My Twitter-wife Holly Smale has brought to the attention of her Twitter-followers, of which I am one, this here magazine article entitled "I Hate Strong Female Characters" — http://www.newstatesman.com/culture/2013/08/i-hate-strong-female-characters — and I have to say I agree with it wholeheartedly.
For those of you too time-constricted/lazy to read it, it basically holds up a hand in the classroom and has the temerity to ask "Why are vibrant female characters called strong?" Why are they limited to such a thing? More to the point, however, is why is the word "strong" slung in there at all? If you take away the strong bit, that leaves "female character"— but isn't a female character just as inherently strong as a male character? Why do they need "strong" in there at all?
People say to me all the time "Derek, you're great," and I can't argue with them. They go on to say "I love your black shirt/blue jeans combo" and I nod wisely, agreeing with them but not needing to put it into words. Then they say "It's so cool that your books have strong female characters" and I shrug, and say "Hey, I'm a pretty awesome guy. Now go get me some Skittles."
Valkyrie is a strong female character. As in, she's strong, she's female, and she's a character. But she is not a Strong Female Character. She's not a role model — not really. She's deeply, DEEPLY flawed. Over the course of these eight books, she's done some outstandingly heroic things, but she's also done some downright mean and nasty and selfish things. She's hurt people. She's become arrogant (and not in the cool way that I am).
Here's what Holly has to Twitter-say about the subject:
"Strength" is one dimensional. It's saying "women can be strong like men", NOT "women are flawed, complex, brilliant, weak LIKE MEN."
I love it when readers don't like Valkyrie. I love it when they actively dislike her for the things she's done and the way she's behaved. But it's like they're surprised. It's like they can't compute. "Okay, wait, so... she saves the world but... but she's cheating on her boyfriend?? How is that POSSIBLE?"
Valkyrie is a character. She's as messed up as any male character I could ever write. That's what makes her real to me.
Having a girl as the protagonist in an action/adventure/horror/fantasy/whatever means things are going to get physical, and you all know how much I love my fight scenes. But having her kick ass is not why she's a good character.
Years ago, I was yapping to my mother about Buffy and Xena and talking about how great it is that we now have these TV shows about such strong female characters. My mother, who admittedly has never watched either show, asked me if these really WERE strong female characters, or if they were merely male characters with boobs.
Having a blonde cheerleader save the world with her martial arts skills doesn't equal feminism, she said. That's a male tactic. How about her saving the day using tactics that aren't all about punching and kicking and killing?
I didn't have an answer for her then. I still don't, even now. There's a whole debate to be had that I'm just not ready for, that I may never be ready for. My mother is a pacifist. I am not. We see the world differently, we operate differently, even though we want the same things. We both want equality and peace. My mother is the sort to talk her way to equality and peace. I'm the sort to talk to the point where I reckon more talk won't do any good, and then smash my way through to an understanding. It is not an enlightened viewpoint I hold. It is a crass, brutish viewpoint — but in a crass, brutish world, I believe my way is the way to go. Mum believes otherwise.
And that's the difference, I think, between us. We live in a world carved by men, where fear and oppression and violence are a part of our lives. I can't even IMAGINE a world sculpted by women, where other values have taken hold. I'm limited in that way. I could try not to be, but I honestly wouldn't know where to start. That's kind of sad, when you think about it. For all my imagination, I can't even imagine that...
... (turns to stare hauntingly out the window).
Monday, August 19, 2013
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death... no... *huggles*
okay.. so here is my ded...:
because i am bored and my brain is spinning with a story idea, i am only half paying attention to this ded.
i would dedicate to something simple something i have already done, but where is the fun in that?
so, i decided to dedicate to this blog.
i don't know why.
it just seems a good idea.
so, i dedicate to this blog, because without it a lot of our lives would be so much more.. boring and depressing.
we wouldn't have such a wide rang of friends.
we wouldn't have the role-play.
and we definitely wouldn't have Adrip.
this blog gives us a place to express our inner oddness, our little bit of random that other people don't exert.
this blog gives us a place to discuss different things from the SP universe.
it lets us discuss different ships, different theories, different every thing.
so this is why i dedicate to this blog. :)
has everyone vanished?
