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I believe Alex has left. *looks around* And how the hell did that even happen?
I think he went to get breakfast tis morning in Aussieland
It's been about twenty minutes... Sorry, Alex- if you see this- I was speeching
Well we have each other. I can go back in character to Alexis if you want
Eh heh, eh heh. *cowers* Oh sweet Jesus...
Whats up? Why are you cowering? *is sittig near Alexis*
I have a feeling Ari may strangle one of us...I'M 11 DONT KILL ME
*shakes her head* No... It's nothing.
Darn it... Just... Darn it all... As if we all needed more reasons to cry... Mara...
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*hugs Ari* I would be crying too but I cant in front of my grandma
Adra speak
I still shouldn't even be here, but... Darn it...
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I did speak! I spoke until my throat hurt!
Hey Ari *smiles weakly* I wanna hug you but...I don't have many organs in me so moving is kinda hard
I tried my best Aretha... Sorry. I knew you'd be upset that you missed it. So... I tried to speak the best I could.
You gonna be back soonish if you need to leave Ari?
Alright. I can't be here right now, so I'm leaving again, but I'll be back in about a half hour, and I will not. Shut. Up.
#ChaseForBook9
You can vent Ari we all deserve to.
*shrugs, pulling out her phone, texting again*
*coughs and closes eyes* Momma...Nye...
-smiles, sitting in the tree, watching Adra text, remaining utterly silent-
-stares at Alexis, giggling at the pain she's in-
*quietly* Come on hang in there Alexis *picks up and takes Alexis to portal to the Sanctuary on the west coast* *after a quick summary the doctors work on Alexis immediately* *breaths* sweet Jesus.
*sends a message*
*looks at her phone* I really need to get Trip's number, come to think of it.
Actually, that is to say, he has one.
Hello, Adra.
-looks down at her from the tree-
*freezes, turning with her sword drawn* Alex.
*after a long few hours Alexis is fixed but is really weak* Oh god. Oh god. *smiles and brings her home to the treehouse*
*lays curled up happily hugging Coco bear* I want Niccolo...*closes eyes and ties to focus on happy*
Oh god..
I just had a "OMG LSODM COMES OUT IN LESS THAN 3 WEEKS OMYGOSH OMYGOSH OMYGOSH!!!! YAYAYAYAYAAAAYYYYYYY" moment...
*hugs Jubs* More like a thousand years
Why do you want Niccolo? He'll know soon enough. How about you sleep and you'll see him when you wake? *bruses her hair from her face* You know he'd tell you to rest and I'm sure he was proud to see you tried to fight back against Alex *kisses cheek* sleep Alexis
Sooooo far!!!
Yeah I know... *sighs*
I preordered it already
But since it's coming in from the UK, the latest estimated arrival date is September 11th and the earliest is September 6th
*Sighs again*
That would be my name.
-drops down, looking around to make sure we're in a secluded area-
Do you wish to join me? You would be granted a lot of money, power, and servants. Everything you could ever want would be at your fingertips. Merely take our mark upon your hand, and you will be accepted into our army. Of a high title, of course.
*yawns and falls asleep holding Coco bear close*
(Same here Jubi! Sept. 6 was earliest they said it would possibly arrive)
*frowns, narrowing her eyes* Um... *begins giggling* Oh dear. You don't have a crush on me, do you?
*glares at Alex* You nearly killed my daughter you bastard.
*Frowns* Why does Alexis have a Cocco bear.....??
A crush? On you? I'm hardly human, and I merely thought you had a high power of intellect and combat ability. If you wish not to join us, I'm afraid that I will have to kill you.
((HOPEFULLY it'll be like it was with TMS. Because that one actually came in 1-2 weeks before it was supposed to. AND IT WAS THE MOST BESTEST MOMENT OF MY LIIFFEEEE :D))
What- kill me?
*frowns* Hmmm... tell me what you did to me mind first
-ignores Adra completely, and walks up to Javier-
Hello, Mr. Kerias. I did, didn't I? Well, what are you going to do about it? I highly doubt you'll be able to do anything. Why not invite Niccolo over so we can have some fun?
(Niccolo got her a teddy bear when she was being watched by him so she named it Coco in honor of him. Also I hope the book arrives early for me too)
*my
*scowls*
Niccolo got her a teddy head? I thought Niccolo was a heartless monster. Is Niccolo the father?
