Rose, I've spent the last weeks without seeing Chione even once. How do you think it feels? I'll tell you, it's hell. You think understanding why makes it any better? You think that I'm fine because I know she'll be back? I can't see the person I love and I feel like there's nothing but a hole in my chest.
I can't make Loki stay. I can't even make you stay. I can't do anything because I'm the most useless person in the world. I can't get B to stop cutting herself, I can't stop you from trying to kill yourself, I can't stop Loki from leaving, from doing the same.
I can't do anything. I'm nothing. I'm literally nothing.
Crowded hallways are the loneliest places For outcasts and rebels Or anyone who just dares to be different And you've been trying for so long To find out where your place is But in their narrow minds There's no room for anyone who dares to do something different Oh, but listen for a minute
Trust the one Who's been where you are wishing all it was Was sticks and stones Those words cut deep but they don't mean you're all alone And you're not invisible Hear me out, There's so much more to life than what you're feeling now Someday you'll look back on all these days And all this pain is gonna be invisible Oh, invisible
So your confidence is quiet To them quiet looks like weakness But you don't have to fight it 'Cause you're strong enough to win without a war Every heart has a rhythm Let yours beat out so loudly That everyone can hear it Yeah, I promise you don't need to hide it anymore Oh, and never be afraid of doing something different Dare to be something more
Trust the one Who's been where you are wishing all it was Was sticks and stones Yeah, the words cut deep but they don't mean you're all alone And you're not invisible Hear me out, There's so much more of this life than what you're feeling now And someday you'll look back on all these days And all this pain is gonna be invisible
These labels that they give you just 'cause they don't understand If you look past this moment You'll see you've got a friend Waving a flag for who you are And all you're gonna do Yeah, so here's to you And here's to anyone who's ever felt invisible
Yeah, and you're not invisible Hear me out, There's so much more to life than what you're feeling now And someday you'll look back on all these days And all this pain is gonna be invisible It'll be invisible
I remember my first introduction to Rose. She was in hospital. I wondered what happened to her. You know what happened to her.
I don't know why, but I felt irrational guilt. I felt that should she die, it would be my fault if she died, despite her never even meeting me, because I wasn't there when she needed help.
Completely irrational.
Now though, I realise I've done nothing to help you, and your death would be my fault, my responsibility. Because I couldn't save you.
Rose, I'm not sure if you read my coded message, but if leaving is honestly best for your well-being, I'm not going to stop you. I am, however, going to remind you that we love you and we want you to be okay.
Tia, you need to go to sleep now. The fact that it's very late/early isn't helping your emotions right now. Also, listening to music that makes you feel happy might be a good idea.
You're both--actually basically everyone in Blogland is--so much more amazing than you give yourself credit for.
*his hands began to wander to wear they usually dont go*
((He did sleep with Zan...
Hey now my next question: I wonder what he felt when-
Okay so when he concieved and carried the six-legged horse, he made himself into a woman so he could carry. Now, how the hell did he survive horse-birth? Like...where did it pop out?
*steals cookies, but glares* I am Loki Laufeyson, not Skywalker. Why are you in my movie? Trying to steal my glory? I am burdened with glorious purpose, and alive, unlike you.
Dark Hunter: *fades out, fading in behind her and slashing* *fades to her right hand side and slashes* *fades to her left and does likewise* *then the front - effectively launching attacks at her from four directions in quick succession* *continues to fade around her and slash*
*rolls to the side to avoid the stabs and waves a hand, hurling the dark hunter away with both gravity and air* *looks back at El, smiling* *more and more of her is covered in feathers and her other wing starts growing*
Dark Hunter: *fades out and in again quickly, charging his gauntlet with electrical energy* *fires an electrical pulse at her back* *continues to twist the blade*
I have returned, 'from where' you ask? Well, my friends, it was not only from the place called reality but also from a place in Carlton. -----> Yes, your suspicions are correct, that is in fact my arm/elbow on the shoulder of Derek Landy...and no, I didn't actually take the picture like that, I just don't want anybody to see my face.
