I'm working hard. Writing fast. Deadline's looming. But while I work, other people have been working too, such as the awesome folks responsible for the covers...
Do you know what is the greatest absurdity of this world?
We die.
We all die.
*He raises a singular, cool shoulder* We live- we speak, we walk, we climb, we run; we have a family, get an education if we can, we perhaps get married, though more often than not is it unhappy. We life these insignificant lives and, even if life was a never ending garden, we are still cast out into exile by death. Then, we are dust.
I'm just saying; even the happiest of people die and, after death, we don't exist anymore, but as ambience. So what is the point of it all? To love? To laugh? And for what end, if we all die?
*As he reappears, he is wearing a thin suit made of lead* *The material is leathery, yet he has managed it* *Scratches his forehead as he places the dead cat on the ground*
I'm not sure if we've actually met, tbh. I think the last time I was able to comment was like 2013-ish? I've "ghosted" since then though, and I know who you are.
@Star I keep being shot or shooting people or having people I trust and like send assassins after me. All these things have happened multiple times and typically the emotions associated with them are quite strong and so even if the dream is not /too awful/ the emotions can make it ten times worse. The one where my Irish dance teacher sent assassins after me happened a a week ago on the night before dance class and at class I felt this irrational terror and I kept trying to avoid my teacher. It still wasn't gone yesterday at dance.
(Welp, that Accounting test was shite. 52% :-/ And i have Uni in 9 hours so i'm going to sleep. So happy that i can just chill this weekend...no Uni no work. Just spending time with family and friends :)
So yesterday at dance my friends and I were talking and somehow I mentioned I used to bang my head on things as a baby when I got angry and one time I banged my head on the oven and it really hurt (i don't remember, but my dad said he was worried I was going to get a concussion) so I never hit the oven again and they thought it was the funniest thing ever. And when my dad came they asked him about it and he told the whole story and my Irish dance teacher was listening and I was just sort of dying and laughing hysterically and I swear they're never going to let me live that down XD
And my Irish dance teacher's first response was "oooh, that's what happened!" And just XD
(Also a good reference of how awesome my Irish dance teacher is and how stupid that dream was)
((I may have time to join tomorrow. I hope so, at least. I should also probably say that if I join and have to disappear at any point in time, I don't mind in the slightest if you continue without me. I could also maybe distantly join now, if you don't have to sleep soon.))
I don't know what to add. Yet! Also I don't have much time (just finished homework and now I'm going to bed. Tomorrow I have school and I'm going to a friend's and then dance) until this weekend but hopefully this weekend I'll be on! You chose a good weekend for me because I'll actually be home! (We're going skiing most weekends and our place doesn't have WiFi or cell service) :D
*The Crucible shrugs one shoulder, and wanders off in the other direction, lifts up a mask that straps around to the back of his head, also made of lead*
*Is at home with her own cat, Petunia/Peanut (Effie named him Petunia, but Rook calls him peanut because he thinks it suits him better. It kind of does. He's peanut-colored, not Petunia-colored. He doesn't mind that Effie calls him Petunia though, as long as he gets plenty of love and food)*
*for some reason, she keeps thinking about Blogland*
Some people may say that I am a natural-born liar. Some people may say that I set out to hurt people. Some people may say that I'm a sick human being that thrives off the pain of others.
The scary bit is, I do not disagree with any of this. I have intentionally caused every single one of you pain to some degree, I refuse to hide that fact. Some worse than others, but still pain was delivered. I have lied. Cheated. Ruined relationships just for the drama of it.
But might I remind you of one of the worst things of human nature that we all overlook?
We cannot see past our mistakes. We focus on our flaws and the flaws of those around us. I have lied, cheated, hurt... But I have also been here for you when you were alone. I have been here for you when you were the one hurting. I have been there when you needed me. I have screwed up my academic life, my social life, and quite possibly my family life for all of you. I have gone days without sleep to make sure you were okay. I have focused more on you than my studies. I have done so much for you, even if you do not realise it, and you all focus on my flaws and on how I have failed you.
I deserve all the words, all the insults and threats and disgust you can offer me ten-fold. After all, we have been through, I deserve death for my crimes against what I still consider as my family. But...
But just maybe...
All the good that you cannot remember and all the good that you can, maybe that can make up for it. I have been here through the thick and the thin, standing up for those who could not stand up for themselves.
Stiltskin Brave is a name you all probably do not remember. He was a friend of ours in the earlier days and did not have the high-standard literacy skills all of us on here possess. And those of you who were there at the time were picking on him, discriminating him for his writing. It would have been easier to 'go with the flow', but I did not. I stood up for him, against all of you.
And I stood up for Zaf when no one else would, when you were all picking on her. I did not have to. I could have let her fall under your words that you threw at her like knives, but I did not. I was there for her when you all were not. When you all decided on being the ones to intentionally cause pain. When you were the ones who did not care how the words affected her, as long as you caused her agony. I was there. Standing against you all and willing to ruin everything I had created over two and a half years for my sister.
...
Maybe it is different for me - an Aussie thing or a personal thing I don't know. You all seem to attack others in a group, and I am the one who will not tolerate that.
Just remember next time you think of me, I am not the only person who has done shitty things in their lives. You all have too. I am not the only monster on this blog. But I have been there to stop youbecause that's what family does.
But might I ask...? Where were you all when I needed someone to stop me?
(I don't disagree with some of the points made there. We have all made mistakes, we have all been bullies and at one point or another we have all felt bullied. And we've all be there for someone at one point.
