Due to unforeseen circumstances, the announcement of the title of my new series will take place on WEDNESDAY instead of tomorrow.
I could go into the whys and the hows and explain it all to you, making perfect sense and being entirely reasonable...
Or I could just grin and enjoy the fact that you are now cursing my name.
I think I'll do the latter.
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You people with time for things other than schoolwork. :P
EM!
(Nobody at all, Emerald.)
Hey, Em! How are you?
(Ah here's one full of great animation and ridiculously over the top action every episode: Needless.)
(Great, now I'm excitedly ranting. Somebody stop me before I fill up the entire comment forum.)
just thought i would pop in to show my face.
Not like anyone notices anyway but thought I would grace you before I go to bed.
Damnit, I keep writing comments and hitting refresh instead of publish w/out realising. :P
Hi, John! :)
EM! HELLO! *hugs* :)
@Star: xD I'm feeling the same way. :P
(*Bows dramatically before her grace*
'Twas an honor.)
(Em! Welcome! How are you!)
I noticed.
Rosario+vampire
Soul Eater
Hellsing Ultimate
Fairy Tail (ongoing)
Toradora
Death Note
Sword Art online (Has a season two which I haven't watched because they use guns. What's the point in SWORD art online If they use guns?)
Free (Just found out this has a season 2 as well which I need to watch)
Brothers Conflict (Season 2 coming out soon. Can't waitttttttt! fangirling time *.*)
Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann
Highschool DXD (Season 3 is either coming out or is already out, need to watch that too)
Angel beats
Highschool of the dead
Skip beat
Attack on Titan
Mayo Chiki
Naruto
Strike the blood
Another
Ao nou exorcist (blue exorcist)
Clannad
Clannad after story
RWBY
Future diary
Kaichou wa maid-sama
Bleach
Claymore
Diabolik lovers
Candy boy
Black Rock Shooter
No game no Life
And the other one I didn't mention because you will think i'm weird and creepy *nods*
I will add those two to my list, John.
(Hello.)
Liliana: How so?
Bethany: *she presses against her* Thank you... Again...
Claire: *she loosens it, before moving it free of his neck*
Lily: *she kisses him gently*
Blue exorcist is one of my favs!)
@Taia: :P Lol. We can be lifeless together. :)
Hey, Soph.
Blue Exorcist is good.
Fairy Tail is my favourite, I think No game no life is my 2nd favourite now... then Brothers Conflict.
Brothers Conflict was where I got the name Asahina from, if I haven't told you guys. Which I think I have because I fangirl so much about that anime...
Okay so...
Seen it
Seen it
Seen more than enough of it
Never heard of it
Seen it
Seen it
Don't want to see it
Also don't want to see it
Seen the hell out of it
Seen it (Sadly)
Seen it (Actually made me sad)
Seen it
Haven't heard of it
Seen it
What?
Seen it (Waiting for the writers to pull their heads out their rears and stop with the filler episodes on Shippuden)
Seen it
Seen it
Seen it
Seen it
Seen it
Seen it
Never heard of it
Never heard of it
Seen it
Seen it
Maybe
No
Seen it
Seen it hell yes.
(I'm off to bed now
Nos da)
Oh, Sleep well, Em. :/
Was good to see you around, at least. :) ^^
@Gemma: Wow. O_O
I watch, like, an episode or two of a TV show every few weeks? It would take me an entire lifetime to watch all of those.
I think that must be a skill in itself. ^^
@Star: :D
Certainly beats being lifeless and alone. :P
(gdi
it's gone 11:00
... msd)
(Strike the Blood and Another have kinda the same vibe now that I think about it. Though Strike the Blood was better in my opinion cause more gory and gruesome deaths as well as action fight scenes which cause me to violently fanboy.)
Night, Chloe! Sleep well! *hugs* :)
Good night, Chloe!
(Also your argument against Gun Gale Online is exactly what I was preaching from the start of it. Alfhime was okay. Not this.)
You should see Free and Brothers Conflict xD Bro con especially, John.
Skip beat is about a girl who wants to become an actress so...i really enjoyed it but it might not be your kind of anime.
Toradora is really cute and it has a happy ending. Also might not be your cup of tea.
Mayo Chiki is about a girl who dresses like a guy to be her best friends butler as only men in their family can become butlers, she can become her butler if no one finds out she's a girl. But she gets found out and it's all about their story.
Diabolik lovers is about 6 related vampires. It's not as weird and lovey-dovey as you think, it's actually quite cool and there is a plot xD cause the uncle tries to use the girls body to reincarnate his old lover, and two of the boys mother, Cordelia. (yup, got my character cordelia from her too)
Kaichou wa maid-sama is adorable as hell, funny and has a happy ending. Fangirlingggggggggggg.
Taia that's not even long... my 'to watch' list is 3x the size of that, and that's only the ones that have been recommended to me.
I laughed at another, a lot...