So yes, you imagine me to have an answer to some question that has baffled me from the beginning of the series. Nope. I got up there, my mum took a picture and this is what happened...
Derek : So __________ How's life?
Me: *smiles like a lunatic* Fantastic.
Derek : So do you have any questions for me?
Me: Nope.
Derek: Are you sure?
Me: I'm just so happy I haven't passed out yet.
Derek: Don't you have people to carry fans around for you. *points to the people behind him setting up a fan for him*
Me: *giggles* Nah, that's reserves for God's like you.
Derek: Well thanks for coming.
Me: *stares* yeah... *giggles* *coughs* Thank you. *walks off holding three books and a poster all signed by Derek*
And then I thought, damn it, I wanted to know what was happening on the movie front. I'm so disappointed in me, but I touched his shoulder jbwfeijhefojwebfojwebofjb HIS SHOULDER,
Me: Look mum, I touched his shoulder.
Mum: ________! Don't say that in public.
Ahhh, good times, but yeah Derek is practically on my elbow, I touched a god.)
(Yeah Inky, it is. But now I have to go do three projects I didn't do already because it was the holidays but they are all due tomorrow so yeah, bye. )
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«Oldest ‹Older 3401 – 3600 of 4581 Newer› Newest»Tia makes sense. I cannot handle time without you, Rose.
Yeah, we can talk tomorrow OH WAIT
Why do you assume I'm not thinking straight. Is there something wrong with me for holding these views?
Because they're true.
Rose, I've spent the last weeks without seeing Chione even once. How do you think it feels? I'll tell you, it's hell. You think understanding why makes it any better? You think that I'm fine because I know she'll be back? I can't see the person I love and I feel like there's nothing but a hole in my chest.
Don't put Loki through that.
You're views and distorted by a lack of sleep....
Loki...
Blake is right Rose, I cannot put myself through that, and I can imagine the hell Blake feels. Do not do that to me please....
Fine, dammit. I worry about you, Rose. Do you understand that? I worry.
*thinks about it*
You don't even know me.
But I'm here for you.
You shouldn't worry about me...
We do though
But you shouldn't...
Yet we do.
...
Please don't...
It's easier for everyone...
"You shouldn't"
"Shouldn't" implies regret.
Only I can regret worrying about you.
And I don't.
So don't tell me I shouldn't.
I do worry. I don't like worrying, but I do worry. I don't know what I'd do if you...
The thought scares me, ok?
And yet I care and I worry because you're you and you're worth it all.
No, its harder for everyone not to care.
Caring for someone effectively throws the matter of how easy it is out the window.
There's only one way to know what you would do without me...
Not for you there isn't.
...
Can I just go? Please? And someone make sure Loki stays...
You know I will kill mysrlf
Loki, and then I would return and I'd die too.
Then I guess yo better stay, Rose.
Zafira herself sad she is going to kill herself
It's the first week of school, tomorrow. Let me sort out school stuff and then I will be back.
I can't make Loki stay. I can't even make you stay. I can't do anything because I'm the most useless person in the world. I can't get B to stop cutting herself, I can't stop you from trying to kill yourself, I can't stop Loki from leaving, from doing the same.
I can't do anything. I'm nothing. I'm literally nothing.
No...
You're not nothing...
Thats what Zafira is
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I am. I see that now. I thought I was talking to a brick wall. Turns out I just don't have a voice.
I'm crying now. I'm so sad.
Rose, if you need a shoulder to cry on, you have Em. You have Zaf. Go to them. They love you.
I'll translate that now, Fabi.
Tia!! Please...
My fault.
I caused this.
I'm sorry.
I don't blame you, Rose.
I blame me and that's enough.
You're not the reason I'm useless, Rose. Take care of yourself.
It's 3 now so I'll be going to (cry myself) to sleep.
I love you all. I do.
Good night!
I'm sorry...