But don't use that to accuse people of not being there for you, because there's a difference between not being there and not being listened to.)
If our roles were reversed, I would not have rested until I knew that the monster that lurks inside everyone was hauled back into its cage. If I recall correctly, I do not remember a single one of you trying that hard. Perhaps Zafira...
Zaf, just a note, don't read the above. I have no quarrel with you.
(*tilts head* False. Because we all still have monsters lurking inside of us. We couldn't help you if you didn't read our messages Danni. When you tell us numerous times to stop emailing we do, because we think that that maybe might help.)
And someone with depression saying that they are fine, does that make it just to quit worrying about them?
I push people away to see who is really there. It is something that I have done since I was a child. 'I just wanna throw my phone away to find out who is really there for me', as Katy Perry once sang.
Even though I told you not to send them, I still read every single one. Only a few of you disobeyed that rule. That is how I knew that you truly gave to shakes about me. Since I was strangled in prep by who I thought were my two closest friends - this is not a lie, this did actually happen - and no one believed me, I've had some pretty severe trust issues, completely understandably.
Well Danni you didn't respond to all the e-mails we sent you, you got rid of them, remember? how else were we meant to contact you? that was the only way i knew how to contact you. And it didn't work because you didn't see them then you deleted them or something and told us to stop.
You thought I actually would have deleted them...? I would never. I have every single email any of you have ever sent me, and I have read them all. I might not have replied, might have said I would delete them, but I never would have. Ever.
(When one of my friends is upset and they tell me to leave them alone I leave them alone, regardless of how much I want to hug them and talk to them.
When my mum is depressed and I ask her what's wrong and she's says nothing, then keeps saying nothing, I walk away.
When I see new cuts on my friends wrists, or my mum's wrist, or burns on my mum, I ask what happened and ask them not to do it again, but I know not to push it.
Just because I listen to what they ask me to do doesn't mean I don't love my mum and my friends. It just means I respect their wishes and do what they ask, even if it kills me inside.)
@Danni I had no idea if you were responding, or even alive. I tried to track you down irl to contact you, or someone you knew, to find out if you're okay, but your identity is pretty well protected since you're under 18.
Ooh, mum's phone. Cool. What's inside? MY SIM CARD FROM LIKE 12 MONTHS AGO THAT I ASSUMED WAS LOST SO I HAD TO CHANGE MY BLOODY NUMBER!!!!???????? That's cool. Play then. What've you got on it? A pre-installed Solitaire app? I've never played it. Let's try it. Hmm, so this goes here, and this goes here, and... (10 minutes later) so now I've messed it up and have to restart... *sighs* too addictive...)
(@Chloe I'll tell you tomorrow, if I haven't figured it out by then!
@Star My mum asked me to take a look (she doesn't use that phone much, she has a different one) because someone's been calling it. I have not used that number for a year, now. Nobody should be calling it.)
Mark: *blushes, smiling* Isn't the "prince" meant to kiss the princesses hand?
Valnum: *groans, stirring at her voice, grimacing in pain* *looks at her, his face brightening up instantly, a happy grin spreading across his face and his eyes sparkling with life* Suki! Yours alive!
Mark: *holds her close, smiling proudly and happily*
Valnum: *opens the wardrobe, pulling on a new shirt, having to pin his wings under the shirt since it hasn't got holes in it* *walks outside to Suki and Chris*
In case anyone ever wondered it makes more sense to draw skin colour and then draw stubble on top of it, but it is way easier to draw the stubble first and then do skin colour so I would recommend doing it that way round
((That awkward moment when your friend commits suicide and you burn his body and then he comes back as a ghost and is really pissed-off at you burning his body and keeps trying to kill himself (like, again) because he doesn't want to be a ghost for eternity. :P))
[12/4/2015, 19:16] Lizzie: Nick:*appears. Is a ghost looks pissed off* [12/4/2015, 19:16] Me: ((XD)) [12/4/2015, 19:16] Me: ((Um can we see him?)) [12/4/2015, 19:16] Lizzie: ((Yes)) [12/4/2015, 19:17] Me: Morgan: Oh hey Nick. [12/4/2015, 19:16] Catherine: Carrie: *sees Nick* Nick! [12/4/2015, 19:17] Lizzie: Nick: the fuck?! [12/4/2015, 19:17] Catherine: Carrie: *frowns* What? [12/4/2015, 19:17] Lizzie: Nick: well firstly. Why am I a ghost? [12/4/2015, 19:18] Me: Morgan: Um, you died. [12/4/2015, 19:18] Lizzie: Nick: well I can see that, Morgan! [12/4/2015, 19:18] Me: Morgan: Well, people occasionally become ghosts when they die. [12/4/2015, 19:18] Lizzie: Nick: no I mean why is my body all burned up! [12/4/2015, 19:19] Me: Morgan: Oh, yeah. They burnt it. [12/4/2015, 19:19] Me: ((*laughs*)) [12/4/2015, 19:19] Lizzie: Nick: why!? [12/4/2015, 19:19] Me: Morgan: Don't ask me. [12/4/2015, 19:19] Me: Morgan: Cas saved your book though. [12/4/2015, 19:19] Lizzie: Dean: we were trying to not let you be a ghost [12/4/2015, 19:19] Me: ((*laughs*)) [12/4/2015, 19:19] Lizzie: Nick:*looks at cas* thank you cas *looks at dean* why?!! [12/4/2015, 19:20] Lizzie: Nick: what am I supposed to do now?!!