The umbrella death though xD it was disgusting but hilarious at the same time. Like it slowed everything down and I'm just like 'how can someone be that stupid?'
(Mhh, hence I like Strike the Blood better.)
(Also the "happy ending" thing is what has made me uninterested in those few, it's just ridiculous to me now.)
@Gemma: ... beginning to remind me of my 'to read' list, actually. :P
Looking at it that way, fair enough. :)
I'd still never finish, though. :P
It's adorable though John.
I wish for it the full anime and in Toradora and Kaichou wa maid-sama it waits till the 4th last and last episode to finally happen then I fangirl like hell and may have cried with happiness that they could find their happy ending.
(And yeano on Free and Brothers Conflict. As much as you've stated you'd like to see it I don't roll that way.)
My 'to read' list isn't that big...my anime list is way bigger...
I've got to read the rest of the Artemis Fowl series...I've only read the first two...
I've read all of Percy Jackson and the first of the Heroes of Olympus series, I need to read the rest of that. I need to read the Mortal Instruments series, I have the first book and I read the first 2 chapters then gave up.
I read the first 3 pages of Divergent then gave up. I watched the movie though...
Seventh son too, I have the first book on my kindle, need to rad that as well...
Geek girl too. (Sorry Holly lol)
Johnnnnnnn watch Brothers Conflict! at least episode one! then you meet 10 of the brothers. You meet Fuuto episode 2 or 3 and Natsume and Hikaru further through at the wedding...
(Read Artemis Fowl, read all of Percy Jackson, Heroes of Olympus, and the Kane Chronicles, read the Moral Instruments (Very good books), about to start Divergent and I actually haven't heard of Seventh Son. Is that the book version of the movie coming out soon?)
(And no.)
Read*
I love Tsubaki so much. He's my baby <3 I have no idea why I like anime guys with white hair... Toshiro Hitsugaya was my first anime crush. Captain of the 10th squad in Bleach and he's like age 10 in the anime which is kinda creepy but he's reallyyyyyyyyyy good looking with his white icy hair and he's cold blue eyes... *.*
Tsubaki Asahina is a hottie too, white hair. He's the best looking of the 3 triplets :P Natsume isn't too bad either though :3
Um, I'm not sure John. But if it then I need to read the books first!
There are a lot of them though...
(Oh wait it seems new books hasvebeen published in the Mortal Instruments series since I read them two years ago. I have not read City of Lost Souls or City of Heavenly Fire. I'll have to re-read the entire series now. It certainly seemed like City of Fallen Angels was the ending though...)
(Wait was it three years ago..? Yeah it was cause I read them Freshmen year.)
@Gemma: Huh.
I couldn't recite my reading list.
I have an entire SHELF of books I haven't read yet
And none of them were on the list before I acquired them.
It kind of just builds up like that?
I didn't read Artemis Fowl or Percy Jackson, nor the Mortal Instruments, though all three have appeared on my list at some point.
I read Divergent & Insurgent pretty much as they were released (still need to watch the films, though), but then never got around to Allegiant.
I haven't heard of the Seventh Son, either.
But, heck, I still need to finish Skulduggery, so, idk. The 'to read' list doesn't say much about what I'm actually GOING to read, tbh. It's sort of just there as a back-up plan, I think. :P
Is everyone else gone?
*Looks around sleepily*
Oh, nope. Not all gone.
*Yawns, tears in her eyes*
(What's with the tears? Unless you're like me and for some reason automatically tear up every time you yawn.)
Huh. Actually, I think I am gonna head off now.
Night Gemma, John!
*waves*
Well, I do tear up when I yawn sometimes, but I was crying too earlier...I'm not sure why though, it was only for a couple of seconds.
Goodnight Taia
*waves and hugs*
(Good night Taia.
What on Earth do you have to cry over?)
Just being alone all the time I guess...I don't like being alone all the time, it was my worst fear...
All other fears seem small compared to being lonely and isolated...the dark isn't so scary when there is someone there with you to help you get through it. Death isn't as scary if you die around the people that you love. Falling isn't as scary if you have someone to hold.
*Mumbles* Being lonely is the worst of all...
(I'd love to say I understand, but that' be a lie. I love the dark, and while being lonely isn't exactly desirable it's not a terrible thing either. The only thing I've ever asked my family to do is leave me alone more often. As for dying, we literally live to die so why be afraid of an inevitability. You only need to fear falling if your footing is off, I used to climb trees and jump around cliffs when I was younger and actually went outside.)
I know we live to die...I know it's going to happen. And sometimes I want it to, most of the time now I want it to. To just get it over with...why prolong the inevitable, after all?
The other times I dream about it, see that black room with the pitch black coffin in the centre. It jumps to me inside the coffin and for a second I can feel what I expect to be the feeling of being dead in a coffin buried 6 feet under. And it scares the shit out of me. I wake up, throw off my covers and burst into tears, rocking back in forth hugging my legs repeating 'I don't want to die' to myself over and over until I finally calm down. Then I don't want to go back to sleep, I'm scared to close y eyes again in case I don't wake up next time.
