Ari, you are AWESOME. You may not be able to do the things that Tesla did, but that doesn't mean that you're not awesome. If Tesla is someone that you really look up to, then choosing his name is nothing to be upset about.
Thanks, Jubi. And I know. I'm not really upset about taking his name- I just feel a little unworthy of it every now and then. I just sort of freaked when I heard people say I'm more and/or equally awesome than him... So yeah. Sorry about that.
I'm not ready for summer to be over! There's still so much I have to do! Also, it's nice to be able to just lay down and cry over Tesla books and fictional characters for a few hours without having to panic internally all the while for fear I won't finish my homework. Are you up just as late on school nights as you are on summer nights?
Nonono, don't be sorry, Death! You were being nice and awesome and trying to convince me that I'm awesome! There's nothing wrong with that! I would have reacted that way anyway. I just really love Tesla a lot...
Jubi, I thank you, and I'm sorry for this, but I can only hope in my wildest dreams that someday I will have done as much for the world as he has, and I doubt anyone can convince me otherwise.
So I promised myself that I wouldn't complain... So please just skip this- I just need to write this out.
And no, during school I'm up until eleven at most. It's just that for the past few weeks I'd love to just sit and RP, but since I'm in this endless tug of war I have been getting awful migraines as shit and I am SO done with it. Did you know that since the RP I have been to North Carolina, back, to Seattle and back then to North Carolina again then to Texas then Louisiana and back to North Carolina and FINALLY this Saturday I am going back to Cincinatti. On top of that I'm going I have to leave my house at, like, 6:45 in the mornings because my brothers are to damn lazy from never learning how to fucking do anything because life has screwed us and THEY won't get their licences so my mom- who is in school getting her PHD, by the way, has to drive them to their school and then drive WAY further to take me to mine every morning.
And so I'm just sick of this. Seven years if back and forth and I really want to just STRANGLE someone. Not to mention that my step sister was shipped off to Harding school and I saw her yesterday for the first time in two years and
FUCK IT SKNSSHSHHDJDKUSDBNSS AAAAAAAHHHG *screams into a pillow*
Sorry. *straightens her tie* *smooths down her clothes* I'm good now
Adra, please don't hold all of that in. This is our place to let it all out. We may not be able to understand exactly what you feel, and we may not be able to be there with you physically, but we will be here always and we will support you always. Don't ever hesitate to complain. You're not doing us a disservice when you do. In fact, we'd all hate it if you didn't. We try to comfort each other here, and it makes us feel better. It makes me feel better, certainly, if I can write up a speech and give someone a smile, or even tell them they were wrong to think themself (I know that's incorrect, I'm just too emotionally tired from my Tesla feels to deal with it) worthless or foolish, even if they don't believe it. I will do anything and everything in my power to help any of you at any time. So please, Adra- this is me begging you- if you're feeling bad for any reason, do not hesitate to share.
*hugs tightly back* Thank you. *sniffles* *smiles warily* That's what we're all here for. You've certainly done enough for all of us when we needed it. We're Bloglandians, the greatest club/society/culture/cult/support group I've ever heard of. But all of that is worth less (and I don't mean worthless, I mean worth less) if any one of us doesn't feel welcome to empty our emotions and ask for support. Talk to us, anytime you like, please. If you feel you can't post here for whatever reason than email me. It hurts to think that you suffer in silence when you don't have to.
Oh and as for how I feel- very rarely do I feel sad or depressed or pitiful for myself. I just get angry- irrationally angry and it freaks me out sometimes that I don't really ever feel loss or death or sadness anymore- and sometimes I have to fake it.
But that isn't the worst part. The worst part is that I'm afraid that I can't ever love someone because what was supposed I be my example was ripped up in front of me and it terrifies me. And I hate that it might hold me Mack- and may be the only thing that can.
Right.
I really just want to eat some guacamole right now. Like, A LOT
*climbs into Saph's and Aretha's backs* No really- you guys get me through so much, because when I RP, problems get fixed and it is nice to pretend for once that things can go away easily
Isn't that the point of Blogland? To find people like you, who share your obsessions and quirks and who understand and support you. It's a common link that makes it impossible NOT to care when one of us is hurting.
Which may be a good time to stress that I having been staring at you all from the shadows - I just got so fed up of not sleeping that I figured I might as well do something with the time. And every night this week I've just spent that time writing letters that I'll never send or poem-y-things or just collections and arrangements of words, but, may as well come back here, and that's what I saw and that's what I said. I have not been lurking, or watching you from the shadows. I'm not that creepy. Honest. :P
Adra, I thought something was wrong with me because I couldn't make myself care about anything anymore. I mean, I'd look at my family/friends and remember that I loved them, but it was like I couldn't feel anything. I could only feel sad and afraid- it terrified the hell out of me. So when you said that you couldn't feel loss anymore, I thought maybe that was a little like me. I don't know what happened. I just woke up one day and looked at my parents and loved them again *shrugs*
And I can't believe I just typed that :O I've never told anyone that before.
Adra, try not to worry too much about it- I'm sure you'll be able to love, and to love someone who loves you back. Sometimes I get worried that I'll live my whole life alone (in a romantic sense) because the three people I seek to emulate most all lived their lives alone- and were determined to do so, because romance would only distract them from their goals, so as much as it hurt sometimes, they couldn't afford that kind of relationship. And romantic relationships have never been my priority in life, and the harder I chase after my goals the more distant I get from even my friends. And there's the whole matter I hesitate to even get into about my hopeless love for this one fictional character, which has only grown stronger every day for the past 3 years... And the fact that the few people who have had crushes on me so far were inspired by me in some way, shape, or form, and that was flattering and all, but I know I'll never be able to romantically love someone who hasn't inspired me, but all the people who inspire me most are too dedicated to their various things to ever want a relationship. But I don't worry too much, because for one thing I'm only 15, and for another, I understand far too much to believe that anything is impossible, and I have faith that it is possible for every person on this Earth to find love whether or not they even want it. The question is whether or not they notice or accept it.
That's the thing- right- no. I have no idea to explain it. I'm just tired of all this shite. *grumbles, drinking tea* It just sucks that my family says that they're there for me but they're not. And every person in my family and step family is screwed up somehow.