I've accomplished absolutely nothing during my time on Blogland. (As well as accomplishing nothing in life)
And I never will, you know?
*hugs Rose*
Not. Your. Fault. Rose.
It's really not.
This is all me.
Me being selfish and thinking I can be a good person and I can help.
Tia... I'm sorry... You are a great person, but I'm helpless...
I'll be back soon, dinner.
Rose, don't leave us. Even if it is just for a week.
Tia, you're far from worthless.
Ellie, keep being you.
Loki... *glares*
*Hugs Loki sadly*
Well.
*tries to get breathing under control*
Well I couldn't help someone if I tried.
And I tried. And tried. I will always try.
I sent you an email, Tia.
*smiles, kissing her head* My love.
PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT
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Basically, if you're reading this, you matter, okay?
People who don't matter are incapable of reading this!
Just thought you'd like to know, you are officially on the official list of people who officially matter. Okay? Good.
YOU ARE SO AWESOME
I'm not convincing anything of anyone.
Good night. I bloody love you all. I want you to be happy. Please, please be happy.
((I have NEVER cried this hard))
*Doesnt respond, just stands there in his arms*
I'm sorry... For everything...
Tia... I do this thing were I refuse to let anyone help me because I'll drag them down... I'm sorry...
Crowded hallways are the loneliest places
For outcasts and rebels
Or anyone who just dares to be different
And you've been trying for so long
To find out where your place is
But in their narrow minds
There's no room for anyone who dares to do something different
Oh, but listen for a minute
Trust the one
Who's been where you are wishing all it was
Was sticks and stones
Those words cut deep but they don't mean you're all alone
And you're not invisible
Hear me out,
There's so much more to life than what you're feeling now
Someday you'll look back on all these days
And all this pain is gonna be invisible
Oh, invisible
So your confidence is quiet
To them quiet looks like weakness
But you don't have to fight it
'Cause you're strong enough to win without a war
Every heart has a rhythm
Let yours beat out so loudly
That everyone can hear it
Yeah, I promise you don't need to hide it anymore
Oh, and never be afraid of doing something different
Dare to be something more
Trust the one
Who's been where you are wishing all it was
Was sticks and stones
Yeah, the words cut deep but they don't mean you're all alone
And you're not invisible
Hear me out,
There's so much more of this life than what you're feeling now
And someday you'll look back on all these days
And all this pain is gonna be invisible
These labels that they give you
just 'cause they don't understand
If you look past this moment
You'll see you've got a friend
Waving a flag for who you are
And all you're gonna do
Yeah, so here's to you
And here's to anyone who's ever felt invisible
Yeah, and you're not invisible
Hear me out,
There's so much more to life than what you're feeling now
And someday you'll look back on all these days
And all this pain is gonna be invisible
It'll be invisible
Okay my phone is basically out of battery now, so I'm gonna be offline for a while.
Please be okay while I'm gone, all of you.
No, you're not an exception to this. Deal with it.
I love you.
Drag me to hell if you want. If it would make you happier. I don't care.
I love you too...
Tia, it would upset me if I hurt you...
Actually, upsetting is a good enough word.
It would kill me...
Good, that is all i ask.
*Hugs Fabi*
I thought you were asking me to stay, too...
*Cuddles Tia tightly*
I'm sorry...
Well that added onto staying
So you ask for my love and for me to stay...?
I remember my first introduction to Rose. She was in hospital. I wondered what happened to her. You know what happened to her.
I don't know why, but I felt irrational guilt. I felt that should she die, it would be my fault if she died, despite her never even meeting me, because I wasn't there when she needed help.
Completely irrational.
Now though, I realise I've done nothing to help you, and your death would be my fault, my responsibility. Because I couldn't save you.
You tried, Tia...
I just pushed you away...
*Takes Loki's hand an holds it to her face*
I love you...so much.
We need to stop pushing people away, Rose.
It's nearly four now. Good night!