[12/4/2015, 19:40] Catherine: Dan: *appears amongst the group* *is kind of battered up and bloody* *looks around* Hey. [12/4/2015, 19:41] Me: Morgan: Hey Dan. Um, Nick's committing suicide. [12/4/2015, 19:42] Catherine: Dan: For the second time in one day? *to Nick* Dude. Not cool.
[12/4/2015, 19:44] Catherine: Dan: *takes Nick's book off him* [12/4/2015, 19:44] Lizzie: Nick:Dan! [12/4/2015, 19:44] Lizzie: Nick: the hell! [12/4/2015, 19:45] Catherine: Dan: I'm not letting you have it. *puts it in his pocket* [12/4/2015, 19:45] Lizzie: Nick: why not!? [12/4/2015, 19:45] Catherine: Dan: Because that would be like putting your life in your hands. [12/4/2015, 19:46] Lizzie: Nick: what?! [12/4/2015, 19:46] Lizzie: Nick: I want to burn it I'm not staying as a ghost forever [12/4/2015, 19:51] Catherine: Dan: Well, unfortunately that's not your choice anymore. [12/4/2015, 19:51] Lizzie: Nick: why isn't it [12/4/2015, 19:51] Lizzie: Nick: just give me the book! [12/4/2015, 19:53] Catherine: Dan: Sorry, kid. [12/4/2015, 19:54] Lizzie: Nick: Dan give me the fucking book or I swear to god I'll haunt you for the rest of your life! [12/4/2015, 19:57] Catherine: Dan: Mm. [12/4/2015, 19:57] Lizzie: Nick: I mean it!
Hey guys. Thank you Keiron, Chloe, Jai, Kassy, John. Did i miss anyone? Might be a bit slow as grandma and papa are over. Oh god here comes the cake. One sec.
Chris:yeah... but how do you think I feel! I know you need to feed but do you think I like you going out sleeping with a woman! *his voice is really upset and desperate*
Kiana: *shifts the next morning* *there's bruising on her neck*
Mark: Later, we can hunt later. *smiles*
MrBBWolf: *stands up, dropping the pillow and spreading his wings* I HAVE TOLD YOU. That I regretted that every time. That it makes me feel dirty and wrong. But I HAVE to do it for survival! I do it with a FEMALE so that you won't get jealous if I do it with a man. I DON'T HAVE A CHOICE! But you, you slept with HIM and you don't need intercourse to live. YOU CHEATED ON ME CHRIS!
Chris: NO I DIDNT! Remember the time you attracted Inky? Do you remember her reaction the next morning?! Just because I cant get pregnant doesn't mean Im not affected! *voice breaks slightly*
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*He dutifully ignores him*
Do you know what is the greatest absurdity of this world?
We die.
We all die.
*He raises a singular, cool shoulder* We live- we speak, we walk, we climb, we run; we have a family, get an education if we can, we perhaps get married, though more often than not is it unhappy. We life these insignificant lives and, even if life was a never ending garden, we are still cast out into exile by death. Then, we are dust.
I'm just saying; even the happiest of people die and, after death, we don't exist anymore, but as ambience. So what is the point of it all? To love? To laugh? And for what end, if we all die?
*blinks* Would you like me to answer that, or will you ignore me again if I do?
*Considers that* You're right. I will ignore you.
So you're essentially just talking to yourself now.
(*hugs Noelle, if she's cool with that* Its great to see you on again Noelle!
I have two French exams today, after a French lesson as well.)
((*watches with interest :)
@Jai: The after-a-French-lesson is good. You can last-minute revise then. :)
(@Star our teacher won't let us revise.)
@Jai: Wtf!!!!!!!!!!!
(Ikr, we're busy writing our stupid speaking paragraphs.)
(Hello. I had the weirdest dream(s) today. I don't usually dream...)
I dream.
Too much...
(@Duggy Ever see Brandi Carlile in your dreams?)
I don't dream that much. Occasionally though I have like a week where I dream every night. :P I usually forget my dreams, too . . .
( hey guys :D blooming knackered btw :P lol stayed up most the night installing a lot of things on my new laptop :D )
(*waves at Duggy, Star and Keiron*
@Star I rarely dream. But I can have good dreams when I do dream.
@Keiron Would you be interested in buying the new Battlefront?)
( already got it Kas :P dirt cheap too :D :P )
(*pokes K!*)
( I have more than one tab open :P *pokes back* )
(check facebook for a size comparison of a 15.6 " to a hard back :P
)
(@Keiron How cheap and where?)
(Well this place is empty...)
(Hello.
Apologies for the temporary absence. I have been attempting to focus on my writing. Not that it is especially working, but nevertheless.)
(The song 'sweet things ' by pretty reckless reminds me of larry lesalle )
(The Pretty Reckless are one of my favourites.)
(Same here ^.^
Hi soph! How've you been ?)
(I have been alright, I suppose. Yourself?)
*As he reappears, he is wearing a thin suit made of lead* *The material is leathery, yet he has managed it* *Scratches his forehead as he places the dead cat on the ground*
(I am okay, still angry over something that happened earlier but I'm calming down
Hey Cru!)
(FUCK THERES A SPIDER HANGING OVER ME!!! GET IT AWAH )
@Kas YES FIVE TIMES
THOSE ARE LIKE THE ONLY GOOD DREAMS!
The rest are .... Disturbing.
May I ask what you have a cat for?
( @kas only £600 :P came with my laptop as it's a starwars special edition :P )
@Dugglyn: Disturbing in what way?
Hi. Might be here. Might not.
((Kitty... D:))
Have you been married already, Effie? I don't quite remember when it was that we last spoke, and if the date has already passed.