*Reappears* Thanks Ari *hugs* Believe me, that took all my courage :) Yay! *noms skulcake* Thanks Adra!! Hey Death *tackleglomps* I doubt you failed. It's really hard to fail these things, even on purpose XD Does your school do IB?
Hiya, Sapphire! *is tackleglomped/hugs back* *hugs again* I'll see you later, or soon, or something. :)
Gaddamnit. How are you all so perfect? The fact that you have these words in you and can say them is just so incredible and beautiful, and it's all so admirable. (And, Adra, I mean you as well here. ^^) There's this whole, fantastic way of opening up that's going on here that I know I don't have the capability to do, but it's so incredible to see, and it makes me maybe want to be able to do that, but mostly it makes me feel so much better about the world just to know that it can happen. I love that the words you use to say what you want to say can get that through, and they're all just so perfect, for their own different ways and just -ugh.
Hi, Aretha! :] I know, but when my mind realises that it needs to rest then it'll tell me I'm tired enough to do that. But I'm gonna say msd, because all of the above, it makes me feel a lot more comfortable to know that that's possible, and that you make it so. And maybe it's easier to rest in comfort, so there's that, I suppose.
Death, you are not a failure and you never will be. If you fail at anything it's being a bad person, because you are a remarkably impressive and admirable good person. I just wish that more people were as kind and good as all of you here...
If you think you will fail, then you will... Have you ever heard that? Granted, It takes a lot more than thinking to actually win/pass but that's not the point
Death, if you were a failure, then what exactly did you fail? (Not IB? Never mind...)
Taia;... And you think WE'RE good with words? :)
I just had a disturbing conversation with my brother. Me; Why does your room smell even worse than usual? Him; Hmm? Oh, don't worry. It's just the ash. Me; o_O
How could you have failed at life? You're a great friend to almost all of the Bloglandians. You're an excellent writer. You keep on going even when your life deals you hell. If that's not brave, I don't know what is.
@Death: If it's any consolation, I feel that way every time I come out of a test or exam - and I think most people probably do. And everybody fails at some things, but they don't become failures for it. Aside from that, I think the act of failure can always be turned into one of success, after any space of time, or any set of changes. Either by putting whatever it was to right, or simply changing an attitude towards it.
*offers a hug* You will never be a failure, because you will always be you, and you are perfect, because you don't fail at being you.
I've almost ended it so many damn times... It's insane... I can end it, any second. Every time I face a challenge, I run away. I don't face my fears and my weaknesses. I don't do anything to change myself.
Death, you haven't failed at life, because you're still living it, and so you should be. It's always okay to fall, because you can get back up again, even if it takes a hand from others to get you there.
Ah, no, I'm not talking about your screen name, I'm talking about you. I already gave you the whole 'even though you say we don't know the real you, I do, and here let me prove it' speech via email a while ago, but if I have to repeat it I will. I'll make a new one. I'll make ten. I'll make ten every day for four years if that's what it takes to make you believe it. Or six years. Or ten. And honestly, I've never been all that fond of honorable- it's always seemed kind of pointless to me. I don't think honor should ever be the priority. You kill if you need to to protect yourself and the people you care about. You break all the rules and regulations to defend your beliefs. You dig ditches because you quit your job and can't find another one. You die alone, considered a lunatic by everyone who knows your name. None of those things are honorable. But they're sure as heck admirable. They don't make an honorable person, but they sure as heck make a great one. Honor means nothing to me. It never has. Honor doesn't make you awesome. Honor is a medal given out by societal standards. What do I care about societal standards? Nada. Death, you are not a failure, and don't say I'm not talking about the real you because you know I am- if you want, I'll use your given name, but I'm of the mind that your taken name defines you just as much, if not more, because you picked it for yourself- but either way we both know I'm not talking to a name and a profile pic. I'm not talking to some made up character. I'm talking to you. And if you're not honorable, I'm glad. Neither am I. It doesn't mean you're not awesome.
I can't tell you how much I'm trying not to cry here... I'm in English and I can't cry... If I cry, I'm even more ruined... *Hugs Ari* Thanks but- *Looks away*
Don't even get me started, because I will continue to rant at you. *stares earnestly* You are not weak. In any sense of the word. You have put up with so much for so long- most people would have broken long ago. You're still here, and that in and of itself is a testament to your incredible strength. The fact that not only are you still living, but you actually help other people and make them feel better and bring them joy in their worst moments- that you can make them cry of happiness when they thought they were too exhausted to care about anything anymore- is a testament to your strength. It takes enough energy for you just to stay alive and go about your daily life that it's nearly impossible to confront problems head on. That's ok. It's totally understandable. And it's not weakness. It's exhaustion. But you are strong enough to push through it- and all of us will help you as much as we possibly can- and you will come out the other side, and it will have been worth it. I can promise you that. We will help you, and you will get through it, and the pain will not last forever.
*hugs Death tightly* How can you say you're weak when you've lived through so much? :'( Running away from your fears isn't cowardice. It's staying safe. Avoiding your weaknesses just means that you can concentrate on your strengths. Don't ever, EVER think that you're stupid. You're one of the most interesting and cunning people I know. Everything's insane. The whole world is full of confusing things. Talking to each other across continents should be impossible and insane, but look at what we're doing right now. Just hold on. We're here for you whenever.
@Death: But think about the fact that you /didn't/ end it. Isn't that worth celebrating? Not facing fears, weaknesses or challenges doesn't mean either of those last three words you used. It simply means that you haven't done them yet (or you have, and just don't realise it) - and you have an entire life ahead of you still do them. You don't /need/ to change yourself, because you're already completely unique, and you're loved by so many people as you are. Things will /always/ get better, even if it takes weeks, months or years for that to happen. It's worth hanging on for.
ARE YOU GUYS TRYING TO MAKE ME CRY?! YOU'RE DOING A PRETTY GOOD DARN JOB!!!!!!!!! *Takes deep breath and looks away* I can't believe what you say... I never have been able to accept them...
There's a quote from C.S Lewis that says something like; When things start to go wrong, often they seem to only get worse and worse for a long time. But when things start to go /right/, they only get better and better.
You think you haven't faced challenges? Look back on it Death. You've faced more challenges than anyone. And you've faced them head on, often alone. No-one should have to do that, least of all a smart, strong young woman with so much potential and so much love to give and life to live.
