I'm working hard. Writing fast. Deadline's looming. But while I work, other people have been working too, such as the awesome folks responsible for the covers...
@Kas: What I think happened is that drawing happens on such a slooooooooooow scale. Two hours of drawing time is not a lot of drawing time. I've drawn maybe three centimetres cubed in this amount of time. And thus, because I've not moved on very far and haven't done too much, it feels like I haven't been working long. So it doesn't feel like much time has passed. Whereas in normal non-drawing life, two hours is quite a bit of time.
I'm 17 years old and I play on playgrounds, I run around on skateparks, and I beg Aaron to take me to toy shops. I roleplay almost all day now, but on Tumblr. On Supernatural blogs. Because Gabriel is awesome, and you can annoy the Hell out of Balthazar if you even mention the Titanic.
And I've been going for this whole 'don't insult anyone because they don't deserve it' kind thing recently...
And breaking that rule, that Lunaeria chic is a bitch. And no. It wasn't me. I kinda address people with capitals as a general rule... #PerksOfBeingAnEnglishLanguageStudent #iTry2BeBetterThanThatKindOfTrash
Um, yes, I did read Lunaeria as Lunaria and put two and two together. Sorry. :(
But considering your history, Danni, you have no claim to innocence and it's entirely rational of me to suspect you could have posted that comment. So I'm not apologising for assuming the worst of you. Although I am apologising for the misreading - I wouldn't have suspected you in the way that I did if I hadn't thought it was Lunaria.
it's my job to break my bones jai, especially by punching very hard things...though surprisingly, none of my bones have every been broken. Not even when I crashed into a tree, chin first at high velocity, and was only 7. I did have to get a lot of stitches on my chin though.
(My room is a mess and mums complaining about it. Why is my room a mess? I have school books everywhere. Why are the school books everywhere? Because my mocks start tomorrow so I've been revising, something mum always shouts at me for not doing. And now I'm being complained at because I listened to her and started revising. What happens if I don't keep my room clean AND telepathically know that the cats have eaten all their biscuits? I get no spend, even though my big brother NEVER does his storming job and yet it paid £5 more that I am.
Fuck it. I'm just going to flunk my tests and let my room get as messy as it wants to be. I don't care anymore. I can't ever do anything right in that woman's mind.)
(Maybe if you want me to be a good daughter you should respect me more than to threaten me. Maybe you should tell me I've done well when I've got good grades. Maybe you should encourage me more. Maybe you should ask instead of writing a note. Maybe you should be a good mother who doesn't blame their child for things that go wrong and who protects her family from monsters, not lets them babysit.)
i think there are a few reasons for parents telling you to tidy your room...1. They want you to learn to be organized and tidy, so you'll take good care of yourself later 2.Other parents do it, so they want to do what's perceived as "good" for parents to do. 3.To relieve some stress they have by taking advantage of the situations that they have authority over you
it must be annoying, but i've never had that problem, since my room is fairly tidy nearly all the time. I like to organize stuff, and pack everything neatly. I've got my graduation ceremony(for the national citizenship course) in a bit, see ya'll.
@Fera: My parents don't make me tidy my room. They used to make us clear out our rooms properly a few times a year. Nowadays I only tend to properly tidy my room the week before our Christmas party (I'm usually clearing out Christmas words arches from the last Christmas party. :P) I think this is for two reasons - number one, my parents have a pretty relaxed parenting style, and number two, my mum's room is so untidy that I'm not sure she ever felt justified telling us our rooms had to be tidy. :P
But anyway, my friend Darcie is ALWAYS getting told to tidy her room. Her mum's always like "oh I won't give you money unless your room is tidy" and I have no idea why the fuck it is an issue. I mean, when you're younger - five, eight, ten, even twelve - I can see why they insist on tidiness (teaching us to be organised, like you said) but we are sixteen/seventeen now and I think we're old enough to choose how we want our own rooms.
well, those people's parents, getting told off for it, clearly don't think that they're old enough to choose how their room is supposed to be...oh and organization and tidiness pleases my eyes :p
With Jai though her mum gets her to babysit but them tells her to tidy her room O_o lack of logic there
You see, I am a messy being with messy handwriting and messy organisation and a messy room. :P Cat once told me that anything I tried to do just ended up being a mess, unless it was drawing. I have to admit I agree with her.
(That's partially why I like drawing. Anything else I do, it just ends up as a mess whatever I do. Whereas when I draw it looks beautiful, and it makes me feel really competent and skilled and that's a feeling I don't usually get unless I manage to successfully explain part of a lesson to someone.)
@Chloe: You see, I have a high bed, so I have way more space in my room than I otherwise would. :) It looks pretty big, but if I had normal bed it would look pretty small. *frowns at bedroom* Well maybe not that small, actually. Certainly not large though.
( because every time no one want me too ? :P if it makes you feel any better if they are actually from Scotland the only Regular Scots are me and Gem and bru it's not us the next most common Adam, it's not him after that it's the Scottish girl that thinks she own the sanctuary it doesn't sound like her and after that it's then Erin and jack neither of which come on so it's not them and thats the only Scottish people I know)
Mark: She probably won't mind if we take a little food. *are they in the house with Lilith, Xander, Cole and Inky's kids* *and where's inky? I mean.. I imagine she's trying to find Chris*
Valnum: Why should I help you.
MrBBWolf: *the large bartender man managed to make him feed* *he's still crying, but he is recovering slightly*
( they have a 15 digit ip address instead of 12... and welll I dunno how to trace those but I do know that they are only 5000 people with one and they are all along the east coast of America.... )
((I can believe you can change. But I'm not just going to hand out second chances for free. It'll take me a while.
It could have been me. It could have been Chloe. It could have been Fera. It could have been Effie. It could have been Kieran. It could have been any of us. But most people won't jump to the conclusion that it was someone without evidence or at least bias. I had bias, and I thought the display name was possible evidence but apparently I screwed that one up. Fact is, it was more likely to be you than it was to be Jai or someone. I really wouldn't have said anything if I hadn't thought it was Lunaria, though. If you see someone has matches and then a fire breaks out, blaming them is a little different to blaming someone when no matches were seen on them. I am sorry that I thought I saw you had matches when you didn't. I should really learn to zoom in a bit. :())
((And, yes, I have told lies. It's a major part of why I'm so honest now - because I regretted it, and was determined to undo it. I'm not a good person, honestly I'm not, and I won't usually claim to be. You're not inherently worse than me, and I know that. And I can forgive and forget. But not with a snap of my fingers.
Sorry for bringing all of this up, incidentally. I wasn't intending to, but the Lunaria/Lunaeria thing kinda pushed me too it (yes. Oops. Should have zoomed in).
The issue is that I just don't care enough about anything. I don't care enough about being a good person or doing good things, so I don't. And I don't care enough about my lack of caring so I do nothing to resolve the issue. I guess it means that I can honestly admit I'm not a good person, though :) which can be used.
*shrugs* I guess it could have been a newbie. It's quite likely.