Death, no one can stay strong forever. I'm not some sort of immortal angel, I just don't let people see me when I break. And I found outlets. Like Krav. That makes my life easier. My life is easy. I'm lucky, Death. That's it. You're not. You're the opposite of lucky. You have all the odds stacked against you and you still fight. That is strength. The worst I have is secondhand scars. You've been torn to pieces, and you know what? You kept walking. No one is invincible, and no one is perfect. We're humans, and humans have flaws. I love flaws. I would hate a world without them. Death, you have flaws, and your flaws make you so much more beautiful than you can imagine. And you've tried your best not to treat anyone badly. But you know what else? Families aren't perfect either. Not even the ones we build ourselves. Everybody loses it. Everybody says things they regret, and things they wish they could regret. Recently no one has been without fault. We all hurt each other, and we all hate ourselves for it, on top of all our other pressures. This place has changed for everyone. That doesn't make you bad, or mean, and it doesn't mean you should leave. And I am sure as Hell never going to let you disappear. Four years, Death. Four years of being actively being pushed away by my friend, and now we're closer than ever. I'm like one of those annoying burrs you get stuck on your pants, and the harder you scratch at it the more it digs in. I don't let go, and I'll cling to you until you get that. Somehow things will get better here, and I'll make sure you're there to see it happen. It might not be perfect, but we'll get by. All of us. I blatant
Y refuse to lose you. Now I really have to try to calm down and sleep, and I'll likely send you something else- something better- in the morning. I knew if I read your writing I would end up doing this... *smiles warily* And I bet you thought I was gone...
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i completely agree with ari...
everyone here has been making mistakes lately.
i was awful to fab and hallie, and i havent talked to hallie again sense. i still feel awful about that...
g2g.. if anyones here...
byee!!
*leaves hugs for anyone who wants/needs/wouldnt mind a hug*
Hi guys.
Can't remember the day but this is the month I started on this blog a year ago.
Hello anyone here?
No... Not technically...
Hello.
Just reading the comments from last night.
Really missed out on a lot.
Why do I always go to the signing no one else goes to.
*Shrugs* Be lucky that Derek's there... He didn't come to Aus this year... *Shivers* I've got five shirts on, two pairs of thermal pants, two jackets and a beanie... I'm still freezing...
Brave was wondering where you went yesterday. He never sees you 'round...
Just haven't been on in ages.
I'll email him later probably.
Summers nearly over and this is what I did last year so I thought I might go on today.
What happened the last I remembered was that in the morning the blog was swamped with Aussies.
We have two new Aussies, Eldritch Blaze and Snowy... Missy barely is on, Zath and Nix haven't been on since God knows when, Alex Chrome (he goes by many names like Beach Ball, John Nexus, etc.) is on... We... We're kinda together...
Aussies just drift. That's what we do.
Kay.
I remember coming on at nine o'clock at night and having no one for an hour.
Well, I'm always here, even if I say I've left (which it does say just above), I'm ghosting... No one is ever alone...
I'd half to leave school early to go to the signing Brave is going to.
The iriminions should organise what signing we're going to for the last book.
An hopefully it wont be when everyone's going back to school here.
I was trying to get to Ireland for the last book but I'm going to Europe and mum won't let me...
Your first post was on the 18th of August, 2012 at 8:16pm
It says...
"My first time thanks for changing the time for your singing in Kilkenny Derek now I can see you in person it's gonna be the best day of my life (excluding the day i won the all Ireland credit union quiz) oh and I'm bringing my mortal coil and dark days"
I'd say Derek will have to do a very large event
For the last signing rather than a series of small signing.
He should pay for us Aussies... He sold the rights to SP for 1.5 million...
Two days off
I suppose that was close enough.
I think looking back the world book day signing was better
I saw Rua but I didn't realise it was her until after though.
Plus Derek said I was in book eight and I got a cool video for my friend. ( I'll see if I can email it to you )
Nah... My Internet isn't the best right now... *Smiles*
Alex... I swear to God, if your ghosting...
That's not really a lot if you think about it.