Fyreheart. And so you wish to find out what I will do, Mr. Gauntlet? *focuses on* Welcome to your worst nightmare, (basically you are locked in your worst nightmare imaginable all 5 senses involved and when he intensifies it the closer you become to committing suicide to end the suffering.)
(No, he's a changed man to more of a gentleman and also he is her friend not father, good god Zaf may have a crush on Niccolo but she hasn't...had children....with him)
*rolls her eyes and walks away, pulling out her phone again*
-endures the nightmare, smiling as I do so-
Mr. Fyreheart, thank you. I'm enjoying this. I'm hardly a human being. I am a creature. A creature entirely hellbent on killing and torturing. My worst nightmare is a dream. Intensify it, I dare you.
*calls back* How poetic, Alex! Really, you ought to publish yourself!
*pulls back* No. I do not wish to kill but with you if it is a must then I am bound to by my own oath to kill anyone who hurts my daughters or wife.
Adra, should I remind you that I drank your blood? We are connected. Physically and mentally. How about I share this with you? -links nightmare to Adra, so she is now in her worst nightmare-
*shadow walks to Javier* So you want me to kill you Alex? I know a few tricks y'know.
*stops her eyes growling large* You wh-
*falls to the ground, screaming*
You know go on kill Adra what do I care? you just terriorize people
Well, I'd be walking right now. Very fast. Probably running. Very, very fast. There is a bomb underneath your daughters bed. I would want to remove it if I were you.
*focuses on Adra and pulls out* That should stop the nightmare
And there a sigils that automatically disable a bomb. Only the one who drew them can break them so failure sir.
Adra? *Runs over and kneels next to her*
-smiles- Fair enough, but what about that man running off with her? I think you should stop him.
*gasps for breath* *screams in rage at Alex, arms outstretched, going for his throat* You did WHAT???
-looks at Adra-
I drank. Your blood.
*collides with him, her eyes wild- animalistic* You are sick, Alex
Come Zaf it isn't our fight. He's stupid and I feel our daughters need us more then anything.
Yes Javier. *takes hand and lets him hold me*
*hugs Rose* I know she is too. And I tried my best. I really did. I just hope I got through to her... That she's safe with us.
WE tried Death we did. We can only do so much
*Hugs Death* I sent her an email
Not that it'll do anything, but..
*hugs close* Oh Zafira...*kisses head*
-raises an eyebrow- Daughter...s?
-smiles evilly-
Why cant Alex leave us all alone?
*glares at Zaf and Javier* And you two... *does her best not to begin a fight*
(No. No touching Olivia she's a few days old ok? She's off limits)
That's my question...
What do you have against them, Alex???
Don't you even fucking think about it, Alex. the other one is already screwed enough.
What do you want us to do?
Um, if you aren't going to help or think up of something to do, then take your romance somewhere else where you aren't making out in front of me
Javier i think we best give Adra a show *laughs* no we wont we'll just wait
If you want help we will help. Though you do not have access to Zafira's mind as I do so you do not know what she is thinking. I suggest you don't want to know either.
Perhaps Rose, you ought to read what I said above as well...
Zaf I want to hit you.
(omg irony!!!!! Thinking: oh Ari will be on soon, then a commercial for Connecticut comes on...)
Well hitting me wont help. Hit Alex.
-sits in a chair with Olivia in my arms, tears rolling down my face-
(It's part of the canon, I'm not going to kill or hurt her, but you can still get mad at me for being near her)
Good idea. *hits Alex, kneeing his stomach*
*goes up to the treehouse* Put. My. Daughter. Down.
*waits patiently in a corner unless teleporting doesn't work anymore when you're holding onto someone, in which case she is with Zaf but is otherwise in the treehouse*
*Closes eyes* I know it's our fault. It's mine... I... I... I can't stay here... This isn't some big fancy shmancy leaving message. This is a clean cut.
Bye. *Smiles slightly and vanishes*
*shadow walks up* Put Olivia down
-stops singing to Olivia, and places her gently in a crib, leaving a necklace in her hand-
Rose... *sight, hitting her head on a wall* Good grief...
*goes over and checks on Olivia* What....is.....that? (looks at necklace unsure* it isn't cursed is it?
oh dear god up in heaven not another one. *smacks head on wall*
Di- did Death just leave? Forever?
God I don't know anymore. I don't. People just...what...even...she'll be back. Give her time.