@Saph: Well, I still think your words are better. :P And - I'd be cautious around that brother of yours, if I were you. O.o Thank you :) I'm pretty good, thanks, on the whole. Spending a lot of time doing nothing, though, which is maybe a little unfortunate, but I can think of worse ways to spend time, so, yeah, good. Thanks - And yourself? :)
Hey, Fabi! *hugs* Death, I would say more, but I really think it wouldn't be good for you if I made you cry in class, so... Later. But I will continue to lecture you.
Taia; I'm not doing much either, but everyone else seems to be. In general, I'm pretty good. Looking forward to seeing my friends again at school next week :)
@Adra: I don't, but I have hugs, and I hear they can be just as effective. *huggles*
@Saph: Good to hear! :) I don't return to school 'til September, so I have plenty of time to be lazy, replenish my little supply of social capabilities, and forget to do homework. :P (not enough time though. Will need more. :p)
This is a song With the same four chords I use most of the time When I've got something on my mind And I don't want to squander the moment Trying to find a better way To say what I want to say
People were mean to you But I always thought you were cool Clicking down the concrete hallways In your spiked heels Back in high school
It's good to be young, but let's not kid ourselves, it's better To pass through those years and come out the other side With our hearts still beating Having faced down demons and come back breathing
People were mean to you But I always thought you were cool Clicking down the concrete hallways In your spiked heels down in high school
You deserved better than you got Someone's got to say it sometime, 'cause it's true People should have told you you were awesome Instead of taking advantage of you I hope you love your life now Just like I love mine
I hope those painful memories only flex their power over you A little of the time We held on to hope of better days coming Better days, and when we did we were right I hope the people who did you wrong Have trouble sleeping at night
People were mean to you But I always thought you were cool Clicking down the concrete hallways\ In your spiked heels Back in high school
You Were Cool, by the Mountain Goats (but the cover by Cristina Noujaim is the best!!)
*nods to Death* Yep. It's one of my favorite songs of all time. Funny, because I don't listen to much music in that style, but I really really love that song.
*hugs Fabi back* Oh, the powers of my brain - they include not sleeping, apparently. :P I go through bouts of, like, insomnia or something. I want to sleep, but my mind says different until like 6-7am. I feel okay, though, since I slept through most of this (yesterday) morning. And at least it means maybe I'll sleep better tomorrow. :)
Adra, tomorrow I will be gone in blocks of 7/8am-2pm, then possibly 4/5pm-7:30 pm. Or 6pm-7:30pm. Either one. And then I can be on as late as necessary/possible. But I will be gone for all of those hours, so, sorry...
No, that's east coast American time, sorry... Same time zone as Adra for a while, but I don't know if she's still in it, what with her moving around so much.
@Adra: *laughs* Take as many as you want - I'll always be willing to give 'em. :3
@Saph: Ah! I prefer winter to summer. until it starts raining properly and then I'm happy with either, really. :P Do you have a longer holiday later/earlier in the year, then? :)
Taia, our school year starts in February. We have December- Feb off :D I loved winter in the UK, but in New Zealand it's actually nice to be on the beach in summer XD
Ari, is it half past twelve on the east coast right now?
@Saph: Ah, that makes sense. Awesome. :) *laughs* I struggle with the sun anyway - that's probably why :P. The past three weeks here have been torture. D: but now it's getting rainier again which is nice. Oh, you lived in the UK, then? :)
Fabi; Wow :) Ari; Awww, that sucks :( Nevermind. Taia; Yeah, my family's moved around a lot. My brother was born in China, I was born in NZ, I went to kindergarten in Kuala Lumpur before moving to England, moving to London and finally moving back here XD
Fabi; It sucked sometimes, but I got to see a lot of the world :) And when I moved to England, I met Alex, who by huge co-incidence was moving to NZ five months after I did, and just a few hours drive away from me :)
@Saph: Awesome! :) For the trickiest of moving around, that's good to hear. But I guess, as you said, you get to see a lot. And, that's one awesome coincidence. :)
The furthest I've ever moved is only between England and Wales, and the shortest about 20-30 minutes' drive, but it's arguable whether that was a move or not, I guess.
Yeah, I am away. That's why I have bad internet. And there's no cell phone coverage there. I just saw the previous comments. I'm flattered that you can't stop talking about me :P
I think I've technically not moved at all. Except once when I was two or so, we moved out of a condo into a full size house we didn't have to rent. But it was ten minutes away from our old place, so...
@Saph: Darn! You got to the Mist line before me. :P
@Alex: *laughs* Maybe I am..! *isn't* :P
@Fabi: Aw, that sucks. :( I guess one of those comments will be mine. If it's giving you trouble, feel free to glare/ throw something at it or whatever goes. :)
[Laughs] Riiight. But I don't think anyone could see my bedroom ceiling without being in my range of vision. Unless they were invisible or in the closet.
Taia, are you invisible or in the closet? XD
[Shrugs] At any rate, of course you can join, the more the merrier!
@Saph: *gasps* No! Maybe the spiders are acting spies, then. :P
LOL, Alex. :P
*frowns* It's on the blinds, now. I'm going to forget it's on the blinds. And then I'll open the blinds. And the spider'll fall on me. And I'll panic. And probably fall over.
It's okay, Taia. It's just a matter of remembering how I explained it. Basically, the deadlines are flexible, but assume they're not so you actually act like there's a deadline, but I won't kill you if something's late. Only I explained it better.
And I don't know when I'll need bios, but, um, a while?
Fabi, I was half-asleep and when I looked at your user name, for a second I thought your surname was 'Permanently msd, my internet is being stubborn today' XD That's why I commented. I was just joking :)
That would be my subtitle. See, my surname is a secret and no one knows what it is, so I use subtitles instead, and sometimes I use said subtitles to convey information. It's very useful.
@Fabi: I just don't want to take the chance from someone if they particularly wanted to. ^^ Plus, my own ded idea can't be put into action yet, either. :P
My sister could be seen as a space cat, in a way. She's Martian. (No, really, if you ask her if she's a Martian, she will say yes) And she's also a cat. And a fish. And AWESOME.
(Btw guys, I'm developing a new character for my next story/book. His first name is going to be Alex, but I'm not sure what his last name will be? Any help is appreciated. His personality is twisted, and evil. He's a murderous psychopath. If you're looking someone to relate him to, The Joker would be your best option. Any help is much appreciated)
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Ta Saph :) but I'll try to put up the Tadra thing when I get back to the house
No, but he was so much more amazing than me!!!
