as a matter of fact.
Saying things you regret is a part of it star ^_^ Of course, I hate being wrong, so i also hate saying things that i regret :P
I don't know if I can accept it at this current moment, Fera. What you've said to me, and to others, over the past few hours has been really destructive and hurtful. And I can't be assured that you won't "burst" tomorrow, or the next day, or the next day.
Because, I don't know if you have been saying these things because you need an outlet for your own personal troubles, and I am that outlet, or because you genuinely despise me. So, until I can figure that out, I won't be able to. But regardless, it isn't okay to do that to people, no matter how terrible they may or may not be.
But, I do appreciate the gesture.
^difficult . . .
I too experience the inability to keep goals, Gemma. So I understand that.
*nods at Noelle again*
that's good enough for now :) I was expecting less sympathy, but thanks for giving me a humane response anyways.
Idk either, but my mom said that i scared her on numerous occasions in the past few months....so i am thinking something is wrong with me.
not the kinda scared that she is worried. The kind of scared that she is terrified of me.
I hope it doesn't develop into a split personality kind of thing or scizophrenia.
that's the kind of thing i'd expect, because I do actually try to be nice a lot of times. It's just...i can't really explain it. But it's more than just stress.
I completely know the feeling. It is hard to do anything when you're in a certain state of mind...you keep procrastinating and procrastinating. Your family is an asshole for doing that...
It always seems to be family problems.
You are pretty without making up on though.
plus, aesthetic beauty is quite...dynamic wouldn't you say so?
Well..
I tell myself these things..
1.) start now, not tomorrow
2.) messing up doesn't mean that the "day is ruined"
3.) make 50,000 reminders on your phone to be good
I was about to go into all the things that I do...
But I don't want it to appear like I'm promoting ED (eating disorders), and dysmorphia. But I might make a post on it later
I think the best way to come out of it is if there's someone next to you, instructing you to do things...just like overcoming addictions. Which is what it kind of is. An addiction to sadness and negative thoughts.
If you don't have anyone, you can motivate yourself by making yourself believe that it is a dead line and if you don't do it now, you won't have a chance to do it again. Also, write a daily program for yourself and strictly keep to it, even get alarm clocks to warn you and such :)
*hugs Gemma again* I really struggle to do things unless they're last minute . . . I work better in a last minute rush.
Seriously. Not many people can stick to resolutions. It's okay.
They might just like the look of makeup. Makeup is meant to enhance your natural beauty . . . if you're beautiful, good makeup should improve that; if you're not, good makeup should improve it as well. Bad makeup obviously will probably have the opposite effect.
But no, you don't need to wear makeup. Just because they seem to want you to wear it (which could be for a variety of reasons) doesn't mean you need to . . .
Ugh. I'm too tired for talking. Must sleep. I can't tell what I'm saying abd it's bothering me.
It's all a matter of mindset.
"Tomorrow" will never arrive.
@Noelle: :/ *nods and hugs*
*Personally likes to wear makeup*
*Knows that make up makes her prettier* *Noelle is a Queen at contouring*
*Does whatever she can to look pretty*
*Hugs back tightly* you go girl :P
It IS hard to get yourself in the right mindset, especially if you're suffering from something.
My friends like to wear makeup and they really enjoy doing their makeup in the morning . . .
They like wearing makeup so they wear makeup and there's nothing wrong with it. On the other hand, I don't like wearing makeup so I don't and there's nothing wrong with that either. The issue arises when one group tries to assert their views on the other one . . . People who like makeup insisting that everyone else should wear makeup too or people who don't like makeup insisting people shouldn't . . .
So yeah. Um. Um. I need to sleep.
that reminds me...one of my friends is bisexual and he came in wearing make up and nail polish today..and a girl-earring XD We kept insulting him for it and stuff like that, but he knew we were joking, we even told him just to make sure and he is alright with it XD
Mainly probably cuz he knows we're somewhat bisexual too and not homophobic XD
Like I'd kiss a guy but never been aroused by one. it's weird XD
:) Night Gemma. Hope your headache goes away.
*hugs gemmy*
Well, thank you, but last time I did, I was yelled at for promoting depression and "suicide techniques".
So it will remain on my blog, where, when people venture there, it won't be on my shoulders if it triggers them..
I might look into your blog, noelle. I've seen it before but not properly.
Feel free, it's in the public domain...
