I'm working hard. Writing fast. Deadline's looming. But while I work, other people have been working too, such as the awesome folks responsible for the covers...
( my new lecturer took away my anger management stopper and my other anger management stopper and well just basically every crutch I have for not punching someone then made me angry then made me more angry then my friend made me angry now here made me angry then here made me angry and welll I'm at that point of anger where i'm imagining killing both myself and thousands of others. )
(@Keiron: I disagree, I think you don't get to see any improvement from pain. It's only temporary relief. The way to get rid of anger is to burn it all away or to make it into something.)
With the state he's in right now? Maybe not the best idea Chloe. But thanks for trying to shove me onto someone else. You guys always say "we're here to help" And "e-mail me anytime" and when i ask for help this is what happens?
I think i'm mentally unstable right now. And i might crack.
I told you all about my melt down at work and only Star and Frank replied and maybe you didn't see it again which is totally fine but that's me trying to get help without asking for it because it's embarrassing for me to ask and talk about it but i know if i don't it won't get better...
And i don't know, Star. It's on and off... Maybe it's not...maybe it's always there and is ignited by something like a chemical reaction...idk.
We just know that Keiron knows you better and that you're going out with him and therefore we would assume that he's better than us at making you feel better Sorry too stressed for commas
( that was insane but I'd have it no other way :P hehe life's as good as it's getting as long as you think it's good, the moment you think darkness the lights turn off but what you don't realise is, that there is a single light switch somewhere that will light up almost everything :P find the light switch and use it)
he is always there for me, always makes me smile even when he isn't in the best mood. I am so lucky to have him and I am glad I can depend on him, and Im glad he can depend on me to cheer him up.
I love him so much... to see him smile with that boyish charm always makes my day a gazillion times better.
Suki: I... have the nerve to... *gulps and then speaks really fast* I have the nerve to have feelings for you and then feel disappointed when I realise that you don't like me although theres not a chance of you ever having an inkling of a likeing for me! *walks fastly*
I mean this morning I woke up to find I have an offer to Portsnouth university!!! But now I'm lonely... Jai has poofed and Jack is out for a meal an has been gone for hours
(Let's see I can't remember what's happened since then...
But ...
Me and Jack (ed) are more in love than ever Sil and star an a few others are still here Annika isn't here anymore, danni came on a few times recently Gem and keiron are quite active here Velvet and rhos don't come on as much
Chloe you forgot John, who ghosts i think And he's busy with college stuff recently. I just finished trimester 1 for the holidays and start back for 1st of February :)
( no offence but last I checked when ghosting one doesn't speak and if dead one couldn't speak... you therefore are alive and not ghosting. :D which are both considerably better than not. )
That was cool. We went to the Macy's in the city and my mom walked right to the line for Santaland and waited the hour so I could see Santa because it's the real Santa at Macy's. Never went before, that was the coolest experience ever. The wait was so worth it! To go inside and they had a rainbow bridge! You had to walk onto the train and from there you walked through a train to exit into the North Pole, then you saw Reindeer and so many sights! Then I saw the tree at Rockerfeller Center and the ice skating rink (though we decided to not skate) but we avoided Times Square because we're going back in February for Kids Night on Broadway so we're gonna eat there so this time we just did what we needed. I saw the Empire State Building (my profile pic) too! Didn't know 34th street was where it was located!
I'm sorry, Noelle. That's a horrible feeling. But you've felt this way before and you've felt happy before, even if it's hard to remember. You will feel happy again. That sounds amazing, Zaf!
( don't really see how that's sudden... I have a girlfriend... I mean sudden would be asking if you * cuts off train of thought* nvm you sound youngish I'll keep it pg 13 :P
didn't read further up than that tbh but I guess we can go with the good old fashioned msn tacticts ASL ? :P Age sex ( this can be what you identify as too we won't judge) and location :P
((*gladly accepts hug* see, that's why i hate talking about age. I'm usually way younger than the people I talk to and I can't stand talking to most people my age.))
I have been doing for about ten- twelve days now. I sent out two emails about it, a month ago, for invitations- to which many people replied in interest, promising their time.
And the only person who wrote with me was Alastair. How am I not supposed to feel like a fucking idiot?
( you want another person to write with ? I can give you someone to write with ... what you going for? dark, good, ass hole, nice guy, stupid, smart, insane, less insane ? what you want? )
Posts
4,657 comments:
«Oldest ‹Older 3601 – 3800 of 4657 Newer› Newest»( Ever so slightly...)