@Chloe: :) Awwwh. Thanks. Idk though, I think people can have good qualities am without being good people. I also think that when all's said and done I probably just end up somewhere in the vicinity if average on my good-people rating. I'm not a saint, but I'm not evil incarnate either. At least I hope not. So yeah, whichever side of the average line I'm on, I can't be too far off it. (I personally believe I'm probably closer to the evil incarnate side. Although like I said, it really doesn't bother me all too much.)
Mark: No! I mean yes, I want to be with you and I probably will want to be with you still in a year it's just that forever is a long and scary amount of time..
Valnum: *hisses, crying out and curling around the impact*
I'm sorry, but it couldn't have been a 'newbie' as the account was kinda made four years ago...
Also Ink, have you watched Bambi? Because there's a really good piece of advice for you there. "If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all". And as my father always says, "Don't fuckin' blame someone unless you have some fuckin' proof to justify it".
So maybe, just maybe, next time don't accuse someone when you have nothing but your 'bias' to go off. Lunaria Mist Shadows was a friend who moved schools last year, and I have had no contact with. since I didn't know her in 2011, and she never even read the Skulduggery books (nor had I at that age), so the probability of that being her is nil.
Yet again, I beseech you all to take a good piece of advice and not shove it away. Get your fucking facts straight before you accuse someone.
Don't mind me, I'm gonna start writing an rp that kinda links in with what me and Danni were doing before she switched emails. I'm going to continue it, if Danni, you would like to join in or not, that's fine but I'm going to write it. Also with missing talking with you, I miss our storylines.
Anyway... expect something in the next 10-15 mins.
*Marrok kept his head down as he walked through the college dorm corridors. He stopped in front of Ariana's room door and took a deep breath. He knocked. While he waited, he tried his best to smooth over his wild hair. The door opened and he forced a smile as Ariana's room mate looked at him.*
Room-mate: She's not here.
Marrok: Could you pass on a message to her, please?
Room-mate: No.
*Marrok didn't get a chance to ask again as the door was slammed forcefully in his face. As he walked away, a group of boys bumped against him, pushing him into the wall. They snickered as they walked past and Marrok, without thinking shouted at them. They all stopped as the lead boy walked up to Marrok.*
Boy: Do you have something to say?
*Marrok shook his head as he looked down at the ground again, fiddling with his fingers.*
Boy: I didn't think so, freak.
*Marrok was shoved against the wall again as they walked away, still laughing. He had only been in college for 6 weeks. Ariana had made it sound like a fantastic experience and the fact that this college accepted magic and mortal youths. But since they arrived, he had barely seen Ariana. She was constantly either going out to parties, she now got involved with a sorority and seemed to be doing just fine. Without him. He soon realised that she was doing fine without him when she switched all classes but one that they now shared once a week on a Friday morning.
He went back into his room. His empty, bare room. Still 6 weeks in and he hadn't attempted to make his room feel like home. His room-mate asked to be taken out of the room 2 weeks in so now Marrok was on his own.
He picked up his phone and dialled a number, looking for some comfort.*
Roland: Hello?
Marrok: Hello father.
Roland: Marrok! It is so good to hear from you, how are you doing?
Marrok: I am fine, I am tired more than anything. How is Teagan doing?
Roland: Better, she is still doing her physiotherapy but the doctors hope we can start coming out of the wheelchair.
*A call came from the background.*
Roland: I'm sorry Marrok, I have to go. Teagan is ready to come out of her bath.
Marrok: Is mother not there?
Roland: I'm afraid your mother is out. Anyway, we shall talk soon and I can not wait to hear all about college when you come home for Christmas. See you soon, I love you.
Marrok: Love you too father.
*Marrok threw the phone onto the mattress. Christmas? That was another 8 weeks from now. Could he even survive this place for 8 more weeks. He pulled and held onto his hair as he began to cry in the corner.*
It might have been someone who hadn't previously commented here, but created a blogger account in 2011 for reasons unrelated to SP.
It also might have been someone who commented about the post content but never stayed to chat.
I think assuming it's one of us and freaking out over it is kind of ever-so-slightly a total waste of time. I don't give a shit who it is, and neither should you! I mean, if you'd all like to accuse and backstab each other, go ahead, but actually no don't you dare! What the purple platypus is this accomplishing? Don't fall to the dark side, guys. Think happy thoughts. Peace. Love. Mozzarella. Anvils. Star Wars. Whatever floats your goat.
*goat appears and levitates because that seems to be a thing now*
((I think name confusion happened again. Like Jack read Ink as Inky and that's why he thought you were attacking Chloe. Again, it's understandable, since Star doesn't go by Ink very often anymore.))
I could give multiple examples, but my best one is probably hard truth. Like, in the episode I just watched, a girl's parents had died and Sam and Dean had to tell her they were dead. "Your parents are dead" I'd not a nice thing to say and it really upset her, but she needed to know. Another hard truth is "You're not trying hard enough to pass your GCSEs. If you don't try harder you won't pass." It can sometimes be true. Also Cat keeps telling me I'm autistic, so after an incident where I almost destroyed our friendship group due to failing to understand social interaction (again) I did a bit of go ogling and found out that I match the majority of Asperger's symptoms. And I've asked a few people "Hmm, do you think I have it?" and some of them are like "*reassuring tone* Oh I'm sure you don't have it you're fine." Dude. I did not ASK to be reassured. I want your honest opinion so I can collect genuine secind-hand evaluations. Your reassurances are not helping; they are not helping me reach a valid conclusion. If I have it I have it, you know? And if I do I'd rather know. And I definitely don't want to think I don't when I do. So yes. Sometimes, people not saying hard things is irritating.
Yeah, okay, somdrives the Bambi thing applies. The other day Cat said "I'D be a good history teacher" and Ethan said "But everyone hates history teachers!" and Cat said "Well, a lot of people hate me, so . . ." and I said "Yeah, a lot of people do hate you" and they were both like "HOLLY WHAT THE FUCK!" and I was like "What?" and Cat was like "You're meant to say "Oh, no, I'm sure no one hates you"!" and Ethan was like "LOL you just said you hated her!" and I was like "I didn't say /I/ hated her! /I/ don't hate her! And what did you want me to do, did you want me to lie?" Looking back I should probably have not voiced that one, but I don't think before I speak. :/ So yeah, I was just sort of speaking and I just sort of said it because I didn't realise it was something I shouldn't say.
o yes. Sometimes applies. Sometimes doesn't. Hence, /situational/. Let's pretend for a moment that it did say Lunaria and not Lunaeria, because I made my judgements based on that. Why did I say it? Well, you've just come back, and everyone seems to accept you and forgive you. And that is nice. But it does imply to you that you can do whatever shit you want and it'll all be okay again (not saying you think that, just saying it was a conclusion you could have drawn). And I didn't like that message being sent out. Of course, if Lunaeria had said nothing, I would have thought it wasn't worth stirring up a fuss. But Lunaeria did, and I thought it was Lunaria. And my brain jumped to the conclusion that it was probably you being Lunaria. And I was like "No, I need to tell Danni that she can't get away with this shit and that we WILL suspect her and she won't just get to slip away." And I thought "but what if it's not Danni?" and I thought "I'll take that risk. Worst comes to worst all that'll happen is she'll know I don't trust her." Of course, if I had known it didn't say Lunaria, the risk would have been much smaller and less worth taking. If it had been you, what would I have gained? I would have implied to you that you couldn't get away with it. Which would have, in theory, put you off doing it. Which would have saved pain in the long term. So I could potentially stop lots of people getting hurt and all that I had to do was let you know I didn't trust you, which I was looking for a way to express anyway (I wouldn't have said it like I did though). It seemed, to me, to be worth it.