Rose- I... I want to help. But I don't know if you read what I said. You need to keep reading what I have said and what I have said to you in the past, and Aretha and Fabi and Mara and everyone who wants to help you.... And there is more, but if I say it, it will seem harsh so I shan't. But please rose, don't give in
There is a reason why I refuse to call you Death, you know. Because I don't think that you are dark and without hope. You are beautiful. Every rose has its thorns, but that is what makes it what it is, and like everything in existence- we must let it grow, and when it blooms it will be exquisite
-takes time of distraction to sneak up behind Javier and shove my blade into his shoulder, moving it back so I cut your arm off-
*cries out and hisses using other arm to send a knife right into Alex's heart* bastard. God. Damn. Bastard. (Alex I am about to log off the computer so I shall actually reply back from Zafira's account as this is Zafira controlling me as well)
*blinks* I don't think that was completely necessary, Alex.
*frowns, making a portal back to Corfu, where the sun begins to rise*
Rose, I know you're ghosting
(That's fine. :))
*picks up the vial* hmmm... I wonder how far this "connection" goes?
I...don't...know...
[hugs Death tightly]
[cries]
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Uh... Zaf? You gonna reply?
I have
*hugs Fabi*
And I have no idea when she will. She might be suddenly busy
Shit shit SHIT
DEATH DON'T YOU DARE LEAVE.
WE'VE ALREADY GONE THROUGH ENOUGH WITH EVERYONE ELSE LEAVING AND I WILL CHAIN YOU TO THIS TREE TO STOP YOU FROM LEAVING IF I HAVE TO.
SO JUST STOP. OK?
YOU'RE NOT LEAVING.
OR ELSE THE JUBIOSAURUS WILL EAT OUT YOUR TUMMY MUFFINS AND SPLEEN PIES.
OK?
YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.
SAME GOES FOR ANYONE ELSE WHO PLANS ON LEAVING ^
I haven't gotten the reply... :\ didn't show up.
Hear hear, Jubs
It was Javier calling you a bastard and stabbing you in the heart
Oh.
-smiles, kicking Javier in the shin and sweeping his legs, pulling out the knife-
I don't have a heart, Javier. There's nothing to stop me living. I'm already dead.
[hugs Adra back]
[Tiptoes off to work on something I need to email pretty much everyone]
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Javier: *gets up and kicks groin and uses other hand to send a few fingers into an eye* why attack me? Why!
*frowns* Mental links though. Everyone's got one nowadays.
Oh dear... Trip's going to freak out. Maybe.
*I just need to make a video*
Because I CAN. You can't kill what's already dead.
-keeps stabbing Javier continuously with my blade- Why won't you DIE?
Brb
[Raises an eyebrow]
I'm curious now.
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Javier: what do you want?
*storms from nowhere and smiles* I control undead, Alex. Necromancer if you hadn't noticed.
Curious?
My heart is a weapon of war
My voice is my weapon of choice
An eye for an eye
A heart for a heart
A soul for a soul
We fight for the dream
We fight to the death
We fight for control
There is no such thing as justice
All the best that we can hope for is revenge
A hostile takeover
An absolute rebellion to the end
This is our battlecry
I'm giving you a head start
You're going to need it
'Cause I fight like a girl
I'll get my revenge on the world
Or at least 49% of the people in it
And if I end up with blood on my hands
Well I know that you'll understand
'Cause I fight like a girl
We are under attack
What is the body count?
I've lost track
If nobody's mentioned how this will end, then I'll be the first
There are more of us than there are of you
So show me your worst
There is no such thing as justice
All the best that we can hope for is revenge
A hostile takeover
An absolute rebellion to the end
This is our battlecry
I'm giving you a head start
You're going to need it
'Cause I fight like a girl
I'll get my revenge on the world
Or at least 49% of the people in it
And if I end up with blood on my hands
Well I know that you'll understand
'Cause I fight like a girl
It's so easy to kill
This I learned by watching you
If I have to, I will
It's not pretty, but it's true
I am through lying still
Just a body to be beaten, ******, and if I'm lucky, left for dead
So who's scary now?