(*hugs star*
Hmm?)
Felix: *watches her lovingly*
Chris : yep, now shoo!
Clocky: *squeaks and whacks him with the branch*
:) *hugs Chloe back*
(you know my feelings about names...old habit I guess)
*time skip again?*
Valnum: Okay!
*pauses*
Do you want your small one back?
Mark: *is knocked out*
(Hey star!)
(Ahhhh right ^.^)
*quietly burns down a village*
(Question, do I now count as a old-timer or am I still in the newer generation?)
(*tries out asterisks for the heck of it* ooh, it still works)
:) Hey Jai.
@Vivanus: I consider you someone who used to come on but no longer does.
*hides under duvet and makes whimpering noises*
(I'm not sure...)
*okay*
Chris: yes please
Clocky: *waits nervously*
(@Star: that seems about right)
*the burning gets hotter and starts to spread*
(*tilts head at Viv* you're neither young or old.
*hugs star* what's wrong?)
(Also hi keiron?)
(hi Jai... just angry it's cool .... probably )
@Jai: Hell if I know. Would be better if I knew because then I'd know about how long if would last and what caused it and what I could do to avoid it.
I'm alright though. I'll live.
(@Sil: So this is my midlife crisis?)
*appears*
(What's wrong?)
Just because it's the middle of your life doesn't mean you have to have a crisis. Mandatory crisises are not good. :)
( oh nothing)
* sits in the fire and slowly burns away with it skin melting with the heat*
(that's very true Star. )
*looks around*
*sighs deeply*
*grunts* they didn't keep the benches polished...
(*tilts head at Viv*
*hugs k*)
( my new lecturer took away my anger management stopper and my other anger management stopper and well just basically every crutch I have for not punching someone then made me angry then made me more angry then my friend made me angry now here made me angry then here made me angry and welll I'm at that point of anger where i'm imagining killing both myself and thousands of others. )
(Keiron (Is that right?), do you have a punching bag or can you access one?)
( I do not to either but I do have a wall. and yes it's right.)
(walls aren't so good, you can't pound away over and over and over. What about a mallet and a stake?)
@Keiron: :( :( :( Oh that sucks!!!
(( http://www.moreloveletters.com/ - a great website to go on when you need to pour your focus and engery into something.)
( it was 2 very simple things .... music and swearing. those get me through the day sometimes.... she took them away then pissed me off ...
and you can punch a wall over and over it just hurts more which is good.... )
It's good that i have plenty of food to drown my sorrows...
(@Keiron: I disagree, I think you don't get to see any improvement from pain. It's only temporary relief. The way to get rid of anger is to burn it all away or to make it into something.)
Anyone free to facebook or e-mail...? I can't be bothered opening my phone to text...
Food didn't work. It's making me feel ill. Shit.
-contemplates washing her feelings with the 4 bottles of alcohol she has in the living room-
(Is it suppposed to hurt if you poke your ribs on the back?)
@Keiron: Try throwing things or breaking things. :/
@Gemma: :/
(@Gemma: I think that would make you feel even worse...)
(Alcohol doesn't help)
(this is very weird...it hurts when I just touch it but I keep doing it...)
(Um... Should you stop? Go to the doctors?)
guess no one is free to talk then?
How long has it been going on?
(*raise an eyebrow*)
I'm here just distant trying to go chemistry and WhatsApp and freak out all at once.
(I replied jai...
What about K, Gem?)
Kiana: *sits bolt upright suddenly*
Valnum: *carefully picks Lilith up, handing her to Chris*
Mark: *after a couple of minutes he shifts*
*he's very, very pale but the colour is visibly returning to him*
With the state he's in right now? Maybe not the best idea Chloe. But thanks for trying to shove me onto someone else.
You guys always say "we're here to help" And "e-mail me anytime" and when i ask for help this is what happens?
I think i'm mentally unstable right now. And i might crack.
I told you all about my melt down at work and only Star and Frank replied and maybe you didn't see it again which is totally fine but that's me trying to get help without asking for it because it's embarrassing for me to ask and talk about it but i know if i don't it won't get better...
And i don't know, Star. It's on and off...
Maybe it's not...maybe it's always there and is ignited by something like a chemical reaction...idk.
Felix: kiana?
Chris: *handles her carefully* now you have someone to chase...
Clocky: mark! *kneels beside him*
(I've always offered my services and... *sighs* not going to continue this
And I wasn't trying to shove you onto anyone!