No though I can't believe I said that
I was so insensitive
I just said it and Lizzie said "Aww dude *looks sad*" and I was like "OMG SHIT I'M SO SORRY"
Like Jesus christ
HOW COULD I FORGET THAT SHE HAD A FRIEND CALLED HOPE WHO'D LITERALLY JUST DIED
HOW
*LOOKS UPSET*
Yes sorry I'm sleeping now
It's alright, Star. It is a mistake.
She'd literally taken the day off school today because she was so upset about a jurisdiction of things including Hope dying
Like omg
D:
(Definitely sleeping now)
^myriad
@Noelle: I know. I'm just venting. :/
I know you are. But- it's alright. Give her some time. She knows you weren't being intentionally insensitive.
...
i just don't know anymore
u still here?
i am
But
..
yes? Is it one of those mood swings? How are you feeling?
I might go, actually. I need to be alone for a bit.. Goodnight
well, goodnight. I hope you find peace alone.
*didn't actually read how that ended, but leaves Noelle and Star lots of hugs*
*lots of hugs*
*even though the comment is late*
*and leaves warm tea of your choice, snacks if you want them, which can include healthier things like baby carrots, cucumber sticks, and any kind of dip of your choice, plus the usual sweets*
I'm hosting a mini-game thing.
If you're interested in a game like Town of Salem but with some variations and a different format that gives more time to think
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If you can respect the rules of the game, play fairly, etc.
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(My room gets light too damn early *grumbles*
I think it's the Faeries waking me up
They are tricky )
( did you think of one coz I can :P )
(My pacman dressed arrived!)
*likes Hamlet*
DEREK YOU MADE A MISTAKE IN SP BOOK 9!!!!!!!
Page 477 in the book.
HALF SPOILER FOR BOOK 9?
"Sacrifices had to me made" said Ravel.
Well I'm sure it meant be made but it took me moments to figure it out when I tried guessing what it meant. I just finished the book and my god. Too much goddamn tension that I wanted to stop when I was a bit over 3/4s of the book......
(Words cannot describe how much I love heathers the musical)
(*showering* not hot enough
*turns knob 1/16th of an inch* Satan himself pours out of the shower head and licks your back seductively
Funniest thing I've seen all day XD )
(*hisses at homework*)
(Yeah. It is. I've been doing maths all evening and since 4pm. Chemistry and French jus aren't getting done.Fuck it all, there's no point in even fucking trying anymore.)
(*hugs jai*)
(What's the point?
I can't do anything anymore. Why even bother trying?
I can't maintain the friendship that kept me going for so long.
And without that I'm just reverting back to the whiney, sad, pathetic brat I used to be. My grades are crashing and burning. They where the only thing I was proud of achieving and now I can't even hold onto them.
So what the hell am I even trying for?
...
*sigh*)
(You can do it jai!!!!)
*hugs Jai* The point is finding a point.
In my opinion anyway.
You just keep chugging along until you find something to chug along for . . .
Chloe's right. You can do it, even if it might not seem like that right now.
@jai(if you give up, things'll never get better. The only way is to keep trying, no matter how much it hurts or how badly you want to give up. Its only when you finally stop that it becomes pointless. So long as you are willing to struggle on, then it is worth it.)
:/
Rough day again
@Noelle: :/ *hugs*
(kicking about...)
(um...might have to go in a minute. sorry.)
:/
One of my teachers was alarmed, i suppose, by my essay that I turned in. it was a "body essay", and it was a creative writing thing, and she wanted us to write from the perspective of our body, speaking to us.
And she was alarmed, so I have to speak with her on thursday.
It was part of our Christian Lifestyles class- our unit was on body image. So.. I mean, required class at a Catholic school goes, it's kinda norm, I suppose.
Ok
Ok I'm having panic attacks now
Oh god
I have a strange fascination and repulsion for the deep web. And every time I read about it/ see videos about it, I have to click, because it's interesting, and it delves into the minds of some of the worst that humanity has to offer. But
But I literally just had to go to my restroom because I got sick.
Oh god
I like the skulduggery pleasant series better...................
( hello? hello? anybody alive out there? can anyone hear me? )
uhhhhh..............
(Okay! Feeling somewhat better right now, let's see how long that lasts!
@Gem a) Was talking about she whom quite frankly I'm not mentioning because just her name can cripple my fragile mood!
B) you're beautiful and the mirror/your brain is lying!