What is a birthday but one year closer to death?
What's the point in having friends and family, caring about them and developing strong feelings for them if you're only going to lose them or they die...
Isn't all the work we do worthless and meaningless if we're just going to die anyway?
I don't want to think like that...but sometimes I do, and sometimes we have to. Because you're right John, it's the inevitable. Why are we here? What is our purpose in life?
most people have a reason to live...to get up in the morning, to have hope and see the glass as half full, to be a dreamer. I have no reason to live...I don't get up out of my bed and get dressed. Why should I? what's my purpose?
*Sighs* I better stop this anyway...I'm going to bed. Goodnight John. Sweet dreams...
*Fades*
(Humans are born with no purpose, live for no reason, and die for nothing. Because this world is pointless, and our lives are aimless.
Sorry that I can't understand your fears.
Good night.)
(I agree, John. But aimless has its good points - because your life was not made with a specific purpose, it means that life is what you make of it. Nothing more, and nothing less.)
In Government we were doing notes on the Electoral College and we all were so done so we took a class vote but our teacher made our electoral votes off of our last quarter grade so I had 102 and so we vote and popular vote is to finish Monday but electoral was continue. So the teacher looks at me and forgot to add my votes so I vote to do it Monday we get the same results so I go: Hey I had over a 100 I should have more votes here! And then one boy on my side called a filibuster (talk about anything to prolong something) and we won.
Does it matter?
My voice isn't heard.
When Sir's author was ill, I emailed him a number of times a week- to check up, to try to emphasize how I love him, and how I want to help cheer him up. Even if he didn't email back- he still doesn't always, I still sent them consistently. Until I knew he was okay: and then some.
And that's all I wanted... I wanted someone to show me that they cared- to go beyond "just a comment" or a small paragraph of sympathy.
Even people who were my best friends don't acknowledge me,
Is that because I have been suffering for so long?
Has it become desensitized?
Has a human life been desensitized?
...
No one checked in with me- no one made sure I was okay. I feel so... Alone, and and forgotten- so insignificant and unattractive.
And it is seemingly when I say that I tried to myself, it is suddenly strange?
I'm told not to kill myself, but the very people who tell me this don't try to ensure it,
...
I no longer want help.
...
But I'm here to point put a dissonance.
That... There was a mistake made- that mistake is me. That is why I still try... Still feel bad.
I just... Wanted to clear that up.
So that no one else will have to go through what I did.
And this is exactly why I need to continue avoiding here.
Then go.
Oh, Al... Remember that time that your author and myself used to be friend? A long, long while ago, I know...
But y'know, Zaf got into a lot of shit for being a character, so much shit that Derek was deciding whether or not to shut off the blog.
And, y'know, I understand how you and Adra are a thing, but seriously. This is wayyyy too ironic not to pull people up on.
Mal, don't be a cow under another character's name. We have already had this argument but with Zaf. The difference is, however, that Zaf's character was premade. She didn't own it. She just used another's character. But you? You created Alastair. I remember you asking for my opinion on whether or not that you should take Niccolo onto the blog and I supported it.
Pretty bad decision now that I look back on it, huh?
So, the moral of this pointy-out-y thing: don't be mean 'in character'.
xoxo
Dannielle
(Ad.. I've been emailing you.. I'm sorry if you're not receiving them? Maybe you changed email or something? I'm sorry either way..)
Onwa: They don't have your face.
*smiles, kissing the tip of her nose, humming slightly, stroking her wings*
Hack: *coughs*
Thanks..
Manuel: *kisses her gently back, sighing gently*
Back this time two years ago, maybe even a year and a bit ago, people would have threatened to leave with Zafira.
People would see my side of things. They were so much more open minded. Friendly.
This needs to be said, understood, and taken into consideration.
You morally can't tell someone to leave. That's just wrong.
BLOGLAND IS A FAMILY. WE ALWAYS HAVE BEEN A FAMILY. I don't count myself as part of here anymore - I don't belong within this society - but I do ghost the comments to keep people in check.
I don't even know where to start.
@Death: As you're online, I'll start with you.
Point one - Zafura said she didn't enjoy being here. Alastair told her to leave.
If my friends said they didn't enjoy being on Blogland, I would tell them to leave to, and I would do it in their best interests.
Point two, Zaf said she'd rather avoid the blog AFTER ADRA POATED ABOUT HER NEGATIVE FEELINGS. Which implies to me that she would rather not here about people bei g upset and, instead of trying to help them or at least showing caring, would rather push them further away from their online friends by making them feel more unwanted.
You told Ari not to be mean in character. How about telling Zaf not to be mean out of vharacter?
Also
I am a person who doesn't reach out
and who will only continue trying to support conversation if I get a response
and who is accostomed to not making contact with people.