I just thought maybe you could help each other out... Isn't that what your supposed to do?)
We just know that Keiron knows you better and that you're going out with him and therefore we would assume that he's better than us at making you feel better
Sorry too stressed for commas
Kiana: *-Vampire.-*
Valnum: yup.
*jogs after Suki*
Mark: *groans, coming to*
*rubs his head and frowns*
How did I get outside+
Felix; where?
Suki; *is walking with her son in her arms*
Clocky; you went all psycho...
Kiana: *-Close-*
Valnum: *catches up to her*
Hey, you okay?
Mark: I Did?
Felix; I'll protect you, don't worry
Suki: I'm fine.. *wont look at him*
Clocky: yes, and you... Never mind
Kiana: *growls quietly*
Valnum: Suki.. What's wrong?
Mark: *frowns*
And I what?
Felix: do you know them?
Suki: *quietly* I'm fine...
Clocky/ it doesn't matter
( that was insane but I'd have it no other way :P hehe life's as good as it's getting as long as you think it's good, the moment you think darkness the lights turn off but what you don't realise is, that there is a single light switch somewhere that will light up almost everything :P find the light switch and use it)
(That's nice K ^.^ I like that way of looking at it)
Kiana: *shakes her head*
Valnum: Suki.. talk to me.
Mark: I.. Okay..?
Felix: itll be okay
Suki: I I cant...
Clocky: *theres fear in her eyes*
Kiana: *growls louder*
Valnum: Suki.. what's wrong?
Mark: Clocky? What did I do?
AU!Sil: *is behind Inky's house, spray painting her wall*
( thanks :P I did say didn't I ? supppper bloooming blind :P it's easy to get trapped in a mirror maze when all you can see is nothing)
Felix: how close are they?
Suki: *Shakes* im being silly... but ill be fine
Clocky: a v village...
Chris: *sees sil from the window*
*opens it and shouts down* hey! what are you doing ?
(true ^.^)
Kiana: *-woods, door, near-*
Valnum: Suki. Tell me.
Mark: A village?
AU!Sil: *keeps spray painting, ignoring Chris*
(I dedicate this page to Jack
he is always there for me, always makes me smile even when he isn't in the best mood. I am so lucky to have him and I am glad I can depend on him, and Im glad he can depend on me to cheer him up.
I love him so much... to see him smile with that boyish charm always makes my day a gazillion times better.
I LOVE YOU JACK!!!)
Felix: shall we scope it out?
Suki: I... it wont matter to you...
CLocky: you became a vampiric wolf...
Chris: one minute Lil *puts her down adnd jumps out of the window*
(Hear hear!)
Kiana: *nods*
Valnum: Of course it will Suki..
Mark: O-oh.. Oh Clocky..
AU!Sil: *catches Chris, pinning him to the ground*
*she's wearing baggy black clothing and a masquerade mask*
thanks ^.^)
Felix: *summons kurikara*
Suki:The truth is.. I am a terrible person...
CLocky: *gulps* th that's not all...
Chris: Gah! get off of me! only one person is allowed to do that!
(entendre entendre)
Kiana: *squirms out of the blanket*
Valnum: What do you mean?
Mark: What else?
AU!Sil: *chuckles quietly*
Cute. And Ew.
Felix: sure?
Suki: I... have the nerve to... *gulps and then speaks really fast* I have the nerve to have feelings for you and then feel disappointed when I realise that you don't like me although theres not a chance of you ever having an inkling of a likeing for me! *walks fastly*
Clocky: me... you... didn't recognise me..
Chris: what are you up to?
Kiana: *nods rapidly*
Valnum: hey!
*runs after her, grabbing her arm and pulling her close*
*blushes, stepping back, rubbing the back of his neck*
Mark: I'm so sorry!
AU!Sil: Work.
Felix: *laughs and stands * come on then
Suki: *kneels and holds xander close to er* I don't expect you to want to see me again. I... I should've stayed dead...
Clocky: don't apologise...
Chris; what kind of work?
Kiana: *jumps up with him*
Valnum: No!
*kneels beside her*
No, you shouldn't have stayed dead..
Mark: I am doing.
AU!Sil: Important work. Go back inside.
Felix: *walks outside* lead the way
Suki: at least then I wouldn't feel so terrible...
Clocky; but it wasn't your fault...
Chris; and what if I say no?
(*curls up and dies* )
(I'm back. Sorry for leaving so abruptly!)