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Nice ded, Adra. *raises teacup*
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Ari, you are AWESOME. You may not be able to do the things that Tesla did, but that doesn't mean that you're not awesome. If Tesla is someone that you really look up to, then choosing his name is nothing to be upset about.
*falls on her face, hitting the floor* Just as problems are equal, so are our talents.
*massages her head* Ahhhhbhhdnjsksbsbdhabsbsvs fuck
*Raises coffee to ded* Wow, I'm drinking WAY too much coffee these days XD
Ari, Jubab's right. Listen to your Blogsisters.
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Thanks, Jubi. And I know. I'm not really upset about taking his name- I just feel a little unworthy of it every now and then. I just sort of freaked when I heard people say I'm more and/or equally awesome than him... So yeah. Sorry about that.
Adra, are you ok?
Is Death still here?
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I'm just ready for school to start and this summer to be over
I'm sorry Ari...
You may not be awesome for the same reason as him, but you guys are still equally awesome in different ways xP *tacklehugs*
I'm not ready for summer to be over! There's still so much I have to do! Also, it's nice to be able to just lay down and cry over Tesla books and fictional characters for a few hours without having to panic internally all the while for fear I won't finish my homework.
Are you up just as late on school nights as you are on summer nights?
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I'm going to a Humanities test now... Bye... Sorry...
DEATH!!!! *Supermegatacklehugsofdoom*
HAI/BAI
I'm ready for summer to START :L
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Aww, hi/bye Death :(
Humanities? Does your school do IB?
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Nonono, don't be sorry, Death! You were being nice and awesome and trying to convince me that I'm awesome! There's nothing wrong with that! I would have reacted that way anyway. I just really love Tesla a lot...
Jubi, I thank you, and I'm sorry for this, but I can only hope in my wildest dreams that someday I will have done as much for the world as he has, and I doubt anyone can convince me otherwise.
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I take Tesla very, very, very seriously... I will never be able to hear or speak his name with brevity...
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So I promised myself that I wouldn't complain... So please just skip this- I just need to write this out.
And no, during school I'm up until eleven at most. It's just that for the past few weeks I'd love to just sit and RP, but since I'm in this endless tug of war I have been getting awful migraines as shit and I am SO done with it.
Did you know that since the RP I have been to North Carolina, back, to Seattle and back then to North Carolina again then to Texas then Louisiana and back to North Carolina and FINALLY this Saturday I am going back to Cincinatti.
On top of that I'm going I have to leave my house at, like, 6:45 in the mornings because my brothers are to damn lazy from never learning how to fucking do anything because life has screwed us and THEY won't get their licences so my mom- who is in school getting her PHD, by the way, has to drive them to their school and then drive WAY further to take me to mine every morning.
And so I'm just sick of this. Seven years if back and forth and I really want to just STRANGLE someone. Not to mention that my step sister was shipped off to Harding school and I saw her yesterday for the first time in two years and
FUCK IT SKNSSHSHHDJDKUSDBNSS AAAAAAAHHHG *screams into a pillow*
Sorry. *straightens her tie* *smooths down her clothes* I'm good now
Good luck with your test, Death!
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Good luck, Rose
Sorry, I wasn't expecting to let my anger out...sorry.
*hugs Adra* Life can be such a bitch.
Wbvd
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Adra, please don't hold all of that in. This is our place to let it all out. We may not be able to understand exactly what you feel, and we may not be able to be there with you physically, but we will be here always and we will support you always. Don't ever hesitate to complain. You're not doing us a disservice when you do. In fact, we'd all hate it if you didn't. We try to comfort each other here, and it makes us feel better. It makes me feel better, certainly, if I can write up a speech and give someone a smile, or even tell them they were wrong to think themself (I know that's incorrect, I'm just too emotionally tired from my Tesla feels to deal with it) worthless or foolish, even if they don't believe it. I will do anything and everything in my power to help any of you at any time. So please, Adra- this is me begging you- if you're feeling bad for any reason, do not hesitate to share.
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Dammit... I'M IN A CAR NOW IS NOT THE TIME TO MAKE ME TEAR UP. Wait. My eye's scratched- fuck yes.
*cries and hugs Aretha tightly* Thank you.
I'm sorry Adra. If I was really there, I'd hug you, but I'm rubbish at finding the right words. Just, you're not alone, okay? You mean SO much to us.
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*hugs tightly back* Thank you. *sniffles* *smiles warily* That's what we're all here for. You've certainly done enough for all of us when we needed it. We're Bloglandians, the greatest club/society/culture/cult/support group I've ever heard of. But all of that is worth less (and I don't mean worthless, I mean worth less) if any one of us doesn't feel welcome to empty our emotions and ask for support. Talk to us, anytime you like, please. If you feel you can't post here for whatever reason than email me. It hurts to think that you suffer in silence when you don't have to.
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Also, I'm sorry about your eye.
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Oh and as for how I feel- very rarely do I feel sad or depressed or pitiful for myself. I just get angry- irrationally angry and it freaks me out sometimes that I don't really ever feel loss or death or sadness anymore- and sometimes I have to fake it.
But that isn't the worst part. The worst part is that I'm afraid that I can't ever love someone because what was supposed I be my example was ripped
up in front of me and it terrifies me. And I hate that it might hold me Mack- and may be the only thing that can.
Right.
I really just want to eat some guacamole right now. Like, A LOT
*Edges in*
It's four in the morning, and I have three things to say:
1) Sleep is overrated.
2) Apparently I'm still capable of thinking relatively clearly.
3) I agree with every single word that Aretha's just wrote, here. And I agree until I have nothing left in me to turn to agreement.
There's not even anything I can add to that, except that I second it.
*hugs Adra*
*hugs everyone else*
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*climbs into Saph's and Aretha's backs* No really- you guys get me through so much, because when I RP, problems get fixed and it is nice to pretend for once that things can go away easily
Isn't that the point of Blogland? To find people like you, who share your obsessions and quirks and who understand and support you. It's a common link that makes it impossible NOT to care when one of us is hurting.
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Blogland= homeses
Which may be a good time to stress that I having been staring at you all from the shadows - I just got so fed up of not sleeping that I figured I might as well do something with the time. And every night this week I've just spent that time writing letters that I'll never send or poem-y-things or just collections and arrangements of words, but, may as well come back here, and that's what I saw and that's what I said.