That
is not an excuse.
That
is an explanation.
Because
there is no excuse.
I've said it before, but . . . no one else emailed Sir, even though we all knew what was going on.
No one else was that nice.
*hugs Emerald*
I miss seeing you... Thank you for thinking of this place sometimes. Take care and good luck.
*hugs Danni*
Glad to see you still come around.
*hugs Kas*
*hugs anyone who wants or needs it*
@Jai: chick flicks: Princess Diaries, 13 going on 30, When in Rome, Bride Wars, 21(?) Dresses(I think that's the name). My friend and I had a lot of chick flick movie nights. Those were some we watched a lot.
Also, I gotta say, When in Rome is hilarious. x)
*hugs Elleni*
Thank you (for the first comment).
And yeah . . . it's my rule for real life speech too.
It might not be a very good rule.
Hmm.
*rethinks*
Also, I don't believe threatening to leave in response to arguments is a good way of dealing with things. It's a form of minor blackmail. But meh.
Hello.
What a weird dream...
why does living feel like a waste of time?
I don't know... *hugs E*
There are only so many times I can not die, why does that number have to be so high? you'd think it'd be easy
*hugs k*
Because you shouldn't be trying to die, E. You're still young and have a life ahead of you. Things will get better. Problems that seem so very important now will become insignificant as time goes on. Things will get better for you.
You'll be okay. Just hang on, stay with us...
*hugs warmly*
hanging on is the thing that makes me want to do it more I've hung on for too long. ONE person can make it go away make it seem like the worst thing to happen since 9/11 but even they don't care anymore.
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E, you will feel better. I'm sorry I can't help you right now. *hugs*
I am losing my voice from all this practicing. >.<
Halp!
Oops, bad timing... Me thinks.
"As the door opens you can see out as well as in and in that moment things become clearer than ever your soul has escaped and latched itself to someone who is not going to give you theirs as they think you deserve better when there is no such thing. "take my soul and when you realise it has become yours and not theirs it will be too late, love me now or not at all! put me out of my misery""
something that speaks volumes.
*hugsback*
Hey, Tami.
You won't feel like this forever, E. You'll feel better eventually. You'll feel happier. Trust me.
*hugs reassuringly*
"When She Cries"
Little girl terrified
She'd leave her room if only bruises would heal
A home is no place to hide
Her heart is breaking from the pain that she feels
[Chorus]
Every day's the same
She fights to find her way
She hurts, she breaks, she hides, and tries to pray
She wonders why, does anyone ever hear her when she cries?
Today she's turning sixteen
Everyone's singing, but she can't seem to smile
They never get past arms length
How could they act like everything is alright?
Pulling down her long sleeves
To cover all the memories the scars leave
She says, "Maybe making me bleed
will be the answer that could wash the slate clean."
[CHORUS]
This is the dark before the dawn
The storm before the peace
Don't be afraid 'cause seasons change and
God is watching over you
He hears you
Every day's the same
She fights to find her way
She hurts, she breaks, she hides, and tries to pray
She'll be just fine, 'cause I know he hears her when she cries
Every day's the same
She fights to find her way
She hurts, she breaks, she hides, and tries to pray
She'll be just fine, 'cause I know he hears her when she cries
She'll be just fine, 'cause I know he hears her when she cries
... I have the chorus stuck in my head. It's a catchy tune.
Hey, Tami...
I don't want to start another large argument, because this blog already has enough of those, and the acceptance of people here is not worth all of that to me. I only intend to point a few things out.
From the first moment I appeared here, as Alastair, I have never been kind. In fact I daresay sadism, my delight in the suffering of others, was my defining characteristic. Yet I didn't focus on and consistently target only one person, and it appeared as though you were all enjoying yourselves in your efforts to think of how to deal with me.
As of late, I have made a clear and conscious effort to be more nice to people out of character, and even in character to a smaller degree. I say hello to people without telling them how great a displeasure it is to see them. I often ask how people are, when I am here, and I have even tried to bring people here closer together on occasion. And that is not because of my author, or the influence of anyone here. That is because I learned from Noelle that sometimes it is worth a small amount of extra effort to be nice to people.
My comment was not a personal attack against Zafira. It was rude in that it was curt, and it is true that I said it in a curt manner because I meant to express displeasure at Zafira being rude to Noelle. I admit that that was petty, and I should have reacted differently to the situation. However, I did not write it solely for the purpose of being rude. As Star pointed out, it is also logical. Because there are often things going on here that do not interest me, I myself rarely come here anymore. Regardless of whether or not I presented it differently, I still would have suggested that Zafira find somewhere else to spend her time and emotional investment if she doesn't like it here, just as I have. In the past I have made efforts to sugarcoat suggestions so people are less likely to be offended, and perhaps I should have done her that courtesy as well. But my intention was not to make Zafira feel badly about herself in writing that comment. It was an honest response, and I only refrained from making it sound more polite in order to express discontent in regards to her being rude to my closest and only friend.