Oh, and *hugs Rose*
Rose, I'm not sure if you read my coded message, but if leaving is honestly best for your well-being, I'm not going to stop you. I am, however, going to remind you that we love you and we want you to be okay.
Tia, you need to go to sleep now. The fact that it's very late/early isn't helping your emotions right now. Also, listening to music that makes you feel happy might be a good idea.
You're both--actually basically everyone in Blogland is--so much more amazing than you give yourself credit for.
I'm gonna post this before my phone dies.
I suppose I'll dedicate to useless people. In theory they're the most useful people of all.
We do, Tia...
*Hugs back*
Loki, can we do something...? To get our minds off this...?
Whatever you wish to do, love.
I decoded it, Fabi...
*Cuddles*
Let's go to Vanaheim... I want to walk with you...
*for onces, uses the Tesseract to travel to Vanaheim*
*She took his hand and swung it between them as they walked*
I'm sorry...
*Prances through Blogland all by himself, not a care in the world*
*Then the crushingly wonderful responsibility of being a father comes down on him, and he sprints home*
*smiles, just walking with her* You need not apologize.
(Welcome back, Blake.)
*Rests her head on his shoulder and sighs heavily*
I will always apologise...
*smirks* I can get used to it. *runs a hand through her hair*
*Stops walking and turns to him, slowly wrapping her arms around his chest*
Keep doing that... It feels nice...
I can do that...I found something you like, eh?
Be quiet... It's just nice... But it would be nicer if you taught me how to take your armour off...
*Giggles and kisses his jaw*
*laughs* You wouldn't be able to.
I know... But I need to find a way to get to your chest... May you...?
*Taps his armour, blushing*
*vanishes his armor* Happy
Very happy...
*Kisses his chest softly and peeks up at him*
I'm sorry...
(*Hugs El*)
I forgive you, love.
(No I'm not...)
I don't care if you forgive me if not... I'm still forever sorry...
*Purses her lips*
Can I get a kiss...?
*pulls her close, kissing her gently*
(Mmm...)
*Kisses him back softly, tears starting to trickle down her cheeks*
(I do...)
(Things change, El...)
*brushes tears away*
Loki... I love you...
*Hiccups and nuzzles Loki's chest*
Don't leave me...
(...)
I never will leave.
*She threw her arms around him tightly and sobbed into his shoulder*
(But it's different... She is amazing...)
(...)
Shhhh...I love you.
(I can't...)
I love you too... I... I-I love you...
*She kissed him again, harder than before, pressing his face to hers*
*kisses her back, matching her roughness*
(I'll try...)
*She tugged at his hair gently and bit his lower lip, tugging it*
(*Hugs back*
I'm not... But thanks...)
*his hand continues through her hair as they kiss*
Zanida: *buries head against Thor, scared*
Thor: Shhh...what do you feel?
Zanida: Longing, he went to Vanaheim.
Thor: Good. Now focus on yourself, focus on Ricci.
*She pulled away from his lips and started to kiss along his jaw*
Loki... I love you...
((If I vanish, sleep hit me.-Zaf
(I'm amazing...?)
(Okay, Zaf.)
I love you too, I really do. I will always love you.
Astrid: Zanida, may I look at your arms? They're bleeding.
Zanida: *nods* I was attacked.
Astrid: The Aether is in you...hut yet you are fine.
Thor: Jane was human, Zanida is a Frost Giant.
(I'm amazing)
I want you... Forever...
*She kissed along his neck and giggled*
((So apparently in mythology Loki slept with a rock. Apparently Loki sleeps with anything, plant, animal, or mineral.
*nods* My question; How did he ever suceed with the rock?
-Zaf))
(No I'm not...
*Hugs*)
Someone is happy...*laughs*
(Oh my God...)
I am... I'm happy when I'm with you...
*She returned to his lips, kissing him deeply*
(The dark side has cookies and Loki...)
*his kisses become deep too, excitement pulsing through him*
((Oh, I know! He drilled a hole in the rock.
K I'm forbidden to look up Loki at midnight.-Zaf
I am the dark side. *eyes Eleni* Kneel!