No, I have not. Trying to find a day that works. :-(
Hopefully later this month!
Then I wish you luck finding a date.
Good god I read some comments, I'm in A Christmas Carol and I feel like I just read it via comments.
Now I'm off to go get ready for dress rehearsal. Adios.
Thanks dude.
(Hi.
@Zafira Have fun! :)
Hey, Sophia. Missed you. How've you been? :)
Was watching The Empire Strikes Back to get into the Star Wars spirit.
@Keiron Someone in TEST is selling their code for £21, which is a good deal considering the game is £50 on Origin.)
(@Effie Are you new??????????????????? *offers warm hugs*
*and cookies*)
Yo Kas.
I approve of your choice in movies.
Nah, not new.
Just unable to comment without the cooperation of a friend.
*hugs, and takes a cookie for later but doesn't eat one now because I was just at a holiday party and I had way too much unhealthy food*
(Just rewatching it, last time I saw the trilogy is August.
Who are you, Effie????? I don't remember you :///)
I'm Effie?
It's not always short for the same thing though.
I'm not sure if we've actually met, tbh. I think the last time I was able to comment was like 2013-ish? I've "ghosted" since then though, and I know who you are.
...
That sounds creeeeeeepy, doesn't it?
The feline? I hit her. She is dead now
(Ah, I see. I don't think we've met, in that case. Pleased to meet you, Effie.
Crucible??? Have we met?)
:-( Poor kitty
If you try to do that to Petunia, I will eat your soul, weird and creepy dude.
Nice to meet you too, Kas. *dramatic introductory bow*
(*bows*
And it's time for me to go to sleep now. If I can put down the phone.
Get away, phone!
-_-
Good night, guys!)
Good luck sleeping, Kas. It's a skill.
Well, if that's the only reason, would you mind if I took her?
@Star
I keep being shot or shooting people or having people I trust and like send assassins after me.
All these things have happened multiple times and typically the emotions associated with them are quite strong and so even if the dream is not /too awful/ the emotions can make it ten times worse.
The one where my Irish dance teacher sent assassins after me happened a a week ago on the night before dance class and at class I felt this irrational terror and I kept trying to avoid my teacher.
It still wasn't gone yesterday at dance.
@Dugglyn: :( :( :( :(
(Welp, that Accounting test was shite. 52% :-/ And i have Uni in 9 hours so i'm going to sleep. So happy that i can just chill this weekend...no Uni no work. Just spending time with family and friends :)
No, I do not believe we have. *He glances over* *He downloads*
I'll assume I'm still being ignored, then. *scoops the cat up, and heals her body, before returning her soul to her*
*The cat meows- she is large and orange* *ashe purrs *
*The Crucible pauses* You always were a little soft.
Sorry, Alice, if I did sound like I ignored you. I'm sorta half here today been at school until 7 or 8pm....
All week no less so yeah I'm out of it. K I should sleep *slowly dies
*The Crucible sharpens his fingernails*
So yesterday at dance my friends and I were talking and somehow I mentioned I used to bang my head on things as a baby when I got angry and one time I banged my head on the oven and it really hurt (i don't remember, but my dad said he was worried I was going to get a concussion) so I never hit the oven again and they thought it was the funniest thing ever.
And when my dad came they asked him about it and he told the whole story and my Irish dance teacher was listening and I was just sort of dying and laughing hysterically and I swear they're never going to let me live that down XD
And my Irish dance teacher's first response was "oooh, that's what happened!" And just XD
(Also a good reference of how awesome my Irish dance teacher is and how stupid that dream was)
(Also this role play is really interesting and I am enjoying reading it!)
Reading it? And not join?
((I may have time to join tomorrow. I hope so, at least. I should also probably say that if I join and have to disappear at any point in time, I don't mind in the slightest if you continue without me. I could also maybe distantly join now, if you don't have to sleep soon.))
I don't know what to add.
Yet!
Also I don't have much time (just finished homework and now I'm going to bed. Tomorrow I have school and I'm going to a friend's and then dance) until this weekend but hopefully this weekend I'll be on! You chose a good weekend for me because I'll actually be home! (We're going skiing most weekends and our place doesn't have WiFi or cell service) :D
Who, me? *pauses* I suppose I was. *strokes the cat*
Of course.
*The Crucible shrugs one shoulder, and wanders off in the other direction, lifts up a mask that straps around to the back of his head, also made of lead*
*pets the cat for a few moments longer, and then glances through her memories, to see where she lives*
*Is at home with her own cat, Petunia/Peanut (Effie named him Petunia, but Rook calls him peanut because he thinks it suits him better. It kind of does. He's peanut-colored, not Petunia-colored. He doesn't mind that Effie calls him Petunia though, as long as he gets plenty of love and food)*
*for some reason, she keeps thinking about Blogland*
*she can't remember when she was last there*
*maybe she should visit soon...*
Some people may say that I am a natural-born liar. Some people may say that I set out to hurt people. Some people may say that I'm a sick human being that thrives off the pain of others.
The scary bit is, I do not disagree with any of this. I have intentionally caused every single one of you pain to some degree, I refuse to hide that fact. Some worse than others, but still pain was delivered. I have lied. Cheated. Ruined relationships just for the drama of it.
But might I remind you of one of the worst things of human nature that we all overlook?