Hello, Alastair.
Hello.
...how are you, Alastair?
I am fine, thank you. How are you?
Could be better. Could be worse. Just bored. Wondering what to do.
I see. Boredom is awful. While I am here, if I can help you be rid of it, please let me know.
Mmm... I think I'll go for a walk, if it's not raining. That should help.
"hang in there because jesus is with you! if he wanted you dead you wouldn't be alive......
me: well if he wants me alive so bad then why does he try so hard to kill my spirit."
Alright.
I am sorry you feel so low, E.N.D.
Because it's not him who's keeping you down. He knows that there are struggles you need to face and he lets it happen so you can get stronger.
You don't even need to believe in him, just get by one day at a time with the thought that it won't last and you can make it. That's all you need.
You will feel better, E. *hugs gently* Stay strong.
@Kas and Al: Hi. Sorry I didn't say that earlier...
*hugs Kas*
Funny, I think we got some of your rain. :P Have a good walk.
it's fine.
1jus7w@n770k177myself0rs0me0neelse.
E, please, resist that feeling. Stay alive. You'll be okay.
Don't, because whoever it is, they aren't worth killing yourself for. You're worth more than that. The time will pass and you'll see it someday.
"The Sun Is Rising"
When life has cut too deep and left you hurting
The future you had hoped for is now burning
And the dreams you held so tight lost their meaning
And you don't know if you'll ever find the healing
[Chorus]
You're gonna make it
You're gonna make it
And the night can only last for so long
Whatever you're facing
If your heart is breaking
There's a promise for the ones who just hold on
Lift up your eyes and see
The sun is rising
The sun is rising
Every high and every low you're gonna go through
You don't have to be afraid I am with you
In the moments you're so weak you feel like stopping
Let the hope you have light the road you're walking
[Chorus]
Even when you can't imagine how
How you're ever gonna find your way out
Even when you're drowning in your doubt
Just look beyond the clouds
Just look beyond the clouds
Whatever you're facing
If your heart is breaking
There's a promise for the ones who just hold on
Lift up your eyes and see
The sun is rising
The sun is rising
Even when you can't imagine how
How you're ever gonna find your way out
Even when you're drowning in your doubt
Just look beyond the clouds
*would sing these if she could, but she can't*
Still, it's mainly the music that really helps the feeling of the songs. It's what I love about this artist. Her songs are amazing.
Sorry, I'll stop now.
Have a shower to take anyway.
*leaves hugs and fades*
I'm not worth jack sugarhoneyicetea
Yes, E, you are. You just can't see it. *hugs*
NO ONE can see it.
That's not true.
You think no one can see your worth, but that's because you're not able to see it first. As long as /you/ know it, it doesn't matter what other people see.
Back, by the way..
I can't see it because it doesn't exist all I am worth is the meat on my bones and the blood in my veins. aka a meal
E, that's not true. You're worth way more than that to us. You're a friend.
Hey, Tami.
Quoting Kas, that's not true.
I'm not going to repeat myself, but you're more than a meal. You have a spirit. I know it's dying if not dead already, but you just need to hang on. Someday you'll find the light that will revive your spirit. It doesn't have to be God or Jesus, it can be anything that gives you hope again. You just have to wait until that time comes. It's hard, I know, but take one day at a time. Remember anything in your life that made you happy, even if all it is now is a memory. You'll see. *refrains from adding something that would cause a rhyme*
am I thou? you don't know me... not properly no name, no picture, no email, so I'm invisible choosing what you know about me.
Hmm, or rather, ditto what he said.
*points to his first comment above her previous one*
And yet you're still wrong, E. You're not worthless.
Yeah, but get this, we care enough to talk you out of thinking to end your life. If that doesn't mean anything, what will?
Don't answer that, it's rhetorical.
Anyway, if we care that much, you're automatically considered a friend.
nice memories lead down a road to what could have been to what we could have done together which leads to misery and wanting to commit mass genocide, who deserves it most ? no one other than myself but I am not a mass so cannot be remembered for genocide :( shame. I have accepted that no matter what I do in life to believing to becoming a satanist I will still go to hell.
That's because you think you're worthless, something that a lot of people will disagree with.
The only people who disagree are those who don't realize how much better it would be without me. If you knew me then you wouldn't want to.
I'm sorry for suggesting it then.
Still, you learn from it and maybe next time you'll know what to do. Even if you forget when the time comes, or miss the opportunity, keep trying. Keep learning. Good things could happen.
And you know what? It's half past midnight and I should be sleeping by now(not really a bedtime, but people are telling me to be sleeping now), but I won't until I know you'll be okay.
(go to sleep, i'm sorry for keeping you up.)
I doubt I'd think the world would be better without you if I did know you. I'd be the one who'll stay with you when others would leave. Why? Because the world may never know me, but at least there was someone who I was able to help in some way. Not to make me feel good, but knowing the person who needed someone had me to talk to.