(To think I'm in love with this guys... XD )
*She started to walk backwards, taking Loki with him. Se felt a tree against her back and she giggled again, kissing him harder*
I am light? Ok.
I am the good side, with cookies. *glares at Darth Vador* Kneel!
(XD Loki... <3 )
*taking Loki with her
(Plot twist.)
*his hands began to wander to wear they usually dont go*
((He did sleep with Zan...
Hey now my next question: I wonder what he felt when-
Okay so when he concieved and carried the six-legged horse, he made himself into a woman so he could carry. Now, how the hell did he survive horse-birth? Like...where did it pop out?
-Zaf
I AM LOKI OF JOTUNHEIM! You, you are nothing but a machine. Kneel before me you mewling quim!
*Her face reddened and she looked up at him, smiling softly*
Are you sure you want to do this...?
(Loki's mythology is weird... I might have to read up on it... XD And make a list of what he hasn't slept with...)
*steals cookies, but glares* I am Loki Laufeyson, not Skywalker. Why are you in my movie? Trying to steal my glory? I am burdened with glorious purpose, and alive, unlike you.
Would you prefer me to do it with a tree? I much like a pretty lady, but the tree seems like an option. The last tree I slept with...
((Plot twist: Loki concieves a cat.
His mythology is weird....he has slept with pretty much anything.-Zaf
*fires sceptre* WE ARE ON ASGARD.
*She rolled her eyes and kissed his jaw, pulling away from him slightly*
I'll leave you and the tree alone, eh? Maybe your brother will continue what we had going... I should ask him.
*She smirked at him, nudging his shoulder with her head*
No....*takes off her shirt* I want you!
((Im gonna sleep now before i find out what else he slept with...-Zaf
(I'll make this list up later on.
I can't believe Loki and a rock...
Loki and The Rock.
I SHIP THEM!!!)
((Before I go: Just think, poor Tom Hiddleston had to research Loki, I wonder what he thinks of the horse.-Zaf
Locki!-Zaf
(Okay, Zaf. Goodnight.)
(Poor Hiddles...
Locki FTW!!)
(Bye El!)
I've got homework to do... Nine projects or something...
So I've got to go...)
(BOOP *presses play*)
*grins down at Elleni*
You're a very tasty girl El. Hmmm...
*chops off a finger from her remaining hand*
(*laughs*)
*extinguishes the heat quickly*.
*sucks the finger*
*bites through it with a crunch!*
*a tree root in the stomach stops her progress*
Shhh. Stay still.
(yup.)
(yup.)
*smiles down at El*
Good pet.
Shhh.
*sits next to El*
I could keep you as a pet actually...
(Hello.)
Why wouldn't you want that? You could have s pretty collar..
*as she speaks ivy starts to wrap around El's neck gently*
(hey Soph.)
*makes sure she's alive, holding her in that state*
You'd be a great little pet.
(What is happening?)
(I see. She will not be eating me.)
Dark Hunter: *fades in several metres away, extending his hook blades*
*smiles*
*elleni starts healing*
Dark Hunter: *fades out, fading in behind Silente and slashes at her back*
Hmm...
*thinks through a list of animals in her head*
Oh I know!
*El's arms start turning to black wings*
*rolls forwards, leaping over El*
*spins and smiles at the hunter*
Dark Hunter: *fades out, fading in behind her and slashing* *fades to her right hand side and slashes* *fades to her left and does likewise* *then the front - effectively launching attacks at her from four directions in quick succession* *continues to fade around her and slash*
*Els hair starts turning to feathers*
*she starts to shrink*
*heals herself almost as soon as the slashes occur, yelping at the pain*
Dark Hunter: *uses the hook on his blades to pull her legs out from under her and then stabs downwards with both swords*
*rolls to the side to avoid the stabs and waves a hand, hurling the dark hunter away with both gravity and air*
*looks back at El, smiling*
*more and more of her is covered in feathers and her other wing starts growing*
Dark Hunter: *fades out* *fades in behind Silente, and stabs at her back*
*takes the blade and cries out*
*can't heal because the blade is in the way*
*looks at El, who by now is basically entirely s raven*
Dark Hunter: *pushes the blade more*
*screams*
*starts melting the blade inside her*
(human thoughts. Human speech.)