No mercy, it's a bit too late
The game is on
Don't run
Don't hide
Don't wait
'Cause if we've got no honor, then we've got no shame
If it's in self defense, then we will take no blame
This is our battlecry
Even if you're only a boy,
You can fight like a girl
I'll get my revenge on the world
Or at least 49% of the people in it
And if I end up with blood on my hands
Well I know that you'll understand
'Cause I fight like a girl
Be warned, this is me in my I-will-freaking-kill-you-all mode. I'm not sure if you guys have seen this before. Maybe once. If that. Maybe. I'll try to tone it down. No promises. In all seriousness, I will freaking kill whoever I have to- I will burn the whole freaking world- if that's what it takes to bring this place back. Believe me when I say I would do anything. We all have personas and powers that allow us to kill- I actually can. And it is surprisingly easy. There's a switch in your mind that you can flip, and you shut your emotions off. Nothing matters anymore. There's just adrenaline, and you don't think, you just react. Chase people down. Hit harder, and faster. Crush, kill, destroy. Retsef. That is my instinctual response when I feel myself or my friends threatened, and I don't know what else to do. Well, I don't know what else to do. One time this kid started talking to me, in school, and he said some sentence and ended it with 'and that's why I hate her'- he was talking about one of my friends- and my vision blurred. I kid you not. My vision blurred. Like when your view of something just above the barbecue is blurred by heat. That is now defensive I feel about you people. And I was not nearly as close to her as I am to all of you. So I don't know whether this is a threat, or a warning, or some sort of desperate plea, but here it is. And I intend to go on. I'll just keep typing all night long, because I can't reach you all with physical violence. These words are all I have. I might not have figured out yet, but my subconscious mind always has some sort of plan, and all of this has to mean something at the very least. So here.
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Javier: stabbing my arm gets you nowhere *moves away from picking up arm that was ripped off* and healing THAT is so gonna hurt
*blinks* I'm... Not sure... What you said...
But I think I like it?
Okay Ari....im slightly scared. Okay I AM scared
[Shrugs slightly]
[Hides behind the nearest piece of cover]
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MY SANITY CANNOT HANDLE MORE OF YOU LEAVING. I KNOW I CAN'T PHYSICALLY STOP YOU, BUT I WILL SNAP SOMEDAY. I WILL. I CAN DEAL WITH ALL THE HEARTBREAK AND THE PAIN AND I CAN DEAL WITH IT BEING MY FAULT AND I CAN EVEN DEAL WITH NOT BEING ABLE TO STOP IT- AND THAT'S SAYING SOMETHING, BECAUSE BEING HELPLESS LIKE THAT WHEN MY FRIENDS NEED ME DRIVES ME COMPLETELY INSANE. I CAN BE JUST FINE THROUGH ALL OF THAT. BUT I CANNOT DEAL WITH THE PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT SO MUCH JUST LEAVING FOREVER. I CAN'T DO IT.
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Ari. Please by all means, dont kill anyone. I knew this would happen
*nods* Solid. I hate it when people leave as well. Always will.
And you're really angry.
Hi
Yes, go ahead and be scared. You should probably all be scared. I might be scared if I was you. Well, actually, I wouldn't, because I'm me. And I'm not scared of me. I'd be trying to calm me down and do something actually productive. I should be calming down. But I don't think that's going to work. Normally, this is about the time where I say "I'm sorry, guys- give me a minute and I'll be fine" and then I leave for a while and listen to music or try to meditate or something and then come back and I'm calm. But lately, for me, calm means emotionally exhausted. And if I'm exhausted I won't have the words I need at my disposal. And I can't afford to not have these words. Even if they don't make sense, I need them. I can shape them into something. Just keep ranting, and when I'm done, read back through and string everything together and it'll make some form of sense. But I won't be calming down for a while, it seems. Oops.
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I'm gonna go now... Speech to write.
Bye...
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*hums, tossing the vial back and forth*
Good luck, Fabi.
Ari im at a loss i dont know what i should say because truthfully im freaked. I want to go hug you but i dont wanna die and you are freaking me out
Zaf, calm down. She just needs to vent.
I am not angry, Adra. This is not me angry. This is me breaking. Shattering into tiny little pieces. This is how it happens for me. This is me being sad and pathetic and desperate because I live to make other people happy. That is the purpose of my life- improve as many lives as possible. That's what I want to do. Making others happy makes me happy. That's it. I don't even have a self preservation thing. I just want everyone else to feel good, and I will. My friends love this song, and one of the lines is "Stay away from my friends, 'cause I need them, to carry me" and I've never liked that song because I always thought it was selfish. "Stay away from my friends because I need them". I would say something like "Stay away from my friends darn it because they are the most beautiful people on the entire planet, and they deserve every happiness the universe can possibly offer them, and I will happily skin anyone who tries to hurt them with my teeth." Ok, that was a bit violent. I might actually, though, if it wasn't horribly illegal and unreasonably cruel. What was my point? Darn it. My point. Right! Adra, this is not me angry. This is me frightened, breaking, and desperate. And therefore probably the most dangerous I will ever be. It's a good thing no one's trying to rob me right now.