In case you aren't counting:
NINE MORE DAYS UNTIL LAST STAND OF DEAD MEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I could be so happy with that much money... I'd be in Ireland, I'd be spinning in the snow... I'd be happily away from my abusive brother...
Snow in Ireland?
Hello Duck, howya?
I'm swell, Mr Threatening. Thanks for asking.
Ah twasnt a bother upon me.
Mr (erm) Duck
Hello ?
Yeah... Kinda here...
I HAVE RETURNED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OH YEAH. :) :) :)
Wbd, though. I'm reading the comments made in my absence.
. . . I left on the seventh.
. . . . . . I've only read up to the eighth.
. . . . . . . . . Today's the twentieth.
. . . . . . . . . . . . Yeah, I have a bit of reading to do. XD
HELLO!!!!!!!!
#ChaseForBookNine
I don't think I have the time to read up to red a months worth of comments so I think I'll pass on that myself
HELLO PEOPLE OF THE INTERWEB. I AM BACK! I know you all missed me very much! (Maybe there was one nice person who cared to say where's maegan?)
Hello.
HELLO EDEN AND MAEGAN AND ANYONE ELSE WHO APPEARED! *waves* *goes back to reading comments*
#ChaseForBookNine
YEAH PEOPLE! WOOOOOOOOOOO!
I'm in a very happy mood for no reason! YEAH!
STAR *screams*
*tacklehugs or hugtackles or whatever*
STAR STAR STARRRRRRRR
I MISSED YOU
AND I TRIED TO REPLY TO YOUR EMAIL BUT I COULDN'T FIND IT D:
BUT HI (:
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Maralie are you going to see the One direction movie? Is it out today. I personally don't like them but my friend is dragging me there tonight to see it
mara do you know what the story was on the proposal on the Rose of Tralee all I heard on the radio was that someone proposed to the New Orleans Rose and it looked like she wasgoing to say no or something
Oh yeah the rose of tralee I never watched it. GOOOO CORK ROSE! But did she say no. It was probably shock or something like that.
Sorry I'm distant - I mentioned it above. *points*
*has reached the twelth* OH HELL YEAH.
HAPPINESS IS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD! *nods*
OOH, MAYBE YOU SHOULD SELL SOME OF THE EXCESS HAPPINESS. BECAUSE PEOPLE WOULD PAY MOUTAINS FOR IT. OR MONEY, IF YOU DIDN'T WANT MOUNTAINS. MOUNTAINS DO HAVE SNOW ON, THOUGH.
#CHaseForBookNine
GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY PEOPLE I LOVE HAPPY PEOPLE LETS GO AND LOOK AND RAINBOWS AND POKE EACH OTHER
I heard a clip on the radio
( I'd never watch the actual thing I'd just hear if something funny happened )
She was saying " no don't, please don't "
But i think she did say yes.
It's out next week's Thursday...?
Liam's birthday. 29th August.
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And the new orleans rose was probably focused on laugh at presenters jokes make people like her and show her talent without falling in massive heels.
Oh! Well my friend was wrong. No cinema tonight then. Who's going to see the mortal instruments movie
Eden - Yeah, the New Orleans Rose got proposed to and she kept mumbling "no Kyle stop no no oh no oh my god no no no." But she said yes :P
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Maybe when the cameras were switched off she took the poor man aside and said no.
The same day as lsodm Mara?
MARAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
I just started crying. Help. WHy am I crying. Now I'm trying not to laugh. What.
*collapses on keyboard with laughter, unable to type (yeah, I'm typing this after it happend), and only comes to senses when I inevitably start coughing (yes, you know that cough I got in late June? I STILL HAVE IT. Urgh. The doctor says it's just a virus though, so yay)*
MARAAAAA. *giggles* You just gave me a mini emotional breakdown.
I think that's a sign I missed you.
*is smiling* Hi.
AND, EVE ALWAYS LOST HER EMAILS BECAUSE HER IPOD CLEARED OUT HER INBOX. IT'S FINEEEEEEEEe. :)
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WOOO BOOK COMING OUT SOON YEAH EVEN MORE HAPPY
Alex... If your ghosting, I am too. If you are, come on. *Looks uneasy* I really shouldn't be on...
Anyone like family guy?