We cannot see past our mistakes. We focus on our flaws and the flaws of those around us. I have lied, cheated, hurt... But I have also been here for you when you were alone. I have been here for you when you were the one hurting. I have been there when you needed me. I have screwed up my academic life, my social life, and quite possibly my family life for all of you. I have gone days without sleep to make sure you were okay. I have focused more on you than my studies. I have done so much for you, even if you do not realise it, and you all focus on my flaws and on how I have failed you.
I deserve all the words, all the insults and threats and disgust you can offer me ten-fold. After all, we have been through, I deserve death for my crimes against what I still consider as my family. But...
But just maybe...
All the good that you cannot remember and all the good that you can, maybe that can make up for it. I have been here through the thick and the thin, standing up for those who could not stand up for themselves.
Stiltskin Brave is a name you all probably do not remember. He was a friend of ours in the earlier days and did not have the high-standard literacy skills all of us on here possess. And those of you who were there at the time were picking on him, discriminating him for his writing. It would have been easier to 'go with the flow', but I did not. I stood up for him, against all of you.
And I stood up for Zaf when no one else would, when you were all picking on her. I did not have to. I could have let her fall under your words that you threw at her like knives, but I did not. I was there for her when you all were not. When you all decided on being the ones to intentionally cause pain. When you were the ones who did not care how the words affected her, as long as you caused her agony. I was there. Standing against you all and willing to ruin everything I had created over two and a half years for my sister.
...
Maybe it is different for me - an Aussie thing or a personal thing I don't know. You all seem to attack others in a group, and I am the one who will not tolerate that.
Just remember next time you think of me, I am not the only person who has done shitty things in their lives. You all have too. I am not the only monster on this blog. But I have been there to stop you because that's what family does.
But might I ask...? Where were you all when I needed someone to stop me?
I was there Danni. I e-mailed you but you didn't want my help. That's the difference.We try to help you but you didn't want our help.
I didn't help you before that because of the whole John thing.
(We were here.
Asking you to stop.
And watching as you shut us out.)
(I don't disagree with some of the points made there. We have all made mistakes, we have all been bullies and at one point or another we have all felt bullied. And we've all be there for someone at one point.
But don't use that to accuse people of not being there for you, because there's a difference between not being there and not being listened to.)
If our roles were reversed, I would not have rested until I knew that the monster that lurks inside everyone was hauled back into its cage. If I recall correctly, I do not remember a single one of you trying that hard. Perhaps Zafira...
Zaf, just a note, don't read the above. I have no quarrel with you.
(*tilts head* False. Because we all still have monsters lurking inside of us.
We couldn't help you if you didn't read our messages Danni. When you tell us numerous times to stop emailing we do, because we think that that maybe might help.)
And someone with depression saying that they are fine, does that make it just to quit worrying about them?
I push people away to see who is really there. It is something that I have done since I was a child. 'I just wanna throw my phone away to find out who is really there for me', as Katy Perry once sang.
Even though I told you not to send them, I still read every single one. Only a few of you disobeyed that rule. That is how I knew that you truly gave to shakes about me. Since I was strangled in prep by who I thought were my two closest friends - this is not a lie, this did actually happen - and no one believed me, I've had some pretty severe trust issues, completely understandably.
Well Danni you didn't respond to all the e-mails we sent you, you got rid of them, remember? how else were we meant to contact you? that was the only way i knew how to contact you. And it didn't work because you didn't see them then you deleted them or something and told us to stop.
You thought I actually would have deleted them...? I would never. I have every single email any of you have ever sent me, and I have read them all. I might not have replied, might have said I would delete them, but I never would have. Ever.
(When one of my friends is upset and they tell me to leave them alone I leave them alone, regardless of how much I want to hug them and talk to them.
When my mum is depressed and I ask her what's wrong and she's says nothing, then keeps saying nothing, I walk away.
When I see new cuts on my friends wrists, or my mum's wrist, or burns on my mum, I ask what happened and ask them not to do it again, but I know not to push it.
Just because I listen to what they ask me to do doesn't mean I don't love my mum and my friends.
It just means I respect their wishes and do what they ask, even if it kills me inside.)
(Hello.
@Danni I had no idea if you were responding, or even alive. I tried to track you down irl to contact you, or someone you knew, to find out if you're okay, but your identity is pretty well protected since you're under 18.
So it's not like you let me be there for you.)
-hugs Kassy Jai and Danni-
( HAPPPPY BIRTHDAY GEMMMMMYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY <3 I love you have a wonderful day baby )
(PENBLWYDD HAPUS Gem!
...I don't have your email Danni
And I don't think I could've said anything that would've helped...)
(*hugs everybody who's here*
Noelle? *gently hugs her, if she wants*
*waves at Keiron and Chloe*
Distant, sorry. How are you both doing?)
(*huggles Kas*)
(*tacklehugs Chloe*
How be youuuuuu!!????)
(Whoops battery is low -_-)
(I be gooooooooooooooooood
you?)
(I'm fine, Chloe! But can't talk now, I'm out and phone's battery dropped by 4% while typing this comment :O 5%)
(okay! speak soooon ^.^_)
(*sighs* I was born in the wrong era)
[hugs everyone in general and Noelle in particular]
Interesting memory of events you've got there, Danni...
I...I'm not going to say anything. I have a feeling it will just make things worse.
Just...
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I love you all, even those of you I don't particularly like.
I remember quoting that bit in one of my first dedications, and it seems a fitting way to close.
(*hugs fabi* you're awesome, remember that ^,^)
*hugs Lantern*
(Hey starry!)
:) Hey Chloe.
XD I wear earphones do much that I think my ears are actually changing shape.
(So I spent way too much money today.)