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It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word
And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry
I'll come back when you call me
No need to say goodbye
Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war
Pick a star on the dark horizon and follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye
Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes
You'll come back when they call you
No need to say goodbye
You'll come back when they call you
No need to say goodbye
Regina Spektor.
This song has been speaking to me all day
Okay righ. Im gonna okay msd if iPod decides that wifi is too much to handle
Okay, Zaf.
Spiraling, Aretha. I get it- I really do.
Nope, Adra's right, Zaf. I need to vent. In third grade, when I hated writing even more than I hated Edison- which is almost impossible to beat- my english tutor taught me how to think on paper. And she kept teaching me how to do it better and better every summer since. And now I do it so naturally I think better on paper than I do in my head. I think faster on paper, too. I'm not planning these sentences out- they're just flowing. I have my fingers on the keyboard, and they're just pressing whichever keys they want to. I'm not working on word choice or even grammar (though that's kind of instinctive) or sentence structure or any of that. I'm just... Thinking. Just ranting. I'll make some sense of it sometime. I just need to stop myself from screaming, because I will- I've had screaming in my head for about 3 days straight once. It's not fun. I'm not even accomplishing anything right now, I'm just trying to stay sane at this point.
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*shakes her head* The downfall of mankind- our emotions. Which are annoyingly beautiful, but terrifyingly painful.
I just dont know howvto react to you Ari. Like, you seem like you meed a hug but at the same time that may lead to my death so...*sends air hug* if you wont kill me ill hug you
Places, everyone- this is a test
Throw your stones, do your damage
Your worst and your best
The whole world is a judge, but that doesn't compare
To what I do to myself when you're not there
And if I had a dollar for every time
I repented the sin, then commit the same crime
I'd be sitting on top of the world today
I'd be sitting on top of the world today
Don't make me choose
I've got too much to lose
Don't make me choose
I've got to much to lose
Don't make me choose
I've got too much to ******* lose
God Help Me, Emilie Autumn. Maybe I should calm down. I will not accomplish anything by keeping this up. Except maybe proving how much I need you people to stay sane. Ok, going now. Maybe.
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*points to her essay from earlier about rain pipes*
To avoid having rain explode and backfire, one must let it out of the drain
Even if emotions are our downfall, without them, there would be nothing to make fall in the first place. Even if they kill me someday, I'd never want to be without them. Ok, I'm leaving.
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True. And i'll stay until either of you go to bed. Then ill go
Back tonight or omorrow Ari?
*waves* You don't have to go, but if you do- I hope you find your inner self
So now what? Do we stay up or just go to bed and maybe calm down?
So now do we sleep or stay?
I hate you all...I really do.
It hurts so |>\^,*]'€{£{'oz much, why do you always make me want to stay?
I...
I wish...
Bye Ari... [hugs]
I'm really, really sorry.
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It's not worth it. Whatever started all of this, it's just not worth it. I surrender. Take anything you want from me. Take everything. Here is my heart. Here are my characters. Here are my comments. Anything. Everything. Tell me how to make this end, and I'll do it. Tell me everyone will be happy if I leave and never come back, and go back in time to live out the rest of my days in a victorian asylum, and I will. I'll stop roleplaying. I'll stop talking. I'll stop writing. I'll stop typing for two people. I'll say hi to everyone who comes here, all the time, and never do anything else. Be here whenever I can, and only say hi, so that I can be sure I'll never miss anyone. I just want everyone to be happy again.
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I'm staying, I don't know about you, Zafira.
Here is basically what I should be saying, but I don't believe:
Nature's first green is gold
Her hardest hue to hold
Her early leaf's a flower
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf,
So Eden sank to grief
So dawn goes down to day
Nothing gold can stay.
This poem really speaks to me- and when I read it after my parent's divorce it hit me really hard. And I soon began to realize what Frost meant. And it hurt to read. It is a sad legacy, one that ought not be true, but one that does help..