I have not been lurking, or watching you from the shadows.
I'm not that creepy. Honest. :P
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Adra, I thought something was wrong with me because I couldn't make myself care about anything anymore. I mean, I'd look at my family/friends and remember that I loved them, but it was like I couldn't feel anything. I could only feel sad and afraid- it terrified the hell out of me. So when you said that you couldn't feel loss anymore, I thought maybe that was a little like me. I don't know what happened. I just woke up one day and looked at my parents and loved them again *shrugs*
And I can't believe I just typed that :O I've never told anyone that before.
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*haven't
@Saph: *nods* :)
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Hi Taia *tackleglomps*
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*hugs Saph* then that's as incredibly brave. However, I don't think that I'd be able to do the same
Adra, try not to worry too much about it- I'm sure you'll be able to love, and to love someone who loves you back. Sometimes I get worried that I'll live my whole life alone (in a romantic sense) because the three people I seek to emulate most all lived their lives alone- and were determined to do so, because romance would only distract them from their goals, so as much as it hurt sometimes, they couldn't afford that kind of relationship. And romantic relationships have never been my priority in life, and the harder I chase after my goals the more distant I get from even my friends. And there's the whole matter I hesitate to even get into about my hopeless love for this one fictional character, which has only grown stronger every day for the past 3 years... And the fact that the few people who have had crushes on me so far were inspired by me in some way, shape, or form, and that was flattering and all, but I know I'll never be able to romantically love someone who hasn't inspired me, but all the people who inspire me most are too dedicated to their various things to ever want a relationship. But I don't worry too much, because for one thing I'm only 15, and for another, I understand far too much to believe that anything is impossible, and I have faith that it is possible for every person on this Earth to find love whether or not they even want it. The question is whether or not they notice or accept it.
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*Hugs Adra bacl* I... thanks *wobbly smile*
Gtg, chores. Bbs *glomps everyone goodbye*
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That's the thing- right- no. I have no idea to explain it. I'm just tired of all this shite. *grumbles, drinking tea* It just sucks that my family says that they're there for me but they're not. And every person in my family and step family is screwed up somehow.
*kicks a trashcan* ARGH
*hugs Saph* That's awesome, Saph. I second Adra- that was really brave of you.
Hi Taia! And thanks. You should try to sleep though.
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*waves to Saph, handing her a skulcake*
Aaaaaaaaand, I think I failed!!
Oh noe...
I always think I fail. I do fail. I'm me. I am a failure! *Laughs lightly*
*Reappears*
Thanks Ari *hugs* Believe me, that took all my courage :)
Yay! *noms skulcake* Thanks Adra!!
Hey Death *tackleglomps* I doubt you failed. It's really hard to fail these things, even on purpose XD Does your school do IB?
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Hiya, Sapphire! *is tackleglomped/hugs back*
*hugs again* I'll see you later, or soon, or something. :)
Gaddamnit. How are you all so perfect?
The fact that you have these words in you and can say them is just so incredible and beautiful, and it's all so admirable.
(And, Adra, I mean you as well here. ^^)
There's this whole, fantastic way of opening up that's going on here that I know I don't have the capability to do, but it's so incredible to see, and it makes me maybe want to be able to do that, but mostly it makes me feel so much better about the world just to know that it can happen.
I love that the words you use to say what you want to say can get that through, and they're all just so perfect, for their own different ways and just -ugh.
Hi, Aretha! :]
I know, but when my mind realises that it needs to rest then it'll tell me I'm tired enough to do that. But I'm gonna say msd, because all of the above, it makes me feel a lot more comfortable to know that that's possible, and that you make it so. And maybe it's easier to rest in comfort, so there's that, I suppose.
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What's IB?
Death, you are not a failure and you never will be. If you fail at anything it's being a bad person, because you are a remarkably impressive and admirable good person.
I just wish that more people were as kind and good as all of you here...
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If you think you will fail, then you will... Have you ever heard that? Granted, It takes a lot more than thinking to actually win/pass but that's not the point
Hey, you're talking about my screen name! My real me is not an honourable person.
Death, if you were a failure, then what exactly did you fail? (Not IB? Never mind...)
Taia;... And you think WE'RE good with words? :)
I just had a disturbing conversation with my brother.
Me; Why does your room smell even worse than usual?
Him; Hmm? Oh, don't worry. It's just the ash.
Me; o_O
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Life.
How could you have failed at life? You're a great friend to almost all of the Bloglandians. You're an excellent writer. You keep on going even when your life deals you hell. If that's not brave, I don't know what is.
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@Death: If it's any consolation, I feel that way every time I come out of a test or exam - and I think most people probably do.
And everybody fails at some things, but they don't become failures for it.
Aside from that, I think the act of failure can always be turned into one of success, after any space of time, or any set of changes. Either by putting whatever it was to right, or simply changing an attitude towards it.
*offers a hug*
You will never be a failure, because you will always be you, and you are perfect, because you don't fail at being you.
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Good point, Taia- it's impossible to fail at being you :) Speaking of Taia, how are you? Other than tired XD
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Very good point Taia
I've almost ended it so many damn times... It's insane... I can end it, any second. Every time I face a challenge, I run away. I don't face my fears and my weaknesses. I don't do anything to change myself.
I'm weak. Petty, stupid and weak.
Death, you haven't failed at life, because you're still living it, and so you should be. It's always okay to fall, because you can get back up again, even if it takes a hand from others to get you there.
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Ah, no, I'm not talking about your screen name, I'm talking about you. I already gave you the whole 'even though you say we don't know the real you, I do, and here let me prove it' speech via email a while ago, but if I have to repeat it I will. I'll make a new one. I'll make ten. I'll make ten every day for four years if that's what it takes to make you believe it. Or six years. Or ten. And honestly, I've never been all that fond of honorable- it's always seemed kind of pointless to me. I don't think honor should ever be the priority. You kill if you need to to protect yourself and the people you care about. You break all the rules and regulations to defend your beliefs. You dig ditches because you quit your job and can't find another one. You die alone, considered a lunatic by everyone who knows your name. None of those things are honorable. But they're sure as heck admirable. They don't make an honorable person, but they sure as heck make a great one. Honor means nothing to me. It never has. Honor doesn't make you awesome. Honor is a medal given out by societal standards. What do I care about societal standards? Nada. Death, you are not a failure, and don't say I'm not talking about the real you because you know I am- if you want, I'll use your given name, but I'm of the mind that your taken name defines you just as much, if not more, because you picked it for yourself- but either way we both know I'm not talking to a name and a profile pic. I'm not talking to some made up character. I'm talking to you. And if you're not honorable, I'm glad. Neither am I. It doesn't mean you're not awesome.