And that made a lot more sense to me than "If you don't got nothing nice to say, don't say nothing at all." (Particularly as my primary school headteacher was devaluing that years ago and correcting it to "If you haven't got anything nice to say, think of something." (Which I like even less than the original as it leads to lying and, personally, I don't lie. It's closer to a Monopoly strategy tan it is to attributing value to honesty, but still.))
Ohhhh is that why everyone was going "Chloe never said anything!" I thought you were just focusing on the fact that Danni addressed part of her comment to "you guys" and Chloe was pointing our that she, personally, had not done anything.
Well that's what I think happened. I could be totally wrong--I mean, I've been really, really wrong about stuff before--but I thought I'd mention it just in case I wasn't.
Hold the bus a minute my friends, this is exactly what this bullshiting scumbag wants, they want us to fight and scrap because their life is shit and they have nothing better to do than troll the blog by kicking the hornets nest
Basically they've become the puppet master and we're all dancing to their tune and they're laughing
So I'm gonna be blunt again here, I highly doubt it was anyone we know because from what I know of you guys and girls You aren't that shallow or low that you have to troll people and stir things up for fun... You are all nice people in your own ways
Yeah I think that's it like, just my 2p which honestly not blowing my own trumpet but it seems to pretty right xD
This knowledge is from how the Internet works in other parts
*frowns* . . . we're fighting and scrapping due to a bullshit troll? *looks confused* I thought I misread summat and therefore said something I shouldn't have anD hence got Danni mad at me and hence am very carefully and warily engaging in debate over it with her. Is that not what's happening?
I am not "fighting and scrapping." I am not angry. I'm being quite logical and tactical. This is not a bulls hit troll stirring shit up. This is me stirring shit up, half intentionally and half unintentionally. The troll was not a match in thus fire. This troll was the first twig that my (half unintentional and half intentional) spark landed on.
Well you might not be angry, but you weren't accused (indirectly but still accused) of being the troll.
Wake up, Ink.
I've changed. I'm a decent fucking human being, believe it or not, but that doesn't mean that I don't get angry easy. I don't stress, I just get mad. And you have made me mad, believe it or not.
Because you fucking accused me for doing something that I didn't do.
As an English Language student, we have to learn about writing and speech in different contexts. And basic knowledge? There is a backspace on keyboards. You choose to put that in there. You could have edited this and this wouldn't have happened.
And Sam and Dean are blunt. They were brought up hunting. They didn't get the apple pie life that we have had. They kill monsters. And that was a fact. Cold hard truth. Not a 'if this was you im going to be so angry'. Sam and Dean, they're statement was imperative. Fact. Yours...? That was almost exclamative. Different types. In different situations.
I don't care if I'm playing my part as a puppet, to be brutally honest. I won't stand for being insulted. Y'know, the whole 'better person' and 'I actually give a shit now and I won't let someone insult me if I can help it'...
Rose.....*hugs* I've been accused of crap before as well. Don't worry nobody went and tattled to higher ups on you. People just have to learn to accept you for who you are now. They'll all eventually come through.
Thanks... You know, I thought coming back would be good for me... That people would be happy that after months of me not being here, they'd be okay with me. Not this...
That's pretty much how I felt, and still do. You know how to get through? You stick to your friends you know who trusts you and who doesn't and eventually people will come to their senses. Its taken a long time for me to be thought of as a person and not a monster and its still a bit frustrating for me, but most people have come to accept there are two sides to a story and they have to conclude their own realizations of what happened. As time goes on things will get better, just make yourself known and don't give up.
I honestly think I'm going to give up on the blog. I've been good. I went away when my depression got bad and when the anon on Tumblr convinced me that John was dead, that his account was hacked... I gave up and got better. I felt okay for the first time in years, I felt like life was worth living and there was decency in the world.
I used to imagine myself dying to get to sleep. Being killed by monsters in the dark, murdered, shot, tortured... Hell, anything to make me distinguish between life and death.
But I haven't done that in months. If that's not improvement - and not feeling like every knife I see could be an escape - then I don't know what is.
I can't relapse again.
And if this is how I'm greeted, I honestly don't have high hopes for not falling again...
You won't relapse, because you're strong willed. You had the guts to come back, and that takes willpower, trust me. You are strong, Rose, and I think this was just bad timing. Truthfully.
(-sighs- I don't want to go to work today... And i really want to punch that bitch Fiona in the face. She made a joke about me and i was actually offended because it made me sound stupid and it was rude. I've got to study for my Accounting test on wednesday/Thursday. Might do it Thursday after work but idk. It would be best to do it tomorrow but i don't know if i'll have time to study enough. And meeting both of my groups for our presentations tomorrow. I'm so screwed...)
*sighs* I have a feeling I should probably drop this now, so I will.
Yes, I insulted you. Yes, it was mean of me. Yes, I think I was justified considering the information I was working on at the time. I don't think I need to explain myself further.
@Chloe: I still wear some kids age 13-14 pajamas. :P (I have the size and appearance of someone about fourteen. I've also decided I'm mentally fourteen, which makes me mentally over a decade younger than Cat as her mental age is currently 26. :P)
In other news THE SKY WAS PURPLE TODAY IT WAS SOOO COOL IT WAS LIKE YOU WERE LOOKING AT THE WORLD THROUGH PURPLE-TINTED GLASS EXCEPT YOU WEREN'T IT SENT EVERYTHING A FUNNY COLOUR
You know it's weird coz last year when I was in year eleven everyone used to think I was younger and treat me like someone younger. This year I'm a sixth former, so I don't wear uniform. And because I'm not wearing uniform everyone acts like I'm old and scary or whatever. It's actually quite funny. :P Like, they react to me as if I'm an authority figure and I'm just like "hahaha if you knew me you wouldn't be acting like this."
@Chloe: :P Once in year ten I tried to tell someone I was in year ten (he thought I was in like year eight) and he wouldn't believe me until I showed him my planner (at which point he insisted I must have nicked the planner from a year ten, but I believe he was making it up at that point.)
@Jai: Take regular breaks. This helps as it keeps your mind fresh and it also adds more startpoints and endpoints to your revision - the human mind focuses more on startpoints and endpoints, so by adding more you're more likely to remember more of it than if you just put it in a big chunk.
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(Hello.)
:) Hey Kas. Wbd.
(Omfg I've been drawing for two hours???)
(Hey, Star.
You have?)