(VIV! That's okay ^.^)
(So, how's life been?)
(Life's okay
I mean this morning I woke up to find I have an offer to Portsnouth university!!!
But now I'm lonely... Jai has poofed and Jack is out for a meal an has been gone for hours
You?)
(Really?! That's wonderful! Well done!!
Well I'm just trying to make it till winter break when I can unwind and be merry!)
(Thanks ^.^
Awesome ^.^
I got merry in November XD
My college finished today, but I was too ill to go in... I've been here most of today ^.^)
(Well I tried to be merry but things are just trying to disappoint me..)
(That's too bad... *huggles* )
(*accepts huggle* so, can you tell me how everyone is? Who left, who came? Are they still ghosting? Is everyone ok?)
(It's really quiet recently, which is a shame...
It depends... When did. You come on here last?)
(I'm not sure. maybe in the summer?)
(Let's see
I can't remember what's happened since then...
But ...
Me and Jack (ed) are more in love than ever
Sil and star an a few others are still here
Annika isn't here anymore, danni came on a few times recently
Gem and keiron are quite active here
Velvet and rhos don't come on as much
Have you met FERA ?)
aww <3
no, I haven't
what about Dugglyn?
Elleni?
Rose?
Luciana?
zaf?
Amethyst?
( is it jus me or does it look like she's shipping star and jai , annika and danni and velvet and rhos just because me and Gem and you jack :P )
(Dugglyn is still here, albeit I haven't spoken to her in aaaages
Elleni comes on rarely
Danni is Rose, she went but has come back a few times recently
Zaf is still here
Luci and Am don't come on anymore..)
What about Dragona?
(I'm not shipping anyone XD
FERA came on early this year, can be okay to get on with but everyone's had some sort of clash with him as he can be quite offensive )
(Dragon sometimes comes on ^.^)
(oops, I forgot to take Rose off after I read your message.. *blushes* I knew that
hmm...I wonder if they'll respond to emails...)
(I wasn't particularly close to them and don't have their emails...
Moss is still here, so is adra and al)
(I have them.
oh yay!!!)
Hey again Viv.
Chloe you forgot John, who ghosts i think And he's busy with college stuff recently. I just finished trimester 1 for the holidays and start back for 1st of February :)
Hello viv who I may possibly know
( cool ^.^
*is depressed* kermit and miss piggy aren't an item anymore...)
may possibly know? I'm pretty sure you do. Hello :-)
(Jaaaack! *glomps*!)
(Oh yeah!
SORRY JOHN IF YOU READ TIS )
Do I? Sorry, bad memory, plus I tend to avoid here if I can
How art thou?
*is glomped*
(*pinches jacks cheeks* smile boy!)
*raises eyebrow* boy?
Didn't I almost kill you once?
(You're my little toy boy ^.^ remember?)
(Whaaa?)
I don't think so.....
I don't really rp
I am?
(Don't you remember ?
Your my toy boy and I'm your cougar...?)
I thought I did once when you were new and we rped just the once
... My memory is awful, you probably diD but I don't remember
Oh yes, I remember Chloe cougar
(*group hug*)
I think it was Jag you fought (Inky, any help here?)
(Um... I thought you guys met but Jack doesn't remember an I can't thinking any specific examples of when you two rped together
Sorry...)
(it's ok)
(Oh well you've 'officially met' now ^.^)
(yay)
(*yawns* I is tired and considering I didn't sleep last night, I'm off... Nos da !
Speak soon VIV ^.^)
(I'm falling asleep, night!)
Just
....
I'm a ghost now
I'm dead
( no offence but last I checked when ghosting one doesn't speak and if dead one couldn't speak... you therefore are alive and not ghosting. :D which are both considerably better than not. )
I have no idea what to do. I'm kinda lost right now...
*offers hugs to Noelle*
:/
Also, while I don't comment a lot I still check my Dugglyn email and read all the comments so I still exist!
But there are always two deaths.
The real one and the one people remember.
*hugs Noelle tightly* I love you dearly.
(Apology accepted, Chloe.)
:-/
Right
-hugs Adra if she wants one then goes to bed-
That was cool. We went to the Macy's in the city and my mom walked right to the line for Santaland and waited the hour so I could see Santa because it's the real Santa at Macy's. Never went before, that was the coolest experience ever. The wait was so worth it! To go inside and they had a rainbow bridge! You had to walk onto the train and from there you walked through a train to exit into the North Pole, then you saw Reindeer and so many sights! Then I saw the tree at Rockerfeller Center and the ice skating rink (though we decided to not skate) but we avoided Times Square because we're going back in February for Kids Night on Broadway so we're gonna eat there so this time we just did what we needed. I saw the Empire State Building (my profile pic) too! Didn't know 34th street was where it was located!