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I can't tell you how much I'm trying not to cry here... I'm in English and I can't cry... If I cry, I'm even more ruined... *Hugs Ari* Thanks but- *Looks away*
Don't even get me started, because I will continue to rant at you. *stares earnestly* You are not weak. In any sense of the word. You have put up with so much for so long- most people would have broken long ago. You're still here, and that in and of itself is a testament to your incredible strength. The fact that not only are you still living, but you actually help other people and make them feel better and bring them joy in their worst moments- that you can make them cry of happiness when they thought they were too exhausted to care about anything anymore- is a testament to your strength. It takes enough energy for you just to stay alive and go about your daily life that it's nearly impossible to confront problems head on. That's ok. It's totally understandable. And it's not weakness. It's exhaustion. But you are strong enough to push through it- and all of us will help you as much as we possibly can- and you will come out the other side, and it will have been worth it. I can promise you that. We will help you, and you will get through it, and the pain will not last forever.
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*hugs Death tightly* How can you say you're weak when you've lived through so much? :'( Running away from your fears isn't cowardice. It's staying safe. Avoiding your weaknesses just means that you can concentrate on your strengths. Don't ever, EVER think that you're stupid. You're one of the most interesting and cunning people I know. Everything's insane. The whole world is full of confusing things. Talking to each other across continents should be impossible and insane, but look at what we're doing right now. Just hold on. We're here for you whenever.
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Oh, ok- I'll pause my lecturing, then, and leave you to your class. But this is not over! We shall continue this later!
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@Death: But think about the fact that you /didn't/ end it. Isn't that worth celebrating?
Not facing fears, weaknesses or challenges doesn't mean either of those last three words you used. It simply means that you haven't done them yet (or you have, and just don't realise it) - and you have an entire life ahead of you still do them.
You don't /need/ to change yourself, because you're already completely unique, and you're loved by so many people as you are.
Things will /always/ get better, even if it takes weeks, months or years for that to happen. It's worth hanging on for.
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Hello? [hugs]
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I would input but... But I think everyone else stole my words. But I agree with everything they say.
*sots back with some hot tea in front of a fire*
*sits
ARE YOU GUYS TRYING TO MAKE ME CRY?! YOU'RE DOING A PRETTY GOOD DARN JOB!!!!!!!!! *Takes deep breath and looks away* I can't believe what you say... I never have been able to accept them...
And as of this moment, you haven't really run away. [hugs Death] You're not weak, not the way I see it.
And I just got back from dance and you seem to be in school, but I will be writing a long speech for later.
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And I'm supposed to be doing heaps of work which I am refusing to do because my teacher is leaving at the end of the year. *Nods*
There's a quote from C.S Lewis that says something like;
When things start to go wrong, often they seem to only get worse and worse for a long time. But when things start to go /right/, they only get better and better.
You think you haven't faced challenges? Look back on it Death. You've faced more challenges than anyone. And you've faced them head on, often alone. No-one should have to do that, least of all a smart, strong young woman with so much potential and so much love to give and life to live.
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@Saph: Well, I still think your words are better. :P
And - I'd be cautious around that brother of yours, if I were you. O.o
Thank you :) I'm pretty good, thanks, on the whole. Spending a lot of time doing nothing, though, which is maybe a little unfortunate, but I can think of worse ways to spend time, so, yeah, good. Thanks - And yourself? :)
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Hey, Fabi! *hugs* Death, I would say more, but I really think it wouldn't be good for you if I made you cry in class, so... Later. But I will continue to lecture you.
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Hi Fabi and Adra! *tackleglomps*
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Hullo, Saph! *hugs*
Hi Ari, hi Saph [hugs]
Sorry I sort of snapped earlier, about the thunder. [hugs Ari again]
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Well everyone seems to be having their own emotional issues today/tonight....
*sips more tea* Does anyone have an ibuprofen?
Taia; I'm not doing much either, but everyone else seems to be. In general, I'm pretty good. Looking forward to seeing my friends again at school next week :)
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@Aretha: *nods* And you'll lecture her well. :P
Hiya Fabi! :)
*hugs*
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Adra, you can say that again. Sorry, I don't :( I have a victual cookie though! :D
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Hi Adra, hi Taia (How on earth are you awake? O.O) [hugs both]
Yeah. [Hands Adra a jar of ibuprofen pills]
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*raises her cup* I have tea... Actually. *pulls out her blanket* there we go.
*virtual
*facepalm*
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Ash god. *takes two with her tea and waits for her migrane to subside*
*Pouts and looks down*
@Adra: I don't, but I have hugs, and I hear they can be just as effective. *huggles*
@Saph: Good to hear! :) I don't return to school 'til September, so I have plenty of time to be lazy, replenish my little supply of social capabilities, and forget to do homework. :P (not enough time though. Will need more. :p)
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This is a song
With the same four chords I use most of the time
When I've got something on my mind
And I don't want to squander the moment
Trying to find a better way
To say what I want to say
People were mean to you
But I always thought you were cool
Clicking down the concrete hallways
In your spiked heels
Back in high school
It's good to be young, but let's not kid ourselves, it's better
To pass through those years and come out the other side
With our hearts still beating
Having faced down demons and come back breathing
People were mean to you
But I always thought you were cool
Clicking down the concrete hallways
In your spiked heels down in high school
You deserved better than you got
Someone's got to say it sometime, 'cause it's true
People should have told you you were awesome
Instead of taking advantage of you
I hope you love your life now
Just like I love mine
I hope those painful memories only flex their power over you
A little of the time
We held on to hope of better days coming
Better days, and when we did we were right
I hope the people who did you wrong
Have trouble sleeping at night
People were mean to you
But I always thought you were cool
Clicking down the concrete hallways\
In your spiked heels
Back in high school
You Were Cool, by the Mountain Goats (but the cover by Cristina Noujaim is the best!!)
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*steals hugs from Taia* They are MINE! *rules the world with an iron fist*
Lucky you Taia :) It's winter for me- southern hemisphere. Therefore, I only have a short holiday.