I've hit a wall I'm no longer happy.... I'm kinda sad now whats with this. One minute I'm really happy and now.......
Yup (:
SO I'LL BE GETTING LSODM FOR MY BIRTHDAYYY
AND LIAMYPOO <3
AND THIS IS US <3
AUGUST ILY MAN
Star stop crying
why are you crying
stop
:P
Why are you laughing? XD
*laughs too* I AM SO CONFUZZLED
(awh poor Starry :( *hugs* That sucks. STUPID VIRUSES)
How did I...? XD
Okay... XD
Hi Star :3 *hugs*
I THINK MY IPAD AND PHONE ARE DOING THAR
IT'S VERY ANNOYING
#ChaseForBook9
I've seen a few episodes.
I prefer big bang theory, HIMYM, revenge and frets anatomy.
Does anyone know a girl named Anonymous cus she keeps commenting on A random comment of kindness and i have never met her before.
I like the big bang theory aswell Sheldon is my favourite. But stewie is my all time favourite cartoon character. "VICTORY SHALL BE MINE!"
Holy Crap ED!
Where the HELL have you been! It's so good to see you!
My favourite song is from family guy
Blogger Zafira Kerias said...
I dont need to cool off. If she was more mature you'd say she was too mature! So sorry I dont know what I'm doing 100 percent of the time. I'm 15 Em not 24. I wet off of kids her age I knew irl. So to me I thought I was accurate and if I wasnt ANYONE could have emailed me. But nobody did until Em said something.
August 9, 2013 at 12:31 AM
You know how neutral I am. I will rarely argue unless they're already an arguement going on, because I do not like to interrupt the peace. I imagine others will have thought the same, and only said something when there was an opportunity.
My mum just quit her job . . . but until late last month she was a youth worker, and she had this Young Parents Group that she basically organised and stuff. And it was for teenage parents. Some of them would be your age, some even younger. Still at school.
You say you don't know how to be a proper parent because you're only fifteen. They probably don't/didn't have any more idea than you. And yet they have to do it, don't they? They either have to look after their kid properly, or he/she gets taken away.
My mum was working with this one girl who's sixteen, and she had her child when she was my age - fourteen. That's younger than you. They let her keep her baby and look after her, but then, like a few months ago, they decided that her and her boyfriend weren't looking after it properly and were physically abusing it. My mum had to buy the girl a skirt because she didn't have one to go to court in.
She's only a year older than you. Try to imagine being in her position.
I think they got to keep their child, eventually, though. Pretty certain. I only hear what my mum tells me, though, and I'm too shy to ask her about it.
I'm not trying to have a go at you, Zaf. At fifteen, you probably don't have the knowledge to be a good parent. What I'm saying is - be grateful that you AREN'T a parent.
. . . Yeah . . . *sinks into shadows*
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Deep
See Eden, I said he was looking for you...
*Wanders into base and collapses on plastic chair*
Anyone wanna hear the song?
Uhm, Brave.
ARCK is Anonymous.
You comment anonymously. That's the whole point.
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No?
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh thanks.
*Looks around sitting room* There's a beeping noise....... I don't know what it is!
Sup sorry I disappeared there had to put the dogs in.
Sup brave howya.
I hate when this happens mbd
Guys.
I think someone hacked my gmail.
It won't let me log in, even though I've kept entering the correct password.
Maybe that's why I can't reply to your emails...
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My friend just phoned me, and we're going out to town to try and get Coke bottles with out names on (again), so I guess I gtg after this comment.
Lol htough, I only have change. I'm all out of paper money. :P
*sorts through random silver coins*
@Maraness: I DON'T KNOW.
I JUST MISSED YOU.
SO YEAH. :)
*hugs*
I don't cough much, now, though, so YAY. *nods*
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Oh um..... Maybe if you press can't enter account and it will give you three options and go for the bottom one. This happened to me once.
For the gmail issue
Okay. Thanks, Maegan. I'll try that.
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Your welcome neighbourino
*Shivers* I have two pairs of pants on, ugg boots, a beanie, two fleece jackets and five shirts on... And I'm still freezing... Who is the smart person who made that happen?
Why are you so cold Death?
... Hello?
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Aha.