E, you're not thinking straight. We know enough to know that you're better off alive. Hang in there, and things *will* get better for you.
My choice. If I feel tired tomorrow it'll be my fault. Not yours.
My choice. If I feel tired tomorrow it'll be my fault. Not yours.
*hugs E*
You're not worthless.
Also, I'm kinda confused as to why people drive on the left side of the road. I know many places do it, I'm just wondering the logic behind it. Anyone know or have ideas?
Crab cakes. Wifi's being mean again.
Adding to that, I don't care about staying up either. You're worth it. See?
Even if my wifi's weak, I'll do anything I can to be here to talk to you.
Phone's out of battery. Bye!
@Dugglyn: So that, in the olden days, you could have a driver on the left and someone with a sword on the right. As the oncoming chariots or whatever were on their right side, this meant they could use their right arm (their swordarm) to attack the oncoming chariot more easily.
(As far as I'm aware that's actually true).
Why do you drive on the right? Where is the logic in that? Are you all left-handed? :P
Do you think the captain of a sinking ship feels better for staying on the boat instead of swimming away like a normal person...
It might not be normal thinking but it makes more sense than most of my teachers do!
also *hands ded to anyone who wants it, mine would be depressing.
May not be my choice but it'll be another thing I made worse whilst on this wretched planet.
Hi Dugglyn!
*hugs*
And no, I don't really know why... Japan has left side driving too, but even after so long, I still don't know why. I mean, they still have right turns being okay for red lights, but that's like, all the way on the other side of the road. Seriously, if they drive left side, have everything left.
Also, E, I am not ignoring you. I only just appeared and I fail at saying stuff. Kas and Tamami covered things pretty well, too.
No one is worth killing yourself over.
And if this is the worst it can be, things can only get better. If it's not the worst it can be, well, then it could be worse. :)
Oh, that's cool!
Because the /right/ side of the road is the /right/ side to drive on.
*nodsnods*
*takes The ded and reuses something she wrote(not for a ded though) because other wise she's be here all night*
I dedicate to hope(this had been dedicated to before though).
Why do people wish for hope? Why do some wish for happiness, but can never quite reach it?
For those who are depressed, for those who are trapped in despair and feel like there's no way out but death, let me tell you something.
If you're still alive right now, there must be some tiny voice in your head, telling you to keep living. Is that true? If you feel /anything/ like that, that's hope. That tiny voice, so small compared to the huge dark cloud hanging above you, weighing you down, is telling you to keep going. Why? When you feel like giving in to the darkness, when you're at the end of your rope, why is that voice persisting to keep you alive?
It knows that you can survive it. It knows your struggles, it knows you're weak, but hope doesn't give up. That hope is where your strength comes from.
Anyone know the story of Pandora's Box? Greek mythology? When she opened the box, so many bad things came out. Diseases, greed, hunger, and so many other negative feelings and illnesses. I often wondered why hope was left in the box. Why was it all the way at the bottom? It wasn't until reading Percy Jackson that I had a better idea of what the meaning was behind it.
Unlike all the negative things that came out and caused suffering to mortals, hope was kept in the box because we still need it. Illnesses, suffering, hunger, pain; those things are temporary. Yes, it might cause death, but that's where hope comes in. That tiny, flickering light inside all of us is helping us make it though the days when we can't see what the future will bring. It doesn't give up on us, but we have to help it by moving forward. If we stay stuck in shadows, it gets harder to see hope's light.
Getting back on the subject of Pandora's Box, I had a thought about what it meant for hope to be at the bottom. It was stuck under all those negative energies, how could it have survived?
I wondered, what if Pandora's Box was like our bodies? We have all this dark energy inside us, but when we can come to open up, it releases the darkness until only hope is left. And with all that empty space, hope can have room to grow.
This probably won't mean much to those who are really trapped in despair, so let me veer from the topic of hope and mythology to say this.
TBC
@Dugglyn: . . .
:P
Everyone, no matter how badly we mess up or how much we feel worthless, has value. All life is important. But we need to learn this ourselves. Sure, it can be said, but to really understand what it means, we have to feel it in ourselves how precious life is. Including our own.
Yes, we go through struggles, some more than others, but these struggles are what life is about. And the more we can face these problems in our lives, the stronger we become. Where do you think that saying came from? What doesn't kill you, DOES make you stronger.
I'm also going through some tough stuff right now(At the time this was written). There were times I even gave up on myself. But I knew I had to keep going. I may not be living, but at least I'm still getting by, right? For people who are depressed, the least you can do is SURVIVE. You don't have to pretend like you're living until you're able to feel like you can again. And trust me, if you can get through these dark days, you'll be able to feel alive again. But that's only if you can survive what you're going through. Hope knows you can, that's why you're still alive right now. Listen to that tiny voice. Keep that small flame burning. It may be small, but it's all you need. You just have to do the rest.