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*Smiles sadly* I remember that song... It still is amazing...
Nah, I'm sorry I offended you with my thunder/lightning thing... *hugs back* Are you feeling any better?
Adra, I think we all have emotional issues all the time. It's just that a lot of them are coming out tonight. :/
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*nods to Death* Yep. It's one of my favorite songs of all time. Funny, because I don't listen to much music in that style, but I really really love that song.
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*Squeals and runs around happily* I can do Outdoor Ed. 1 & 2 next year!!!!!!! *Squeals*
Unfortunately.
And tomorrow is Thursday- the day the demons come for us *breathes out* Fuck
I should go because... I need to not sleep in and get tomorrow rolling.
Thank you all *hugs*
Wbd, replying to stuff.
SORRY MARAAAA. D: [hugs]
Yeah, dance went really well, and lyrical-contemporary class is good for emotions.
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Congratulations, Death!
Sorry about your head, Adra.
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*hugs Fabi back*
Oh, the powers of my brain - they include not sleeping, apparently. :P
I go through bouts of, like, insomnia or something. I want to sleep, but my mind says different until like 6-7am. I feel okay, though, since I slept through most of this (yesterday) morning. And at least it means maybe I'll sleep better tomorrow. :)
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Bye Adra [hugs]
Congratulations, Death?
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Hope you enjoy that Death :D
Bye Adra! :( *tackleglomps*
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Adra, tomorrow I will be gone in blocks of 7/8am-2pm, then possibly 4/5pm-7:30 pm. Or 6pm-7:30pm. Either one. And then I can be on as late as necessary/possible. But I will be gone for all of those hours, so, sorry...
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Is that Irish time Ari?
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Hmmm... Maybe not every one then.
No, that's east coast American time, sorry... Same time zone as Adra for a while, but I don't know if she's still in it, what with her moving around so much.
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Hi again Adra!
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@Adra: *laughs* Take as many as you want - I'll always be willing to give 'em. :3
@Saph: Ah! I prefer winter to summer. until it starts raining properly and then I'm happy with either, really. :P
Do you have a longer holiday later/earlier in the year, then? :)
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Ari; Okay... *Goes away to work out the difference between NZ time and East Coast time*
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Saph, if it helps, it's 12:37am for me now
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@Death: Awesome! :)
@Adra: if you're going: Bye! *hugs*
And, thank //you//. :)
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Taia, our school year starts in February. We have December- Feb off :D I loved winter in the UK, but in New Zealand it's actually nice to be on the beach in summer XD
Ari, is it half past twelve on the east coast right now?
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(yes, I know that wasn't grammatically correct either, but I am tired. Deal with it. Or fix it if you want. I don't mind either way.)
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*Laughs as I see Ari's comment* Okay. I'm sixteen hours ahead of you.
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*points to above comment* Nailed it, Saph!
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I'll be gone 3pm to 5pm (approximately) eastern time.
[Yawns]
[Types]
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OH, WAIT, I ACTUALLY WON'T BE BACK ON TILL 10-11PM TOMORROW NIGHT. SORRY!!
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Okay. I'll check blogland as often as possible from when I wake up :)
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Saph, you're nineteen hours ahead of me!
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@Saph: Ah, that makes sense. Awesome. :)
*laughs* I struggle with the sun anyway - that's probably why :P. The past three weeks here have been torture. D: but now it's getting rainier again which is nice.
Oh, you lived in the UK, then? :)
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Needless to say I'll probably be asleep throughout. :P ^^
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Fabi; Wow :)
Ari; Awww, that sucks :( Nevermind.
Taia; Yeah, my family's moved around a lot. My brother was born in China, I was born in NZ, I went to kindergarten in Kuala Lumpur before moving to England, moving to London and finally moving back here XD
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Well, see you when you are here, then, I suppose.
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Wow, Saph.
That's a lot of going places. [hugs]
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@Saph: Oh, wow. Are you pretty much there to stay, now, then? :)
Msd, and sorry for the super-slow typing btw - iPod keyboard. :P
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Fabi; It sucked sometimes, but I got to see a lot of the world :) And when I moved to England, I met Alex, who by huge co-incidence was moving to NZ five months after I did, and just a few hours drive away from me :)
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Taia, yep. I'm staying here permanently :D
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Hey! Msd, bad internet connection.
Alex! *hugs* I thought you were away at your bach? Why haven't you been texting me back?
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NOOOOOOO WHY COMMENT! D:
Hello Alex!
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@Saph: Awesome! :)
For the trickiest of moving around, that's good to hear. But I guess, as you said, you get to see a lot. And, that's one awesome coincidence. :)
The furthest I've ever moved is only between England and Wales, and the shortest about 20-30 minutes' drive, but it's arguable whether that was a move or not, I guess.
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Yeah, I am away. That's why I have bad internet. And there's no cell phone coverage there.
I just saw the previous comments. I'm flattered that you can't stop talking about me :P
Hello, Alex! *waves* :)
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Taia; so are you in England at the moment?
Alex; *Shakes head sadly* You're a hopeless case :P
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Hi Taia and Fabi!
My god, Madame Mist looks so much scarier than I imagined her. Great work Tom Percival!
Hi Miss Sorrows! *tackleglomps* I know, she looks so awesome :)
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; *Pretends to look hurt*
@Saph: Wales. :)
Hello, Miss Sorrows!
*squints at the ceiling* Is that a moth, or a spider...?
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I think I've technically not moved at all. Except once when I was two or so, we moved out of a condo into a full size house we didn't have to rent. But it was ten minutes away from our old place, so...
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It's a spider! Possibly two! They're stalking me!
[Ignores the fact that you're not talking about my bedroom ceiling]
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*eyes the Unidentified Upside-down Creature*
It might be a Weeping Angel, seeing how it only moves when I look away. :P
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Taia; Lol :) I think it's a spider sent by Madam Mist :O
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GRR NOT AGAIN!
Trying to respond to the comments on the Shunting Experiment, but the page keeps reloading!
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Fabi, maybe she is talking about your bedroom ceiling... maybe Taia's stalking you o_O
(Just joking Taia) :)
@Fabi: *laughs* I think mine's a spider, too. But the type that goes outdoors, not in. :P
Perhaps Madame Mist delivered them... She seems to have plenty.