Ari stopping everything isnt the answer! I dont know what is but stopping everything will make it worse its like a few Aussies who left...long ago. If we keep lingering on bad this will never end people just dont know how to vent properly and then it makes more people upset. If you leave I will just be done.
My inner self is not missing. I don't have to find it. I need to calm it down. I am seriously panicking right now.
Bye, Fabi. *hugs* I don't know if you mean goodbye forever or not, but I will email you if I don't see you back here. I'm sorry, just a warning. I can't live life properly without all of you. ...Isn't that sad? I'm sorry. I'm sorry it hurts all of you so much to stay, and I'm sorry I'm trying so hard to make all of you not leave... It's just... Everyone was so happy here before, and I just want that back. I just want everyone to be happy. That's it.
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It is the roleplay.
but, likewise, it is also us. Every one of us. We're so nitpicky about ourselves and then the people around them that we end up so negative... And sometimes there might be a positive person and we squash out their light, because we don't have one= intentionally or not.
I would give up RPing for everyone to come back. But that would just make it bad for those of us who like RPing
Roleplaying is how I deal with home life. Becoming Zafira Kerias, the person who I created. Becoming her helps me. Becoming Alexis and Javier and Olivia it helps me. Drama, the arts, is what makes me who I am. It helps me keep sane.
I just sent an email...
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I know, Adra. I know the poem. I love Robert Frost. He's my favorite poet, actually. Pretty much everything he says speaks to me. But I will never, ever accept that people will just leave, or that happiness is always destined to end. I don't believe in destiny at all, actually. I never have.
I don't believe in fate, just the bottom line...
Yeah, that's a line from a song. Ok. Re-finding my point. It is my nature to want everyone else to be happy.
I'm sick of all of these sleepless nights. I just don't care who was wrong or right.
Why can't I just be ignored all the time? Why am I pretty much never ignored, anyway? What is it? I'm sorry, I don't mean to make anyone feel bad, just... If I could take everyone else's pain, I would. I'd much rather be the one who's left out or not acknowledged or misunderstood. I'd rather be the one with a huge pile of pain to deal with back at home in the real world, too. But I'm not. I just get stuck with a bunch of darn secondhand scars, and I can't do anything, and I hate myself for that... It's the only thing I've ever hated myself for...
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In our family portrait, we look pretty happy
Let's go back to that...
[hugs all]
I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know
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Way down, I've been way down
Underneath this skin
Waiting to hear my name aloud
I'm sorry
Nothing can hold me
I adore you still
But I hear them calling
And nothing can hold me
Darn it...
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*sighs* Happiness. *smiles* Happiness.
Lost in the darkness silence surrounds you
Once there was morning now endless night
If I could reach you I'd guide you and teach you
To walk from this darkness back into the light
I'll never desert you, I promise you this
Until the day that I die.
Lost in the Darkness- Jekyll anf Hyde
We're a group of heros, we Bloglandians. We're stubborn, but everyone loves a good hero. And when sacrifices are made, their worth has dropped because we're lost to it.
I wish I had your flame, Aretha- I really do. It's gorgeous. But my flame got stamped out before I knew what to do with it. I have changed so much I can hardly even react to it anymore. That is why I am almost indifferent to people leaving. I'm used to it.
I was trying to lend you guys some of my strength- rather- weakness.
[hugs Ari tightly]
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I may start going Jekyll and Hyde but...some songs hold hidden meanings
Don't we all, Zafira?
I lovevthe musical it helps me think
Much as you blame yourself you can't be blamed for the way that you feel... << hollah lyrics
You and I were friends from outer space
Afraid to let go
The only few who understood this place
And as far as we know
We were way before our time
As bold as we were blind
Just another perfect mistake
Another bridge to take
On the way of letting go,
This ain't goodbye
This is just where love goes
When words aren't warm enough to keep away the cold
This ain't goodbye
It's not where our story ends
But I know you can't be mine, not the way you've always been
As long as we've got time
Then this ain't goodbye
Oh no, this ain't goodbye
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And we got holes in our hearts
Yeah we got holes in our lives
*Smiles sadly and vanishes* *Base explodes in a ball of flame*
And then my iPod starts playing Thriller.
[facepalm]
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Well. I knew she was ghosting.
Am I a good man? Am I a mad man? It's such a fine line between a good man and a-
And A what? I dot know but Jekyll never gave up to stop Hyde. He was losig it and he went onwards he had the strength to carry on, "I have got to carry on!" As he sung. His wedding was coming and this monster was inside him but he went on to eradicate evil and he tried but he didnt give up. We cannot lose hope
Death! [hugs tightly and does NOT let go]
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Mine is playing "Let Me Love You"- Glee version... And it is on repeat. And it makes me sad.