(@Kas: Apparently. O_O Posted my "I'm gonna be here for three hours drawing" comment two hours ago. O_O
Doesn't feel that long . . .)
(@Star Well, maybe you lost track of time?)
@Kas: What I think happened is that drawing happens on such a slooooooooooow scale. Two hours of drawing time is not a lot of drawing time. I've drawn maybe three centimetres cubed in this amount of time. And thus, because I've not moved on very far and haven't done too much, it feels like I haven't been working long. So it doesn't feel like much time has passed.
Whereas in normal non-drawing life, two hours is quite a bit of time.
(*stomach grumbles *)
*throws popcorn at Chloe*
(*catches popcorn in mouth*)
(*Huggles Cjkoe?*)
(*hugs jai*)
(@Chloe rp?)
(Duggy, email.)
i guess i am here now.
(So so sorry! I got so caught up in my research !)
I am still here, i guess.
(Hello, how art thou?)
Not. Well.
(Same as before huh?)
worse
(I would say let's talk about it but it's my bed time
Nos da
Sleep, it may make you feel better)
(I have something wonderful to share with you all.)
(i think everyone might be bit absent at the moment.)
Tada! my favourite ship -------> drawn by one of the shippes(?)
(love the new profile piccy, by the way...)
(Oh well. They'll see it later. I'll make sure of it :)
Struan make it your profile pic too! spread the brucon love!
we going with that term? I toyed with ConDail for a while, but BruCon seems best.
(Sorry for deleted comment, good night!)
(right, i'm away. see y'all later!)
(Night Kassy, Struan!)
(The wind is so exciting!)
Wait what the Hell did I do, Star???
I'm 17 years old and I play on playgrounds, I run around on skateparks, and I beg Aaron to take me to toy shops. I roleplay almost all day now, but on Tumblr. On Supernatural blogs. Because Gabriel is awesome, and you can annoy the Hell out of Balthazar if you even mention the Titanic.
And I've been going for this whole 'don't insult anyone because they don't deserve it' kind thing recently...
So no. Thank you. But no. That was not me, Star.
And breaking that rule, that Lunaeria chic is a bitch. And no. It wasn't me. I kinda address people with capitals as a general rule... #PerksOfBeingAnEnglishLanguageStudent #iTry2BeBetterThanThatKindOfTrash
#TotesIsntOffendedALittle...
And I do not like arts anymore, and I do not live in Glasgow, Scotland. And that person was before my time. I'm from 2012, they're from 2011.
So no. It was not me.
But thank you for your consideration.
*Bows and heads off to go be the 'cutie pie marshmallow princess' which someone apparently believes is a suiting title...*
*But hey*
*I'm adorable*
*Leaves*
Oh, and guys, remember something please:
I am only a bitch occasionally, but when I do, I have good grammar. And I really, really do not have the patience for doing crap like that anymore.
*Now leaves to be the cutie pie marshmallow princess because I am actually really adorable given the opportunity*
*LEAVES*
(Hello?)
((Danni, you had a friend who went by Lunaria here, n'est-ce pas? I think Star read Lunaeria as Lunaria and remembered some vague connection to you.))
Um, yes, I did read Lunaeria as Lunaria and put two and two together. Sorry. :(
But considering your history, Danni, you have no claim to innocence and it's entirely rational of me to suspect you could have posted that comment. So I'm not apologising for assuming the worst of you. Although I am apologising for the misreading - I wouldn't have suspected you in the way that I did if I hadn't thought it was Lunaria.
Thank you, btw, Effie. I wouldn't have noticed my error if you hadn't pointed it out.
(*hugs star*)
:) *hugs Chloe back, despite the fact I have no clue why she's hugging me*
(*Punches. Something. Very. Hard. Until. My. Storming. Knuckles. Break!*)
@Jai: ??
(I want to cuddle people
*cuddles jai* what's wrong?(
it's my job to break my bones jai, especially by punching very hard things...though surprisingly, none of my bones have every been broken. Not even when I crashed into a tree, chin first at high velocity, and was only 7. I did have to get a lot of stitches on my chin though.
(My room is a mess and mums complaining about it.
Why is my room a mess?
I have school books everywhere.
Why are the school books everywhere?
Because my mocks start tomorrow so I've been revising, something mum always shouts at me for not doing. And now I'm being complained at because I listened to her and started revising.
What happens if I don't keep my room clean AND telepathically know that the cats have eaten all their biscuits?
I get no spend, even though my big brother NEVER does his storming job and yet it paid £5 more that I am.
Fuck it. I'm just going to flunk my tests and let my room get as messy as it wants to be. I don't care anymore. I can't ever do anything right in that woman's mind.)
parents issues...sounds familiar. *offers imaginary hugs, or whatever that would make her feel better*
(Maybe if you want me to be a good daughter you should respect me more than to threaten me.
Maybe you should tell me I've done well when I've got good grades.
Maybe you should encourage me more.
Maybe you should ask instead of writing a note.
Maybe you should be a good mother who doesn't blame their child for things that go wrong and who protects her family from monsters, not lets them babysit.)
@Jai: :( :( *hugs*
I don't really see why parents have to tell us to tidy our rooms at these age anyway . . . It's not their room; it's not like it's affecting them.
@Jai: :( :( *hugs*
i think there are a few reasons for parents telling you to tidy your room...1. They want you to learn to be organized and tidy, so you'll take good care of yourself later 2.Other parents do it, so they want to do what's perceived as "good" for parents to do. 3.To relieve some stress they have by taking advantage of the situations that they have authority over you
(Sorry I poofed)
it must be annoying, but i've never had that problem, since my room is fairly tidy nearly all the time. I like to organize stuff, and pack everything neatly. I've got my graduation ceremony(for the national citizenship course) in a bit, see ya'll.
@Fera: My parents don't make me tidy my room. They used to make us clear out our rooms properly a few times a year. Nowadays I only tend to properly tidy my room the week before our Christmas party (I'm usually clearing out Christmas words arches from the last Christmas party. :P)
I think this is for two reasons - number one, my parents have a pretty relaxed parenting style, and number two, my mum's room is so untidy that I'm not sure she ever felt justified telling us our rooms had to be tidy. :P
But anyway, my friend Darcie is ALWAYS getting told to tidy her room. Her mum's always like "oh I won't give you money unless your room is tidy" and I have no idea why the fuck it is an issue. I mean, when you're younger - five, eight, ten, even twelve - I can see why they insist on tidiness (teaching us to be organised, like you said) but we are sixteen/seventeen now and I think we're old enough to choose how we want our own rooms.
^wordsearches
well, those people's parents, getting told off for it, clearly don't think that they're old enough to choose how their room is supposed to be...oh and organization and tidiness pleases my eyes :p
(I can't walk in my room half the time XD I only tidy it properly when jack comes down(
Clearly not
With Jai though her mum gets her to babysit but them tells her to tidy her room O_o lack of logic there
You see, I am a messy being with messy handwriting and messy organisation and a messy room. :P Cat once told me that anything I tried to do just ended up being a mess, unless it was drawing.
I have to admit I agree with her.