(The blade is protected by an energy field. It would more likely melt you.)
Dark Hunter: *twists the blade*
*drops to her knees, crying out loudly*
*throws out a shockwave to try dislodge the Hunter*
Dark Hunter: *fades out and in again quickly, charging his gauntlet with electrical energy* *fires an electrical pulse at her back* *continues to twist the blade*
*looks at the El raven and smiles*
*reaches out for her*
*cries out and falls forwards*
STOP!
*is struggling to replenish blood as quickly as she is loosing it*
Dark Hunter: *stabs downwards with his second blade* *she will become hotter the more she is in contact with the swords*
*the ivy around El's neck releases her*
*gravity pulls her towards Onwa*
El...
*cries out and growls*
*eyes flood back to blue, Onwa leaving Sil to fend for herself*
Dark Hunter: *pulls out his swords*
*falls forwards and gasps, system starting to shut down*
Gtg filming!
Dark Hunter: *positions the hook of his blade over her throat*
(Goodbye, Silente.)
(How are you, Elleni?)
(I am average, thank you. I'm in an odd mood, but that's fine.)
Dark Hunter: *fades in*
(Trudges in* morning *groans* I shouldn't have drunken so much last night)
(I do not think I can.
Hello, Chloe.)
Dark Hunter: *tilts head*
(Hello *flops over*)
Dark Hunter: *shakes head*
Dark Hunter: *tilts head also*
*walks into the scene and watches*
*guard is up*
Dark Hunter: *shakes head*
Dark Hunter: *writes "Hello."*
Dark Hunter: *"You already know my name."*
Dark Hunter: *shakes head* *"I am not. She attacked me."*
(crap. Only when I got up did I realize how hung over I was)
(And this is why you should not drink alcohol, Chloe.)
Dark Hunter: *"She disapproves of my choice of career."*
(its not as if I drink all the time)
*shouts from sitting spot*
Excuse me...I only attacked you for attacking Claire...so we are good right?
(Byii El)
Dark Hunter: *"I may have killed her parents"*
(Goodbye, Elleni.)
*blinks* What...? why did you do that? *stands up*
(Hello all.
I have returned, 'from where' you ask? Well, my friends, it was not only from the place called reality but also from a place in Carlton. -----> Yes, your suspicions are correct, that is in fact my arm/elbow on the shoulder of Derek Landy...and no, I didn't actually take the picture like that, I just don't want anybody to see my face.
So yes, you imagine me to have an answer to some question that has baffled me from the beginning of the series. Nope. I got up there, my mum took a picture and this is what happened...
Derek : So __________ How's life?
Me: *smiles like a lunatic* Fantastic.
Derek : So do you have any questions for me?
Me: Nope.
Derek: Are you sure?
Me: I'm just so happy I haven't passed out yet.
Derek: Don't you have people to carry fans around for you. *points to the people behind him setting up a fan for him*
Me: *giggles* Nah, that's reserves for God's like you.
Derek: Well thanks for coming.
Me: *stares* yeah... *giggles* *coughs* Thank you. *walks off holding three books and a poster all signed by Derek*
And then I thought, damn it, I wanted to know what was happening on the movie front. I'm so disappointed in me, but I touched his shoulder jbwfeijhefojwebfojwebofjb HIS SHOULDER,
Me: Look mum, I touched his shoulder.
Mum: ________! Don't say that in public.
Ahhh, good times, but yeah Derek is practically on my elbow, I touched a god.)
(Hello Raven, That's awesome!!)
(Yeah Inky, it is. But now I have to go do three projects I didn't do already because it was the holidays but they are all due tomorrow so yeah, bye. )
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