(The guy on Jeremy Kyle is crying his eyes out, deseprate to see his kids... I want to hug him)
(How is everyone?)
^so
@Jai: :(
@Chloe: :( :(
@Chloe: Good thanks. :) Spent the past few hours drawing. You?
(I'm, you know, skint again. I'm okay :) You?)
(I is hungry
Waiting for Jack to come home...)
(Hi!
@Jai What did you buy? :)
(Brother Kas! *supermegatacklehugofdoom*)
(@Star
Ooh, mum's phone. Cool. What's inside? MY SIM CARD FROM LIKE 12 MONTHS AGO THAT I ASSUMED WAS LOST SO I HAD TO CHANGE MY BLOODY NUMBER!!!!???????? That's cool. Play then. What've you got on it? A pre-installed Solitaire app? I've never played it. Let's try it. Hmm, so this goes here, and this goes here, and... (10 minutes later) so now I've messed it up and have to restart... *sighs* too addictive...)
(*okay then
*is floored by the hug* Chloe!!!! :S
*huggles*)
(*huggles* how art thou ?)
(I am fine! :)
Just.... wondering about something silly. And waiting for Gem so I can wish her a wonderful birthday.)
@Kas: :( :( :(
XD XD
I love solitaire.
(Wondering about what?)
(@Chloe I'll tell you tomorrow, if I haven't figured it out by then!
@Star My mum asked me to take a look (she doesn't use that phone much, she has a different one) because someone's been calling it. I have not used that number for a year, now. Nobody should be calling it.)
(Okay ^,^)
@Kas: O_o
(@Kas lots.
And lots.
And lots of Christmas stuff.)
Happy birthday, Gemma.
(Hey John!)
(Hey J!
Hey Chloe!
I bought myself a Christmas jumper (I realized I didn't have one) and now I feel all festive!)
(Awesome!)
(Hey, Jai and John!
Did you buy anything else, Jai?)
(Christmas presents for everyone else, a book for myself, more Christmas presents.)
(ugh... why couldn't I be a Victorian country girl?!)
(previously in blogland:)
Felix; *chuckles*
Clocky: sure *smiles*
Chris: nah, he loves Inky so much and will kill and torture anyone who hurts her
Why?!
Kiana: *peaks over his shoulder, smiling at the wind*
Mark: Okay then, from now on me and you can hunt.
James: I'll be seeing you again miss flame.
*teleports away*
Valnum: *is "asleep" on the ground*
*more fainted due to blood loss type thing*
(We got to here I think.)
Felix: *stops as they arrive back*
Clocky: thank you
thank you!
Suki: WHeres my baby?!
welcome back *grins* to the land of the living
Kiana: *purrs, yawning again*
Mark: You're welcome.
*squeezes her hand gently*
MrBBWolf: *to him it's been around a month*
Felix: lets get you to bed *jumps off*
Clocky: *kisses his hand*
Suki and Inky walk outside*
Suki: Valnum!
Kiana: *shakes her head*
*-No sleep!-*
Mark: *blushes, smiling*
Isn't the "prince" meant to kiss the princesses hand?
Valnum: *groans, stirring at her voice, grimacing in pain*
*looks at her, his face brightening up instantly, a happy grin spreading across his face and his eyes sparkling with life*
Suki! Yours alive!
Felix: yes sleep!
Clocky: *shrugs*
Suki: *crosses arms* ive heard you've been up to no good
Kiana: *-No!-*
Mark: *pulls her closer, holding her around the waist*
Valnum: Uh.. yeah.. maybe a little bit.
*can't take his eyes off of her*
Felix: please...
Clocky: *smiles and ticks fastly when he does*
Suki: *turns head* disgusting
Kiana: *-No.-*
Mark: *smiles at his ticking before realizing its echoed by his own*
Valnum: *his expression drops, he looks heart broken*
Suki..?
Felix: you have to sleep some time
Clocky: *blushes and smiles*
Suki: Wolf was a good guy and you have done that...
Kiana: *-Do not.-*
Mark: *smiles back*
Guess I'll have to get used to that?
Valnum: I.. they killed you. I had too.
Felix: do too
Clocky: *nods, slightly giddy*
Suki: I had a frigging baby Val! it didn't go well and I refused to eat!
Kiana: *-Do not-*
Mark: *smiles, kissing her gently*
Valnum: at least you're alive now!
*sounds sleepy and faint again*
eyo
Felix, do too
Clocky: *kisses^
Suki: well you better get wolf back or it will refuse to do business with you
(Hey)
(Hey Fera!)
Kiana: *-No I don't.-*
Mark: You're adorable, you know that?
Valnum: *looks miserable but nods, blinking when it makes his head swim*
Okay.. Okay.
*tries to sit up but falls back over*
Felix: why not?
Clocky: *blushes* I'm not
Chris: I think he needs to be healed first...
Kiana: *-Safety!-*
Mark: You are.
*presses his nose gently against her*
You're brilliant.
Valnum: *groans quietly and nods*
Felix: everything sleeps!
Clocky: m mark...
*carries val to her room and heals him*
Kiana: *-Don't need to.-*
Mark: *smiles*
Yes Tick?
Valnum: *pushes himself to a sat up position*
Thank you..
Felix: nothing will harm you..
Clocky: I love you
*shrugs* I so would've ripped your throT out
Kiana: *-Cause I'll stay up.-*
Mark: *blushes slightly*
I love you too Clocky..
Valnum: You missed.
*looks at his ripped shirt*
Do you.. possibly have a shirt?