(That's partially why I like drawing. Anything else I do, it just ends up as a mess whatever I do. Whereas when I draw it looks beautiful, and it makes me feel really competent and skilled and that's a feeling I don't usually get unless I manage to successfully explain part of a lesson to someone.)
@Chloe: I like pacing around my room, so I will often kick a lot of stuff to the sides so I can walk around it. :)
(My room is quite small
No,. That's not true
My bed takes up most of it XD )
@Chloe: You see, I have a high bed, so I have way more space in my room than I otherwise would. :) It looks pretty big, but if I had normal bed it would look pretty small.
*frowns at bedroom* Well maybe not that small, actually. Certainly not large though.
(My bed is in the middle of my room
There's half a meter each side of it)
Heyo
Nobody?
Sigh, oh well
Byes
(Come baaaaack!)
(*sits in the corner, war paint on two days early*)
(War paint?)
(I use the term loosely. I mean the colours on your wrist.)
Eh, I'll just have to find somewhere where my innocence remains intact, then.
Date wise, it could have been you, Ink. You're closer to the date that blog was created.
Wait. Why don't we use Kerion's skills and track down the IP address?
...
Don't pretend you haven't all told lies on here. Because y'all have.
Is it too hard to believe that a person can change? I'm over my depression. I'm actually living. I'm happy.
I'm leaving, guys. Talking to John about threatening the actors sure as Hell can't keep me here any longer.
(..bye Danni?)
(I was December
And why the hell would I do that?
And I'm welsh not scottish)
( because every time no one want me too ? :P if it makes you feel any better if they are actually from Scotland the only Regular Scots are me and Gem and bru it's not us the next most common Adam, it's not him after that it's the Scottish girl that thinks she own the sanctuary it doesn't sound like her and after that it's then Erin and jack neither of which come on so it's not them and thats the only Scottish people I know)
(I think it's safe to say that you can search that one keiron
But it bloody isn't me)
(I dedicate to everyone. Because everyone deserves it.
Chloe works you like to rp?)
(Hear hear
Okay, you start)
( hear hear :P that includes you just incase you think you can escape from everyone )
(One sec. I'll find where we left off.)
Kiana: *-You deserve better-*
Mark: She probably won't mind if we take a little food.
*are they in the house with Lilith, Xander, Cole and Inky's kids*
*and where's inky? I mean.. I imagine she's trying to find Chris*
Valnum: Why should I help you.
MrBBWolf: *the large bartender man managed to make him feed*
*he's still crying, but he is recovering slightly*
Feli; how so?
Clocky: okay...*lil and xander is in the nursery, cole went home a the rest of inkys kids are with her*
*arrives home* Chris?
Chris; inky... *sobs* it's wolf..
He isn't dead again is he?
Kiana: *-Deserve human-*
Mark: *lifts her up, carrying her like a baby to the kitchen*
Valnum: No, Inky, he isn't.
( good news and bad news... :P )
Felix: kiana... You realise I'm a demon, right?
Clocky: mark?
What happened..?
(?)
Kiana: *nods*
*because she knows that*
Mark: What?
*sits her on the table, grabbing a pan and a steak*
Valnum: Chris cheated on him.
Felix: you are perfect ... I want you kiana...
Clocky: I can walk...
Chris: no! You made me!
( they have a 15 digit ip address instead of 12... and welll I dunno how to trace those but I do know that they are only 5000 people with one and they are all along the east coast of America.... )
Kiana: *shakes her head*
*-can't even speak!-*
Mark: I know.
*starts frying the steak, taking a deep breath in because streak smells nice*
Valnum: Chris cheated on him with me.
Felix: so?
Clocky; I'm not a kid...
Oh...
Chris: no! *sobs* you used that magic on me!!!!
(So someone is hiding their id by saying they're Scottish?£
( either that or they are sophisticated enough to have an ip bouncer but the 15 digit number is fairly new )
Kiana: *-Can't walk.. not perfect.-*
Mark: I know.
*plates up the steak, cutting it into small pieces*
*walks over to her, standing between her thighs*
Say ah.
*grins*
Valnum: And now Wolf has gone back to our realm.
((I can believe you can change. But I'm not just going to hand out second chances for free. It'll take me a while.
It could have been me. It could have been Chloe. It could have been Fera. It could have been Effie. It could have been Kieran. It could have been any of us. But most people won't jump to the conclusion that it was someone without evidence or at least bias. I had bias, and I thought the display name was possible evidence but apparently I screwed that one up. Fact is, it was more likely to be you than it was to be Jai or someone.
I really wouldn't have said anything if I hadn't thought it was Lunaria, though. If you see someone has matches and then a fire breaks out, blaming them is a little different to blaming someone when no matches were seen on them. I am sorry that I thought I saw you had matches when you didn't. I should really learn to zoom in a bit. :())
((And, yes, I have told lies. It's a major part of why I'm so honest now - because I regretted it, and was determined to undo it. I'm not a good person, honestly I'm not, and I won't usually claim to be.
You're not inherently worse than me, and I know that. And I can forgive and forget. But not with a snap of my fingers.
Sorry for bringing all of this up, incidentally. I wasn't intending to, but the Lunaria/Lunaeria thing kinda pushed me too it (yes. Oops. Should have zoomed in).
(I see...)
Felix: to me you are...
Clocky: *sulks*
Well let's go and get him
Kiana: *shakes her head*
Mark: *laughs*
If you don't I'll tickle you.
*wafts the smell of the steak at her*
Valnum: You can't without help.
(*hugs star * you are a good person)
Felix: if you don't want me just say..
Clocky: *reluctantly opens her mouth *
Will you help us?
Kiana: *-I do want you..-*
Mark: *smiles, feeding her a piece of the steak*
Good wolf.
*kisses her forehead*
Valnum: Why would I?
@Chloe: *laughs* I really am not.
The issue is that I just don't care enough about anything. I don't care enough about being a good person or doing good things, so I don't. And I don't care enough about my lack of caring so I do nothing to resolve the issue.
I guess it means that I can honestly admit I'm not a good person, though :) which can be used.
Felix: and I want you, so why are you picking out problems?
Clocky: *looks at the floor*
Cause if you don't I'll rip your throat out *smiles sweetly*
(Honesty is a good quality and you're always so insightful ^.*)
Well the only people on the east coast is me....I think. And I argued so....not me.
Kiana: *-I.. don't fit in-*
Mark: hey.. what's wrong?
*tilts her head back up*
Valnum: do it then.
(Hi zaf!
The profile doesn't have many views so it's either someone who is rarely here or someone's forgotten second account but I don't know...)
Felix: I don't care about that
Clocky: stop treating me like a kid
*growls and lunges at him *
Kiana: *-why?-*
Mark: Oh.. I'm sorry.
*hands her the plate, stepping back and turning away*
Valnum: *steps to the side, avoiding inky*
*shrugs* I guess it could have been a newbie. It's quite likely.
@Chloe: :) Awwwh. Thanks.