Tamami, I want to say something (a specific something) positive about you but if I do the way I phrase it will sound negative, so instead I'm just going to tell you that you're a beautiful person. :P
I here here all of that except that part about what doesn't kill you making you stronger. :)
:P Thanks, Star.
What is it that you want to say? I probably won't be offended if it was meant to be positive.
Also, bye Kas!(sorry I didn't say it till now!)
Noooo. Not saying it. :P
Awwww, whyyyyyy??? Pleeeeasssse?
You can email it if you want, but I'm curious.
ditto star (hear hear) what doesn't kill you can leave you wishing to be dead anyway. the rest was nice thou *tries to smile at tami*
go to sleep now... you need it to survive a little longer.
the longest someone on record has gone without sleep is 7 days then apparently you die, I can tell you this is not true but still it gets to you.
*hugs to those who hug*
I might be distant ... going to go try new things.
Thanks, E.
*accepts their hug and hugs back*
I hope those new things are productive in some way that will help you. Find a hobby you'll enjoy or do something that makes you happy.
And I guess I'll go to bed now. Take care, okay, E?
*hugs E again, and Star, Kas and Dug*
Have a good day to you all.(unless E lives in the east side of the world, then have a good morning/night)
You take care! (doesn't want to say where they live but that it is infact day ) goodnight *hugs again*
Good night, Tami.
*is back*
@E Ships can be rebuilt. People can't. That's why people are more valuable.
@k The soul is the most valuable and cannot be remade whole once broken into shards. there's more reason to stick with a sinking ship than me.
do you think if I sell my soul to god I'll get into heaven I mean hell works that way why not heaven?
@E for a start, you should stop thinking about dying. Focus on living, all the things you can do while alive.
@k there is only one thing I want in life and i'll never have it again.
You'll get over it. Give it time.
I don't want to be over it... I want it back.
@E: Well . . . that won't happen. But as time passes, the hole will shrink and get filled, and you will move on and find new things. New people. The past is a guide, not a hitching post - don't be afraid to move on, as it'll only take you to a better place. :)
(Ello)
Hey, Chloe...
(Hey!)
i like your picture
(Thank you
do I know you?)
(no one knows me)
(or everyone knows me. but i didn't tell them.)
(i'd like to hope no one)
(Okay ^^ nice to meet you, then)
(is there anyway I can help?)
(Hello.)
Liliana: Mmm...
Bethany: *she presses against her, holding her close*
Claire: *her phone starts to ring* *she pulls it out* Hello? *she pauses for a moment, her eyes narrowing* He is? Right. Okay. Thank you. Bye. *she hangs up* I... Have to go home.
Lily: Are you alright?
(if me then god no, I'm beyond help
had to do chores soz)
(its okay
im always open to talking
please email me)
(hey Soph!)
(emailing means identities, i'd rather no one know age sex etc. I've survived so far, i'll keep trying to find some reason to go on with this fun fun thing of a life. but thank you anyway for considering it)
(its okay
but if you ever change your mind, my email is always open bach)
Onwa: *smiles*
So, shall we? I believe you said you would sew
Mmm.. we should go check if her cars arrived..
*kisses her passionately, showing no intention of doing so*
Hack: Oh.. Okay.. um.. bye? I guess. You want a lift back to where you found me?
Manuel: Definitely.
@Lav: Well, I wanted to tell you how naive you were, and the reason that's a compliment is because C is a person on the pessimistic side of realism and she thinks life is shit and the world will never change, and so whenever I'm optimistic or think things can change if we try, she tells me how naive I am and starts detailing a few insults about my gum-drop world full of unicorns and butterflies or whatever. Therefore, naivety has become synonymous with optimism in my mind, and the thing is, I think optimism is one of the most beautiful things in existence. The optimism in The Final Empire was what made me first fall in love with Brandon Sanderson's writing, in fact (imo, The Final Empire is the most optimistic book I've ever read, and its sequel is the most pessimistic :P). So yeah. I think your way of looking at the world, the confidence you have that there is good in situations . . . I think that's both optimistic and naive, and I think it's beautiful. :)
Yeah.
(Well I'm back)
*rolls in*
*waves sleepily*
Hi everyone *smiles* )
RHOS
There was a character in my German test who reminded me of you. :)
Hi star! *hugs*
And awesome!
Please do tell me about this character?
I'm now really intrigued :D )
(Hello everyone else here!) (if there is anyone else )
And *hugs anyone else here?* ) )
Hey...
Hi, Star, Rhos and Chloe.
@Rhos: Uh. Well. They were someone who needed money because they were going to uni in October, and so they wrote an advertisement asking for jobs and put it in the shop window or summat, and we had to read said advertisement and then andwer questions on it. And the way they wrote/presented themself reminded me of you. :)
(It's actually really weird because obviously this advertisement was in German, but when I remember it, my brain remembers it in English - I mean, I hear it in Emglish in my head and see it in my head written in English. Freaky. :o)
:)
Hi Kas.