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I can't regulate my body heat anymore... I'm either way too hot or way too cold... Right now, the heater is on twenty five...
I'm a lizard...
I've got a pair of shorts, a t-shirt and a pair of ankle socks and runners on.
Are you in?
Mara did it work
I am wearing a homer t-shirt, shorts and slipper socks
Stupid northern hemispherians...
I must look like a stalker the way I keep talking
*hugs Death*
Yep. Thanks Maegan. (:
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Yeah! The tech twelve year old strikes again!
*Hugs Mara back* Warm...
*Hugs both* Yeah warmth
My friends always hug me when they're cold. Apparently I'm "unnaturally warm"? Aha.
*hugs Death back* *hugs Maegan* *hugs everyone*
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*Hugs Maegan too* You guys are warm... (I really wish I could hugs you guys irl...))
Yeah, I'm unnaturally cold... My hands are always like ice... Even on forty degree days...
Mara my friends say that too. Like in winter it could be -5 and I wouldn't wear gloves. It got to the point were about 3 of my friends were holding my hands. It looked weird but thats because my friends are
Yeah death I give the best hugs. some say I squeeze to hard but they can't feel the looooooooovvvvvvvvvveeeeeee
I'm always hot when it's cold and cold when it's warm. It's weird.
You'd hit during classes and in between them
Dug me in the toilets, now it's you that cleans them... *hums*
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So anyone got any news
Anyone read divergent or insurgent
I'm starting secondary school on monday.
Thats my news
I'm fast tracking outdoor education units 1 & 2 next year... That and I'm drawing something really cute on Chicken Smoothie....
Hey This is a weird fact that the band coldplay used to be called starfish
And that the surface area of your lungs could cover an entire tennis court
I'm starting secondary on Friday.
My friend is coming over today.
My birthday's on Monday.
I'm going to see This Is Us next Friday for my party.
That's it.
I'm starting second year soon and my little brother is going into first year.
I'm a lizard, I have a dying six year old fish named China, my dog is asleep on the floor, I only have one glove on, my socks are broken....
I can't think of anything else...
I'm going to be a first year student
I'll be going to an all-girls secondary -_-
Fml.
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gtg bye
*Pants* Too hot... Took off four shirts, a jacket, my beanie, my boots and I'm thinking about taking off a pair of pants...
I go to an all boys secondary school.
There are two all boys secondary schools in my hometown
Two all grills and a mixed one.
*girls
Is anyone going to the liffey valley signing.
STAAAAAAAR *tackles* my bby ilysm!
Nope sorry, I'm in school so I have to go to the one in hoggis and figgis.
There's... *thinks*
Coláisté is mixed, then two are all girls, then the high school which is boys, and... The Teck. But that's for creepy people... Mixed. Hmm.
Yeah.
*hugs Death*
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Hey Adra *hugs*
Nope. I'm going to Limerick.
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*Throws jacket away* Too hot... And hungry... And not even supposed to be here... So, I am leaving!! I said that I was not coming back on and I need someone to tell Em that the deal is off.
*Smiles tightly and vanishes*
aw.
Right. Sorry I poofed.
...silence on the Blog?
By the way, Mara- I go to an all-girls school... I don't think it's that bad. No one really cares about appearance there... And I always get the feeling that that is a major aspect of bullying... But most girls pretty up and some shite for guys, yeah? No need.
Also-does your school have a dress code? Because if not... More kudos to you
Really? Thirty minutes, not a word?
*sits on the floor, braiding flowers*
Hi. I was ghosting.
I'd be on but I left!! Also, read the comment above... Actually, I'll just paste it in here...
*Takes deep breath* I'm pretty damn sure people don't want to talk to me right now, and that's okay! I don't expect anyone to acknowledge this, I don't expect anyone to reply to this or even read it all. I really don't expect anyone to even... To even talk to me ever again...
Ever since this morning - since I wrote that comment about Em - I've been thinking. I've been thinking about what I said, about what I truly ment... *Closes eyes* So, I've decided that you should know about this.
I don't mind if you don't accept this apology, I don't mind if you don't care about me anymore, I don't mind if you hate me... All I'd like to do is for someone to tell Emerald Melody that the promise is off.