Felox: I will watch whilst you sleep
Clocky: *ticks as fast as she can*
Second room to your right
Kiana: *- I'll watch while you sleep.-*
Mark: *smiles, ticking in time, listening to their ticking*
Valnum: Thank you.. I'll be out in a second.
*goes to the second room to the right, looking for a shirt*
Felix: I don't need it, you do
Clocky; *rests head against his chest
Okay *theyre in the wardrobe*
Kiana: *-Do not.-*
Mark: *holds her close, smiling proudly and happily*
Valnum: *opens the wardrobe, pulling on a new shirt, having to pin his wings under the shirt since it hasn't got holes in it*
*walks outside to Suki and Chris*
Felix: do too
Clocky: *kisses his chest* we better get back...
*is now outside*
Suki: now bring wolf back
In case anyone ever wondered
it makes more sense to draw skin colour and then draw stubble on top of it, but it is way easier to draw the stubble first and then do skin colour so I would recommend doing it that way round
(@ star Okay :)
Kiana: *-Do not.-*
Mark: Probably.
*links their arms*
Valnum: I will. Who's coming with me?
Felix: do!
Clocky: *smiles* lets go, lover boy
Chris: me
Kiana: *-Do not.-*
Mark: *laughs*
Lover boy?
Valnum: Anyone else?
Felix: do
Clocky: *blushes* sorry
Suki: I have a son to see to... that I haven't met yet
Kiana: *-Not.-*
Mark: No, it's okay. I like it.
I'll be your werecow loverboy.
Valnum: Okay.
*isn't Xander at Inky's?*
Hold onto me.
Felix: Do!
Clocky: yay!
*he is*
Chris: holds on*
Suki: see you
(*watches assignation classroom*)
Kiana: *-Not!-*
Mark: *smiles, kissing her gently*
I love you.
Valnum: Bye.. I'll be back soon?
Felix: Are!
CLocky: *kisses* I love you too
Suki: okay... and you better bring him back!
((That awkward moment when your friend commits suicide and you burn his body and then he comes back as a ghost and is really pissed-off at you burning his body and keeps trying to kill himself (like, again) because he doesn't want to be a ghost for eternity. :P))
(what?!)
(..???)
Kiana: *-Not!-*
Mark: You're the best thing to happen to me..
Valnum: I will do. I promise.
*both him and Chris vanish to the incu/subu realm*
Felix: are!
Clocky: surely that's not true...
Chris: *shouts* woooolf!!
@Chloe: Oh. Roleplay. :P
Been quite funny really.
[12/4/2015, 19:16] Lizzie: Nick:*appears. Is a ghost looks pissed off*
[12/4/2015, 19:16] Me: ((XD))
[12/4/2015, 19:16] Me: ((Um can we see him?))
[12/4/2015, 19:16] Lizzie: ((Yes))
[12/4/2015, 19:17] Me: Morgan: Oh hey Nick.
[12/4/2015, 19:16] Catherine: Carrie: *sees Nick* Nick!
[12/4/2015, 19:17] Lizzie: Nick: the fuck?!
[12/4/2015, 19:17] Catherine: Carrie: *frowns* What?
[12/4/2015, 19:17] Lizzie: Nick: well firstly. Why am I a ghost?
[12/4/2015, 19:18] Me: Morgan: Um, you died.
[12/4/2015, 19:18] Lizzie: Nick: well I can see that, Morgan!
[12/4/2015, 19:18] Me: Morgan: Well, people occasionally become ghosts when they die.
[12/4/2015, 19:18] Lizzie: Nick: no I mean why is my body all burned up!
[12/4/2015, 19:19] Me: Morgan: Oh, yeah. They burnt it.
[12/4/2015, 19:19] Me: ((*laughs*))
[12/4/2015, 19:19] Lizzie: Nick: why!?
[12/4/2015, 19:19] Me: Morgan: Don't ask me.
[12/4/2015, 19:19] Me: Morgan: Cas saved your book though.
[12/4/2015, 19:19] Lizzie: Dean: we were trying to not let you be a ghost
[12/4/2015, 19:19] Me: ((*laughs*))
[12/4/2015, 19:19] Lizzie: Nick:*looks at cas* thank you cas *looks at dean* why?!!
[12/4/2015, 19:20] Lizzie: Nick: what am I supposed to do now?!!
[12/4/2015, 19:40] Catherine: Dan: *appears amongst the group* *is kind of battered up and bloody* *looks around* Hey.
[12/4/2015, 19:41] Me: Morgan: Hey Dan. Um, Nick's committing suicide.
[12/4/2015, 19:42] Catherine: Dan: For the second time in one day? *to Nick* Dude. Not cool.
[12/4/2015, 19:44] Catherine: Dan: *takes Nick's book off him*
[12/4/2015, 19:44] Lizzie: Nick:Dan!
[12/4/2015, 19:44] Lizzie: Nick: the hell!
[12/4/2015, 19:45] Catherine: Dan: I'm not letting you have it. *puts it in his pocket*
[12/4/2015, 19:45] Lizzie: Nick: why not!?
[12/4/2015, 19:45] Catherine: Dan: Because that would be like putting your life in your hands.
[12/4/2015, 19:46] Lizzie: Nick: what?!
[12/4/2015, 19:46] Lizzie: Nick: I want to burn it I'm not staying as a ghost forever
[12/4/2015, 19:51] Catherine: Dan: Well, unfortunately that's not your choice anymore.
[12/4/2015, 19:51] Lizzie: Nick: why isn't it
[12/4/2015, 19:51] Lizzie: Nick: just give me the book!