Idk though, I think people can have good qualities am without being good people. I also think that when all's said and done I probably just end up somewhere in the vicinity if average on my good-people rating. I'm not a saint, but I'm not evil incarnate either. At least I hope not. So yeah, whichever side of the average line I'm on, I can't be too far off it.
(I personally believe I'm probably closer to the evil incarnate side. Although like I said, it really doesn't bother me all too much.)
Felix; I love you
Clocky; *wraps her arms arounf his waist*
(Evil? XD
I don't believe in pure evil)
Kiana: *-I love you too..-*
Mark: *squeezes her hand gently*
Tea, coffee or hot chocolate?
Valnum: Miss Flame cease your attacks.
Felix; *pulls her close an hugs her tightly* never leave me *trembles slightly*
Clocky: *squeezes^ you
No! *tyrns semi wolf and lunges with mouth open*
Kiana: *leans against him and nods*
Mark: I'm not a drink silly.
*smiles*
Valnum: *sighs, catching her by the throat*
Chris has to deal with the consequences of his actions.
Felix: thank you kiana *kisses her head* thank you
Clocky: I just want you
You did it to him *digs claws into his hands€
Kiana: *-What for?-*
Mark: Well then it's good that you have me
Valnum: *hisses, dropping her*
Felix: for staying
Clocky: forever?
^lunges at his stomach with her claws*
@Chloe: Me neither, actually :P but I tend to pretend I do for easy communication.
(Understandable ^.^)
Kiana: *smiles*
Mark: *blushes*
Forever? Well uh yeah.. don't see why not.
*rubs the back of his neck*
*Marks mind: AHHHHH COMMITMENT*
Valnum: *doesn't move*
Felix: *smiles back€
Clocky: If you don't want to, that's fine...
^pierces the skin*
*crawls in*
Kiana: *tickles him*
Mark: No! I mean yes, I want to be with you and I probably will want to be with you still in a year it's just that forever is a long and scary amount of time..
Valnum: *hisses, crying out and curling around the impact*
( yo smitty werbenjagermanjensen ! come skype I need to ask a thing )
(Hey FERA)
Felix: ^yelps and laughs*
Clocky: I'm sorry... I shouldn't have said that...
*still drives forward*
Chris: stop inky! We need him!
Kiana: *grins*
*jumps onto his back, tickling him*
Mark: No, it's fine, I mean of course I want you forever..
Valnum: *screams, laughing, curling up*
sup?
(I'm researching
*mutters-8 I will need a hell of a lot of candles)
Felix: *collapses with laughter^
Clocky: sure?
*stops*
researching what?
(Candles?)
Kiana: *grins, curling up on his chest, comfy*
Mark: Of course I am!
Valnum: *wheezes slightly*
(Nothing of much importance to anyone apart from me ^.^)
Felix: *smiles*
Clocky: *kisses*
Chris; will you help now?
is it something about that cult/religion/group you've mentioned?
(*tilts head*)
Kiana: *purrs quietly*
Mark: *relaxes, kissing her back*
Valnum: *laughs, coughing*
No.
I'm sorry, but it couldn't have been a 'newbie' as the account was kinda made four years ago...
Also Ink, have you watched Bambi? Because there's a really good piece of advice for you there. "If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all". And as my father always says, "Don't fuckin' blame someone unless you have some fuckin' proof to justify it".
So maybe, just maybe, next time don't accuse someone when you have nothing but your 'bias' to go off. Lunaria Mist Shadows was a friend who moved schools last year, and I have had no contact with. since I didn't know her in 2011, and she never even read the Skulduggery books (nor had I at that age), so the probability of that being her is nil.
Yet again, I beseech you all to take a good piece of advice and not shove it away. Get your fucking facts straight before you accuse someone.
Hi all,
Don't mind me, I'm gonna start writing an rp that kinda links in with what me and Danni were doing before she switched emails.
I'm going to continue it, if Danni, you would like to join in or not, that's fine but I'm going to write it.
Also with missing talking with you, I miss our storylines.
Anyway... expect something in the next 10-15 mins.
(Hey Emmy!)
(It isn't a cult )
Felix; *rubs her back*
Clocky: *yips despite being human*
Chris; please...
(I never accused anyone!)
Kiana: *smiles, yawning slightly*
*blinks, forcing her eyes open*
*she still refuses to sleep*
Mark: *smiles, holding her close, kissing the tip of her nose*
Now eat your steak before I do.
Valnum: No!
Felix: let's get you home... You're tired
Clocky: okay, sir *eats steak and offers hi a piece in her fork*
Please...
(Hi Em)
Don't attack Chloe, she didn't accuse anyone!
I did put slash, did i not?
IM NOT ATTACKING CHLOE
(True, but I don't like the term cult
*hugs Jack*)
Kiana: *shakes her head, yawning again*
*-Not tired..-*
Mark: *grins, eating the offered slice*
Valnum: Bring Suki back.
Felix: you are..,
Clocky; *smiles*
Chris: but how... The only one who could bring wolf back was a vampire...
Kiana: *-Nope. Won't sleep..-*
Mark: Mm.. I am a good chef.
Valnum: I don't care how.
Felix; why not ?
Clocky; *giggles* you are
Chris; I don't know where he is!
Kiana: *-Have to be awake-*
Mark: *offers her a piece*
Valnum: I. Don't. Care.
*Marrok kept his head down as he walked through the college dorm corridors. He stopped in front of Ariana's room door and took a deep breath. He knocked. While he waited, he tried his best to smooth over his wild hair. The door opened and he forced a smile as Ariana's room mate looked at him.*
Room-mate: She's not here.
Marrok: Could you pass on a message to her, please?
Room-mate: No.
*Marrok didn't get a chance to ask again as the door was slammed forcefully in his face.
As he walked away, a group of boys bumped against him, pushing him into the wall. They snickered as they walked past and Marrok, without thinking shouted at them. They all stopped as the lead boy walked up to Marrok.*
Boy: Do you have something to say?
*Marrok shook his head as he looked down at the ground again, fiddling with his fingers.*
Boy: I didn't think so, freak.
*Marrok was shoved against the wall again as they walked away, still laughing. He had only been in college for 6 weeks. Ariana had made it sound like a fantastic experience and the fact that this college accepted magic and mortal youths.
But since they arrived, he had barely seen Ariana. She was constantly either going out to parties, she now got involved with a sorority and seemed to be doing just fine. Without him. He soon realised that she was doing fine without him when she switched all classes but one that they now shared once a week on a Friday morning.
He went back into his room. His empty, bare room. Still 6 weeks in and he hadn't attempted to make his room feel like home. His room-mate asked to be taken out of the room 2 weeks in so now Marrok was on his own.
He picked up his phone and dialled a number, looking for some comfort.*
Roland: Hello?
Marrok: Hello father.
Roland: Marrok! It is so good to hear from you, how are you doing?
Marrok: I am fine, I am tired more than anything. How is Teagan doing?
Roland: Better, she is still doing her physiotherapy but the doctors hope we can start coming out of the wheelchair.
*A call came from the background.*
Roland: I'm sorry Marrok, I have to go. Teagan is ready to come out of her bath.