I used to think I was invincible. I used to think I was beautiful. I used to think that nothing could keep me down. But I don't know anymore. I knew that I'd never be able to hold that promise. I'm falling way too fast. Hell, I can't even regulate my own body heat and a promise as large as that...? I never expected me to be able to withhold that promise. *Curls into a small ball* I really, truly am sorry I put all of you amazing people through that... You deserve better, you deserve to be around people like Aretha. She is so kind and loving and amazing. I'm... I'm not. I really am nothing like Aretha. She is my sister and I love her but I can't stay strong forever.
Blogland used to be the place I could always fall back on. It used to be the place where I could relax and forget about my real life, my verbally abusing brother, my life that still is too hard. But something changed. I don't know what, but it did. I feel so bloody terrible about how I've treated you all.
I love you all, don't you ever forget it. I don't want anyone to leave because of me, I want you all to keep breathing. Keep breathing, my angel...
*Smiles sadly and vanishes*
Keep breathing, my angel...
Oh. Okay.
*continues braiding* I was having an existential crisis of my own
My school has a uniform. I look like a bloody Christmas tree.
And I'm way closer to the guys than the girls. ;-; Ugh. Overall, I'm not looking forward to secondary.
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Ah. Well then...
I see. Eh, I'm sure it won't be too bad
Oh wow. This is real fun, you guys. Real fun.
*meanders around, braiding her hair and weaving flowers into it*
Trying on suits....
to small..
Sorry, I'm in the car, slow signals...
Why do you need suits?
Unless you mean RP..
I'm back...........
Well. What an eventful morning, y'all!
*finishes with her hair and picks up her dress* I wonder where we are going to meet to get ready for the ball..
Oh. Hi Brave
So this was a fun morning, guys.
I have to go to school, though. I'll be on later.
By the time you read this, I'll probably be dead.
http://rosesofdeaths.blogspot.com.au/2013/08/sigh.html?m=1
DEATH. THORN. ROSE. CUT THAT OUT. YOU ARE NOT GOING ANYWHERE.
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DEATH STOP THIS!!
Rose please don't... I have.. I LOVE YOU AND you are so awesome and i can't stand to see you llike this and i...i love you and...Alex loves you.
Aretha...*stares* she seriously...she really wouldnt
I lOvE yOu dEATH ROSE DO NOT LEAV ME. I ... *cries* I love you
I....bloody fuck she better not
You want to bet on that, Zaf? I... I just really can't imagine my life without her in it... I emailed her, but I'm afraid I wasn't fast enough...
DEATH DEATH DEATH DEATH DEATH DEATH DEATH MARK ME, THIS IS NOT OVER. THERE WAS WORK I WAS MEANT TO DO THIS MORNING. I HAVEN'T DONE IT. THERE ARE PEOPLE OVER, AND I'M EXPECTED TO EAT BREAKFASAT NICELY AND NOT BE ON MY IPAD. BUT I CAN'T LEAVE UNLESS I KNOW YOU'RE OK. JUST TELL ME YOU CAN HEAR ME. PLEASE.
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I really dont know what to say Ari *huggles* I dont know if she would do it but...*shakes head* always know you tried Ari just remember that....
DEATH ROSE WILL YOI GET YOUR AUSSIE ARSE BACK HERE
YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT YOU DYING WOULD DO TO ME. IT IS MY JOB TO KEEP YOU OFF THE EDGE- I MADE YOU PROMISE TO EMAIL ME, GIVE ME A CHANCE TO TALK YOU OUT OF IT. I INTEND TO KEEP WRITING TO YOU. JUST SAY SOMETHING. ANYTHING. I SHOWED UP A FEW MINUTES TOO LATE. PLEASE DO NOT MAKE ME REGRET THAT FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE, BECAUSE I WILL. YOU KNOW I WILL. THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE WHO CARE ABOUT YOU, DEATH. YOU CAN'T JUST LEAVE US ALL BEHIND.
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Death?
Don't go.
Please.
You all knew that this day was inevitable. Every single one of you.
I'm sorry I delayed it. I shouldn't have brought the noose off my head when I was testing to see if you actually saw black dots when you were being strangled.