Hello I wbd because book and relaxing.)
This blog is very weird...............
(That it is *extends hand* nice to meet you Anthony
I'm inky, or Chloe ^.^)
(Hi there stranger *shakes hand* nice to meet you too) =)
uhhhh i am i the only one that uses Gmail..............??????????????????
(?_?)
(Welcome to blogland, probably the weirdest place on earth
One of the only few ^.^)
(AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAH) i see
(How are you today?)
(Bored)
(That's a shame :-( is there anything to do?
Do you rp or something ?)
(huh? what do you mean?)
(You've never role played with people online before?)
(ohhhhhhhh thats wat you mean lol uh.............i play L.o.L and a bunch of other stuff)
(here, we all have a whole host of original characters and they all interact with eachother in blogland ^.^
Psssst *whispers* beware, make sure your characters don't run into silente the vampire... They will get a welcome they'll never forget)
(lol any ways i am gonna play some lol now so bye)
(Ikay, byii ^.^)
*curls up in blanket*
(*offers star hugs*)
:) *revieces a hug* Hi.
How're you?
(Hello *.^
I'm okay, you??
Hey Guys ia m back from losing the game!
(Hello again *.^)
( well Cya i have to go to sleep its 12am over here)
Bye
(Bye ^.^ )
Hi/bye, Anthony. :)
@Chloe: Good. :)
I'm alright. :) Just revising.
I hate biology exams. It's not good enough to give the right answer to questions, you have to work out which right answer you want without any clues. Ugh. It's like a lucky dip.
^they
Or maybe I'm not okay *looks scared*
(I know the feeling star
All toucan do is use past papers and Mark schemes)
@Chloe: Yeah. :/ There's only 28 days before exams start though and it's not enough time . . .
But yeah. I guess we'll all muddle through it
(*pokes Chloe* meanie. And trust me, And Sil ain't doing any fighting any time soon, She's too busy recovering from her own emotions.
RP?
(Ah, good luck star
Sure Jai ^.^)
(Okay.. Can't find where we got to so uh yolo!)
WG: You can't fight them or stop them, so I run instead
Run in circles.
Clocky; how long exactly have you been running?
WG: hmm.. How old are you again?
*curls up in blanket* Cat's sister may be seriously ill.
Like idk entirely what the issue is but there's a thyroid issue abd she may have like a serious problem
And dude Cat like a breakdown over it at school this morning
She was like proper full-out crying
She says she's not cried at school since year six (six years ago) and I can't remember her having done so
I've seen her have panic attacks in lessons and I've seen her be really really ill but I've never seen her have an emotional outburst like this
And like
Yeah
Abd I've like
I've been quietly crying about it on and off today because I'm like upset and concerned and scared
And like
If I'M upset about it then how must SHE be feeling
Abd I so badly want to just insist it's gonna be okay but idk if it is
And like
Idek
I wish I could just make it all okay
*sniffs and does biology revision*
(*hugs star tightly..*)
(*hugs star*?
Clocky; twenty
(forgot how old she is XD )
*hugs Jai back*
Sorry. Wanted to talk about it. It was Wednesday today so I'm a bit conversationally starved (one hour with Cat and Darcie, two hours in silence speaking to no one, usually another hour in near silence, one hour of chemistry where I don't sit next to anyone,one hour of general studies where I sit on a table with two others who are friends with each other and not me . . . By the time I get home I feel very extroverted because I'm just like "want. human. contact. argh." :P)
WG: In which case I've been running and hiding for eighteen years. Although they didn't realize I was running until seventeen years ago, and then they didn't find me until one year ago.
Clocky; you can't run forever
*hugs Chloe back*
WG: Oh I know that.
*grins*
But so long as I want to keep these
*flaps her wings*
I'm gonna have to run.
Clocky; we are here to help you, right Mark?
Mark: Um.. How are we meant to help this?
WG: No, trust me, it's fine.
Clocky: we can do something, surely...
*laughs at Clocky and Mark*
WG: Listen, it's sweet that you want to help, but the only way to be safe from them is to make deals with the bad guys, and that isn't my style.
*pats clocky on the shoulder*
Don't worry kiddo. So long as you're safe it's fine.
Clocky: I'll help you where I can...
WG: *laughs musically*
That's not your job silly. It's my job to protect you Clockwork. Has been since I was, what, three or so?