Marrok: Is mother not there?
Roland: I'm afraid your mother is out. Anyway, we shall talk soon and I can not wait to hear all about college when you come home for Christmas. See you soon, I love you.
Marrok: Love you too father.
*Marrok threw the phone onto the mattress. Christmas? That was another 8 weeks from now. Could he even survive this place for 8 more weeks. He pulled and held onto his hair as he began to cry in the corner.*
Felix: why?
Clocky: *eats it happily*
I can look for him...
Kiana: *-Need to be awake.-*
Mark: thank you.
Valnum: Then do that.
Felix: please tell me why...
Clocky: for what?
Don't harm Chris when I'm gone *shifts and runs off*
(I is off to bed now
Nos da)
Kiana: *-Danger.-*
Mark: eating the food.
Valnum: Says the crazy woman who put a hole in my stomach
(Night Chloe)
*crawls out of the hole that is called life* hello?
It might have been someone who hadn't previously commented here, but created a blogger account in 2011 for reasons unrelated to SP.
It also might have been someone who commented about the post content but never stayed to chat.
I think assuming it's one of us and freaking out over it is kind of ever-so-slightly a total waste of time. I don't give a shit who it is, and neither should you! I mean, if you'd all like to accuse and backstab each other, go ahead, but actually no don't you dare! What the purple platypus is this accomplishing? Don't fall to the dark side, guys. Think happy thoughts. Peace. Love. Mozzarella. Anvils. Star Wars. Whatever floats your goat.
*goat appears and levitates because that seems to be a thing now*
((I think name confusion happened again. Like Jack read Ink as Inky and that's why he thought you were attacking Chloe. Again, it's understandable, since Star doesn't go by Ink very often anymore.))
I don't believe in that piece of advice.
I could give multiple examples, but my best one is probably hard truth.
Like, in the episode I just watched, a girl's parents had died and Sam and Dean had to tell her they were dead.
"Your parents are dead" I'd not a nice thing to say and it really upset her, but she needed to know.
Another hard truth is "You're not trying hard enough to pass your GCSEs. If you don't try harder you won't pass." It can sometimes be true.
Also Cat keeps telling me I'm autistic, so after an incident where I almost destroyed our friendship group due to failing to understand social interaction (again) I did a bit of go ogling and found out that I match the majority of Asperger's symptoms. And I've asked a few people "Hmm, do you think I have it?" and some of them are like "*reassuring tone* Oh I'm sure you don't have it you're fine."
Dude. I did not ASK to be reassured. I want your honest opinion so I can collect genuine secind-hand evaluations. Your reassurances are not helping; they are not helping me reach a valid conclusion.
If I have it I have it, you know? And if I do I'd rather know. And I definitely don't want to think I don't when I do. So yes. Sometimes, people not saying hard things is irritating.
Yeah, okay, somdrives the Bambi thing applies. The other day Cat said "I'D be a good history teacher" and Ethan said "But everyone hates history teachers!" and Cat said "Well, a lot of people hate me, so . . ." and I said "Yeah, a lot of people do hate you" and they were both like "HOLLY WHAT THE FUCK!" and I was like "What?" and Cat was like "You're meant to say "Oh, no, I'm sure no one hates you"!" and Ethan was like "LOL you just said you hated her!" and I was like "I didn't say /I/ hated her! /I/ don't hate her! And what did you want me to do, did you want me to lie?"
Looking back I should probably have not voiced that one, but I don't think before I speak. :/ So yeah, I was just sort of speaking and I just sort of said it because I didn't realise it was something I shouldn't say.
TBC
o yes. Sometimes applies. Sometimes doesn't. Hence, /situational/.
Let's pretend for a moment that it did say Lunaria and not Lunaeria, because I made my judgements based on that. Why did I say it? Well, you've just come back, and everyone seems to accept you and forgive you. And that is nice. But it does imply to you that you can do whatever shit you want and it'll all be okay again (not saying you think that, just saying it was a conclusion you could have drawn). And I didn't like that message being sent out. Of course, if Lunaeria had said nothing, I would have thought it wasn't worth stirring up a fuss. But Lunaeria did, and I thought it was Lunaria. And my brain jumped to the conclusion that it was probably you being Lunaria. And I was like "No, I need to tell Danni that she can't get away with this shit and that we WILL suspect her and she won't just get to slip away." And I thought "but what if it's not Danni?" and I thought "I'll take that risk. Worst comes to worst all that'll happen is she'll know I don't trust her."
Of course, if I had known it didn't say Lunaria, the risk would have been much smaller and less worth taking.
If it had been you, what would I have gained? I would have implied to you that you couldn't get away with it. Which would have, in theory, put you off doing it. Which would have saved pain in the long term.
So I could potentially stop lots of people getting hurt and all that I had to do was let you know I didn't trust you, which I was looking for a way to express anyway (I wouldn't have said it like I did though). It seemed, to me, to be worth it.
And that made a lot more sense to me than "If you don't got nothing nice to say, don't say nothing at all."
(Particularly as my primary school headteacher was devaluing that years ago and correcting it to "If you haven't got anything nice to say, think of something." (Which I like even less than the original as it leads to lying and, personally, I don't lie. It's closer to a Monopoly strategy tan it is to attributing value to honesty, but still.))
Ohhhh is that why everyone was going "Chloe never said anything!"
I thought you were just focusing on the fact that Danni addressed part of her comment to "you guys" and Chloe was pointing our that she, personally, had not done anything.
Um. Yeah. Ink is me. Sorry.
^than
Well that's what I think happened. I could be totally wrong--I mean, I've been really, really wrong about stuff before--but I thought I'd mention it just in case I wasn't.
Hold the bus a minute my friends, this is exactly what this bullshiting scumbag wants, they want us to fight and scrap because their life is shit and they have nothing better to do than troll the blog by kicking the hornets nest
Basically they've become the puppet master and we're all dancing to their tune and they're laughing
So I'm gonna be blunt again here, I highly doubt it was anyone we know because from what I know of you guys and girls
You aren't that shallow or low that you have to troll people and stir things up for fun... You are all nice people in your own ways
Yeah I think that's it like, just my 2p which honestly not blowing my own trumpet but it seems to pretty right xD
This knowledge is from how the Internet works in other parts
For simpler terms
This person wants us to fall on each other for fun
It would be like offering 5 gladiators freedom for one of them
So they all fight to the death for the entertainment of others
*frowns* . . . we're fighting and scrapping due to a bullshit troll?
*looks confused*
I thought I misread summat and therefore said something I shouldn't have anD hence got Danni mad at me and hence am very carefully and warily engaging in debate over it with her.
Is that not what's happening?
I am not "fighting and scrapping." I am not angry. I'm being quite logical and tactical.
This is not a bulls hit troll stirring shit up. This is me stirring shit up, half intentionally and half unintentionally.
The troll was not a match in thus fire. This troll was the first twig that my (half unintentional and half intentional) spark landed on.
I think you're giving Lunaeria too much credit, but yeah, let's not fight about pointless stuff.