DEATH ROSE DONT YOU LEAVE ARI AND US BEHIND YOU DONT DESERVE DEATH
NO, THIS DAY WAS NOT INEVITABLE. IT NEVER WAS, AND NEVER WILL BE. THIS IS NOT HOW IT ENDS. I CAN'T LET YOU DO THIS. NOT TO YOURSELF, OR TO ANY OF US.
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Death, please, listen. Please don't do this. Please, just stay.
D0eath please stay i just...I can''t I lOVE YOU no one hates you! Things are not how it seems.
Death Thorn Rose. You. Are. Not. Dying. Today.
And I almost just made another all caps rant but those are directed at Death and this is directed at you, Zaf. I don't care if I tried. It doesn't matter. If I spent every day of my entire life trying my hardest to make them feel happiness, and then they ended their life this way, it wouldn't matter that I tried. At all. Trying is great, and sure it counts for something, I guess, and no matter what happens I'll never regret that I met her and got so close to her, but if I lose her there is nothing in the world that will make me not feel guilty. There is nothing in the world that will convince me that trying is enough. Because what good is it if I can't hold on to her?
DEATH, PLEASE. THE MENTAL IMAGE OF YOU DEAD IN YOUR CLOSET IS KILLING ME. I'M GOING TO START SOBBING ANY SECOND AND PEOPLE ARE GOING TO ASK ME WHY. JUST TELL ME SOMETHING! TELL ME YOU CAN HEAR ME! YOU CAN'T BE DEAD.
(I wrote this just before I saw Death's comment and figured since I wrote it I'll post it anyway.)
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Think of yor family Rose! THye will miss you so much. YYou were my only friend last year and now i'm gonna lose you?
YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO DIE BEFORE I DO. YOU DIDN'T ONLY MAKE A PROMISE TO EM. YOU PROMISED ME YOU'D GIVE ME A CHANCE TO TALK YOU OUT OF IT- I INTEND TO USE THAT AND I HOPE TO GOD I'M NOT BLOWING IT- AND YOU PROMISED ALL OF US YOU'D STAY ALIVE UNTIL YOU MET US. YOU SWORE IT IN BLOOD.
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Brave, my older brother abuses me very night. I don't think he'll care...
Do you think I feel guilty too? Yes. If she dies I will never ever forgive myself NEVER for not trying harder.
I only came on here to say goodbye and I intend to do that.
Goodbye
WELL, SCREW YOUR OLDER BROTHER. I CARE. I CARE IMMENSELY. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW IMPORTANT YOU ARE, DEATH, AND YOU CERTAINLY DON'T KNOW HOW IMPORTANT YOU ARE TO ME. LOSING YOU WOULD CRUSH ME, DEATH. I WILL BREAK AND NOTHING WILL BE ABLE TO FIX THAT. YOU CAN'T DO THAT.
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Death how am I gonna meet the Epic Aussie if you die? HOW? Prove to your brother you are stronger by not giving up
Death, wait, please. People need you.
Ari and Zaf and Emerald and Luci and everyone on the blog, they need you.
As long as you are alive, there is hope for a better future. Please stay alive.
I gave up and long time ago Zafira. I gave up when my aunt passed away, three years ago. She was almost like my mother. I lost her. It ended for me that day.
I. Ruined. Em's. Life.
DEATH THIS IS NOT GOODBYE THIS IS NOT FUCKING GOODBYE NO WAY NO WAY NO FUCKING WAY YOU GET YOUR AUSTRALIAN ASS BACK HERE BEFORE ARI AND I SERIOUSLY POOL TOGETHER AND GO DOWN UNDER AND FIND YOU
DEATH! I DON'T CARE ABOUT THE BROTHER THAT ABUSES YOU! I CARE ABOUT YOUR LITTLE BROTHER THAT YOU LOVE. AND JUST THINK ABOUT YOUR PARENTS!