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Aww, that sucks Fabi :(
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Taia, it has to be Madam Mist! It's part of her evil masterplan to destroy all non-Roarhaven mages. We'll be next!! :O
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*Gulps* Anyone got spider repellant? ;)
Blah, my internet's spazzing out :(
How is everyone?
@Saph: Darn! You got to the Mist line before me. :P
@Alex: *laughs* Maybe I am..! *isn't* :P
@Fabi: Aw, that sucks. :( I guess one of those comments will be mine. If it's giving you trouble, feel free to glare/ throw something at it or whatever goes. :)
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Taia; I'm a psychic, remember? ;)
Wait... I forgot, I'm not a psychic anymore. I still haven't found that roleplayer to swap back :(
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[Laughs] Riiight. But I don't think anyone could see my bedroom ceiling without being in my range of vision. Unless they were invisible or in the closet.
Taia, are you invisible or in the closet? XD
[Shrugs] At any rate, of course you can join, the more the merrier!
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@Saph: *gasps* No!
Maybe the spiders are acting spies, then. :P
LOL, Alex. :P
*frowns*
It's on the blinds, now.
I'm going to forget it's on the blinds.
And then I'll open the blinds.
And the spider'll fall on me.
And I'll panic.
And probably fall over.
:P
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Fabi, I love your surname :P
It's okay, Taia. It's just a matter of remembering how I explained it. Basically, the deadlines are flexible, but assume they're not so you actually act like there's a deadline, but I won't kill you if something's late. Only I explained it better.
And I don't know when I'll need bios, but, um, a while?
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@Fabi: BOTH. ;)
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Taia; *Cracks up laughing*
*Sighs* I apologise for Alex. I made the mistake of feeding him, and now he just won't go away ;)
(Hey, Al, when do you get back from holiday?)
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Do you know it?
Because it's not currently in my display name.
Or were you referring to the subtitle? It is completely normal to have a subtitle. [Blinks]
Either way, thank you, I suppose.
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AAAAAAAAHHHHHH! [Runs to the closet with a cookie]
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@Alex: I'm good, thanks, if a little tired. :P
And yourself? :)
@Saph: Oh? I hope you get your psychic-ness back soon, then. ^^
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Saph, I get back sometime next week... I'm not entirely sure when...
And you never feed me. I'm always starving :)
Fabi, I was half-asleep and when I looked at your user name, for a second I thought your surname was 'Permanently msd, my internet is being stubborn today' XD That's why I commented. I was just joking :)
Taia, I'm good thanks :)
@Saph: *laughs* :P
@Fabi: Okay, awesome, thanks. :)
I'll take a look- I was about to say in the morning, then. It is the morning. - I'll take a look later. ^^
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Alex. I always feed you. You're just always hungry : J
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*leaps out of Fabi's closet, grabs the cookie and sits on the ceiling with the spiders, eating* :P
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Taia, how are you still awake? o_O
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Fabi? Where did you go? :(
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OMG I GOTS THE BOOK FROM DEREK
*passes out*
Be back in later Zaffy sleepy
@Saph: the mysterious case of "it's 6am. How is it brighter than daylight in here?" :P
@Zaf: HUZZAH! :3 Sleep well! :)
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That would be my subtitle. See, my surname is a secret and no one knows what it is, so I use subtitles instead, and sometimes I use said subtitles to convey information. It's very useful.
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Yay Zaf! See you [hugs]
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Holy cats. Maybe by the mysterious powers of "I'm actually really hungry", instead. :P ^^
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Hi/Bye Zaf!
I have to go now :( Might be back later. *tackleglomps* Byyyyyeee!
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*Reappears quickly* Watch the comment count :) *Disappears again*
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Okay, Saph, *hugs*
*laughs* Thanks. :P
Bye! *waves*
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Thanks, Saph, and bye [hugs]
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Finally got a comment in before it reloaded! :D
[Throws a piece of bread and cream cheese and an apple at the ceiling]
You said you were hungry, Taia?
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@Fabi: Yay! And, as for what the comment //says//, awesome, thanks. *nods* :)
*catches the food, laughing* Thanks. :3
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*Hums random tune and feeds ice cream to pot plant*
@Death: *laughs* Clearly, you know just how to please a pot-plant*. :P
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[Nods back]
[Laughs]
Death! [tacklehugs]
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*frowns*
Does anybody want ded rights?
I'm only happy to take them if nobody else is. ^^
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I could take them if you don't want them, but I have no ideas in mind for a ded, except one I can't do now.
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@Fabi: I just don't want to take the chance from someone if they particularly wanted to. ^^
Plus, my own ded idea can't be put into action yet, either. :P
Hm. I'll take it, then. :)
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I hereby dedicate this page to Harrison Ford based pseudonyms and space cats, because I warned you all a page or two ago that that would happen. :P
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Pointless ded is pointless. :P
(And incredibly heartfelt, no?)
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Woo! *Cheers ded* *Starts eating pot plant* Mmmm... Tastes like ice cream...
Hear hear! XD
My sister could be seen as a space cat, in a way. She's Martian. (No, really, if you ask her if she's a Martian, she will say yes) And she's also a cat. And a fish. And AWESOME.
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[Eyes Death's pot plant hungrily]
Brb, need to grab some cheese.
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Awesome!!! *Hands Fabi leaf* Taste!
-sits in tree, eating an apple-
:3
Thanks Death. :)
And, that is an //excellent// idea. :P
*laughs*
Awesome, Fabi! xD
:D
#ChaseForBook9
-looks across Blogland, laughing away at what mischief I could cause-
Hi, Dwyer!
'Kay, Fabi. :)
#ChaseForBook9
-drops apple, and watches it splat on the ground-
-pulls out knife and runs my fingers along the edge-
[Hesitates]
[Shrugs]
[Tastes leaf]
Hello Dwyer.
#ChaseForBook9
(Btw guys, I'm developing a new character for my next story/book. His first name is going to be Alex, but I'm not sure what his last name will be? Any help is appreciated. His personality is twisted, and evil. He's a murderous psychopath. If you're looking someone to relate him to, The Joker would be your best option. Any help is much appreciated)
Hi Dwyer!!!!!! *Leaps up tree and gives him hug* *Jumps down tree and throws apple splatter up at him*
back!!!
would have been here earlier, but i went shopping and got bananas!!
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