Wbd. Attempting to revise.
(Hey rhos! Everyone!
Wbd)
Hi Kas
And
Aww my days, that's awesome!
I like how my style of writing is recognisable(?)
So thank you for that Star :D
I'm pleased that my style of writing is *insert correct word here because I'm not sure what would fit* *because tired lol* )
:)
*hugs Rhos*
Yw.
(*huggles everyone$)
*hugs everyone too*
(It seems I disappeared briefly.)
Liliana: Indeed. *she sits down, taking the material* *a needle and thread form in her hands, and she starts to sew one side after tying a not in the thread*
Bethany: Maybe... *she kisses her passionately back*
Claire: Yes, please. *she dials Silente's number on her phone*
Lily: Good. *she nods and smiles*
Hey, Soph.
(Hello, Tia.)
You know how we insist B has anger management issues?
Sh just came online and told us she'd been guven calming medication and that she is so calm now and it's great.
Oh my God.
I KNEW she had anger management issues!!!
(So, if she stays on this medication - like, if it's not just a one-off - then that will be two of my friends who are on medication for mental issues and yet they STILL insust that I, who is perfectly normal, have much more issues than them. When I pointed out the lack of logic in this, C proceeded to protest that anxiety and hallucinations were issues other people have and that one in ten people have anxiety so it's really quite common, whereas no one has my issues.
I don't know what they think is wrong with me.
They don't know what they think is wrong with me either. But they say there has to be somwthing, because I am just too weird not to have somethung wrong with me.
I remember me and C were walking down a corridor the other ay andshe suddenly stopped walking and said "What is wrong with us? Why are we having debates about society instead of discussing boyfriends? What is WRONG with us?"
And I just shrugged and said "What's wrong with THEM?" because y'know, debates about society over boyfriend talk any day.
And it struck me in that moment that she does ave a standard of normality. And she thinks there is a way people SHOULD be, and if you're not that way you're wrong. Whereas I tend to view people as diverse individuals, and if one person is different from another, then neither person hassonething wrong with them; they are just different. And that is fine. People are allowed to differ
Idk. I like my worldview better, but then again, it's my worldview. :P
(Although I won't say that I don't care about not being normal. I don't care a lot more than most people would were they as abnormal as me, but sometimes this stuff bothers me.)
Sorry. I'm tired. I ramble when I'm tired.
Ah. No. She has the drugs coz a girl from her choir gave this serum to her before her concert because she loved B's voice and didnt want it to be ruined by nerved.
But it's apparently legit stuff and not illegal or anything.
*cuddles Star*
Alastair is my only friend, because everyone else has forgotten me, and neglected me.
....
Everyone, please stop sending me emails. I said that I didn't want them, and I don't. I don't want your attention, nor your pity. I don't believe it, and so I just delete the emails. And if they are still sent, they will be blocked..
My comment was to, to say bluntly, point the flaw in logic, and to, I'm not proud to say, make you all feel bad for how I've been regarded and treated.
Nevertheless, I'm not sorry- because I'm angry and hurt and tired and I don't want anyone to try to make up for ignoring me, because nothing can.
So...
Just forget me- I'm sure it won't be too hard- I was forgotten until yesterday.
No one seemed to try to care, so I don't want the pity party.
Just let me go, let me perish, let me shrivel. Clearly, no one cares.
Fine by me.
Goodbye.
@Noelle and it's a flaw in your logic to say that people who send you emails to try to make you feel better are uncaring. Of course we care.
Noelle?
I don't think you should be sorry.
But however much they act on it, I really don't doubt that most people here care.
*cuddles Kas back*
[02/05 22:52] Star Inkbright: I don't know.
To die tomorrow via tiredness or to due tomorrow via murder?
[02/05 22:53] B: Why would you die because of this and who is threatening to murder you
[02/05 22:53] Star Inkbright: You would.
[02/05 22:53] Star Inkbright: Tomorrow.
[02/05 22:53] B: Would I?
[02/05 22:53] B: Why would I do that?
[02/05 22:54] Star Inkbright: You already ARE threatening to murder me!
[02/05 22:56] B: Why am I threatening to kill you
[02/05 22:56] Star Inkbright: @Lizzie: Because you're mad at me.
[02/05 22:56] B: Am I
XD
We should keep her on this medication. :P
*looks at Star*
*looks at Kas*
I was merely acknowledging your continued presence, Star.
Ah, okay, Kas. :)
I might be continued prescence distance long bc Whatsapp.
I couldn't be vothered to phrsse that properly. :P
Okay...
I might just spam you with the beayty of German.
professional - beruflich. Literally, 'jobly.'
ability - Fähigkeit. Literally, 'competence-ness.'
partner - Gesellschafter. So like 'partner in society.' C:
To conclude - beschließen. 'Scließ' is 'close,' so it's like 'to close' . . .
I love German. C:
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