:/ *hugs Noelle*
@Zaf: :) :) :) Awesome! I'm glad you had s good time. :
Hi?
I'm sorry, Noelle. That's a horrible feeling. But you've felt this way before and you've felt happy before, even if it's hard to remember. You will feel happy again.
That sounds amazing, Zaf!
If youce read deamon road you would understand it
(OMG THOSE WHO LOVE AVENGERS LLO AT THIS
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aQ27iS1mkuo)
((*slips silently into the room, carefully closing the door* Hello))
(Oh, hello there)
((Ivy! Yay, I thought no one was here))
((Hello?))
(Sorry, its hard commenting from a phone)
((true. so...))
(Wanna rp?)
((Not especially))
(Well, OK then. What do you want to talk about)
((Sp?))
(Sure. I really like your blog, by the way.)
((um... thanks. I didn't actually think anyone read that.))
(I read it occasionally. More people would probably read it if you posted more often.)
((true, and I do mean to, I just don't have much time. I even think about what I would write during the day.))
(I read it occasionally. More people would probably read it if you posted more often.)
(*'hmmm's thoughtfully*)
((*raises eyebrow slightly*))
(*wonders when an actual conversations will begin*)
((*sighs* ok then. You have a boyfriend?))
(*wonders when an actual conversations will begin*)
(Woah there, that's sudden.)
What's sudden?
((I didn't mean it like that. i just thought that that's what girls would normally talk about. I'm not good at conversations :'( ))
( being asked if I have a boyfriend is sudden)
( hi low hi low )
Oh right
Who is good at conversation, I'm not... But oh wells
Hey k
((hello, peoples I haven't spoken to before. ))
(Likewise. Anyone seem the new Bond film?)
( don't really see how that's sudden... I have a girlfriend... I mean sudden would be asking if you * cuts off train of thought* nvm you sound youngish I'll keep it pg 13 :P
didn't read further up than that tbh but I guess we can go with the good old fashioned msn tacticts ASL ? :P Age sex ( this can be what you identify as too we won't judge) and location :P
((nope, but it sounds cool.))
(*read silently and read it as Silente*
*again xD*
*this happens too often*)
( Dark ..? you've spoken to me a few times.. )
((umm...))
((one moment.. *silently curses the slowness of the computer*))
(Soo...)
((OK))
( I don't ken ok I thought it'd start a convo even if it were one of omg I can't handle that you don't need to know :P hehe
for the record 19 male and Scotland)
(OK what?)
I haven't seen the new bond
((OK seemed like and appropriate response. By the way, Female, 14 and the dreary, miserable hole we like to call the North West of England.))
(cool :P were you effected at all by the flooding ?)
(@Dark Eyes 14? That's young (ish). I'm female, 16 and living somewhere classified (CIA HQ) )
Hey sil btw
((Flooding? Nope. And Ivy, say hi to all your CiA friends for me.))
( how many times a day do you do that jai ? :P I'm not going to lie i've done it both ways read your name as silently and other way obv :P )
(*sighs* I should probably go.)
((Bye Ivy *hugs*))
( CIA headquarters isn't classified :P it's here but yeh you're both young to me :P almost both 00 babies :P why ivy ? :P
*offers hugs if you wants them*
*does this to everyone else*
and yeh Carlisle was flooded and I know thats eastish but thought I should ask )
((*gladly accepts hug* see, that's why i hate talking about age. I'm usually way younger than the people I talk to and I can't stand talking to most people my age.))
((also my laptop is about to die so if you would excuse me for a sec))
((*is back*))
( it's not that you're young I just feel old :P and cool )
((*notices slowness of conversation*))
((*notices how slowness of conversation and slowness of computer are easily mistaken* ok then))
((*goes away*))
How can I?
I just...
I have been doing for about ten- twelve days now. I sent out two emails about it, a month ago, for invitations- to which many people replied in interest, promising their time.
And the only person who wrote with me was Alastair.
How am I not supposed to feel like a fucking idiot?
( you want another person to write with ? I can give you someone to write with ... what you going for? dark, good, ass hole, nice guy, stupid, smart, insane, less insane ? what you want? )
Post a Comment