GUYYYYYYYYS I HAVE FUZZY PURPLE HANDWARMERS AND THEY'RE SO GREAT BECAUSE I CAN HAVE WARM HANDS AND COMMENT HERE AT THE SAME TIME! :D :D :D
Nobody wants to fangirl over handwarmers with me?
Ok bye.
Well you might not be angry, but you weren't accused (indirectly but still accused) of being the troll.
Wake up, Ink.
I've changed. I'm a decent fucking human being, believe it or not, but that doesn't mean that I don't get angry easy. I don't stress, I just get mad. And you have made me mad, believe it or not.
Because you fucking accused me for doing something that I didn't do.
As an English Language student, we have to learn about writing and speech in different contexts. And basic knowledge? There is a backspace on keyboards. You choose to put that in there. You could have edited this and this wouldn't have happened.
And Sam and Dean are blunt. They were brought up hunting. They didn't get the apple pie life that we have had. They kill monsters. And that was a fact. Cold hard truth. Not a 'if this was you im going to be so angry'. Sam and Dean, they're statement was imperative. Fact. Yours...? That was almost exclamative. Different types. In different situations.
I don't care if I'm playing my part as a puppet, to be brutally honest. I won't stand for being insulted. Y'know, the whole 'better person' and 'I actually give a shit now and I won't let someone insult me if I can help it'...
So thank you kindly.
Rose.....*hugs* I've been accused of crap before as well. Don't worry nobody went and tattled to higher ups on you. People just have to learn to accept you for who you are now. They'll all eventually come through.
*Hugs Zaf back tightly*
Thanks... You know, I thought coming back would be good for me... That people would be happy that after months of me not being here, they'd be okay with me. Not this...
That's pretty much how I felt, and still do. You know how to get through? You stick to your friends you know who trusts you and who doesn't and eventually people will come to their senses. Its taken a long time for me to be thought of as a person and not a monster and its still a bit frustrating for me, but most people have come to accept there are two sides to a story and they have to conclude their own realizations of what happened. As time goes on things will get better, just make yourself known and don't give up.
I honestly think I'm going to give up on the blog. I've been good. I went away when my depression got bad and when the anon on Tumblr convinced me that John was dead, that his account was hacked... I gave up and got better. I felt okay for the first time in years, I felt like life was worth living and there was decency in the world.
I used to imagine myself dying to get to sleep. Being killed by monsters in the dark, murdered, shot, tortured... Hell, anything to make me distinguish between life and death.
But I haven't done that in months. If that's not improvement - and not feeling like every knife I see could be an escape - then I don't know what is.
I can't relapse again.
And if this is how I'm greeted, I honestly don't have high hopes for not falling again...
You won't relapse, because you're strong willed. You had the guts to come back, and that takes willpower, trust me. You are strong, Rose, and I think this was just bad timing. Truthfully.
Well, school holidays are next week... And you're getting stubbornness confused with strong will. I am stubborn...
Well you're kinda both. Stupid blogger deleted my comment I wrote up!
Personally I think stubborn and strong willed are basically the same thing it just depends on how you think about you strong willingness/stubborness.
(oops, sorry Danni
When you said ink I sincerely thought you were on about me because star wasn't exactly there when you said it )
(-sighs-
I don't want to go to work today...
And i really want to punch that bitch Fiona in the face. She made a joke about me and i was actually offended because it made me sound stupid and it was rude.
I've got to study for my Accounting test on wednesday/Thursday. Might do it Thursday after work but idk. It would be best to do it tomorrow but i don't know if i'll have time to study enough.
And meeting both of my groups for our presentations tomorrow. I'm so screwed...)
( -hugs gemmy- if she does it again I would punch her in the face :P)
(My mum got me a santas jacket and it fits nice
Then my sister gave me an evil grin
Turns out it's a child aged 13-14)
(@Chloe oh xD Ouch.. The woes of the small.)
(Qell she said they were cheaper and the only adult ones were size 12 an I'm an 8
They had Christmas trees but apparently they were naff)
(Oh God it'd probably fit me too then xD
*sighs at the cat sitting on my revision stuff*)
(Hehehe wanna borrow it for next year? XD
Awwww)
(I'm fine xD
Silly kitty..)
*sighs* I have a feeling I should probably drop this now, so I will.
Yes, I insulted you. Yes, it was mean of me. Yes, I think I was justified considering the information I was working on at the time. I don't think I need to explain myself further.
@Chloe: I still wear some kids age 13-14 pajamas. :P
(I have the size and appearance of someone about fourteen. I've also decided I'm mentally fourteen, which makes me mentally over a decade younger than Cat as her mental age is currently 26. :P)
In other news
THE SKY WAS PURPLE TODAY
IT WAS SOOO COOL
IT WAS LIKE YOU WERE LOOKING AT THE WORLD THROUGH PURPLE-TINTED GLASS EXCEPT YOU WEREN'T
IT SENT EVERYTHING A FUNNY COLOUR
You know it's weird coz last year when I was in year eleven everyone used to think I was younger and treat me like someone younger. This year I'm a sixth former, so I don't wear uniform. And because I'm not wearing uniform everyone acts like I'm old and scary or whatever. It's actually quite funny. :P Like, they react to me as if I'm an authority figure and I'm just like "hahaha if you knew me you wouldn't be acting like this."
(People find it weird that in seventeen
Apparently I'm very mature but I look younger than my age XD )
(*breathes*
*is getting VERY irritated at the cat*)
@Chloe: :P
Once in year ten I tried to tell someone I was in year ten (he thought I was in like year eight) and he wouldn't believe me until I showed him my planner (at which point he insisted I must have nicked the planner from a year ten, but I believe he was making it up at that point.)
(My focus is visibly failing.)
@Jai: Take regular breaks. This helps as it keeps your mind fresh and it also adds more startpoints and endpoints to your revision - the human mind focuses more on startpoints and endpoints, so by adding more you're more likely to remember more of it than if you just put it in a big chunk.
(I love Christmas!!!!!!!!
*sings please come home for Christmas)
(I love how in mickeys twice upon a Christmas, Santa and the elves don't question why there are duck triplets running riot XD )
(*hugs Chloe* rp?)
(Okay sissy ^.^)
Kiana: *-Sleep dangerous-*
Mark: eating the food.
Valnum: Says the crazy woman who put a hole in my stomach
Felix: it isn't... I'll protect you whilst you sleep
Clocky; oh... That's okay *smiles$
Chris; she's one of the nicest people you will meet
Kiana: *-Not safe.. need protect you. Vampires.-*
Mark: *kisses her gently, snagging another bit of steak and eating it*
Valnum: I beg to differ.
Felix: no vampire can hurt me kiana
Clocky: *kisses*
Chris; that is if you stay on her good side
*looks for james*
Kiana: *-Won'r risk it-*
Mark: *smiles*
You okay?
Valnum: Sure.
*lays back, ignoring his stomach wound*
James: *sighs, sensing someone calling him from blogland*
*he's in the damn shower*
*pulls on a fluffy black dressing gown and teleport*
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