[12/4/2015, 19:53] Catherine: Dan: Sorry, kid.
[12/4/2015, 19:54] Lizzie: Nick: Dan give me the fucking book or I swear to god I'll haunt you for the rest of your life!
[12/4/2015, 19:57] Catherine: Dan: Mm.
[12/4/2015, 19:57] Lizzie: Nick: I mean it!
Oh dear.
Kiana: *-Not!-*
Mark: it is!
Valnum: That won't work.
*walks to the pub, walking up the the BBM*
Hey, has a guy washed up here, sobbing, wearing a suit and a top hat?
BBM: Yeah. Why.
(right XD)
Felix: do I need to force you to sleep?
Clocky: Maaark...
Chris: *follows*
Kiana: *-You wouldn't..-*
Mark: Its true.
Valnum: This is his fiancé. We need to talk to him.
BBM: Fiancé? He doesn't want to see you.
Felix: wouldn't I?
Clocky: I love you!
Chris: please... *begs*
Kiana: *-No!-*
Mark: I love you too!
BBM: Sorry but he isn't in a go-
Valnum: Its my fault. Let him. And me.
BBM: *stares at them both*
Felix: &shrugs*
Clocky: *crushes him in a hug*
Chris: please...
Kiana: *narrows her eyes*
Mark: *yelps and hugs her gently back*
BBM: Fine. But if you upset him more than he is, I'm chucking you out, and your scaley friend.
Valnum: Okay.
BBM: *opens a trap door behind the bar, holding it open for them*
Felix: *rushes behind her and headlocks her gently*
Clocky: *walks, holding his hand*
Chris: *rushes through*
Kiana: *hisses, struggling, not wanting to scratch him*
Mark: *is holding her hand*
*they're finally getting close to home*
Valnum: *walks through behind him*
BBM: *follows behind them as well, closing the trap door*
MrBBWolf: *is in the spare room, staring at the wall, dark bags under his eyes, the beginnings of a beard having formed*
*he's also much skinnier*
Felix: will you sleep?
Clocky: something is cooking!
Chris: Wolf?
Kiana: *growls loudly, squirming to escape his grip*
Mark: What?
BBM: *Wolf is in the other room*
*opens the door for them*
Don't upset him.
MrBBWolf: *doesn't react*
Valnum: *walks in*
Felix: *keeps it firm*
Clocky: *sniffs* venison...
Chris: *also walks in* Wolf... I am so sorry...
Kiana: *whimpers, struggling more*
*-Let me go!-*
Mark: Deer?
*grins*
MrBBWolf: *flinches at the noise*
*has his back to Chris*
Valnum: *raises an eyebrow*
Felix: will you sleep?
Clocky: Yep *smiles(
Chris: please Wolf... Valnum made me... you know the attraction thing? he did that to me...
Kiana: *-No!-*
Mark: I like deer.
MrBBWolf: *shifts, crushing the pillow he's hugging*
Felix: *tightens lock*
Clocky: never had it...
Chris: *begs* please...
Kiana: *coughs, struggling more*
*breathing rapidly, completely tensed up to avoid hurting him*
Mark: I've hunted it a few times.
Valnum: wolf look at your damn fiancé.
Felix: *tightens*
Clocky: really?
Chris: Wolf... I love you
Kiana: *squeaks slightly before passing out in his arms*
Mark: Yeah. Not easy alone. Got hurt a few times.
MrBBWolf: *slowly turns to look at Chris*
Felix: *cushions her fall and carries her to bed*
Clocky: you poor thing...
Chris: please forgive me...
Kiana: *fast asleep now*
Mark: Nah, I was fine in the end.
MrBBWolf: *trembles*
Hey guys. Thank you Keiron, Chloe, Jai, Kassy, John. Did i miss anyone?
Might be a bit slow as grandma and papa are over.
Oh god here comes the cake. One sec.
(Hi Gem)
Felix: *tucks her in and lays beside her*
Clocky: *smiles* tough cookie
Chris: I love you WOlf... only you...
(Hey gem!)
Kiana: *time skip?*
Mark: *laughs, rubbing the back of his neck*
Guess you could say that.
MrBBWolf: You. Cheated. On. Me.
Valnum: That was my fault.
Felix: *yep ^.^*
Clocky: *enters cottage* I must hunt with you
Chris:yeah... but how do you think I feel! I know you need to feed but do you think I like you going out sleeping with a woman! *his voice is really upset and desperate*
Kiana: *shifts the next morning*
*there's bruising on her neck*
Mark: Later, we can hunt later.
*smiles*
MrBBWolf: *stands up, dropping the pillow and spreading his wings*
I HAVE TOLD YOU. That I regretted that every time. That it makes me feel dirty and wrong. But I HAVE to do it for survival! I do it with a FEMALE so that you won't get jealous if I do it with a man. I DON'T HAVE A CHOICE! But you, you slept with HIM and you don't need intercourse to live. YOU CHEATED ON ME CHRIS!
Felix: *cuddles up to her*
Clocky: yay!
Chris: NO I DIDNT! Remember the time you attracted Inky? Do you remember her reaction the next morning?! Just because I cant get pregnant doesn't mean Im not affected! *voice breaks slightly*
Kiana: *whimpers, shifting because her throat hurts*
Mark: *smiles at her*
MrBBWolf: *grits his teeth, seething*
Felix: *whispers* im so sorry...
Clocky:lets eat!
CHris: FIne *takes off his ring and throws it to the floor* Im going *starts to leave*
They got me an anime cake with a sparkler! :D
(anime cake!)
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