*quotes (or at least paraphrases) Dean Winchester* "Making deals with the bad guys is how they screw us over, every time"
Yeah stay away from that
Never ends well
(I agree. Never ends well.)
*nods muchly at Jai*
*could potentially make a joke about the Conservatives abd the Lib Dems here XD*
(*cuddles Star*)
:) *cuddles Jai back*
Clocky: you've looked after me, now I want to return the favour
Fabi: [offers hugses to people]
Hamlet: [contemplates the nature of human existence while eating the cookie Noelle gave him]
(*hugs fabulous*)
*receives one of Fabi'S hugses*
(*hugs mossu*)
WG: It's fine kid, I doubt they'll catch me
*stage whispers*
They're really really stupid
Clocky: they tracked you to my house..
(Chloe, when will you be done with your exams?)
(End of June)
WG: *smiles*
Yeah, but then they lost their damaged prey so really? They're big softies.
Clocky: please stay,,.
*howls can be heard in the distance*
WG: See I would but you can't hide for long once they've found you..
Clock you: be careful.,.
WG: *grins*
You too.
*opens the window and becomes a large black raven, flying towards the howls*
Clocky: *sighs*
Mark: *puts an arm around her shoulders*
Hey, it's okay.
Clocky: what if she gets caught?
Mark: She seemed confident that she wouldn't be..
Clocky: but you saw how strong they were
Mark: She said they didn't find her for sixteen years as it was?
Clocks: what if they get her?
Mark: I.. Don't know what will happen if they get her.. I doubt they will.
Clocky: I should've got her to stay *whimpers*
Mark: *pulls her close*
Hey.. It's okay.. I don't think she was going to stay..
Clocky: *cries* she could die!
Mark: Shall we go find her then..
Clocky: *sniffles* I'd like that
Mark: Come on then.
*is too lazy to use the door*
*climbs through the window*
Clock you: *follows him*
Mark: *shifts and sets off the where the howls were*
Clocky: *shifts and follows*
Mark: *listens for the sound of raven wings*
*changes direction very slightly and starts running*
Clocks; *rins along side him*
Mark: *brushes against her side, grinning*
*spots the black raven*
Clocky; *yips*
WG: *looks at them and caws, swooping to land on a branch looking down at them*
Clocky: *yips happily and jumps*
WG: *shifts back go her human, wingless self*
What? Did something happen?
Clocky: *shifts* we are helping you
WG: Clocky..
Clocky; we have to help
WG: Clocky it isn't safe for you or Mark to try interfere.
Clocky : you need us
WG: What I need is for you to stay safe
Clocky: screw safety
WG: Okay let me explain.. Me, they'll rip my wings out and leave me in my own blood to wander for, well, forever. You? If you get in their way they'll kill you.
Clocky: I won't die
WG: You underestimate them.
Clock you; you underestimate me
WG: *jumps down from the branch, landing lightly*
Clockwork, I've watched you from birth.
Clocky: I can fight...
WG: I know, you're a brilliant fighter and you put your heart into your fights, but the hounds? They're like fighting smoke and the hull simultaneously.
Clock you: but..
I always thought that the word "Brexit" was a combo of the words "break" and "exit" but recently I've discovered it may be a shortening of the phrase "British exit"
Which makes a whole lot more sense I have to admit
*loud howls can be heard*
WG: *fear briefly flashes across her features*
Clocky, please, I don't want you to be hurt.
(I've never heard of brexit before)
There's free food for anyone who votes in the student gov election
I don't know any of the candidates
But there's free food
So idk
@Jai: Do you read the news? Because I have a BBC news app and they refer to it a lot
@Lantern: :P
But is it good food?
I don't know
I haven't tried it yet
I've heard good things about that one food truck though, so probably
@Lantern: :)
Can you quickly research the candidates?
*pops in*
Sil quoted Dean!
(*wants to point out that gemma was gorgeous today* better than the view we seen and better than everyone on the beach :D *hugs and kisses Gemmy*
( <3 hopefully :P hehe -goes from doesn't know how I'm going to deal to omg I can't wait in a sentence :P -
hehe I don't want to be away from you obviously and I'l be so glad when I'm back both times
it's still true :P you're the prettiest person in the world to me :3
-hugs and kisses- you didn't feel it coz of the beach breeze)
sup
(nm you ? )
contemplating on life while doubting my abilities to do some things i wanna do :P
Nothing otherwise XD
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