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
*hugs everyone tightly*
Adra- I've heard that before... So many of the most amazing people I know tell me their fire was stamped out so early on. I've also been told that I'm sheltered, carefree to the point of childishness... That's part of the reason- only a very small part, mind you- why I wish I could just take everyone else's pain. I don't want to be sheltered. People want to know they're understood, and they want to hear it'll all get better from people who have been in their position, and I haven't. The best that I can offer is that I spent 4 years of my life trying like Hell to convince one single friend that I cared, and that she could trust me, and that I'd always be there for her and I wasn't leaving. She spent the entirety of that time pushing me away. Even now she sometimes tries to do that. Not as much, though- I think she got the idea. Just... I don't even know. I don't care. This is a story about me, and what matters is all of you. I just want everyone to be happy.
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Aretha Tesla *hugs* You make me happy so you are doing that.
DEATH THORN ROSE YOU COME BACK HERE RIGHT NOW. I AM NEVER, EVER LETTING YOU GO- EVEN IF I DIE I'M NEVER LETTING YOU GO- AND I'VE ALREADY SUCCESSFULLY INVADED YOUR DREAMS.
I will invade your dreams
I will not ask if it is right
I do not care
You must see me
Time is running out
No, cannot touch you,
But I will reach beyond dimension, beyond realm, beyond memory
To touch you in some small way
And tell you, beg you, to stop
Stop
And think
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PS OH AND ALSO YOU HAVE TO DEDICATE THE PAGE NOW. SO HA.
*sits back*
But I've decided the through the ded rights up in the air. *Smiles* And yeah Adra, I'm always ghosting.
Stars
There, out in the darkness
A fugitive running
Fallen from God
Fallen from grace
God be my witness
I never shall yield
Till we come face to face
Till we come face to face
He knows his way in the dark
Mine is the way of the Lord
And those who follow the path of the righteous
Shall have their reward
And if they fall
As Lucifer fell
The flames
The sword!
Stars
In your multitudes
Scarce to be counted
Filling the darkness
With order and light
You are the sentinels
Silent and sure
Keeping watch in the night
Keeping watch in the night
You know your place in the sky
You hold your course and your aim
And each in your season
Returns and returns
And is always the same
And if you fall as Lucifer fell
You fall in flames!
And so it must be
For so it is written
On the doorway to paradise
That those who falter and those who fall
Must pay the price!
Lord let me find him
That I may see him
Safe behind bars
I will never rest
Till then, this I swear
This I swear by the stars!
Look at Javert's detwrmination to go on. To go on to do what he thinks is right and just and to an extent it is but he never gave up.
Damn its almost 1am and im still up...wow
-keeps stabbing Javier continuously with my blade- Why won't you DIE?
Brb
I just hurt so much and I try not to pay attention but it just is really awful with all of this. It is making my ice crack hard it is taking everything I have to even still find positive things.
Listening to this song isn't helping.
Right. And now I'm crying. Fucking hell.
*waits* AND THE first year is left eye WELL THEN FUCK THIS
Alex. Not now
HELLO, I AM HERE!
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If we're going to admire determination, how about Tesla? I can count on one hand the amount of actual friends he had throughout his entire life, and his family never supported him, and Edison who he admired turned out to be a total jerk, and his lab got burned to the ground just before he could get the patent for radio (that lab was his life), and he spent every breath in his body on invention and never got any credit or wealth from it. Just straight up helping the world in his own way, despite the clear obstacles he faced since elementary school.
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Hey Duck.
This is the latest i been up on Blogland ever omg
Hello? (Sorry I said the same comment, it glitched out)
Actually. Alex, I wouldn't mind a distraction
Hello Duck
I know. That is determination.
Hello, Ari. Why don't you invite Coco over for some fun? -giggles-
Yeah that's nice
JAVIER: *ducks under* nice try bastard
HELLO ALEX!
HELLO ZAF!
HELLO ADRA!
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So. Alex. *taps his shoulder* Mind telling me what exactly the whole mental thing does?
-sends spiralling pulsing pain through your brain- it does that.
*glares* bastard
Alexis: *wakes up* Niccolo? *silence* too....early...*hugs Coco besr closer*
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