NO. NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO. YOU ARE NOT LEAVING. YOU ARE AN AMAZING PERSON. THE WORLD NEEDS PEOPLE LIKE YOU. BUT NO ONE ELSE IS EXACTLY LIKE YOU, SO THERE'S NOBODY ELSE IF YOU GO. THE WORLD WOULD BE AN INSANELY MORE AWFUL PLACE WITHOUT YOU IN IT. AND I COULDN'T BEAR IT. I WILL SHATTER LIKE A LITTLE GLASS SCULPTURE THROWN OFF OF A TALL BUILDING ONTO THE PAVEMENT. I CAN'T AFFORD TO DO THAT, AND NEITHER I NOR ANYONE ELSE ON THIS PLANET CAN AFFORD TO LOSE YOU.
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You ruined no one's life Death. Em is Em ok? Chase died on her she keeps grieving her choice is living in the past nobody ruined her life
I wrote that and I needed it said. Some bloody maniac held a gun to my head yesterday. I should have told him to shoot and save everyone this bloody pain...
No, Death.
If you kill yourself, this whole entire blog will feel a pain that nobody has ever felt before.
Death *grabs in a hug and does not let go* I swear to Jesus I will go insane if you die. Who is gonna be the lunatic child of Serpine? Croatoan? I dont think so, you m'dear are loved Death.
They've felt it before, with Chase. They're bound to feel it again...
Okay, I'm leaving.
Death please... I love you.
Please don't, I'm begging.
Exactly four months ago, the 20th of April 2013, my classmate Jacob Nixon committed suicide.
Please don't let the 20th become another death anniversary.
NO. IF I KNEW WHO IT WAS I'D FIND HIM AND EAT HIS SPLEEN. BUT I DON'T, SO I CAN'T. BUT YOU LIVED, AND YOU CAN LIVE THROUGH THIS, TOO. I WILL DO EVERYTHING IN MY POWER TO MAKE IT WORTH LIVING. BUT I CAN'T TAKE YOU LEAVING.
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promise me you won't kill yourself?
DEATH GET BACK HERE CHASE DIED OF CANCER THATS NOT SUICIDE GOD DAMN IT DEATHY GET BACK HERE DO NOT KILL YOURSELF
Death, please just say you're alive.
Please.
I can't stand not knowing.
I dedicate this page to Death Rose. Death you are loved and never forget that. Fuck the brother who abuses you fuck him. If you die he wins is that what you want? Be strong Deathy. We all love you and nobody deserves to die. You don't and don't you dare die. Don't. You. Dare. I will fucking make a law to keep you alive if I have to. Do. Not. Die.
Zaf. email. check.
Okay Brave and I swear I will go drag Derek off Twitter if I have to
and i will help you do that if i have to.
YOU ARE NOT LEAVING. I AM NOT LETTING YOU LEAVE. COME BACK HERE AND LISTEN TO ME BEFORE I LOST IT AND START BAWLING AND HAVE TO TELL EVERYBODY ABOUT BLOGLAND AND PROBABLY GET BLOCKED FROM IT.
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Suicide is not chosen; it happens when pain exceeds resources for coping with pain.
USE ME AS A RESOURCE FOR COPING WITH PAIN. LET ME HELP YOU. ONE COMMENT, ONE EMAIL AT A TIME. REPLY TO ME, I'LL REPLY TO YOU, JUST KEEP TALKING TO ME, AND I'LL BRING YOU AWAY FROM THAT CLOSET.
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JUST LET HER HELP YOU DEATH THE LAST THING ANYONE WANTS IS YOU DEAD AND ARI BLOCKED FROM BLOGLAND
Zaf, if you're capable of getting Derek over here, do it. Do everything you have the power to do. Every single last resort- now is a good time to use it.
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I will look at that link when I know you're safe, Death. Not before, because I don't want to waste time.
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I don't want to be here anymore...
QUESTIONS FOR DEREK
Okay here is the questions I remember asking on that paper
1. When I come over to Ireland is it possible we can meet up?
2. If someone was arrested in Ireland and was say Scottish would they be sent back to their own country?
3. If I survive LSODM and Ravel does can I ask him out? PLEASE?
Well I want you to be here. I need you to be here. Don't leave. Please, don't leave me. I couldn't handle it.
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But I can't be here... Everything I going wrong...
Death don't leave dont die I seriously know DEREK is coming cus over Twitter he asked me to post my questions on Blogland so I told him I did
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